#zpc-negativity

[zoophilic-confessions]

every so often i see someone saying some shit like. "oh its only okay to be a zoo if you hate yourself and wanna die about it. but you cant ACTUALLY die bc thats also bad"

just fucking let me have something PLEASE. one or the other i don't want to be forced to suffer to prove my innocence

Zoos deserve to love themself. Zoos deserve to be proud and content and at peace. You deserve to love yourself.

Suffering will never prove innocence, ableist lines like these are just that, ableism. You will never be "enough" to those people.

Love yourself and prove the world wrong.

[zoophilic-confessions]

im gonna. throw up i feel so insanely guilty.

i was on bluesky hoping the anti contact zoo community might be more active there (it is not) and i went to one of the main zoo tags and i. the first post i see is a woman sucking off what i think was a dog it was cropped weirdly and i feel so utterly disgusting for seeing it and bejng aroused and i cant unsee it i instantly reported it but it doesnt change what i saw and what i felt i am so sick

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[zoophilic-confessions]

My father has made so many comments about having babies with one of our cats.. saying they have sex, and they’d have fucked up little man-cat babies. And he makes so many zoo jokes about it and it’s starting to fucking affect me and he keeps getting me high and then making those jokes then the thought keeps playing on my head over and over again and I hate myself for saying this because I’m a horrible person to humans sexually with my attraction already and I love animals so much especially cats but sometimes they look up and me and make a cute little whining noise and wrap their tail around my leg and I hit myself in the head over and over and over again because I’ve gotten fucking boners from it before. I hate myself for this. I can’t do this. The next and I think one of the only paraphiles related things is being a bloody pedophile. I don’t know what to do anymore. Is this a pipeline

I hope you can get out of this situation ASAP.

I hate to assume, but this is sounds like possible abuse and grooming. Please stay safe, aware, and wary.

[zoophilic-confessions]

the fact of my zoophilia recently got leaked to far more than just the close friends + tumblr para community i was okay sharing with. leaked onto a website that was absolutely fucking unacceptable to mention that on no matter your opinion on it btw. i'd known this was coming for maybe around a year and a half, there were a couple halfhearted attempts to catch me in the act of being a proshipper (i use fiction to cope with my paraphilias, fucking fight me about it), only outed me as proship once which everyone seemed to pretty quickly forget about though.

this has been fucking hell after a bit of time has passed i havent got harassed that much luckily but. wouldnt be surprised if i have trauma from this. what i consider the rawest, most deeply personal part of myself being violently ripped away from me and strewn across the floor for all to see.

everyone sees me differently now. fuck even my friends probably do. i know its in the back of everyones heads. to everyone im uniquely capable of violence now. whenever i mention anything at all everyone jumps to the conclusion that it is about my zoophilia.

i was kicked out of a server and nobody even bothered to tell me beforehand, had to dm one of the members and ask why. they said it was cause of the "zoo stuff". id mentioned attraction to pokemon a couple times in the context of one of those "hear me out" posts. no more than that really. anything else came from me being outed, and ive been explicitly anti contact this whole time and never said anything about it there. they all encouraged me for the pokemon stuff actually. said their own pokemon hear me outs. tell me right fucking now why is buzzwole ok to like but charizard isnt. bit fucked to kick me for something they encouraged without even telling me about it first. theyve got dedicated talking shit channels and somehow i just know im their favorite topic of interest

I'm so fucking sorry, that's so deeply unfair. I really hope you find ground to settle in again, somewhere much kinder and safer. You deserve people who do not judge you for something like this, but I know it's not that easy to find. Stay strong, take breaks, do what you can for yourself in the meantime. I wish people weren't so damn cruel to you for so fucking little.

[zoophilic-confessions]

ive lost attraction for my partner and im almost exclusively attracted to animals now and i feel so incredibly guilty

Losing attraction can happen even in fully typical relationship setups, its not your fault at all. You can't always control when you are or are not attracted to someone or something, you just have to work with it.

I hope you're able to work things out with your partner okay. Best of luck.

[zoophilic-confessions]

its been maybe a month ago now, but im still not over it. my then-partner of two fucking years threw me under the bus, not when i first tried to explain my paraphilia, but only when his Friends starting giving him shit for it. and the worst part? he's literally more into animals of all kind, more sexually, than i am

I'm so sorry to hear, that's so so shitty and awful of him. I really hope you can find space away from them and around people who actually will try for you.

I also hope he realizes he's been shitty and apologizes to you at some point, even if that doesn't fix anything. 🫂

[zoophilic-confessions]

if anyone found out i'm a zoophile, my life would become a living hell. even avoiding potential legal issues for long past actions, the social stigma would rip me apart.

i think that's why i'm so closed off to intimacy and so scared of vulnerability. and no, i won't ever willingly tell anyone. i'm closed off from people and i'll stay that way til the end.

🫂I hope at the least these anonymous spaces can give you some solace then. I wish you the best.

[zoophilic-confessions]

I remember being a kid (9-10) and watching plenty of zoo content on far, dark corners of the internet because obviously that young I didn’t understand consent. I didn’t see it as any different than regular pornography. Now I feel plagued with memories and intrusive thoughts that make it so difficult to exist. I took a dog sitting job for a family friend and the entire time I wanted to vomit and rip my guts out. Ironically already I have quite the big fear of dogs lol.

But yeah my past experiences I think shaped how my ZOCD tends to affect me. Can’t change that, but I can work on myself to be less constantly anxious.

🫂 Best of luck to you.