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"If You Don't Get A Move On You're Going To Miss It!"

Monday 10th May 2021

Hello again folks! I'm back again with another post. I just want to recap on Thursday's and Friday's episode and applaud the phenomenal performance from Lorraine Stanley! Her portrayal of Karen Taylor has been absolutely stunning and powerful over the last few weeks during Bailey's disappearance and during the aftermath of her losing her job at the laundrette. I do also want to mention how the community and neighbours rallied round her to support their friend and neighbour in their time of need. I found completely touching and was overwhelmingly powerful.

But regarding this week, it's the week the majority of us have all been waiting for since Ben and Callum got engaged! This is the week of the highly anticipated Ballum wedding! Now the big question is, will Ben meet Callum at the alter after he's learnt the truth about him being a grass! (From what the new trailer is to go by, Ben does actually decide to marry Callum) - but oh my goodness, it looks like we're in for some super dramatic scenes this week! For those of you who haven't seen the trailer yet, where have you been? Gray is once manipulating Whitney in to believing that the Mitchell's (particularly Ben) are to blame for Kush's death.

But as Whitney’s grief gets the better of her, she takes it into her own hands to deal with the Mitchell's once and for all, taking a pair of keys, getting into a car and heading straight for them. As this is happening, Phil happens to have learnt the truth about Callum grassing up his family and is eager to have a confrontation with Callum himself, but as Kat tries her best to stop Phil from making a huge mistake - Phil, Callum, Ben and Kat all get caught in the headlights of Whitney's car - who will she hit? And will they be okay?! - I know a few are speculating that it could be Callum or Ben who gets hit, or even Whitney herself getting hurt, but honestly - my biggest fear is Phil getting hurt. Don't get me wrong I love all these characters to appear to be in the frame, but I would be immensely heartbroken if it was Phil to get hurt and possibly be killed off? Hopefully none of them will get killed off - but what are your predictions? I'd love to hear your thoughts on this one!

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So looking at Monday's episode and of course it's all about Ballum!!! But before we focus on the main event I'm going to mention Bailey. Sadly she is still sleeping rough after running away from home. The only company she has is her dog Banjo (who can I just say is the most adorable dog that EastEnders has had for a very long time!) It appears that the only bit of food she has available is a packet of biscuits and of course being a hungry puppo, Banjo longingly stares at Bailey for the biscuit she's about to eat. Bailey willingly gives Banjo the biscuit, but as she begins to gather her things together and move along, a bunch of youths rob her only bag of belongings. Being the hero, Banjo quickly chases after them as Bailey following along behind.

However, meanwhile on the Square as Keegan and Bernie continue to search for Bailey and begin to discuss their concerns about where they're going to find her. Bernie tries to keep positive, informing her brother that Bailey will be found and eventually their luck will change. Of course Keegan is doubtful, but of course we know that Bernadette has offered to be Stuart & Rainie's surrogate, so eventually she will come into some money for the family, but it'll be interesting once her family find out. I'm intrigued on how Keegan is going to react - considering that it was his wife who originally agreed to be their surrogate, now it's his sister!

As Bernie takes her leave, the next thing we see is little Banjo running towards the Square, however the poor little doggo is covered in blood. Keegan understandably relieved to see Banjo, but as soon as he sees the blood coming from the family pet, he begins to question where Bailey is. As Bailey continues her search for her beloved dog, she stumbles across an elderly man named Reg claiming to be a friend of her parents, Mitch and Dinah. Could Bailey perhaps be in danger or is this gentleman genuinely who he says he is?!

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Elsewhere on the Square, Linda appears to be concerned for Nancy's whereabouts. She reveals that Nancy didn't come the previous evening, even though Mick seems more calmer about the situation, he tries to reassure Linda that Nancy had probably just stayed at a friend's house and would most likely be home by lunchtime, however unbeknown to them, poor Nancy had actually kipped in the gym overnight. It seems that things have gotten that bad between Nancy and her Mum, she could no longer bare to stay in the Vic overnight. As Sharon finds her as she opens up the gym, Nancy promises it's not going to be a long-term thing.

I guess Sharon kind of sympathises with Nancy as she too has felt the raff of Linda, but of course Sharon could be possibly using Nancy to get back into Linda's good books? She offers Nancy to use her shower back at her place and willingly gives her the keys to her apartment. Unfortunately, this is where Nancy once again passes ways with Zack and his awful flirtation. Sorry, but it is a bit cringe-worthy! Zack smooth talks his way with Nancy, claiming that once she's done in the shower he'll treat her to some breakfast!

I have to say I love Nancy's lack of enthusiasm, well I guess you could call it sarcasm also! Honestly though, how would you feel if Zack and Nancy were to become a new couple? I'm not sure how I'd feel about it, as much as I love Nancy, I haven't really made my mind up yet on Zack, I think we need to see a bit of him before I can make a decision. Anyway, they both end up in Ruby's club and Zack is once again flirtatious and eager to get a second date with Nancy, even though she even states that this is anything but a date! As she mentions how she's currently stuck in a ruckus with her Mum, she frets about not even being able to brush her teeth properly as she hasn't got a tooth brush, plus she wants to avoid going home to fetch her one and be confronted by her Mum yet again.

I think in an attempt to win Nancy round he promises that somehow, someway he will make all her problems disappear, but she scoffs at his claim and heads towards to the bar to grab some snacks. But while she's not looking Zack sneaks off and eventually finds himself in the Vic, nosing through all the Carter's belongings, is he simply just trying to find Nancy's toothbrush for her, or perhaps something else? Unfortunately his search doesn't last very long as he's walloped over the head with a frying pan by Linda! Almost like a scene from the Disney movie Tangled!

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Right focusing on the main story at hand, as Callum and Stuart prepare themselves for the wedding, Callum voices his concern as to whether Ben will truly show up to their wedding. Stuart also voices his concern as to whether his brother should actually go, he can't bare to picture his young brother being left stood up at the alter. But the interesting thing is on the other side of the Square, as Kathy and Phil are discussing the wedding and the fact that Ben would be making a huge mistake if he didn't turn up, Ben is sat on the stairs in the hallway listening to their every word.

Kathy is all dressed up in her wonderful wedding outfit and of course little Lexi looks beautiful in her bridesmaid dress, rehearsing her steps for the wedding ceremony. Phil informs Kathy that Ben is adamant that the wedding is off, but Kathy urges the Father of their son to talk Ben round and make him see sense! Eventually as everyone gathers in the Vic waiting for Ben to show his face, Phil appears all dressed up his suit and breaks the news that Ben has gone missing, he's simply left his suit on his bed and disappeared, much to the family's shock.

While all this chaos appears to be happening in the middle of the Square, poor Callum and Stuart have made it to the register's office and are waiting anxiously for Ben's arrival! As they hear someone bursting through the doors, they look with hope and desperation, but it appears to be Jay. But as much as Callum is happy to see him, Jay gives him the devastating news that Ben has gone AWOL and no one can find him anywhere. Eager to make sure that his brother marries the man he loves, Stuart takes it upon himself to go back to the Square and find Ben and bring him to Callum.

Although it appears that Phil has managed to find Ben before he can. Phil eventually finds his son in the Arches working away on a car, almost as if he's trying to avoid the day itself and carry on as normal. Phil tries once again to reassure his son that marrying Callum would be the best thing he's ever done, even admitting that it took him a long time to come round - this moment really touched me - but also claiming that if Ben was to marry Callum today, it would Phil the proudest he has ever been of his son. I have to say those words really moved me, and to be honest I think it moved Ben - almost to the point where it nearly broke him and he almost revealed what Callum had done.

Ben gets so overcome with emotion, tears are slowly falling from his eyes. He almost breaks as he informs his Dad that Callum had betrayed him, all of them! Phil looks to his son with confusion in his eyes. What does he mean, all of them? But Ben stops in his tracks and makes up the excuse that Callum actually cheated on him. Although it seems as though Phil doesn't believe this explanation, he takes it on the chin and leaves Ben to it. However, once he's back on the Square he comes face-to-face with Stuart ... now this is where everything goes completely wrong! Of course Stuart has no idea what's been happening on the Square, he's just concerned about his little brother waiting at the alter for the man he loves.

As they cross paths, Stuart pleads Phil to inform her where Ben has got to, but Phil seems eager to defend his son after the explanation he's been given, as soon as Phil mentions that he welcomed Callum into the family, Stuart completely gets the wrong end of the stick and reveals everything. Claiming that Callum never wanted to go undercover, claiming that all he did it for was for Ben, putting his career on the line for Ben, even if it meant going behind Phil's back and reporting everything to the police. But you can see from the look in Phil's face that this is all news to him and this is the first he's hearing about Callum's betrayal. Once Stuart realises his mistake he warns that if Phil ever lays a finger on Callum he will come back and kill him!

Returning to the Arches, Ben is once again alone with his thoughts, is he questioning himself whether he should marry Callum? But it seems like another visit from a little lady changes his mind. Lexi finds him in the Arches and comments that it's the same place she finds him every time when Ben decides to take some time on his own. Now this moment I absolutely loved, Lexi questions her Father about love, What does it mean? What's it all about? She claims that she doesn't believe in love, considering that her Mum has had 3 different boyfriends since she's been home and her Grandparents have been married "300 times!". Her exaggerations make Ben giggle, but he tries to reassure his daughter that she should believe in love, because it's the one thing in life that you can't describe the feeling of. It can hurt but it's also wonderful too to be in love. He claims that being with that one person who trusts you and believes in you is the best feeling in the world and with them by your side, you face the world together, forever. As he explains all this to his daughter, she then asks the very important question, "Then why aren't you marrying Callum?"

Listening to his own words and realising that it's been his daughter who's made him see sense, Ben rushes to the wedding reception. As the guests almost sit themselves up and get ready to leave as they believe Ben isn't showing up, Stuart arrives back at the wedding reception eager to inform his brother about what's happened on the Square between him and Phil. But before Stuart can begin to explain himself, both Lexi and Ben burst through the door just in time for the ceremony, to Callum's absolute happiness and relief.  

Only unbeknown to them, back at home, Phil is seen listening to a voice message from Kathy, informing him that the wedding appears to be back on. Ben has arrived at the wedding reception and she urges him to get there before he misses his son getting married. As the voice message ends, Phil notices a picture of Callum on the shelf, all dressed up smartly in his police uniform. Reeling from the news he's learnt from Stuart, he smashes Callum's picture to pieces. What is Phil going to do now?

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I know there's been a major event happen in this evening's episode of EastEnders, but unfortunately I am one episode behind, so I will review tonight's episode tomorrow instead. I know what's happened but I'm not to comment until tomorrow. Either way, I'm looking forward to witnessing what happens next. Thank you again for reading, I hope you've all enjoyed my post! I'll be back again tomorrow with everything regarding the Ballum wedding and much more! Enjoy the rest of your evening folks! Love you all xXx

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"He's My Brother?!"

Tuesday 16th March 2021

Part One

Hello again everyone, hope you're all doing well! I wanted to share some personal news with you, I received my first Covid-19 vaccine yesterday, we're slowly on the path on getting things back to some form of normality! Who knows, maybe soon EastEnders might be able to go back to its original 30 minutes, even though I'm enjoying it and don't care how long the episodes are, it'll just feel normal, right? Anyway, I've seen a few spoilers regarding these two episodes, I'm really intrigued to write about these episodes. Tuesday aired two episodes of EastEnders so I'll be doing two posts to review each one.

Monday's episode ended on such a cliff-hanger, it's only right that I start this blog with mentioning Lucas and Chelsea first. The episode opened right there Monday left off, Chelsea and Lucas are at the airport preparing to go to Ibiza with suitcases full of drugs. Chelsea's suitcase is currently being checked, she's stood in absolute panic about what the security guard is going to find. Only when he reveals a bottle being over the correct amount she's allowed to take, I got really confused! I was completely and utterly convinced that Lucas had given Chelsea the drugs as a way of teaching her a lesson, and not in a bad way but in a cruel-to-be-kind kind of way. But as soon as Lucas begins to walk through with his suitcase, Chelsea hears commotion from behind and Lucas is surrounded by armed guards. The interesting thing is, Lucas doesn't hesitate, calmly and willingly, he drops the suitcase, opens it up to reveal the amount of drugs stored inside it, Chelsea watches on in dismay as her Father basically gives up on the whole job. Lucas looked over at his daughter, but the look on his face, I couldn't quite tell what he was doing? Was he doing this to save his daughter?

Frantically, Chelsea later arrives home, informing her Mum that Lucas has been arrested and he plain and simply gave up the drugs as if he'd planned it. Denise is visibly shook to hear but she's more relieved to know that Chelsea is safe and no harm has come to her, as far as she's concerned, Lucas can look after himself, whereas Chelsea needs her family around her. However, Chelsea seems to think that Lucas has given up the job on purpose, and now because the job hasn't gone through, Chelsea and the rest of the family could be in danger.

Returning to the airport, Lucas has been taken to side room, there he is begging the officer to allow him one phone call. At first the officer seems to think he's part of a drug gang and is wanting a call to let his comrades know about his arrest, however when Lucas mentions that it's to do with his family and that they could be in danger, it looks as if the police officer suspects he could be telling the truth and allows the phone call. As Denise and Chelsea are at home, Jack is there trying to keep them calm and discuss what actions could be taken due to Lucas's arrest, but of course his main concern is to keep Denise and Chelsea safe, if Caleb finds out the job hasn't been done, he knows that the Fox family could be in huge danger, he instructs them to not go on their phones and don't answer any calls or answer the door to anyone but himself. It's then that he receives a phone call from Lucas, pleading to for his help. What on Earth could Lucas be asking of Jack? Will Lucas be okay? (Of course some of you may have already seen the second episode, but as I haven't, I'm going to be speculating, please no spoilers, thank you!)

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The next thing I want to mention is Bailey and Bernadette. The sisters are still deeply saddened by Bronson's passing, but as they sit in the park with Mitch, they continue to discuss Bronson's personality and his favourite foods. Always the best way to remember a happy doggo! Unfortunately, as the family reminisce about their beloved pup, Mitch has devastating when he hears a job opportunity had fell through, which he was hoping would keep him going until the winter. Are the Taylor family falling on hard times? Are they really struggling for money so much right now?

Bailey however tries to reassure her Dad, informing him that he has to keep positive as something will come up eventually, but she also drops the bombshell that he wouldn't have to pray for Astronomy Camp for her as she didn't win her competition, both Bernie and Mitch voice their disappointment for Bailey as she begins to feel sorry for herself.  But suddenly a little surprise makes the young girl begin to smile, a little dog approaches her as she holds food in her hand, it appears to not be wearing a collar and no one is around to claim the dog, must be a stray. Happily Bailey interacts with dog and smiles to her Dad that it's a sign from Bronson.

Seeing the little pup bring a smile back onto his daughter's face, he later approaches Karen about the possibility of keeping the new found dog. I also just want to mention how adorable the new dog is, I know not many dog last for long on the Square, but it would be nice for them to fill the void of Bronson. I don't think EastEnders have ever had a better dog since Wellard. They need a pet who's going to become memorable, and with one as adorable as this new pup, it could really work. Karen unfortunately is against the idea of getting a new dog, mainly because they can't afford it. But something tells me that maybe she's just not ready to get over Bronson, maybe? I feel if you've been able to afford a dog before, there's no reason why you can't get another one after? Right?! Mitch really wants to cheer his daughter up, I'm hoping Mitch will go and find the new dog, adopt him and bring him in to their family.

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The next thing I have to mention is Ash and Suki, after finding her daughter at home alone with Peter, Suki takes it upon herself to confront Ash about the fact that she's been suspended from work, of course she has no idea why, but we all know it's because of Peter begging her to give him pain medication whilst off duty. As the ladies begin to argue, Ash tries to reassure her Mum that everything will be fine when she attends the hearing, she'll be able to explain and she'll get her job back. But Suki begins to fret, considering how much she cares for her family, and more so their reputation, I reckon?

