Lost Chemist

Just a place to let everything out and get everything that’s bothering me off my chest.

[tallchemsit-blog]

I cannot handle this stress.

I am making a major career change by leaving school with a masters degree and entering the work force. I have an interview this week and must tell my boss that I am leaving. I have never been one to make drastic changes like leaving school, but I have realized that getting a PhD is not the right path for me. I know this is the right move but the dread, fear, and anxiety that has hit me in the last 24 hours is more then I have ever dealt with.

I literally feel like I need to throw up and I’m about to pass out. My apetite has disappeared and I feel I am on the verge of breaking down and crying till I cannot any more.

I really wish I could feel safer in telling my boss and knowing he won’t kick me out right then and there. Unfortunately I feel that is something he would and might do which scares me even more.

I really wish this this week wasn’t so stressful.

[tallchemsit-blog]

Job hunting emotions.

So I finally made a decision to change my career path and receive my masters degree instead of getting a PhD as the latter would put me in a position where the available jobs would not be what I want to do for the rest of my life.

The trouble now is that I must find a job, write a brief thesis of my research, and do all of this without letting my boss know about it or I would be out of a job and have no income. So far I have applied to 20 jobs and gotten denied by 7 of them and haven’t heard back from any others for weeks.

The job market is also not very large and I’m running out of places to apply. This is just making my emotions go crazy. I feel stressed that my boss will find out and fire me immediately and trying to complete all this before I am forced to tell him. I am anxious as I don’t have a clear path for my future self. I am feeling defeated because I don’t seem to fit any jobs requirements. All this is causing my brain to go crazy and make my motivation disappear completely.

Sorry for the rant

[pengosolvent]

this one’s a few days late due to having a lot of doctors appointments sorry it’s  just 9 pages, and about some rats… it’s more symbolic than anything really

(it’s completely unrelated to any of my songs that have to do with “puzzleboy”) Patreon: www.patreon.com/PengoSolvent

[itgetsbetter]

[reasonandempathy]

“I know no one cares, but this is illegal.”

[glblctzn]

Cuba just put marriage equality in its new constitution – putting it on the path to becoming the next Latin American country to legalize same-sex marriage! The Cuban legislature approved marriage as being “the consensual union of two people, regardless of gender,” and the change will be put to referendum later this year. Discriminatory cultural attitudes toward sexuality and same-sex marriage hold the world’s population back. As long as such inequitable norms persist, the world will not succeed in establishing equality for all and achieving the Global Goals. Go here to read more and join us in supporting these issues. 

(📷: Desmond Boylan/AP) 

[feministism]

[teenscoolest]

[tallchemsit-blog]

Me right now

[yupthatexists]

[npr]

'Supergirl' Casts First Transgender Superhero On Television

Nicole Maines, the transgender activist who brought a landmark case on allowing trans people to use the restroom of their choice, is marking another historic first as Nia Nal.

[feministism]

[yourbigsisnissi]

You have to learn how to say no without you feeling like you’re being mean. Setting boundaries is how you see who does and doesn’t respect you, your time, or your emotional well-being. Anyone who sees your boundaries and thinks your being mean or tries to push that boundaries is not a person you owe your time or attention.

[dilmfirector]

[tallchemsit-blog]

This is exactly how I feel when talking to my best friend. If you’re reading this I love you more the you will ever know.

[psych2go]

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[tyleroakley]

bitch, i’m living the full fantasy

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[tallchemsit-blog]

Love everything about this.

[feministism]

[tallchemsit-blog]

So true.

[tallchemsit-blog]

When your brain won’t let you sleep, you start to think about random things. Tonight’s random topic is the fragility of your health, and how inspirational those with chronic illnesses are.

When many of us think of being sick we think of the sniffles, a nasty cough, or maybe a respiratory infection. All of which could easily turn into something worse, but often times just put you in bed for a few days or so.

Recently, however, I have had the privilege and honor of meeting some individuals fighting various chronic illnesses. These individuals are fighting anything from Gastroparesis to cancer. Their idea of being sick is dealing with a disease that affects their entire life and everything they do in their daily life.

Yet those battling with chronic illnesses often push through the pain and discomfort and symptoms of their illnesses to try and live a normal life. They wake up and literally fight to have even a slight resemblance of what many of us take for granted with our health. Their ability and motivation to wake up each morning and fight the same fight with their health and their bodies is, in my eyes, one of the most inspirational things I have seen.

To all those battling with chronic illnesses I am inspired by your fight and by how courageous you all are in the ability to wake up and put on a brave face no matter how much pain, nausea, or discomfort you may be going through every single day.