The Church and Nihility
sorry if the title is catching this si my oc posting era again hi
We have to establish how The Church viewed their lord (which was implied to be the Propagation) vs How their Lord is actually...
It was a religion, and like all religions it began with awe and unanswered questions. When bugs fell from the sky, crashing with golden nectar as blood and pulsing sweet flesh, perfectly cooked and preserved onto the land of the starved, it was a miracle. It was when The Church met Their Lord.
Imagine a being of infinite generosity, so far removed from logic and conversation that its worshippers, at the time with rudimentary technology and limited scientific clarity, filled the unanswered luck from nature with meaning and stories. How else could they explain the perfectly timed descent of life-saving-bug-corpses if not as a gift from the Divine?
The Church does not, nor do they have to know that Tayzzyronth isn't an Aeon of poetry or love. As established, THEYRE dumb as shit. THEY don't think of anything other than Propagation. THEY don't judge. There is no good and evil. There is nothing but to split and multiply. "THEY can't even tie their shoe laces" - if THEY ever figured out how to wear one, but there would probably be eggs in those shoes when THEY were done. So it was the perfect being to be called Lord by The Church, free of judgement, full of never-ending givings and questions to be filled by their own imagination.
In earlier days, there was humility in these beliefs. Drought, famine, starved, barren land and was revitalized by these gifts of corpses so they lived to give in return. And that's what they preach "Live to give." Give to the forest, your neighbor, the worms, the earth, yourself and everything that breathes or not like how you'd give to The Lord. As you all have consumed it's divine essence to live, you have a piece of The Lord with you, and you shall never disrespect it type shit. All things- breathing or not - were Tayzzyronth.
It was impossible to have sinners; Tayzzyronth can never do wrong and it was simply a miscalculation. It was quite empty, a kind of unstructured love.
It gets better, cuz, well idk they got better at living I guess. and by better i mean they have control over their living variables. farms, medicine, all things that defied nature - which was what made their miracles idk whattttt. like the bugs still fell, but it was seen as less of a gift from The Lord but rather a resource given to their control. It's a shift in belief from Tayzzyronth to themselves as Tayzzyronth's reflection with these newly given power - that they earned.
kind of less "we are one with the lord" but rather 'we are the lord' so obviously establishment of the hierarchy. They didn't stop being generous, they didn't stop giving, they just had a different intention. They gave downward, to those 'below', but not side by side as they used to before. kind of like, now you have the power, you have the responsibility to take care of those below you, as you are in control of these elements, which before were in The Lord's control (as believed but rlly it was just perfect conditions)
they still worshipped, they still carry the songs and all. but it was a different form of faith, even though devoted to the same Lord. And at some point, heaven and hell were born. In the chase of expectations and results that come with advancements, they have goals for everything - they need an end right away. The hastiness of living demanded them to have an answer to their life right away. A black and white form of thinking, judgment. Now, to live righteously wasn't to give, but to die properly. Their goal soon became death rather than to live. Live in a way that your grave is a glowing resume. Build those staircases of starving bodies to reach their imagined clouds.
They had so many meanings and goals in life that they washed out one another, leaving an empty shell of a final destination. Horshoe theory typeshit. Their belief, their thinking, their faith, it's all shallow and empty - nihilistic - to chase their ego and feel deserving of that self labelled title after Their Lord. idk.
All this in the name of A Lord that doesn't give a shit, nor acknowledged their existence.