Peter takes it upon himself to interrupt, informing Suki that Ash wouldn't have been suspended if it wasn't for him, this makes Suki realise that it's all Peter's fault, but the devastating blow is that her daughter could potentially lose her job because of a boy! Later on, as things begin to cool off, Suki is alone at the family business as Ash visits her, without Peter in tow. She begs her Mum to not worry and let things slide as she and Peter have a plan of way of getting her job back, but Suki seems to really struggle as the realisation sinks in, she voices that the reason she's so upset is that was she so proud of her daughter for getting so far with her career, for the job role she took on in life, how she has become successful in life, and now she fears that because of Peter, everything could be taken away from her! For me, I found it interesting to see this side of Suki, we know she loves the idea of power and success, but to actually hear that she's proud of one of her children, seems that maybe she really just wants the best for her family.

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Okay, now the main event! After hearing the news that Gavin has passed away, Kathy and Sharon are discussing whether to attend the memorial. Of course, Sharon isn't interested in sharing memories of her biological Father, needless to say she doesn't have any fond memories of him, Gavin did have a bad reputation after all. Kathy however, considering as she was married to him once - I'm assuming, we know for sure she loved him and/or dated him, is considering going, whether Sharon joins her or not. As far as Sharon is concerned he can "Rot in hell!"

However, after a few wise words from Callum about Dad's in general, regardless whether they were pigs or not, it's always best to be the bigger person, Sharon then decides to tag along with Kathy and attend the memorial. As the arrive Kathy realises that she recognises a few faces, where of course Sharon knows nobody. Sally, Gavin's sister approaches them and thanks Kathy for coming, regardless of the awful things Gavin did, she makes the valid point that she did love him once.

As they look around the room, there is one bloke in particular who seems to be downing a lot more alcohol than others, he seems to be banging to people and knocking into the bar, eventually this man decides to make a speech, but it's not one of the speeches you'd expect. But however, to Sharon's interest, he seems to be saying things which she would actually agree with. Gavin was the scum of all scumbags. This speech however doesn't sit well with other family members and the young man dashes over chairs and tables to escape the angry mob!

As Kathy and Sharon make their exit, they watch as everyone gathers in the parking lot. However Sharon seems to have somehow managed to get her hands on Gavin's urn, without a second thought she simply dumps it into a litter bin, much to Kathy's shock. Looking for the drunken, suspicious man who rudely corrupted the memorial, both Kathy and Sharon seem to notice that their car has been left un-open. Realising that the young man could be hiding in their car, they make a subtle entrance and sit in the front seats. This scene looked like something out of a comedy, the young man appears between them in the backseat, shushing them not to give away his hiding place. Unfortunately, for the young man, the angry mob begin taking their anger out on his sports car - I did find this pretty comical as Kathy and Sharon both describing the damage being made to his car as he hides on the backseat. After the angry mob seem to finish off the last of their damage and head back into the building, Kathy asks the young man his connection with Gavin, how did he know him? Why was he at the memorial? Were they business partners or something?

But then as he walks away, he drops the big bombshell, introducing himself as Zack and that Gavin was in fact his Dad! As he walks away to his damaged car, both Kathy and Sharon look at each other in their shock as they come to realise Sharon has a brother she never knew existed!

Now I just want to say, most of us recall what happened when Sharon found out about another long-lost brother, however, I have to make the valid point that Dennis was in fact an adoptive brother. Den Watts was her adoptive father, so technically Sharon and Dennis were never really blood related, which I guess is why their romance can be looked to one side, however, Zack would be Sharon's Half-Brother! People might think history will be repeating itself if Zack was to become Sharon's new love interest, but I'd hope that EastEnders wouldn't go down the route of incest. It would be interesting though to see how Sharon will come to terms with knowing about her secret brother, will she want to build a relationship with him? Will he want to know her? Could they bond knowing that they've both had such a horrid man for a Father? Who knows?

I'm really looking forward to seeing the second episode following this one, I will be posting about it tomorrow, but in the mean time please no spoilers for me. I'll look forward to blogging about it tomorrow! Thank you again for reading! Love you all xXx  

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"I Love You, Dad!"

Thursday 18th March 2021

Hello again everyone! Hope you've all had a fantastic weekend! I apologise for this post being up late, I've had a busy few days and this has been my only chance to catch up on Thursday's episode. So the last episode ended up with Lucas in prison, Caleb getting caught by police and having his men attack Lucas in his prison cell. I'm eager to see what's going to happen next! I just want to thank you for being incredibly patient with me also, I'd like to thank you all for your on-going support, it really means the world!

