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[nathaliarts]

Flower 

N°159 08-01-2020

Caneta Uni sobre papel Canson A4

Uni pen on Canson A4

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Daisies in front of St. Al’s

for @theamiableanachronism

[letterstomyhandsomesailor]

January 3, 2014

Dearest,

Wow! We have made it to 2014. That is almost 3 years of immense happiness you have given me! I can't believe that in only a few more months it will be that long. Time has flown so fast with being with you and it is hard to believe that soon you will be leaving for your next duty station. While I personally hope that you stay close to home, if you have to go far away I hope you don't forget about me. We talk everyday now and it would be a terrible thing to lose you due to the inconvenience of talking on opposite ends of the earth. I know it won't happen, but Honey sometimes it is a small tiny fear of mine because you and I both know that you don't like using technology to communicate. Some times your use of it is funny, but lately it has made me feel like you must really love me if you are willing to text and phone even when you hate doing it. I know you wish that I was up with you more often, but honey I have dreams too. Dreams that need to be recognized before I can be up with you too. Because if I didn't do this for myself I would come to resent you and the choice I had to make between you and my dream. It is hard being separated these last few years, but we are young and strong and we can do this. Heck, if some one in the 1940's could stick to it, so can we and we can talk everyday! I love you so much, I have no idea what I would do if I didn't have you right next to me supporting my decisions and being there when I am being a difficult person. I know it can't be easy. But you put up with this for me, because you know that this is what I want. I want you, but I also want to graduate college and though I know you don't put up a resistance, this is more of a letter to the others who have slightly disapproved my decisions to prolong our long distance relationship for the sake of my education. It sucks being so far away from you for so long and every good bye I have to say gets harder. I don't want to go nights sleeping alone and cold mornings drinking my tea alone at the table at 6am, but I know some day in the future you will be there in OUR bed at night and at 6am in the morning you will be rushing out the door to work while I sit at the kitchen table finishing a cup of tea that I started by sitting across from you. And that idea is what helps push me to finish my degree. Because then I might be rushing out the door too after you and when we get home, one of us can make dinner, or we can do it together, you making the meat and me the veggies. Because lets face it, that is my specialty and yours is cooking meat. Then we could go for walks or meet up with friends and go to a movie, or go out to dinner and come home tipsy and laughing to make love before going to bed. Sure kids will happen someday, but we don't need to jump into that right now. I just want to be able to enjoy being with you for a while. Especially since we have been apart for so long. The future is bright with possibilities. And I can't wait to paint it bright with you. When we went crabbing on the beach with your Uncle and your Grandparents, that was so much fun! I loved how you laughed at me for freaking out about the crab pincers and being scared of them cutting off my pinky finger, so your Uncle got me gloves. That was great, and just getting to drive with you and talk about random things, it was nice because we don't get time like that often; face to face time without millions of things to do.

I love you baby, and I can't wait to see you again.

Yours Forever,

Your Flower xoxoxo

[letterstomyhandsomesailor]

August 18, 2012

Dearest Handsomest Person On Earth,

I wish I could spend an infinite amount of lifetimes with you. I hope to, because forever is just not enough time to spend with someone who is as breath taking as yourself. I want to be held by you every second that we are together, though that just seems to make you lose sleep because I want you to even in my sleep. But that is only because my dreams are filled with you in some shape or form. No matter where I go I am wrapped in a cloak of you. I am cuddled in its warmth. Sometimes though it doesn't bring comfort but sadness and tears but I know that that will pass and it helps me get by until I can see you in the flesh again. I always wish for one more day with you, but for now I will live like the day I have is that one more day, because I want to fully embrace every moment with you. though most of it is not caught in a picture, it is captured in my mind, which is where it will stay for all eternity. Fire and floods can destroy a picture but nothing short of death will destroy my wonderful memories of you. And I hope that when the time comes, that you will be there with me; either leading me forward or wishing me back, because I will love you forever and ever and in doing so, you will always be apart of my present past and future. because you are all three. Just like you are apart of me, a friend and my love all in one. If I was broken in a million pieces by you every single piece from the biggest to the smallest would still be loving you in what ever way they could. You the best thing to ever happen to me and I am so glad I found you; or rather we found each other. I love you. I want you. I miss you.

Love,

Your Flower

 XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXXOXOXOXOXO

[letterstomyhandsomesailor]

August 14, 2012

Dear Handsome,

  I am so glad that today I was able to get that situation off my chest. I knew you would understand, but I was afraid nonetheless. So when I sent you that message I was extremely nervous that you would not say anything or that you would not understand, which was silly of me. I just really needed to finally get this situation off my chest because it has been bugging me for over a year. I have to say that now that you know that I don't feel comfortable with her around you because she has a major thing for you. I know you are friends but I never felt comfortable with her around you, so I am glad that you know now. I trust you just not her. I love you and miss you with every part of my body, never forget the feeling of me being next to you or the feeling of water falling on both of us, because soon it will happen again. I look forward to it.

Love,

Your Flower

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO