HELP!!! I NEED TO FIND A FIC
HI!!! i am looking for a fic, i cannot find it anywhere, and i am on the brink of losing my goddamn mind.
please do not judge me for what this fic is or the description i give of it.
this fic is in the rusty quill gaming podcast fandom. it's zolf/azu/hamid in omegaverse (yes yes i know but bear with me). it's set just after hamid and azu get dropped into the quarantine cell in japan, and it's a lot of soft need and self-restraint and worry about consent and support and the most genuine care i have ever read. it is written in character with exactly the anxieties and hesitations and desires the characters would really have. i kid you not, this fic is one of the most beautiful things i have ever read.
unfortunately, i cannot for the absolute life of me remember the fic name or the name of the author. i found it on ao3 some time ago, but it looks like either i'm not using the right search terms or the author has removed it from ao3. (in which case, i truly hope it's okay if i search for it, and that it's still around. i want to respect the author's wishes but i need that fic. i might be being dramatic, but it's what i do best.)
does anyone have any idea what this fic could be??? or where i could find it, or better search terms to use???? (i've already looked on ao3, ff.net, wattpad which was a long shot, and most fanfic archive sites i could find.)
if u have any ideas or know what it is please please please let me know. i wish i had the fic so i could cherish it again.