But now, focusing on the episode at hand, it seems to be the day of a few things, the day of Ash finding out if she still has a career and also the day of Sharon's leaving party at the Vic. I think I'll focus on Sharon and Kim. The first thing I need to mention is how brilliant Kim is during this whole section of the episode, wanting to hold an extravagant leaving party for Sharon, going all out with the decorations and fancy flyer to promote the event. I love how she was complete acting as the host, mentioning how she'll be the first one on the karaoke singing along to "Shout Out To My Ex" by Little Mix - may I add completely singing the wrong lyrics, and also sound-checking the mike! I just completely loved it all, I thought it was brilliant, she is a such a breath of fresh air and the comedy factor of the soap that we just need every now and again! I love her!

Even though Kim is excited to pull off an extravagant party, Sharon has her minds on other things. Even when Kathy pays her visit asking whether she's given her new-found brother, Zack, a call yet, Sharon admit she still hasn't. Is it something that she's really considering though? Will she take Kathy's advice and reach out to him? Later on, it seems as if the party has been a bit of a flop as Kim realises that no one has arrived for Sharon's celebration, unfortunately it's only when Kim is notified about her flyer holding the wrong date she realises her mistake. Poor Sharon however is sat upstairs on her own, it looks as if that she has deep thoughts on her mind, I'm guessing that all she's been thinking about is Zack and realising that she has another brother out there. Her silence is interrupted when Kim finds her and admits the mistake she's made of putting the wrong date on the flyer, however the funny thing is, Sharon admits that she noticed ages ago but never said anything. As they both tend to relax and laugh off the mistake, it's this scene which surprises me - a discussion that Kim and Sharon don't seem to have had before. Sharon seems down that all she seems to live for now is Albie, but Kim mentions that she is a strong woman who has her health and a healthy little boy, in the hindsight of things, she has everything and she is more better off than she actually realises. Realising that Kim is right, she chucks Zack's number to one side - maybe the last thing she needs is another man in her life? But who knows, will she take the plunge into approaching Zack?

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The second thing I have to mention is the happiness that this new little pup has brought to Bailey and Bernie, even though Karen is still adamant that the family are not ready to take on another dog, complaining that the new pup, which they've named, Banjo, has taken a liking to her slippers. The only thing on Mitch's mind though is how happy the dog has made Bailey, plus he gives a very valid point to Karen - they are not the kind of family who will turn anyone away if they haven't got a home to go to.

As Mitch goes off to collect some dog food for the new family member, and after a funny and yet slightly awkward conversation with Lola, he happens to notice a poster in the Minute Mart advertising about a missing dog. Unfortunately, the dog that's mentioned as missing happens to be the dog that Bailey has grown attached to. It looks as if Mitch now has to make a devastating decision. Eventually he meets the rest of the family back home and surprisingly Karen has had a change of heart. She recalls how much Bailey has lost, someone at such a young age has lost her Mum and her sister and her pet dog, she's had too much loss and needs something to make her happy, and if it just so happens to be Banjo, than Karen is allowing him to stay. Mitch seems a little surprised by her change of heart, it looked as if he was about to admit to Karen what he had found. But as Karen walks away to see to Bailey and the pup, Mitch decides to crumple up the poster of the missing dog.

The only thing that crosses my mind now is, will the poster be found? My prediction is that Bailey will be one who finds the poster and being the kind little girl that she is, she'll want to do the decent thing and find the rightful owners of the dog. Deep down I am hoping that the Taylor family will keep it, but I do fear that this little fluff ball will only be here for a small amount of time.

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So as well as this episode being the day of Sharon's leaving do, it's also the day of Ash's hearing result, it's today she'll find out whether her job is safe or not. After everything that's happened she appears to voicing her concerns to her brother about after one stupid mistake her career as a doctor could be completely over! The interesting thing is as she and her brother are having this conversation, Suki appears to be listening in, taking in every word her daughter is saying. Ash is even adamant that even if she does lose her job, she really doesn't want to be take part in the family business. Knowing that his sister's career could be at stake, Kheerat wishes his sister luck as they all go their separate ways.

