This is actually a really tough one. I’m not really jealous of anyone at all?Ok so jealousy is “the thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, concern and anxiety over an anticipated loss or status of something of great personal value, particularly in reference to a human connection.” I’m not really concerned that someone is going to take my people or things? I had jealousy issues when it came to relationships when I was younger. But that was more in regards to people I WANTED to be in relationships with who I felt didn’t desire me but did desire someone else. Once, I’m in a relationship with someone jealousy isn’t a frequent issue. When it does crop up in regards to poly I usually use it as a sign to myself that I’m not participating in significant enough communication with my partner and I’m not being assertive enough about my needs. Envy is more likely something I feel? Envy is “ is the resentment caused by another person having something that one does not have, but desires for oneself.”However, I’m not really very envious of any individual? I mean I wish I was prettier, stronger, richer, more charismatic, better employed, more capable of dealing with my emotions. However, I don’t resent other people for having/being those things? I tend to internalize and just blame myself for being lazy or inadequate because I’ve heavily internalized the idea that me not having/being those things is my own fault and I could have them/be them if I truly wanted and stopped being lazy about it.
So I guess all I’ve got is:Dear people who have always known what they wanted to be when they grew up and pursued it until they got it,Damn, good for you. I wish I had any idea what passion I could have as a career. I’ve never been that passionate about anything for any length of time.-Meg