Look, I had to trawl to find this line: "“Dear one, I’ve only just begun to play with you."
Seems awfully appropriate considering that line was written way-back-when, and you've taken leaps and bounds, gone from strength to strength. You have such a wonderful grasp on the characters and worlds that you write, and the way you just gently caress my brain while giving it a few well timed squeezes... Not the best description, but it's true.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is: they you had just begun, and I'm so glad you haven't stopped.
Omg Nat I can't even remember what fic this is, it's been too long 🤣 I have 2.5 million words on Ao3, I can't keep track of my own writing, how embarrassing!
Is it swtor? Is it Valkorian toying with Kallathe in the dream realm? Or is it older than that? Is it DA? IS IT FROM THE JUSTICE PORN FIC??
My god now I have to go reread my entire archive 😔
Thank you dear heart, you've been such a blessed companion on the journey all these years ❤️
First snippet for 2025! Tagged by @defira85 Sorry it's a slightly long one! Needs polishing but I literally only drafted it an hour ago, so...
(also sorry defira it's not the slightly-nsfw one I mentioned lol)
Addy pulled herself out of the dinged and slightly rusted metal tub that the innkeeper had passed off as a luxury bath for the elite suite, the water having just been marginally hotter than tepid and the "bubble bath" soap barely generating more than a handful of suds. She'd had more luxurious baths on the road in her mother's laundry tub.
The room was hideous too. Little natural light from two shuttered windows, a rusty old metal framed bed with a frayed quilt, peeling faded beige wallpaper, and two tired old armchairs. The only thing 'elite' about the room from a standard inn room was the indoor plumbing and private bathroom.
But she comforted herself with the fact that she actually hadn't spent a copper on it. She'd paid the exorbitant fee and immediately stolen the money back – and then some – while the greedy innkeeper's back was turned. A quick glance at the ledger told her he wouldn't notice for another three days when he balanced the books. And she'd be long gone by then.
Reaching for the towel, her disappointment continued upon discovering it was only slightly more absorbent than a bed sheet. With a frustrated growl, she tossed it aside and resigned herself to air drying, walking around naked with no regard for the drips she left on the threadbare carpet.
She grabbed her hairbrush from her rucksack still half open on the bed where she'd carelessly tossed it earlier, the contents partly spilling out on the covers. Looking around to find a mirror, she realised a long wall hanging she'd mistaken for an abstract grey and beige painting with an ugly painted frame clearly being passed off as gold, was actually a heavily dust-coated mirror.
She rolled her eyes and picked up the discarded towel with her free hand and began to clean it, holding her face away to avoid inhaling the dust. When it was clear enough to be able to see a reflection, she dropped the towel and brushed her hair and checked her teeth.
Moving back to admire the view, her eyes landed on a small painting reflected on the wall behind her that she hadn't noticed earlier. The painting wasn't a particularly interesting one – merely a still life of a bouquet of flowers in a silver frame – but she was fairly certain she would have noticed the vibrant colours in the otherwise dreary room.
She turned to the wall behind her and found nothing but a blank wall.
tagging @shadesofmauve @sandetigerrr @zeph0r (because I live in hope lol), and anyone else who wants to play!
alright, @zeph0r an illustrated guide just for you, since you keep assaulting me.
ethereal, beautiful, fae-touched swagless weird nerd elf man healer. tol.
wet cat of a hot-headed co-tank and spy. snack sized.
just a lil guy who was once an amnesiatic murder guy after being a lil guy. not part of the polycule. problematic. smol.
literal cat with gun* and new bf5's big brother. fucking wee.
*this is an as-yet undecided/unconfirmed entrant, but fits the trend and also i think he's already fucking the first two. please no one tell his sister.
zeph0r replied to your post: I don’t know why people stay in a house where...
Ugh I love shit like that. Mostly because I love yelling at the TV people about how they are being stupid.
This dude is talking about this car he had, and it’s like haunted? To the point where his mechanic refused to work on it and it’s like ??? Sell the car or
get it blessed
plz
I have no idea what I’m going to end up doing today. Obviously, I have the whole day free, and I want to go out, but I don’t want to spend money going out. I dunno. I’ll figure something out. ^_~
I think I was following you before you started publishing things BUT my first favourite of yours was Not What I Was Expecting.
I LITERALLY had to go and check to see if that was the oldest fic on my AO3 just out of spite but no, there's 3 older haha. But it was close! Kinkmeme days! Do the youth these days know about kinkmemes? I feel like 90% of the purity nonsense would calm down if kinkmemes were still a standard
(I know they still kick around on Dreamwidth to some extent but it's not the same. Kinkmeme was where you made a name for yourself back in the day, now no one would dare)
this is definitely a good one. a very good one, actually. so good i'm a little angry right now. under a cut. to maybe hide my shame.
6. how do they react to the realization that they like the other character? Is it an “oh my god I’m never going to think about this again” thing, or are they pretty comfortable with it?
with urianger it was instant, and she was 9000% on board right away. it wasn't easy, and he let her down (to put it mildly) a few times along the way, but she had it bad in a big way, and no, she never questioned it.
thancred surprised her. she had no idea he was into her, let alone for how long. he showed up sad at her door while urianger was on the moon (a very normal sentence to write) and they banged a few out. she thought that was just... mutual comfort that was very comforting. it took her a moment to catch up after he told her he loved her immediately after, but once she took a moment, she realized, yeah, she was into it.
you don't go here, so when i say that elidibus was a complete surprise, and something she railed against right up until it happened because of the whole mortal enemies at diametrically opposing goals thing, that is the abbreviated version. that was a mutually slippery slope only possible because *waves hands* time travel shit, and the moment either of them let their guard down it happened, whether they wanted it or not (they did).
which leads me to... the fucking green cat. koana. goddamit. listen, it's complicated, okay. he showed up with her maybe exes and was *flails arms around* apparently already tangled in it all. knew who she was, and likely why that was relevant to him. she went from impulsive "i could grab that awkward uptight cutie by that stupid neckerchief and make his tail twitch" to "omg that is my new bestie's brother i can never think about that again" to... well i am gonna have to make a command decision here soon, aren't i? as of typing this, i don't know if she ever acted on it, only when it happens if it does, and that she is well fucking aware that it may cause more problems than it solves.
i hope you're happy.
thanks for the ask! here is the game if anyone wants to play!
You're absolutely right - Melon Collie, I think, is the goldest of Gold Star albums.
omg people always treat me like i've gone mad when i say that. like, i get it. corgan is a diva extraordinaire, and i've heard he has frequent tantrums at concerts (i have no idea if this is true, but it's in the realm of things i can believe about him). but this album. this dinged danged album.
it runs such a sonic gamut, from gorgeous lyrical ballads to sharp metal, and even some whimsical numbers. "thirty-three" remains one of my favorite tracks of all time. it's just lyrically and musically lovely with a touch of haunting to it, imo. "tonight, tonight" to this day just sweeps me away. i think my sleeper fave of the album is "cupid de locke" and i attribute that to the driving repetitive chords.
anyway, ty! mellon collie is a touchstone of my mid-late teen years. i love a lot of their albums, but this one remains the gold standard for me.
