summary: after you tell your husband that you’re going to be parents you decide to announce it at the sidemen charity match, that is of course, if he scores…
notes: okayyy… last charity match fic I promise! Though I got this request and just had to write it🥹. I hope you all enjoy!!🧸✨🫶🏼
"Josh... I'm pregnant," you quietly told your husband as you walked out of your ensuite bathroom holding a test. "What?" He rushed to sit up, his phone discarded to the other side of the bed. A smile spread across your face. "I'm pregnant!"
He jumped off of the bed to hug you. He squeezed you and spun you around. "Oh my god y/n!" He cheered happily. You hadn't exactly been trying but you'd spoken about it and decided that it'd just happen when it was meant to and here you were.
You'd both decided to keep it from the fans for as long as possible. You weren't on social media -other than a private account for friends and family- so it wasn't that hard to do. The sidemen boys were ecstatic when you told them, as were the girls. "Finally put the dick in, my broski!" Is what JJ had said.
When you reached five months you were having the conversation about possible ways to announce the pregnancy. "I mean... we could just do an insta post, a little boring though," you said as your head lay in Joshes lap, while he watched tv on the sofa.
He perked up suddenly. You could practically envision the light bulb turning on in his brain. "Okay, what about we do it at the charity match...? I'd do the ball under the shirt celebration if I was to score," He proposed.
You liked the idea, all the attention on Josh while you just got to watch, plus he had a pretty great chance of actually scoring since he was going to be the striker. "That's perfect."
When the day of the match came around you could tell Josh was nervous. He had so much pressure on him, being the only sideman not to score and all. But you were able to reassure him and told him to try to enjoy the day.
You didn't take your eyes off of your husband for the entire game. During the whole first half the boys were doing everything possible to get Josh his goal, but all the attempts were futile.
You got a message from Tobi ten minutes into halftime saying that Josh wasn't in a great way and asking if you could give him a pep-talk. You ended up going all the way down to the changing rooms.
"Hi," you greeted Josh gently. "What're you doing down here?" He asked, standing up straight after he'd been leaning against the hallway wall, just outside the entrance to the sidemen's team changing rooms.
"Tobi said you needed a pep-talk," you replied while intertwining your fingers with his. "Right... yeah, I'm slightly shitting myself," He sighed. You wrapped your arms around him in a comforting hug.
"Remember I told you to enjoy it? It doesn't matter if you don't score but you definitely won't if you psych yourself out too much," you attempted to reassure him. He nodded, instantly looking more confident. "Okay, enjoy. I love you and I'll see you after." You kissed his cheek before quickly getting back up to your seat.
You managed to catch JJ performing 'the thick of it' and you mouthed the words through the entire thing, though the songs a little cringe you can't deny the catchiness of it and it seemed like the entire stadium was also singing along.
When the match started up again you were knocked right back into focus. The moment the sidemen team got given a penalty and you saw your husband, Josh, walking up to take it you could barely contain yourself.
You watched on the screen as he took two deep breath. Your hand subconsciously circled your rounded stomach as you watched, Talia -your pregnancy buddy- sat next to you, also on the edge of her seat.
When he took the shot and scored you jumped up and cheered louder than you ever had before, your hands clapping together like an excited seal as relief flooded your body. The crowd was electric as everyone had been waiting for him to have his moment.
He stepped forward, grabbed the ball, shoved it under his shirt and ran to the corner flag, then he pulled a little white baby grow out of his pocket that read 'baby Zerkaa 2025!'.
Somehow the crowd managed to cheer even louder than when the ball hit the back of the net. All of his, and the other team celebrated with him. Some of the players that were unaware of the baby looked even more shocked than the crowd.
Within minutes your phone began blowing up with messages from anyone and everyone, congratulating you and Josh. "That was so fucking sweet y/n!" Talia hugged you as tears lined her lash line.
After the match it only took Josh around fifteen minutes from leaving the pitch to go and find you. He had a cheesy smile on his face when you saw him. "God I love you," he whispered into your hair when he finally hugged you, all the nerves from earlier nowhere to be found.
He took you down to the changing rooms so you could tell the boys something that you'd been keeping a secret for the past few weeks. Some of the players were already gone but the six sidemen were still there since Josh had asked them to wait.
