[talinhagangdibatid]

I am, in fact, is very tired that the moment I step inside our house, by myself, i always cry. I want to stop crying myself to sleep, lord.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Inaya niya ako magsimba sa Quiapo, pumayag ako. Pagkatapos mag simba, akala ko dadalhin niya na ako sa mall para kumain kami sa maayos na restaurant, pero bigla siyang humirit na umikot sa Quiapo at humanap nalang ng karinderya para maiba naman. Pumayag ako. Humanap siya ng pinaka maayos, pinaka malinis na karinderya kung saan kami kumain ng masarap na pancit palabok. Pagkatapos tumikim pa kami ng iba pang mga ihaw-ihaw at bumili ng fruit juice. Pagkatapos, inaya niya akong maglakad mula Quiapo hanggang sa kabilang estasyon ng tren para raw maka daan kami sa may Intramuros at Luneta. Sa sobrang pagod, namilit akong umupo sa lilim, hanggang sa may dumaang mamang sorbetero.

Nagpabili ako ng Ice Cream. Nagkamot siya ng ulo, sabay labas ng wallet niya na ang tanging laman nalang ay singkwenta pesos. Singkwenta pesos ang Ice Cream, binilhan niya ako.

Pagsakay namin sa LRT, at pagbaba sa SM Grand, bago ako mag book ng Angkas, tumabi kami sa gilid para magbilang ng barya pamasahe niya sa jeep pauwi ng Navotas.

Huling pera niya na pala yung singkwenta pesos na pinambili ng Ice Cream ko, na nilaan niya na talaga pambayad sa jeep pa Navotas. Limang daan lang pala ang budget niya nung araw na iyon, kaya sa Quiapo niya ako dinala.

Ganito pala magmahal ang lalaking di maramot at mapagbigay, ang swerte ko naman talaga.

PS sinulat ko bilang paalala sa sarili ko sa mga araw na darating na susubukin niya ang pasensya ko, oh di kaya baka subukin na naman kami ng panahon at pagkakataon.

[talinhagangdibatid]

I love how God apologizes.

I love how he made me wait for decades. I love how he broke my heart, my trust, and even my respect, not only for men, but also for myself. I love how he allowed me to cry on the streets, and I love how he saw me pray and beg for the pain to go, and for a new love to flourish.

In times I felt hopeless and helpless, and in many times I almost gave up on myself and on love, he heard not what I said, but he listened on what my heart truly desires. And so, he gave Kyle as an apology for all the hurt, pain, and for the long unanswered prayers.

What Kyle has for me, outweighed every tear that poured in my face and every ache my heart experienced. Kyle’s love for me was greater than I could ever imagine, that sometimes I question if I am deserving of his love.

My man was ever generous. He only has so much for now, but he has given his everything to me. He buys me food, he picks me up every week from my office even if it meant commuting four hours and coming home late just to make sure I am home safe. He enthusiastically tries every hobby and every thing that I want to do and experience, without a question and even a second thought. He gives me his time, especially when he is busy.

My man was ever loving. He says, he do, and he makes me feel his love, every second of the day, in any occasion, in any place, and in a multitude of ways. I never questioned his love for me, because he shows it and he proves it.

I could honestly spend hours just talking how wonderful God’s apology is. And i love his apology, a love that i never imagined i could still give after everything.

My only prayer is that we both continue and strengthen the love we had, because I hope it is us at the end of the aisle. I pray its you, Kyle.

I love you and I am blessed to have you and to be loved by you.

[talinhagangdibatid]

If twenty one was a daily battle field, god-willing, my twenty two is a daily victory. Much of my goals and dreams were achieved during this year. But more importantly, healing and peace finally open its doors once again. It was a year filled with happiness and breakthroughs, and it would have not been such without all the people who loved, supported, and accepted me. Thank you for the opportunity of sharing this life with all of you. I pray that i get to also share a wonderful 23rd year on earth with everyone.

To twenty-three, i hope life will make you happier. To a more joyous, fruitful, loving, and peaceful year ahead. Happy twenty and three for me 🤍.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Life was indeed happier at 23. I got accepted into a corporate job where I feel fulfilled and where I am learning a lot from. Not everyone loved and enjoyed their first official job, and so I am very fortunate to get to love and enjoy the very work that feeds me and my family. And as a promise to myself, I dated intentionally on my 23rd year on earth. The first guy I dated only lasted about several months. But the following guy, he pursued me, loved me, and made me his girlfriend in just six months. I couldn’t be more grateful for how my 23rd year has become. Indeed it was joyous, fruitful, and peaceful thanks to all the blessings that God has showered upon me. I pray to continue having more fruitful, joyful, loving, and peaceful years to come. But more importantly, I pray to get to spend another year of my life with the love of my life.

Cheers to a lovely 24 ahead 🤍.

[talinhagangdibatid]

I love you.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Mahal kita nang higit pa sa wagas at lubos, Kyle.

[talinhagangdibatid]

I refuse to be that person again. I will never let that happen again. I will never go through that again. Never fucking again.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Am really replaceable, am i not?

[remanence-of-love]

[lost-puzzle]

I think the beauty of meeting someone just once to understand them to be part of their life for a brief second or a moment. It’s so wonderfully terrible, that’s the process of life I suppose.

[thoughtkick]

“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.”

— Andrea Gibson

[talinhagangdibatid]

If twenty one was a daily battle field, god-willing, my twenty two is a daily victory. Much of my goals and dreams were achieved during this year. But more importantly, healing and peace finally open its doors once again. It was a year filled with happiness and breakthroughs, and it would have not been such without all the people who loved, supported, and accepted me. Thank you for the opportunity of sharing this life with all of you. I pray that i get to also share a wonderful 23rd year on earth with everyone.

To twenty-three, i hope life will make you happier. To a more joyous, fruitful, loving, and peaceful year ahead. Happy twenty and three for me 🤍.

[talinhagangdibatid]

He awakened desires I never knew I had, and fulfilled a hunger I didn't know existed.

[thoughtkick]

“And love is when someone who even knows your scars, stays to kiss them.”

— Benjamin Griss

[talinhagangdibatid]

I long for his touch, his kisses, and his company.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Today i shared a part of me.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Have i told you that i missed you? I missed you more than words, and i regret that decision every day.

[talinhagangdibatid]

Whoever the fuck is thinking about me all night, i hope youre happy 😭. I cant freaking sleep.