Elena ploughs through the lineup of alcohol scattered across the marble kitchen island. One of the perks of being a vampire? Alcohol hits harder, and it keeps the cravings dull. She and Caroline are doing their partâactually their civic duty, by killing the alcohol before these teens get to it.
Lime jello shots that donât taste like any real flavor, just green, and burn with Everclear. Jungle juice, which is just cranberry cocktail, orange concentrate, and way too much Everclear. And trash-can punch, spiked with cheap vodka, clear rum, and you guessed it...Everclear.
Not a barrel-aged bourbon or decent whiskey in sight. Teenagers donât have discerning alcohol taste. They have whatever-they-can-get-their-hands-on taste.
Some rich kidâs parents are off skiing in Vail and left him behind to play house DJ and host a rager.
Elena keeps glancing over her red solo cup at anyone who spills in from the foyer. Caroline notices, steps in, and steadies her with both hands on her shoulders.
âSheâs not coming. âHer eyes getting Elena to focus on the moment, âShe has to study and told us to have fun.â
The kitchen fills up fast with bodies. Happy ones. Sad ones. Wild and quiet. The ones dragged here by friends, the ones who came to blow off steam. The hot guys. The hotter girls. Her and Caroline, in the middle of it, floating. And itâs a test. Standing there, drinking through the pulses and pheromones, breathing them in. Theyâre all so beautiful. So unaware.
Caroline is in her ear, wistful, smiling, âItâs  our senior year, Elena. We need these memories, before we all go off to college, and.. â
College. Before going over that bridge, sheâd been waiting for acceptance letters, anxious to see which schools chose her. Theyâre probably stacked with the junk mail at her house, Jeremy passing them in the hall. She hadnât thought about college since. She doesnât even think about it now as Caroline waxes poetic about them sharing a dorm.
Elena grabs another jello shot and lets it wriggle down her throat, shaking her head. Caroline hands her two more, then laces her fingers into Elena's and pulls her through the hallway toward the living roomânow a dance floor, dark, pulsing, and crowded. A jumbo flat screen plays a Tarantino flick on mute, while the surround sound system thumps through every corner of the house, vibrating the walls.
Caroline rolls her shoulders, pulling Elena deeper and deeper into the crowd, until they are the center of the humans, swaying side to side among them. Â
And itâs that exposure therapy Caroline was talking about.
She can smell everything. Their soap. Their B.O. Their menstrual cycles. Their Dove deodorant. Their sweat. Their arousal. The illnesses already inside them that will kill them someday.
Caroline grabs her hand again and lifts it right under her chin, like they are about to tango. âFucking dance, Elena,â she yells, so excited her whole mouth is open, molars flashing, the faint hint of her fangs just visible.
Elena snorts, eyes crinkling.
The beat drops. She closes her eyes. She jumps with it, rages with it, lets the music roll through her. Letâs the music help her forget.
Caroline throws her head back and screams, âYass!â
And the room becomes a blur of lights and limbs, laughter and heat, a swirl of humanity around her. Elena is floating in it. Almost human too.
A scent that the ones closest to her have only described as difficult. Or hard. Or something they donât think about at all.
All resisting the best way they can.
Elena canât deal like them.
Bonnie is the reason she has to leave.
Hightailing it as human-like as possible, she doesnât speed out â too many people, and their phones like appendages, ready and waiting, recording everything. Ready to post it all with some caption like âScary bitch turns ghost at house party đđ».â
The front door is near, and basically open. So many kids are pouring in, and she canât pinpoint exactly where Bonnie is with all the scents, but sheâs close. And sheâs close to the door.
âElena!â Bonnie says, her eyes lit up. Sheâs happy to see her. Her pulse says sheâs thrilled.
Elena folds her arms in the too-short strapless black dress Caroline made her wear as they got dressed at her house, despite it still being below 40 degrees outside. Her fingernails dig into her prickled skin. âHI,â she manages, her throat hoarse and choking out that she was just leaving.
âYeah, I, um, Iâm not feeling well.â
Bonnie, who always dresses appropriately for the weatherâjeans hugging her hips, that green sweater making her eyes go full forest fire. Nothing about her hides what she feels. She yanks Elena into the hall closet.
The closet is dark. The light switch is on the outside and Elena is glad. She doesnât need the light to see her. To hear her anger.
ââIâm done with you avoiding me. You tell me right now what the hell is going on with you, Elena!â
But she is glad Bonnie canât see herâor sheâd see those black lines they all get, crawling from her eyes to her cheeks.
âI havenât been avoiding you,â she lies, stepping back from Bonnie in the cramped closet, into a pillow of winter coats hanging, bumping the back of her leg into a vacuum cleaner.
Bonnieâs chest rises when she says it. Demanding. The blue and red veins at her caramel throat.Â
What the fuck is happening to me.
Breathing deep, Elena composes herself enough to put her hand on the handle and say, âBonnie, I just donât feel good.â
âI know that I wasnât the most supportive when Caroline turned, and I feel horrible about that, and I donât want to make the same mistake with you,â Bonnie says, putting her hand over Elenaâs to stop her from leaving.
Elena swallows hard, her gums itching. âYou wonât,â she says. Her last human instinct braced to run. Her vampire heart wanting to feed.
Bonnieâs words come out like an offering to Elenaâs ears, pliable and warm, Â as if what she had really asked is what do you want from me?
What she wants is to eat her. Sink her teeth into her breast. Fangs through the wool green sweater and lightly padded bra, down to flesh and blood. Taste the Skittles. Taste the rainbow.
Elena does the only thing she can to stop herself.
