The light within the darkness
I have been so busy realizing my life has completely changed.
From quitting my dream job in the summer, to dragging myself out of bed with eyes heavier than an anchor dropping from a ship. I went from sinking deeper into the sea, to floating on my own raft, due to the successes I have made for myself.
No person will ever understand the amount of pain, the amount of darkness and the amount of self-hatred I have boiling in my veins day after day. But with the same anger; fuels a passion so hot, I could light my own path with the flames in my eyes.
I hate that I have allowed myself to feel pity for myself, to give myself all the excuses I have for the times I have passed up opportunities which would help me grow, help me nurture the soul that's yearning for change.
Finally, with opportunities running behind me, I have allowed myself to stop running away, and face them head on. I need to stop running away from my past and realize it was never chasing after me. I was caught up in the darkness, never realizing the light behind me, was the light I was meant to have. Not the light of the ghosts that haunt me.