Souffle Girl

Amber || 30 || Boring adult job until I can bake for a living

[ankle-beez]

[talesofatimelady]

I wish I wasn't like this 😔 I wish I wouldn't get a rush of anxiety by the fact I'm being given something else to do when I know I'm bored at work. I know change is good but I don't like unexpected change when I've just adjusted to a somewhat normal routine. I hate I feel that instant need to want to quit then being okay then wanting to quit. I just flat out don't want to be there. Nothing to do with the people because they are fine. I just know I'm being forced to work here because it's the normal thing to do. It's a salary job and that's what gets you a house, which is all you want right now. This is more than likely being thrown out of proportion due to my period coming soon but it still blows. Why can't I just be thankful? Why can't my mind focus on that and not all the other bajillion things. Why can't I be okay with doing this job. Enough ranting and crying over first world shit. The end.

[smallreptile]

Leaded stained glass spiderweb door

[pusheen]

[halloweentrickortreat]

[pusheen]

[hometoursandotherstuff]

Here’s a former Victorian school converted to a home. The architect was chosen b/c he specialized in churches with tall ceilings. 

The people that live here are into birds and plants.

Isn’t this amazing? It’s like living in a tropical rain forest.

Even the kitchen cabinets are green.

Dining table.

There are several seating areas on the main floor, but this corner has the sofa and coffee table.

There’s an art studio.

Here’s a bedroom.

Maybe this one’s the master.

And, a pink & green bath. 

https://www.film-locations.co.uk/locations/canterbury-crescent

[the-demonsinmyhead]

“I’m sorry I gave you everything I had without making sure you wanted it.”

—

Heavy (#418: April 21, 2014)

BABYYGIRLL

(via fvckpvssy)

[simonghostrileys]

Din Djarin + Holding Baby Yoda

[talesofatimelady]

I feel real stupid right now. With everything else going on I'm over here feeling sad/kinda not sad that my ex isn't following me on Instagram. I had to write it here to see how silly it is and also to validate my feelings because that is the whole point of me writing post here anymore. Wow that was a run on sentence but I don't care.

Why did I do it in the first place? Why did I check? Why did I friend request him on FB? When I saw he wasn't following anymore I was taken back a little and got a little teary-eyed. However, I'm the one who unfollowed him because I needed to heal and I told him I needed space. I've gone on a month without contacting him (asides the FB request but I'm not counting that) so why am I feeling sad?

[theorydictatespractice-deactiva]

Stop wasting your time with individuals who aren’t really all about you. Stop trying to force connections that aren’t all there, or telling yourself that maybe the reason love isn’t happening for you is because your expectations are too high. It’s not unrealistic to desire a partner that is attentive to your needs and wants, and who puts in the effort to not only get to know you, but keep you happy and feeling secure. Don’t compromise the things you value in a relationship for people who keep missing the mark. Your time could be much better spent. Some day someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize just why you should never settle, and they will be so bold and clear with their love that you’ll never have to think twice.

[talesofatimelady]

Reblogging to remind myself this. I think he cared to an extinct but I might be giving him too much credit. Either way it wasn’t right and I was unrealistic to think that I should wait for him to tell me he loved me first because he was “hard to read” and wanting him to open up first.

[nawaffs-deactivated20200221]

You’re not too sensitive. you’re not overreacting. if it hurts you, it hurts you

[littlealienproducts]

Ceramic French Press - Black by YieldDesignCo

[talesofatimelady]

Sometimes I think to myself I need to heal. I got into this past relationship right after my father's passing because it happened a little before. Though my Dad dying should seem big we weren't as close if I could ever say we were in the first place. It was also not long after toxic ex-boyfriend and a new job and moving...I have great timing right? I think of the span of a year and though it seems long I feel like it wasn't. Our relationship had it's flaws but it wasn't awful. Part of me knows I don't want to get back together but I also think we could. I kind of wish we could be friends but I don't know how to do that because I don't do the "friends with ex's" thing. Not that it is wrong I just haven't in the past with one exception. I wouldn't even call them an ex because we never dated. We just talked for a few weeks, met up, hooked up, still talked some then I got ghosted. He (much later) apologized and I forgave but still was hesitant to be friends then later we ended up being friends. Now I don't talk to him much which isn't huge because oddly I don't talk to a lot of my friends on the daily but we're on social media. I just don't know how well I can do it with my ex because I'm afraid I'll want more and get hurt when he gets distant. Perhaps that's my answer right there? It isn't a good idea to be his friend.

On another note I really am struggling with sustaining from just "talking" to someone. Not that I've been trying to but it's tempting to want it. Partly because I'm lonely and mostly I crave attention but in the best introvert way possible 😂 I don't want to dive into some kind of relationship this soon. I feel like I want a distraction from my new work environment which tells me I shouldn't do it. See I do have an angel on my shoulder telling me to do the right thing y'all. Just the devil side sounds more fun!

[mitten]

[talesofatimelady]

I never fixed my last post but I don't think it is needed. I kept writing a novel of a story and getting frustrated. I'll leave it how I left it. Pure feelings.

[mysharona1987]