TalkstoPlants

Tinkerer, lesbian, single mom, and botany student doing her part to usher in our solarpunk future. Also a simp for Janeway 💖🫡 And I make art sometimes: https://www.etsy.com/shop/wonderworkslab

[talkstoplants]

Lord help me I’m in love with an allegedly straight woman 😭 I came out at 34, so a year later this is all still new to me. But I thought I’d been in love with my ex-gf last year… this is an altogether different beast. It’s like my entire body and soul are oriented towards her. When we’re in the same room we just constantly drift and lean in towards one another. This B has me writing poetry, yall (seriously wtf I’ve never done that before). She’s so warm and kind and beautiful and intelligent and brave and she’s an incredible friend. And there’s just this insane inner/somatic certainty that this is it, that I found her. But my brain is like wtf are you talking about?!! You sound insane right now!! 😭 I can’t help it. For me, to know her is to love her 🥺❤️

She’s too wonderful of a person to not continue being friends with her, but the ache is so bittersweet and beautiful and profound and painful all at once.

[talkstoplants]

Experimented with easing off of my Zoloft…. Don’t think that’s gonna be a good choice for me 😭

I hear every sound and see every smudge of dirt and crumb everywhere and feel every point of contact of the world on my skin and it is driving me absolutely insane 😭😭😭 🫨🫨🫨😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

I drew this to get the sensations out and it helped a lot to manage the sever overstimulation. But it really does depict what my spirituality is kind of becoming lately. I had a lot of cognitive beliefs about spirituality before I came out it the closet, but I never FELT spirituality. I didn’t even know you COULD feel things spiritually — like awe and sacredness and holiness — until I kissed a woman for the first time and later fell in love with a woman (she broke my heart but I’m recovered now and am so grateful for the experience).

But I’ve only been fully out and myself for a year and a half, and my spiritual development has proceeded alongside my discovery of my true wlw self. Anyway, I’ve FELT connection to the world and people differently than I ever have before, and I’m kind of forming these feelings and translating them into my beliefs.

So this doodle shows what I’ve been coming to believe — that highly-sensitive people are sensitive to inputs from the world, both physical and emotional. There’s some kind of ether of light that some people can pull from frequently, others sometimes, others never. I think people like HSP’s autistic people, ADHD, AuDHD all have unique relationships with the sensory world and the ether compared to neurotypical. Not sure how specifically. And there’s like “tar” seeping into the world. Idk why. We all leak tar into the world. We all bring light into the world. Each of us is a portal of light into the world. Many portals of light can only be “opened” in relationships with one another — love, friendship, community, solidarity, cooperation, parenthood, etc. The connections between us open new gates.

Some people almost exclusively serve as seeps of tar (Epstein, Trump, etc). Idk why.

I know this is kind of old hat, it’s basically good vs evil recaptured. But I spent 34 years understanding things with only what my cognitive brain knew — and it missed so many things that my body and interoception were trying to tell me!! Not just sexuality but also so many other things, too. So I’m trying to listen and feel more and use that as my initial filter. So this is what I’ve arrived at so far. Idk if it’s true or just a metaphor for life that helps me understand it better but there it is

[devinellekurtz]

My very first tiger drawing and my latest

[toboddly]

voy textposts janeway edition yayyyyyyy

[talkstoplants]

Any other late-diagnosed AuDHD girlies not realize you’re “supposed” to form friendships in steps of increasing vulnerability and not just all at once?? 😭 TIL that’s why people who I think are cool pull away from me inexplicably. It’s happened multiple times the past year and if I’m honest throughout my whole life.

I’m just like “oh you’re funny and fun, we’re friends now,” :D And then they slowly back away like homer in the fucking shrubs 😭

The good thing is it’s clicking bc I’ve always been confused about it. Like I get it if I don’t like someone and they don’t like me back. But I cannot tell yall how many damn times I’ve liked someone (platonically) and jumped in fully and then been left. I had other flaws I’ve worked on since so it wasn’t like I was blameless. But it’s weird to have genuine goodwill towards a person and have them get like weirded out. I didn’t understand what I was doing that was so offputting. NOW I get it 🙃🥲😭 At least I have a few irl people who are cool with the way I strong-arm people into being my friend, thank goddess for those ladies I stg 💖

[secondsolus]

You know I had to do it

[solar-sunnyside-up]

Cyber decks are so cool and I'm so happy we've moved in this direction honestly.

[solar-sunnyside-up]

Here's some of my faves

Keep up the amazing work everyone!