She presses toward the door, agitated, and spits, âI canât do this right now, Bonnie.â
But Bonnie leans in, shifting her weight to block herâdetermined not to let Elena sidetrack her again. And that small brush of her body against Elenaâsâthe swell of her chest, the press of her thighs, her warm breath at Elenaâs collarbone?
Her mouth presses to Bonnieâs so sudden, so unexpected, that Bonnie startles. A small gasp escapes as she jerks back against the wall.
Elena flushes with hot, instant embarrassment, her breath catching as she starts to stammer an apology, hand half-covering her fangs.
Bonnieâs chest rises and falls, unsteady. âItâs okay,â she says, voice low and husky. âWe justâŠâ And all Elena sees is Bonnie in that cheerleader uniform from the Grillâsun on her skin, skirt barely covering her assâ
And she crashes her mouth into Bonnieâs again before she can get out another word. Because Bonnie doesnât smell like a childhood stuffed animal to her. And she doesnât think the witch is difficult. And she definitely canât sit at a bar and deny that she doesnât think about her.
Elena thinks the others are crazy for doing anything other than kissing Bonnie.
She catches Bonnieâs bottom lip between her teeth, tugging gentlyâjust enough to make her whine. Tasting cherry lip gloss and something underneath. Magic?
And this time, when she leans inâpressing her body into the petite witch, crushing her against the wallâBonnie kisses her back.
Slowly, she parts her lips, opens her mouth, lets Elena slide her tongue inside. The relinquishing is subtle but completeâher mouth yielding, welcoming, learning the rhythm of Elenaâs.
Itâs not rushed. But itâs hungry. Like theyâve both been thinking about this for a long, long time.
Her hands slide around Bonnie's waist and she gently pushes her bare thigh between the denim of Bonnieâs jeans, hips rolling without permission.
Bonnie makes a soft sound, making her fangs ache, and heat pool low in her belly, as she has an uncontrollable urge to hold Bonnie down, to mark her. To bite.
Elena reaches for Bonnieâs wrists, lifting them over her head and pinning them there.
Bonnieâs pupils widen, dilate with excitementâand fear.
And itâs the fear that does something to Elena.
Gets drunker on that than on all the alcohol sheâs had tonight.
Sucking at Bonnieâs tongue, her breath coming in fast, she wants to drop to her knees and bury her face between Bonnieâs legs becauseâ
The femoral artery. Itâs there. Full
She could bite deep right down there and make Bonnie sing with it. Finish them both off.
âCan I take your jeans off?â Elena breathes, breaking the kiss. Her hands are already at Bonnieâs belt, her fingers undoing the buckle.
âWhatâ?â Bonnie starts, dazed, just as the zipper hisses down.
Elena drops to her knees, the tile cold and hard, and she runs her hands over Bonnieâs rounded thighs.
She can't hear Bonnie, she only hears the rush of her blood.
Bonnieâs hands move to Elenaâs neck, trying to ground her, to get her to pause for a moment. "Elena?" She says her name again, soft-like, but thereâs fear underneath. That quiet anxiety about what Elena might do.
Elena bites down on her own bottom lip, lost in her desire. Her vampire senses map out the artery beneath the skin, vivid and throbbing. She would need to roll down the jeans, and then, she's so in the moment that she just presses her nose between Bonnieâs denim-covered thighs, like sheâs marking the spot.
Elena looks up at Bonnie, not because the witchâs voice finally pulled her from the bloodlust, but because Bonnie canât see her.
Canât see her eyes, pools of black. Canât see her fangs, elongated and ready. Canât see that her friend is a vampire.
And maybe not a friend anymore.
Elena places her hand over the smooth expanse of Bonnieâs quivering belly, then slides it beneath the frilly band of her panties. Her other hand tugs at Bonnieâs jeans.
When her fingers slip between velvety foldsâwarm and slickâBonnie moans and loses her footing, hitching lower as Elena caresses her, melting beneath her touch.
And in this breathless disbelief, in the newness of it allâof her body, of her desireâwith everything tipping forwardâ
Thatâs when Elena buries her mouth against the fleshiest part of Bonnieâs thigh, licking at her skin, right where the vein runs blue and bright â and bites down.
âElena!â Â Bonnie screams.
Thereâs an excruciating prickling at the base of her neck. The start of a million migraines at once. She knows what it is. Sheâs seen vampires convulse and fall when Bonnie gives them an aneurysm.
Now itâs happening to her.
She palms the sides of her head. âFuck,â she cries out through the blinding pain, trying to fight through it, to go back to the wounds and fill her mouth with Bonnieâs blood.
The closet door flings open.
And Bonnie instantly releases the vice grip on Elenaâs mind, and Elena chokes and coughs, bracing herself against the cold floor.
In the dull light stands the drunkest of bros, grinning in his football jersey and backwards cap, here to save the girls from doing God knows what to each other.
Bonnie yanks up her jeans, buckling her belt and cursing as she ducks under his arm and runs.
Elena gasps for more air, reeling.
âWhoa, whatâs going on in herââ
Elena jerks him into the closet with her, slams the door shut.
Her fangs embed so deep into his neck, slicing through his vocal cords â he couldnât have called for help even if heâd wanted to.
Thereâs blood everywhere. On her lips. Her hands. In her hair.
She canât stop eating him. She pulls at his neck, the skin breaking under her mouth. She slurps his hot blood straight in. It gushes. It roils. She swallows.
They drop to the floor, him in her lap. His heartâs still fighting. Eyes wide under her bloody face and curtain bangs. Heâs trying to live, clawing at her face. But sheâs stronger. So strong. His blood in that moment is everythingâbuilding her up, making her something more.
She keeps drinking. Slow. Slower now. He stops clawing. His hands twitch once, then go limp on the tile, right next to the vacuum cleaner and the winter coats.