Suki makes a type of funny comment to her daughter, that she put her faith and trust in a Beale, so she needs to hope and pray that things go her way regarding her job now. As she leaves her daughter alone and makes her way onto the Square, Suki is once again confronted by Peter. It's here that they have another row/disagreement regarding Ash. Suki isn't one bit impressed by the way Peter cost her daughter her job, regardless if he's apologetic or not. She seems to think that he's nothing but trouble, it's then that Peter lashes out claiming that she has actually done nothing for her children and it's no wonder that she's so hated by her own kids.

Now this claim seems to really hit Suki where it hurts. I don't know about you guys but I saw a big change in Suki in this episode. It looks as if Peter's words play on her mind, so she decides to take it upon herself and visit the hospital. At first I was a bit concerned as to what she was doing, what was she up to? Was she really going to put her daughter's job at more risk? Later, everyone gathers in the Vic waiting to hear news of Ash's job. Poor Ash has been waiting all day for the very important phone call. Kheerat, Suki and Peter are all there to support her in her time of need. As Ash's phone begins to ring she answers the call privately as they all watch her walk away, eventually she comes away looking completely lost, but of course it was all a big show as she jumps up and down excitedly claiming that her job is safe and there's no reason for them to carry on the investigation.

As the excitement kicks in, Peter rushes to the bar to buy drinks to celebrate - only this seems to give Kheerat and Suki the impression that they simply don't care about making their same mistakes. Kheerat even mentions that his sister isn't even grateful about being able to keep her job. To their point of view, they're rushing into getting drunk again and making the same mistake which got her into the mess to begin with. Suki decides to act fast and informs her daughter to stop socialising with Peter and focus on her career. It's then that we learn the full extent as to why Suki went to the hospital, it turns out that she actually confronted Ash's boss and pretty much blackmailed her into giving Ash her job back. Hearing this news, Ash is completely disgusted in her Mother for her actions, and this is where things get really nasty. Ash claims that Suki's life revolves around blackmail and deceit, as long as things go her way she doesn't care about who she hurts in the process. She claims her Mum think's she's something special, but in actual fact she's a nobody and always will be.

This is the turning point for Suki I believe, hearing her daughter say these words without an ounce of sympathy or guilt absolutely breaks her. Ash she leaves her daughter to drink with Peter, she reassures Kheerat that it'll more than that to get under her skin. But as she leaves the Vic alone, she softly begins to cry. If I'm not mistaken - this is the first time we've actually seen Suki cry! I'm beginning to think that the whole reason Suki went to the hospital, was to initially help her daughter, in her mind she was helping her daughter get her career back on track. This wall that Suki has been holding up against herself for such a long time has now been completely broken down by her own daughter.

The interesting thing is EastEnders have announced that there is going to be devastating storyline ahead for Suki, revealing that they're going to take a look at her past. Did something happen in her childhood maybe or in her young adult life that made her who she is today? Did she experience some kind of trauma or was she abused in some way? Something has happened to her which has made her change her outlook on life, as if like she'll get nowhere in life if she's not going to be strong and in some ways, manipulative and nasty? Who knows? It's true that Suki has been a bit of nasty piece of work since she arrived on the Square, but with the news of her past being revealed, it's making me think that maybe there'll be a reason as to why she is this way, and I for one, can't wait to find out what that is! 

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The final thing I have to mention is Lucas, Chelsea and Denise. After Jack's proposal, the Fox family are completely excited about the news of Denise and Jack's engagement. Sheree is even beginning to show Denise ideas for wedding dresses, as much as Denise appreciates her trying to help, she insists that the wedding she wants is going to be elegant and grown-up! As everyone is enjoying the possibilities of the wedding, Chelsea makes an appearance informing her Mother that she is genuinely happy for them and mentions that they are meant to be together. It's then that she drops the bombshell to her Mum that she has a friend who has spare room for her to stay in, but it's in Birmingham, and she's planning on staying there for a while. This news seems to really hurt Denise, in her point of view - as soon she Chelsea is faced with problems she does a runner. Chelsea admits that she can't stay in London now after everything she's done, to her Mum's surprise she reveals that she's feels like she's nothing more than a screw up and all she does is disappoint her and brings trouble to her door. Denise pleads to her daughter to stay and move in with her but Chelsea insists that she can't. As Jack walks in after hearing the commotion, Denise reveals to her fiancé that it's always the same when it comes to her daughter, as soon as she thinks she's got her back, she runs off again! 