[solar-sunnyside-up]

The thing about this is this is a major step towards Solarpunk being integrated into our society in a functional way.

Like the same people learning coding to do their own home DIY photo booths is just as a big step as building gift Economies amoungst friends. It's just as big as solar buildings and artwork being more popular. It's art, it's recycling, it's skill learning, its real ownership compared to subscriptions, it's decentiralizing oligarchs ability to monitor and steal your money.

It's everything solarpunk has been shouting about and it's the Cutest thing I've ever seen!

[alwaysprofoundvoid]

Also a big fan of people seeing the wildest casings imaginable and going "Aw yeah, gonna put a computer in that thang!"

[angrboda007]

I am finally finished with my bag!! very happy with how it turned out

[the-bramble--patch]

One of the foremost reasons I like solarpunk is that in the mainstream, being eco-friendly is about sacrifice. Don’t buy new things, don’t buy plastic, don’t take unnecessary trips—etc. It’s not sustainable unless you’re a saint. It’s exhausting to abstain from consumerism without having alternatives like the things Solarpunk emphasizes: community, resources held in common, sustainable hobbies like gardening and mending (and all other sorts of repair), free and accessible public transportation, etc. Solarpunk is about creating a world where being eco-friendly is about joy, not deprivation.

[talkstoplants]

Sometimes I look back at my past self, and I’m like how was I so STUPID? 🤣 I used to watch The Hours when I was depressed bc I felt seen by the “nameless” sadness of the female characters. I rewatched it last night, and them being repressed sapphics was the whole goddamn point of the movie 😭💀😂

Comp-het is a helluva drug, yall. I remember watching the movie when I was repressed and in a hetero rlshp and just kind of being confused about why the women kept kissing each other and what that had to do with depression 😂😂

But dammmmmn this movie hits post-coming out! The depictions were spot on, especially Julianne Moore’s character and just the quiet desperation she lives with and how dead her eyes are when she’s married to that man and UGH 😭 The end when her character said, “It was death. I choose life” god, I related so hard as a woman who left a seemingly “perfect” hetero white picket fence life to be a financially-struggling single mom. But it was sooo worth it bc WOMEN and LOVE and I am finally, actually ALIVE

[alexxuun]

If it’s any consolation, you’ll be hailed as a hero.

Stratt kept her promises about the statues :)

[talkstoplants]

Heart: broken. Meme game: strong 😂 Got caught in my first ever anxious-avoidant cycle!! It’s funny bc even when things hurt, every time I go through a new romantic experience there’s always a meta part of me that’s like “Eee so THIS is what everyone was talking about! :D”

Being a late-in-life-lesbian means I’m experiencing things as a 35yo single mom that most got to experience in high school. So even when it’s hard, I’m always also partially celebrating the fact I get to FEEL everything that wasn’t accessible to me when I was repressed

Also that woman is BLOCKED. Boundaries, girlies 💖

[talkstoplants]

The yearning is off the charts people

[talkstoplants]

My sweet, beautiful but atypically physically hyperactive and hypersensitive 3yo (likely has ADHD) with no frontal lobe yet:

Me, a single mom with ADHD and 1/4th of a brain cell in my frontal lobe trying to keep us both emotionally regulated:

[romans-art]

Greta Garbo from Queen Christina (1933) if you read this im free on Thursday night and would like to hang out. Please respond to this and then hang out with me on Thursday night when I'm free -

[allgarbo]

Occasionally, when she was being mournful, Garbo could appear not to rely on anyone. Everyone expected something from her, she seemed to think. She surely had cause for a certain scepticism towards those around her. But on the other hand, she found it difficult to grasp how privileged her position was. She had only to point at something to have it given to her. And if she ever got tired of anyone, it was goodbye to them.

And yet it's difficult to say that Garbo was like this or like that. She would continually surprise you, and would suddenly dispel all the arguments and reasons for your doubts. I once dared to raise an objection when she was complaining about being persecuted by people and not being left alone:

'Yes, but when you're one of the greatest celebrities of the century, as you are, you have to understand that people notice you and are curious about you as well. You have to put up with it.' Instead of reacting angrily to my comment, Garbo leant back in her chair and said: 'Yes, you're right… Thanks to my playing Queen Christina on film, the whole world knows who she is.' (Conversations with Greta Garbo by Sven Broman)

[pl3ase-im-a-st4r]

"Thank you, Greta Garbo" we all say in unison