A ghost

Talon. 23. art/math.

[talon]

I saw my life flash before my eyes just before I died I watched my Snapchat story and began to cry I categorize the ticks and tocks by slices of their range my words are bullets bleeding from my reflexive rage I'm constrained quite artfully by masks of here and now and this part I play for thee is my narcist nest of sounds knitted conversations form the blanket of a fort that's propped up by the kitchen chairs I've said it all before the clock says it's 3am as the shadows lick my sores the piercing salty pain restores the conscious I ignore I close my eyes and visualize an orb of condensed satisfaction it's full of contentment with my art a Thai iced tea and a companion.

[talon]

I'm suspended in this moment this one and the next my breath is ice my mind is a kaleidoscope it's not wise to hope my eyes softly glow I'm lickin from the air I'm searching for the right adjectives I'm not bad at this I'm mad at this but the right words are in the vacuum between each breath that collides with yours and it's transient so much is I'll shed a tear for this sorrow for the love of it this moment is hollow resonations through my swollen heart its stolen art I'm pulled apart by time I don't know where to start my rhymes if this body is a vessel I'm stuck inside I don't survive I delay death I feel my best when I'm with you floating through these feelings blue my soul with yours it's harmony I can hardly see what it means to be alive without this moment this one and the next.

[talon]

Facts you can scream ‘til your lungs burst at the seams and against the cold stone of emotion they will bounce and your words you will receive

whisper to the cold with warm breath and a harmonizing tone let the fire in your chest make your friendly words glow

use your new lantern reach into the fog grab a lost soul and together, please talk.

[talon]

The children were taught to steer from mistakes programmed by a system outside of their cave enchanted are they tell they see the light trapped in a world not so blessed and unright the evil devil exists in the rhetoric of hate you either grow pissed or do not participate understanding and love get ripped from the mix the balance is tipped into an unsavory fit all for one and one for one and together I thrive else I becomes we and all our love dies.

[thelandlockedmariner-deactivate]

I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness.

Anaïs Nin  (via thatkindofwoman)

[talon]

You know what’s fucking nuts is that I work for Amazon now and in six weeks I’ll be in NY for at least the next two years.

[naturaekos]

“Don’t live the same year 75 times and call it a life.”

Robin Sharma (via naturaekos)

[talon]

Every day I feel hopeful and every night I feel guilty and sad

[gotham]

Have you ever heard a joke so many times you’ve forgotten why it’s funny? And then you hear it again and suddenly it’s new. You remember why you loved it in the first place. (Big Fish 2003)

[talon]

I kinda wanna watch this movie but I’ll cry the whole time probably

[talon]

I have a confession. I really love those Fun. Songs from like 2011, I am in the middle of an existential crisis that started shortly after beginning to talk with you and also that Gotye song though I may have spelled the name wrong. It's cool I think that I remember these things. I just watched the Snowden movie and it was good I mean it resonated and it had some interesting direction. I think I'm prone to rambling and it occurs to me that could also be stated as I like the art of letter writing in a world that seems to be put off by that. I'm insecure and it's sort of because I didn't like the person I was when I wasn't and then I became idk a not a person it feels like. I think I am climbing back into my skin now. And also I think I "think I" too much. You know.

[talon]

When I was twenty-one this person one time said to me in the flow of an otherwise typical conversation "When all you have is a hammer everything looks like a nail" and I held on to that 'cause it felt wise. it resonated curiously within me. Have you ever heard something and immediately and profoundly felt it to be wise? I assume everyone has and it's intriguing to me because how and what is wisdom. It's probably subjective right? So I hold onto these certain things and not a few of them I mean I have a lot of memories like I'm sure you do as well and I revisit them at various intervals and consider how they evolve with me. That's sort of all that I know. and if you assume that's all anyone knows which is I think a safe assumption then let me suggest that wisdom is a gift from one world in time to another. Your words to me. Mine to you. Not for better or for worse but for life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness motha fuckaaaaa

[talon]

Fade to black you need this close your eyes and see this let's blur the facts with Cheshire cats and melt into sleepiness some nights I study ferociously some nights I fall in love some nights I wake up before I die but most are plain ol' duds life and death eight hours roll the dice do you dream of dreaming or do nightmares haunt your nights I've seen some things and felt so clear despite the things having disappeared I've felt deeply and seen other worlds is that not fair to conclude? I'm stuck inside the inside collecting poems that lead to you.

[talon]

I'm kinda spooked I can handle it but I'm spooked. Are you spooked? Things just feel spooky and I would feel better if we held hands. I see you and I respect you over there. If you're not scared can you tell me what it's like? I'm doing okay out here but I'd really prefer someone to remind me when I forget I think idk. I always remember but it feels faulty can we compare our data? I gotta go. I'll a see you around maybe I figure I'll see everyone again it's optimistic I suppose but I'm not exactly hopeful. I don't by any external force have to leave I just don't want to linger for various reasons I don't have to explain that probably. Good luck!

[talon]

I’m not impressed man with your flaccid conversation and attempts to be a yes man.

[talon]

bah bah black sheep have you any dreams knockin on your knoggin when you let your mind retreat? Have you any notes about the way that you perceive things? Do you keep your thoughts inside in fear that they will be seen? lil black sheep got ideas uncontested only met with disgust when asking a question well I guess this is my quest then consume the criticism and absorb the cynicism to discover who I best am. Do you read the headlines and do you not believe them? do you see alternate plot lines that you'd rather be in? and does the theme ring exploding like: I'm not impressed man with your flaccid conversation and attempts to be a yes man rhetorically you're Orwell and historically I can not let that be so I'll learn their system and outwit them tactically resistance is intuition fight or flight comes shortly after turns out that I don't want to die so I'll decide to bite you, my master.

[timotay-chalamet]

If you like it then it’s beautiful, if you don’t then you might as well fade the fuck out right now

[primevideouk]

Take back control

(Piece by Daria)

[talon]

This is dope.