I feel that Chelsea is being a bit too hard on herself, she is not a bad person, it's just unfortunate that she's gotten herself into bad situations after coming across and encountering bad people who seem to have even taken advantage of her, or who simply trap her and use her to their advantage. After Lucas willingly gave himself up to the police at the airport, Chelsea seems to have come to the realisation that he has simply thrown his life away, so she can live her life. Jack approaches Chelsea suggesting that maybe she should visit her Dad in prison, if she can't life with the guilt of what she's caused him, maybe she should go and visit him and ask for forgiveness. 

Taking his advice, she decides to go the prison to visit her Dad. However as soon as she seems him, she sees the damage that's been made to him whilst he's been in prison. He approaches her table and it's clear to see that he's been given a black eye after being attacked in his cell. Chelsea is shocked at the state of her Dad and she bursts into tears when she realises it was people connected to Caleb who attacked him. I have to admit, this whole section of their visit I found really touching, moving, emotional. For the first time in a long time, Chelsea is showing emotion and feelings towards her Dad.

Lucas admits to her that this was all part of his plan. Chelsea is really surprised to hear this, but what Lucas states makes perfect sense. He informs her that he needed her to see the path of life, to realise that that person Caleb made her was not who she was. To make sure she'd be safe and have a life, a good life of a her own, he took the wrap for the drugs so she could live a happy and better life. This is no way means that he was doing this out of spite or hatred, it was simply out of love for his daughter. As Chelsea wipes her tears away she claims that her staying in Walford might be a good idea as it'll give her a chance to come a visit her Dad as often as she can. 

However, Lucas gives her another devastating blow. He hasn't included her on his visitor's list. Once again, Chelsea is brought to tears by her Dad's bombshell, she questions him if he really hates her that much to not want her visiting him. But that couldn't be further from the truth. He loves his daughter more than anything, that we know for sure. I guess you could say Lucas really has changed his ways, since his return to the Square it's been hard to believe whether he simply had changed or whether it was all a ploy to get back into his family's life, but during recent episodes, I guess it's fair to say that Lucas has come out onto the other side. He makes Chelsea to promise him to stay away, enjoy her life on the outside and make something of herself, become successful and have as much happiness as she possibly can, she's a tough woman and if she finds herself in a sticky situation, she'll have her Mum to support her who is just as tough as she is!

I found this final moment really emotional, Chelsea agrees to say one last final goodbye to her Dad. Wiping her tears away, she stands up and pushes her chair under the table. As Lucas also has tears building up in his eyes, Chelsea says one final thing, "I love you, Dad!" - those were the words that Lucas has been longing to hear for such a long time! Taking one last look to her Dad before she leaves, Lucas bits his lip as they tremble as he tries his best to hold back tears. It's probably been so so long that Lucas has heard those three little words from someone and for them to actually mean it, have it come from his daughter means the absolute world to him. 

It has been revealed that this specific episode happened to be Lucas's final episode. I have to say I am a little saddened by that as I was hoping we'd have a lot more to see from him. Part of me feels happy that he hasn't been killed off. He has been sent back to prison again and will serve time smuggling drugs. But who's not to say that he won't return again one day to the Square? Who knows? I feel that if a character hasn't been killed off, there will always be a chance for them to return one day! I do hope that maybe in a few years to come, Lucas will return - it might not happen, but I can always live in hope!

The last bit of news I'd like to share with you is that it as been revealed that Kellie Bright is pregnant with her third child, a huge congratulations to her, but it does mean that Linda Carter will have to be written out of the soap temporarily when the actress goes on Maternity Leave. What will be Linda's leaving storyline? What do you guys think? Thank you all for reading! It really does mean the world to me and I cannot thank you all enough for your support! I'll be back again very soon! Love you all xXx