"So, we wanted to tell you that we're having..." the boys gasped, eyes widening in anticipation. "A boy!" Josh practically yelled. "No fucking way!" "The first sideman junior!" "Ayyy! I'm so happy for you both!" They cheered excitedly.
You looked to Josh, as they flailed about, and smiled, you'd never felt happier. And the way he was looking back at you, you knew he thought the same and you were one hundred percent right.
summary: you and Josh spend a wholesome day together with your newborn daughter.
notes: hey my loves! I had someone ask for another zerkaa fic and I’ve only made one so here we go🫶🏼. I hope you enjoy!!🤗🧸💞
I woke to the sounds of hysterical crying. "Josh! Your turn." I whispered as I shook him awake. "Ok. I'm up, I'm up." He pushed himself out of the bed. Minutes later he returned with Poppy in his arms, feeding her a bottle. The room filled with the sounds of her quietly drinking and both of our slow breathing. Once she finished Josh burped her and carefully placed her back in her cot.
A few hours later we got up. Josh made breakfast while I got myself and the baby ready. I smiled as our two month old bundle of joy giggled. "You're in a good mood this morning Pop!" I finished putting her onesie on then took her into the kitchen. Josh turned to me. "Foods almost ready." He smiled. We've gotten so much closer as a couple since Poppy was born. In the first week our relationship was tested slightly but now that we're in a proper routine we've been really enjoying being parents.
Once we were all ready and had eaten our breakfast we left the house. Josh pushed the buggy as I walked beside him, both of us enjoying the fresh breeze as we slowly walked down the street. Almost fifteen minutes later we arrived outside of the supermarket. I began grabbing everything on our list and placing it into the trolley. I picked up some of the chocolate best cereal (the sidemen's cereal brand), which is my current favourite. Obviously Josh is very happy about that.
After paying and bagging everything up we walked home, this time I pushed the baby and Josh carried all of the bags. Poppy didn't make a peep the entire trip, she blissfully slept as we completed our errands. Though just as we arrived outside of our front door Poppy woke up and she was now not in the best of moods.
I gently rocked her as she screamed. "Shh. Calm down. It's ok. Shh." I whispered and thankfully she stopped crying, the noise being reduced to small sniffles. Josh had to go and film an among us video for more sidemen so I sat down to watch some tv while he did so.
Josh finished hours later. I had already had some lunch so I grabbed the portion I had set aside for him out of the fridge. "Thanks babe." He kissed my forehead. I smiled up at him. "You're welcome. It must be so exhausting playing that game." I joked. He shook his head slightly with a chuckle.
Later that night I put Poppy to bed then snuck out of our room to go and join Josh on the sofa. I plopped down next to him. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into him. "I love you so much." He whispered. My heart melted. I placed my hand on his, squeezing slightly. "I love you too, Josh."
Prompt: getting ready for a girls night out while josh is streaming some among us you just can’t get your make up right and get beyond annoyed.
Warnings: swearing, switching POVs, fluff‼️
“Okay..” I say to myself as I start my makeup.
After a while, I’m done the majority as I put on my dress jacket and heels I sigh as I have to do my eye makeup, the worst part.
I let out a sigh as I begin trying to do my eyeliner and repeatedly failing. I let out a sharp exhale before rubbing it off and doing it again, a red patch developing on my left eye.
My breaths get heavier as I attempted again.
I reach out and pick up my hair spray and spin it in my hand as I try again.
“Oh my fucking god..” I whisper.
Six more attempts later I can feel tears boiling.
I do it again and do it worse than any other attempts.
I launch the hairspray bottle against the wall and begin wiping off all my makeup, eyes welling with tears.
The girl wipes her makeup just leaving her red lipstick which she didn’t notice
“Ah!” Josh says not really shouting but not quiet as his head whips to the closed door.
A loud groan is admitted from a couple rooms over.
He looks back at his camera before standing up and opening his bedroom door.
“Y/n, are you alright?” He calls out.
“… uh… yeah!” I respond and text my group chat, apologising for cancelling last minute.
I take my dress off and change into something more comfortable- shirts and a sidemen hoodie.
“Fucking hell josh, was that Y/n?” Harry says with a laugh.
“Hm.. yeah- give me a minute, boys,” he replies as he pulls his headset off and goes to Y/ns door.
