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i kno here i am i apologise
——— okay.
sorry for the inactivity. going on a semi hiatus.
alexander / zealous.
’ perhaps i once placed too much of my own worth in the things i had yet to do, but now my list of accomplishments has almost become EXTENSIVE ; i have learned how to truly measure my own worth. have you? ’ STILL, his list was far from complete — maybe it would stretch forever, an endless longing for MORE and MORE, trapped in his own dissatisfaction. it had never been easy to be trapped in his own mind. her smile is almost as BITING as her words, and alexander takes a certain pride in seeing her become cruel. SERPENTINE girl. ’ you stole my father-in-law’s seat in some odd act of malicious intent. and i considered you DEAR once, burr. ’
faux surprise takes over her. he is wrong; she had never set out to hurt him ( * oh, no; that was just an advantage hoarded along the way ), only to better herself, rise as he had. this screams hypocrisy to her. alexander was allowed to step on her toes climbing to his success, but deemed her immoral for attempting the same. a law for alexander, a law for the people. ❛ i don’t understand why such endearment must be revoked, alexander. i simply took a seat in the senate when it became available to me. not everyone makes the personal so political! ❜
aaron / seraphic.
E. BURR.
( 2:21 PM ) » He’s just a friend ! ( 2:21 PM ) » I’m going to ignore what you were implying there and move on.
SENT.
A. BURR.
( 2:22 PM ) -- of course! don’t let an older sister’s scheming deter you. ( 2:22 PM ) -- what were you going to tell me? any vital news?
------ sent.
aaron / seraphic.
IT WAS under water. deep, churning, ever chaotic sea. merciless / mercurial / malignant. infested with salt, drawing moisture until the throat was parched & skin cracked, dry, in the ocean that held a thousand drops of iron & steel. it was under volcanoes. hot & crackling with magmatic fire & burning ash. brilliant. iridescent. bright & bleeding lava flowing, the very air warping from the instability & sheer heat that pressed ‘gainst their chests like a heavy weight. a real pressure. vaguely person shaped with the lips parted & soundless. no word could pass through entropy. dispersed as soon as it formed in the slide of inexorable unwinding.
& aaron almost floated. almost went untethered into the breach because of this because of this anger. this unbelievable blight of emotion & rage that died in opalescent smiles & broken grounds. it felt like a home with dark spaces & an uncle who represented failing growth & the stigma of being soft. taught them : people were cruel / they could only trust each other.
her touch. aaron closed his eyes, the supernova folding back into himself as sea receded & volcanic activity died. it ended in a whisper. it ended in anger. it ended in nothing at all as he took a breath to calm himself.
❛ he called us immoral. ❜ & his eyes opened. his voice cracked. impossibly small, impossible mortal. he was b r e a k i n g & the world had more steel to drive through his heart. ❛ he called us worse than jefferson. a dangerous disgrace. ❜
convincing a man to burn has never been an issue. they will wilt and rise beneath her eyes, persuasion woven so tightly against her skin that it is hard to separate woman and word. this stumble is by the action of the one man they had not been able to sway ( * we learned that from you! ), a direct result of his pettiness. how could he not see change; he, who had placed to much faith in things he had yet to do?
it is too much heat / too little war, too much sacrifice / too little victory. it is siblings, alone in the ocean, neck deep in a strange cross of self pity and outward hatred. emotions, so usually contained, should be allowed to erupt. every friend they had lost had been able to explode, reckless and impulsive - when they do the same, they are demons, hellspawn clawing their way through throngs of mortal man. she holds his elbow tightly, anchoring herself to the plane of familiarity.
❛ this will not slide by, aaron. ❜ they have set a standard for themselves, now. their ability to stand has been noted by the people, taken under wing by those paying attention. should they lie back now, they would lose what little they had gained.
as he writes his way out, so they will pen their way in -- barge into his legacy with eyes ablaze, seize the quill and indent the pages of history by any means necessary. ❛ this must be met by an immediate disembowel or acknowledgement. he will answer to this. ❜
JOHN.
their hearts beat in time & the amount he’s come to care for erin cannot be described in words , yet he still must leave ––––– for love has never been able to solve any of the questions circling in his mind , and he seeks DEATH as ardently as ever. their perfect moment hangs around the edges of his thoughts , sunshine of her lips still giving everything a glow , but it’s fading , as he thinks about the FUTURE : and how limited his will be. ( he goes to die. this he knows. this he will not say. ) arms remain around erin , holding her to him ––––– see how his heart has not yet stopped beating , hear the proof before it’s too late! ❛ yeah , i do. war’s not OVER yet. i have to go. ❜ he can’t quite bring forth any apologies , worrying they would sound all too FALSE on his tongue.
she is not often engulfed in fear, so much so that it makes itself known on her face, and yet she feels it now, crawling down her back. there is something empty in how he looks at her. there has always been something empty about him. forgive her, god and anyone else, for trying to fill it. taking her hands from his arms, her whole body heavy as she takes a step back, the woman turns her face, eyes on the floor. ❛ i... ❜ silence, pressing and heavy. the fact that she does not have to hold her tongue does not prevent her from doing so. ❛ you will... i will miss you while you are gone, john laurens. ❜ finally, she is able to hold his gaze with one of her own, soft and sad, utterly different from her usual marble.
ALEXANDER.
’ patronize? i would never DREAM of taunting you in such away, erin —- i simply speak the truth ; whether you find it patronizing is wholly your own fault. ’ promises of sincerity curl around the bow of his lips, and yet his tone is laced with the horror she had accused him of. MIRTH sparked within him, blossom of anger yielding to the spring fields of taunting. ’ ah, and yet you so rarely go for what you want! one would think you find no dignity in it at all, if your past was any indication of who you are. ’ SPEAKING AS THE MAN who detested what his past spoke of him, the little whispers of BASTARD that seemed inescapable.
there comes the ice cold fury, the stiffening of her shoulders, barely noticeable under her shawl. she smiles. ❛ why should the past be an indication of who you are? don’t be hypocritical now, alexander. i believe it is you that puts your self worth in the stocks of things you have not yet done. ❜ the twitch of her jaw is settled by a soft nod, ever complacent, ever the shifting tide. her decision to change is not out of the usual; she will adapt when needed. it just so happened that this time, her adaption had worked in her favour, and she has usurped someone all too near and dear to alexander’s heart. both are selfish, and yet both are so defensive.
yes I am fully aware that I’m The Worst™ but I still wanna be like……. loved and stuff
AARON.
EYES, LIQUID amber filling pools / the depths unreached, untrespassed by sight. too dark, too deep. a sorrow that could not be named. ❛ i wasn’t there. ❜ numb speech. cold limbs, dead & still at his side. gaze unseeing. ❛ she died & i wasn’t there. ❜
so used to illness, yet it still stings; she does not breathe as easily as she used to. lips pressed into a thin and bloodless line, her own grief must be diluted to soothe his. ❛ do you not think that to be best? would you rather have -- have seen it? ❜
watch her gaze dance, reluctant and unsteady -- the woman of marble has found her cracks at the bottom of a beer bottle. ❛ what if i can never live up to what people expect? ❜
…One may smile, and smile, and be a villain.
Hamlet (Hamlet, Act I scene v)
I want him to suffer as I have suffered. I think I could fit the sky inside the hole he made in me.
Nicola Maye Goldberg, from “A Woman Surveys a Treacherous Mountain Pass,” published in Nailed Magazine (via lifeinpoetry)
JEFFERSON HAS BELIEFS // BURR HAS NONE.
Tituba in ‘Book of Shadows’