johann angelica.

mahilig ako sa tinapay. minsan, hilig ko rin ang pagsusulat.

[kushandwizdom]

If you find difficulty in being happy for others, you need to find more reasons to be happy for yourself.

Meggan Roxanne (via kushandwizdom)

[yo-honnie]

MNL

#CommuteLife #ManilaHits

[myunrequitedlovestory-deactivat]

if something isn’t meant to be, it’s not going to happen. we might as well be thankful for what we have, rather than wishing for something we don’t. you win some, you lose some. but life goes on.

[fremde-waren-freunde]

“Find your therapy. Whatever it is.”

—

[softheartedsuggestion]

tomorrow will be better and if it’s not I’ll say it again

[yo-honnie]

“Confront your dreams, even if it hurts.”

Today is really a bit exhausting for me. I spent most of the weekend sleeping. And I feel like those hours could have been spent on better things. But I felt so down and I am not so sure why. I checked on my period tracker and this coming week will be my ovulation week. I guess this is the reason why I am very much into my emotions. I’m trying not to... but I am. Well, I guess I just have to bear with it. Calm down, yo. You got this.

Before the night ends, I just want to share my thoughts on fulfilling your dreams even if the people around you aren’t very supportive about it.

To give a brief background, I really wanted to become a teacher. Apparently, as the typical “Asian mindset”, they told me that there’s no money in it. So lo and behold, I studied a different degree program. I may sound like I am complaining, but I just get the feeling that I wanted to do something that will sustain my heart and soul but... I am dependent with my parents so I can’t.  Anyway, fast forward to this day, I am now working in the government. I am happy, yes. But most of the days, I always feel the “what could have been”. I wanted to study law after graduation too. But my parents, I guess this is what it feels like to have a sibling who is still studying. I have to delay it again. And then, there’s this thing that makes me very sad. It’s the fact that they are very supportive in her artist dreams. I feel like crying whenever I think about it. It hurts but I am old now. I have to toughen myself. I have to be stronger and braver. I have to do what I have been wanting. I will confront my dreams even if it hurts. 

So, take note of this: Despite not getting the support that you may need or the validation of people, do it. Even if it would mean going against what they think is best for you, do it. You’ve got to decide and act upon it. This life is only a once in a lifetime opportunity and you’ve got to take that chance. Do it. Make your heart happy.

Okay, that was a bit of a drama. Anyway. 

Whenever my emotions are very much triggered on this, I’d remind myself on what my law professor told us during our class: “Confront your dreams... even if it hurts.”

[yo-honnie]

your nbsb tita

i’m currently looking for an alternative where i can release my emotions on so many things. and i have decided to utilize blogging. so yeah, i’m going to do this again.

i am not a very good writer but i will write anyway. 

it’s so nice to be committed on something that may help me survive. 

[thegoodvybe]

“You were better to the ones that were worse for you. And worse to the one that was better for you.”

— Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You

[understands]

[simonaborstnar]

My progress in drawing eyes from 2007 to 2014.

http://instagram.com/simonaborstnar

[yo-honnie]

I am currently re-reading Cecilia Ahern's 'Where Rainbows End', and I still feel all the emotions I felt the first time I read (and watched the movie) this. I am not sure as to why though, but may be it because this is one among my favorite books. I'd read this every damn year.

Today, though, I am reading it because I feel something weird lately.

For context: I had a good post valentines date with two of my college org. friends. That night was the first time I heard one of my friends, let's call him "Alex", "You are becoming pretty," It was, for the first time after being friends for almost four years, that he told me that I look good. I brushed it ofd because it felt so unsual. Anyway, as being close friends, we would usually hold our hands and I guess it's called "platonic" love. It was like just the same... but the thing was, we held our hands all throughout our walks. And I felt the butterflies in my stomach... just like what I felt when I had my crush on him. Oh dear, I want to punch myself for feeling that way. We used to do that because I still feel comfortable... I mean, I don't allow just anyone or anybody to hold my hand... but with this guy... (and my bisexual friend)... I'd allow it. Is this even normal? Am I being crazy?!

Anyway, I am reading this book because I need to slap myselft and inflict some pain in my system that we are clearly friends. Just friends. Ironically, the book gets a happy ending but I am not hoping to get one. Not with the friend that I treasure so much. He fits so much with the criteria I have but now that it's right in front of me, I feel so afraid and scared. Why do I fear something that I have been praying for? Is it because I feel like I don't deserve it anyway? I am not sure but I have to lie low on this. I have to remind myself that he's a good friend...and he will always be.

Regsrdless, I am thankful that I met a guy who fits into the criteria. I've been praying for to meet a guy like that even if doesn't really translate to something romantic. And now, he's there. I am thankful for him. But that's all that I can have. I am afraid to even risk it.

[yo-honnie]

in the process

I have always wanted to retrieve the kind of relationship that I've always had with You. I have always been with You. My journey has always been because of You.

I guess times are changing and so is my perspective...but Your faithfulness remained the same. I swear, I am trying. I've been wanting to do it but my body can't seem to push myself to do it. I have been desiring to return to You. I seek for the kind of love that never fades, that never leavws, that never forsakes, and the kind of love that will continuously be given regardless of the condition.

I am hoping that as I journey again with You, I hope I am becoming. I hope that everything will work out again. Just like how it used to be. I know you are waiting for me to cone back to You. And I am going there. I am in the process of returning to You.

I hope we'd journey this life together again, Jesus.

[lyjerria]

as you get older, you realize that you’re not always right and there’s so many things you could’ve handled better, so many situations where you could’ve been kinder and all you can really do is forgive yourself and let your mistakes make you a better person.

[grannyofficialdeleted-deactivat]

controversial but choose your friends and lover wisely! choose your circle rather than accepting and inviting everyone you stumble upon. be kind, but your emotions and considerations are precious, spend your life with those you enjoy being around and treasure you.

[illicitbehaviour]

you deserve to be loved without having to hide the parts of yourself that you think are unlovable.

[rohie-deactivated20191102]

when marilyn monroe said “i’ve never fooled anyone. i’ve let people fool themselves. they didn’t bother to find out who and what i was. instead they would invent a character for me. i wouldn’t argue with them. they were obviously loving somebody i wasn’t.”

[phosphorescentt-deactivated2015]

If I could offer a young person advice about anything it would be do NOT make life decisions based on your boyfriend or girlfriend. Girls especially. Do NOT stay close to home for him, do not skip opportunities to travel or study abroad, do not pick a safe college to be with him. Expand your horizons. Broaden your own life. He is not the world.

[phosphorescentt-deactivated2015]

I want everyone who disagrees with this post to come back to me in a couple years and tell me how that shit worked out.

[prolifeproliberty]

Note: if your relationship can’t survive a semester or a year apart, it’s probably not going to survive the rest of your life.

Also, if your SO can’t be supportive of your education/career goals, they’re probably not the right person for you.

[river-moon-goddess]