His girlfriend is one to get angry quickly and one of three things happens, she shuts off completely annoyed in her own mind, trying to handle her anger which normally means she’s with him a lot more. And snappy, she gets annoyed at things he does and is in an overall bad mood.
“Y/n?” He says softly as he opens her door to see her sat in front of her desk where she does her makeup, packing her back up neatly as she looks at him with narrowed eyes.
He smiles slightly and comes into the room.
“I thought you was going out?” He says as he goes over to her.
“I was- but then I couldn’t do my fucking eyeliner! It was so-“ she exhales.
“No, I’m not going out anymore.” She says as she runs her hands through her long black hair.
“Oh- alright.. I’m still streaming, u can end if you want in like 10 minutes if you want.” He says as he puts his hands in his pockets.
Her eyes soften at that and she shakes her head and stands up, moving closer to him.
“No- I’ll come watch you stream, give me a couple minutes.” He nods and goes to turn around but is pulled into a soft kiss.
He smiles into the kiss and wraps his arms gently around her waist.
“Okay, I’ll see you in a minute.”he smiles down at me and heads back to his room.
“Back.” He says with a smile as he puts his headphones back on.
“You’re girl has a temper.” Freezy says as he hears Josh’s voice.
“She can, I suppose.” Je shrugs in response.
“Mate, didn’t you say when you like first met on one of your dates you went to get something or some shit like that and she was getting hit on, then.. fuck what did you say?” Harry says.
“Right. That’s not important- and she had the right to get mad at-“ josh cuts himself off with a sigh.
Ethan laughs. “What happened josh?” He questions as he follows his among us character, due to proximity chat.
“She was getting hit on and as I got back I went to open my mouth but she like shushed me in a way then turned to guy down then he was like ‘come on just a drink’ and she said no again then he started insulting her.. I think he like called her a slut for wearing a dress with a thigh slit, then uhm- she told him he couldn’t please her with his dick even if he was rock solid- an appropriate response then this guy called her an ‘emo bitch’ so she punched him in the face.. and broke his nose- and yeah.” Josh says calmly.
“Oh- well.” Ethan laughs as josh scans in the video game.
“Interesting story..“ he says, a smile evident in his voice.
“Mhm..”
Around ten minutes later she opened Josh’s door gently.
“Do you want anything to eat?” She asked softly, a soft smile on her pink lips.
“Yeah- please get me whatever..” he says and straightens his posture.
“Kay, love you.” She says as she turns around.
“Hm, yeah love you too..” he mumbles as he passes Harry in the game, him hearing what he said.
“No PDA, josh.” He fake gags.
“Yeah fuck off Bog.” He scoffs as he goes to check who’s on cams.
After the food or here Y/n came in and handed him his food.
She kissed his forehead and smiled as he thanked her, though this was during a meeting.
“Oh my good josh, get a room.” JJ says loudly.
“Uhm, I’m in my room? And my girlfriend bought me food? No issue.” Josh retorts as he leans back in his seat.
JJ grumbles in response.
After some shouting matches with some other YouTubers from the game, Josh ended stream, he had finished his food and as he stretched his limbs, he put his bowl in the sink and looked around the house for his girlfriend.
He leaks his head into her little walk in closet and she isn’t there, he checks there shared room and she’s in there, sitting up watching something on the tv.
Josh smiles and pulls his hoodie off and sits next to her.
“Oh, you finished streaming? Sorry I didn’t know what you wanted me to order- I hope what I got you is okay-“ she starts and he cuts her off by a soft kiss, his hand travelling to the back of her head to deepen the kiss.
He pulls away and she looks at him, flustered.
“What was that for?” She smiles shyly as he places is hand sob her shoulders.
“Just love you, and what you got me was fine.” He says and holds her gently.
“You okay now?” He asks as she means unto him to which she nods.
He smiles and watches Tv with her in his arms, which she eventually fell asleep in.
A/n:
I HAVEN’T FED YOU LOT!!
Here you go- a quick fic in the drafts- I’ll have a Danny Aarons one out soon! Happy holidays!
can i please get a josh (zerkaa) x f!reader fic where they do up the apartment for christmas\spend christmas together just a lot of fluff and warm feelings ty xxx
AHHHH OF COURSE ML 🫶🏽.
Prompt:in request.
