#youre probably wrong

[sadiepickles]

The only time I was ever 100% sure I was supposed to be with a man was when I was tripping balls delusional

[ishipitlikefedps]

what do you do

what do you do

when everything you think you know

comes crashing down around you

what do you do

when you are standing in the ruins

of the identity

you have built for yourself

do you pick up the pieces

do you tape it back together and pretend it’s all the same

or do you move on

and explain to everyone

you are not the same person

you have told them you are

do you expect them to believe you

do you expect them to trust you

what do you do if they don’t

what do you do

if everything changes

if nothing’s the same again

can you pretend it’s the same

or will the tape fall apart and the cracks shine through

what do you do

when everything changes

[virtuallyhere]

If I stay up until 2 in the morning thinking about you, you’re probably important to me.

[smileclar]

You could do so much better.

[sohee-anon]

I know I shouldn't be looking back, and when I did, I keep thinking I had reasons to justify what I've done. The people I've hurt; the people that hurt me. I don't think I can ever deal with pain or loss like some people, but I guess I've always believed that things will get better with time. Not the "time heals" thing, but that when time passes, you start to forget bits and pieces of things. You remember moments, you remember sentences, you remember feelings, but you can't put them into context anymore. It's funny, because I'm relying on the encouragement and wordsfrom people that left to cope with them leaving. I stopped tagging a lot of posts. I've been trying to kill those posts. The last time I actually had that tag was on September 9th last year. It really, really wasn't intentional. It just happened, like that was the last straw and I can't keep bringing up this person that only existed to me for less than two months. I keep trying to tone down the desperation in my tone with things like "huhuhu" or "hUL~" or just some stupid sarcastic comment so I won't seem so needy. " reasons why this account is still here   /i cant let people just forget " I'm still here because I can't let people forget, even though I'm pretending that I've forgotten. I'm getting better at hiding things, you know? I've gotten better because I know that the more you tell someone, the more reason they have to hurt you. Anyone can use my words against me. And honestly I wish that I had the heart to use everything you've said against you. But like what that quote says, "you don't give up on the people you love". It's so ironic because all the quotes revolve around this one person who was happiest at his saddest. To make others happy? A comforting thought? Gentle reminders from time to time, that there were people way before others who tried helping others even though they couldn't help themselves. They tried, I guess. They tried and they fought and they loved and they lost. Paradise lost but it has yet to be regained. Maybe one day I guess, things will right themselves.

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