the fact of my zoophilia recently got leaked to far more than just the close friends + tumblr para community i was okay sharing with. leaked onto a website that was absolutely fucking unacceptable to mention that on no matter your opinion on it btw. i'd known this was coming for maybe around a year and a half, there were a couple halfhearted attempts to catch me in the act of being a proshipper (i use fiction to cope with my paraphilias, fucking fight me about it), only outed me as proship once which everyone seemed to pretty quickly forget about though.
this has been fucking hell after a bit of time has passed i havent got harassed that much luckily but. wouldnt be surprised if i have trauma from this. what i consider the rawest, most deeply personal part of myself being violently ripped away from me and strewn across the floor for all to see.
everyone sees me differently now. fuck even my friends probably do. i know its in the back of everyones heads. to everyone im uniquely capable of violence now. whenever i mention anything at all everyone jumps to the conclusion that it is about my zoophilia.
i was kicked out of a server and nobody even bothered to tell me beforehand, had to dm one of the members and ask why. they said it was cause of the "zoo stuff". id mentioned attraction to pokemon a couple times in the context of one of those "hear me out" posts. no more than that really. anything else came from me being outed, and ive been explicitly anti contact this whole time and never said anything about it there. they all encouraged me for the pokemon stuff actually. said their own pokemon hear me outs. tell me right fucking now why is buzzwole ok to like but charizard isnt. bit fucked to kick me for something they encouraged without even telling me about it first. theyve got dedicated talking shit channels and somehow i just know im their favorite topic of interest
I'm so fucking sorry, that's so deeply unfair. I really hope you find ground to settle in again, somewhere much kinder and safer. You deserve people who do not judge you for something like this, but I know it's not that easy to find. Stay strong, take breaks, do what you can for yourself in the meantime. I wish people weren't so damn cruel to you for so fucking little.