Warnings: swearing
Josh was out for a sidemen video recording in central London, most likely going to be back soon, so, as his fiancée, I would obviously spend my free time doing something for us.
I grin as I sit cross legged and pick the branches, spreading them out evenly as I stack the parts on the faux tree.
I have some random Christmas music playing in the background.
I stand up straight as I finish fluffing out the tree in a way.
I’d always been a sucker for Christmas and went shopping for decorations the previous week.
I stood up to get the box in the kitchen when the door opens and closes.
I hear a sigh as I bring the boxes into the living and look towards the hallway and josh pulls his hoodie off.
“What you- oh you’re decorating? Can I help?” He smiles.
My eyes glisten as I nod.
“Course you can, help me with the bulbuls.”
He nodded and begun helping me put the blue white and grey balls on the tree.
I lean into him and smile.
As we finish with the tree I kiss his cheek and urge him to stand up.
“Go change into something more comfy Josh, you’re too bulky now.”
He rolls his eyes.
“Uh- I don’t think I am, but whatever.” He teasingly rolls his eyes and goes into our room.
I open the box that's filled with tinsel.
Josh comes back in with some Christmas pyjamas and a white shirt.
I smile at him as he sits cross legged next to me, taking some tinsel out the box.
We sit in a comfortable silence for a couple minutes before he speaks: “are we doing all the stairs again? And the fireplace?”
“Course we are.” I grin as he chuckles and finishes untangling the one in his hand.
He stands up and works on wrapping silver and he tinsels around the fire place while I start on the stairs.
The low hum of a Christmas playlist soothing as we work.
“Hey josh- I’ve done with the-“ I cut myself off as I trip on some fairy lights he left on the floor, tripping until he barely catches me.
We meet each others eyes and both burst out laughing.
I giggle and stand up straight.
“Let’s go and do the bedroom.” I say as we compose ourselves.
“Like the sound of that.” He winks and I slightly again.
We decorate the whole apartment in Christmas things, lights, tinsel, until it looked like an elf had through up on whole house.
Us two ended up in bed with empty hot chocolates next to us, him shirtless left as a pile of limbs as I muzzle into him, exhausted from putting so many things up.
“Thank you for helping me, Josh.” I say my tone a bit heavier as I close my eyes against his chest.
“You’re welcome..” he mumbled, his grip on my waist tightening.
He smelt of cinnamon and sweets when I nuzzled into him, my eyes closed.
The next morning I woke up to his light snores next to me, as I climb out of his grip I open the curtains to see the whole floor covered in snow.
I let out a light gasp and grin to myself.
As Josh stays asleep I decide to shower, change into some white jeans, a white long sleeved shirt and a black sweater, I get a scarf and gloves and set mine and Josh’s out.
Just as i do that I hear him grumble.
“N/n.. shut the curtains..” he moans into his pillow.
“It’s half ten, Josh.” I say as I fold them.
“What? Really?” He says and looks up.
“Why are you dressed? Are we going somewhere?” He says and sits up, the duvet falling to his thighs.
“It’s snowed so-“ he rubs his eyes as I continue.
“So I was gonna go for a walk and get some food or something.” I shrug.
“Do you wanna come?” He wraps his arms around my waist from behind and puts his head on my shoulder.
“Course..”
I smile and kiss his bearded cheek.
Mad we get ready to leave I insist on taking some pictures.
He smiles as I put my hat on.
We talk some photos the last one with us kissing.
I grin and hold his hand as we leave.
I drive is to central London and we walk around for around 2 hours, getting some food and Christmas gifts for family.
“If you was a 6 year old girl with a weird obsession with dinosaurs, would you rather the diplodocus or the pterodactyl?” He asks as we enter a toy shop.
“Definitely the diplodocus.” I say and he nods.
“Same for you- if you was a 10 year old boy with a weird obsession with spider man would you rather the figure of Gwen or Uhm- Iron spider?”
“Gwen, she’s cooler.” He responds and I nod.
We spend some more time getting cards then head back, we were out for 3 hours and we had to go out for food with one of my university friends.
As we have an hour or two to our selves we sit cross legged and wrap some gifts in the same comfortable hum of Christmas songs.
“Y/n how the fuck am I meant to wrap a teddy bear?” He scoffs and I see him struggling to wrap the stuffed dinosaur.
“Uh- focus on the body then the head I suppose here, do this.”
I hand him a shoe box that’s for Ethan (their stupid elf slippers) and take the plush.
I wrap it after mild difficulty and hand it back.
He thanks me and kisses my temple, handing it back.
I let a ghost of a smile stay on my lips as I keep wrapping.
After our meal we end up in the same state, tired and intertwined together like we’re one person not two separate.
I have my forehead on his bare chest as he rubs circles up and down my back.
“Goodnight n/n..” he murmurs as I wish it back, falling asleep in his strong grip again, skin to skin, heart to heart.
A/n: I loved this request made me giggle a bit, anyway! Simon headcannons coming soon then a Harry Fic.
I also do not know what pet names the boys would call their partner so..
summary - The Sidemen don’t know how to handle Josh’s panic attack, luckily Freya is the best.
warnings - panic attacks, anxiety, medication, swearing, my terrible writing
request - I would love if you wrote about Josh having bad anxiety but the boys don’t know and one day he breaks down and the boys have to contact Freya, thank you, I love your writing 💛
masterlist - request here
There were days where Josh couldn't leave the house without having a panic attack. When he was twenty he was diagnosed with anxiety. It was one of the scariest and yet relieving moments of his life. Although he was diagnosed at twenty, his anxiety was terrible in secondary school. He would have panic attacks and because he didn't know to help himself, he just waited them out.
But Josh knew how to take care of himself now and ensure that the anxiety didn't take over, and yet as he went to open Simon and JJ's apartment door, he felt a pit in his chest, one he knew that if he didn't calm himself down, he would fuck himself over.
Josh never told his friends about his anxiety he didn't think it was important. He was more than his anxiety so why did they have to know? Freya knew but that's because Josh had told her after an incident of her finding his anxiety medicine and Josh trusted Freya with his life. Josh knew his hands were shaking as he walked through the door.
"Hey, Josh are you alright?" Ethan asked, motioning to the man's uneasy expression.
Josh nodded and smiled thinly at his friend before sitting down on their couch for a basic Q and A video they were filming.
They started filming and answered questions about the best they could. Josh only contributed a small bit to act as though he was interested in the conversation, but in reality, he was trying to focus on his breathing.
"Where do you see yourself in five years?" Vik read out the question.
Josh pressed his hands over his ears and started to breathe heavily. The men started to call his name but all he could hear the thumping of his heart loudly in his ears.
His breaths came out hurried and he couldn't see anything around it, tears streaming steadily out his eyes. Josh let out a sob as the boys tried desperately to find out what was wrong.
Josh let out a "Frey." which caused Tobi to immediately pull out his phone and call Freya.
Freya ran into the flat a few seconds later having been on her way to give Josh his keys which he left at home.
"Move!" She exclaimed at them. "You're making it worse!"
She knelt in front of Josh and whispered a soft, "Can I touch you?"
Josh flinched lightly.
"That's okay," Freya whispered. "Can you breathe in for five for me please?"
Josh sobbed out a, "I can't."
Freya shook her head, "Yes you can just take your time. I'm here, the guys are here and they're not upset with you. I promise." She took his hand softly and placed it on her chest and exaggerated her breathing so he would follow.
"Follow my breathing." She said softly. Josh started to slowly follow her breathing, falling behind slightly.
"Can you lean back?" She asked and Josh did as she requested. She watched carefully as his breathing evened out.
Josh closed his eyes as Freya talked him down his panic attack. The men watched silently as Vik bought Josh a drink of water.
"Have you been feeling like this since this morning?" Freya asked, stroking Josh's hair softly, grounding him.
Josh nodded and Freya simply lent down and kissed his forehead. "Do you want me to talk to the guys?"
Josh nodded and Freya turned to the guys, giving them a soft but warning look.
"Josh has anxiety and he gets panic attacks and he doesn't want you guys to know him as his panic attacks," Freya explained. "I am the only person that knows but you guys do too now. He takes medication but sometimes it isn't enough. Josh is not needing taking care of, just needs that small support. There isn't a need to watch over him every moment of every day."
Josh squeezed Freya's hand as a thank you before looking at his friends.
"Thank you for telling us," JJ said softly which surprised Josh slightly.
"It must be hard but we will be here for you," Tobi said with a smile.
The men immediately gave Josh a hug, all showing their support for their eldest friend. Josh would never get rid of my anxiety but having his friends know put him at some ease.
hi you asked for blurbs and all i can think of is daddy josh finding out he is actually going to be a dad :,)
Oh! He would be such a ball of sunshine. Like, I feel like there are other guys that would completely lose their shit if they found out they were going to be a dad but no, no, not Daddy Zerkaa. And I don’t think you would be nervous to tell him either, in fact, the minute you counted that you were late, you would tell him immediately.
And Josh’s face would light up in wonder about next step in your relationship. So he’d throw a hoodie over your head frantically, because he wants to head to the closest store to get a test or nine but he also needs his girlfriend to be warm in the cold London weather, so he takes your hand and gently pulls you out the door.
And he buys every type of test at the store, regardless of your insistence that it’s simply impossible to pee that much. And when you get home with the large bag, he sits on the edge of the bathtub while you reasonably take three tests. And the minute 2/3s show positive, he’s jumping in the air and his hands are running over your face lovingly and he’s kissing your knuckles because he’s so happy you’re going to have one of your own. OMG WHAT HAVE I DO.
↳ Josh x Reader
Requested? | yes! by an anon!
warnings | mentions of being abused in the past, mentions of scars, initiation of nsfw.
Hands perched on your hips, clothes strewn about the place, you stood naked in front of him. Right in front of Josh.
Scars. You were positive that’s all he could see. Scars on your legs, on your arms, heck-even on your torso at some points. The mere thought of them brought a distaste to your mouth.
But there was no look of disgust, or horror, or even disappointment - he didn’t look at you the way others did.
His eyes (something you were so whole-heartedly captivated by) were full of admiration, adoration and, most importantly, love. You could tell, mostly because you’ve never seen something so wonderful before.
When you think of somebody looking at you, you imagine them to have dull, dismal eyes…ones that act as if they can see straight through you like a window. You imagine their eyebrows furrowed, nose wrinkled and mouth agape in disgust. You imagine them pointing, and shouting profanities and insults.
When you think of such things, your entire body tenses. Your stomach tightens as if your intestines had knotted. A shiver, a groan of disbelief…maybe you’d even cry, just based on your own imagination.
But Josh, someone you dedicated three years of your life to, was not like the people in your thoughts, nor the people in your past, who would use and abuse you like a dog toy.
No, he was magnificent. Josh was patient, kind and cherished you like no other. He would hold you gently, as if you were glass, and he would never leave you astray. With Josh, or Joshy, as you would call him…you felt a newfound feeling of security.
Right now, he wasn’t any different. Still, he held you like you would break, and the look on his face was one you had never seen on anybody before. He looked excited, he looked blissful. He looked content.
Then he smiled. A smile so bright that even his beard couldn’t mask it - a cheeky grin that you became so accustomed to, and felt your heart swell whenever you saw it.
His hands were large, and they pressed gently against your back, urging you to come closer. Tucking you into his torso protectively, his hands roamed up and down your back, explorative.
His ticklish touches caused a giggle to slip past your lips, arching your back against the tips of his fingers. Only Josh could make you laugh as if everything were funny.
He was a blessing. It was magical to find someone who turned your world around for the better this time. Not only did you meet someone, who you could proudly proclaim was the love of your life, but you also met many other friends in the process. Thanks to him, thanks to his kindness and love, you could trust people like you had never forgotten how to.
“[y/n],” your name rolled off his lips so effortlessly. Instead of curling up in fright at the sound of someone spitting your name, you were beaming, elated and smiling. You couldn’t believe you were about to do something so out of your comfort zone…but with Josh by your side, it felt as if nothing was impossible. “Can I make love to you tonight?”
Though you figured his friends would probably make in fun of him for saying such a thing, the act of consenting was something so new and exciting. He was so polite, gentle and loving…and you would rather die than never see his face, never hear his deep tone, ever again.
“Of course,” you replied. Though you were reserved, knees buckling inwards as you subconsciously curled into his chest, you had never felt so sure of something. First time nerves were something you thought you would never get over.
He bit his lip, as if he were nervous too. With his fingers combing through your thick locks, he chastely pecked your forehead before nuzzling into you.
With your heart racing and mind floating, as if you were on cloud nine, there was no place you’d rather be…than right here, with Joshy.
