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7/10/18 Over and Under

Dear Elle,

You just had an interesting conversation with "tazo” (protecting her identity) about.. guess what.. men. That’s right: MEN!

They say “in order to get over someone - you have to get under someone.” Truthfully, I don’t think that’s true. But is it? I wouldn’t know because I never tried that.

I told her a little bit about my past relationship and how it ended. You know what? let me share a little bit of how mine ended to you (which is probably like 2 of you). This sums it up: “It’s not you, Elle, it’s me!” Basically, that’s how my relationship ended. And sometimes you try to look for answers. You force that person to tell you why the heck did they ended the relationship and they tell you, “I sound like a dead horse repeating this over and over.”

Anyway, “tazo” told me that men who have been in limbo for a while with their relationship look for a reason to end the relationship because they feel like they’re missing out. Who are they missing out on??? Women! How else would a man justify his breakup???? Women! Yes, women! Men look for other women to end their relationship with a woman or women. Now, I think this is where the quote “in order to get over someone - you have to get under someone” because you can’t just break up with someone without a reasonable explanation. You get over someone when you know there is someone or somebody else waiting. When there is already another possibility with someone besides that person you broke up with.

You know, it’s pretty obvious when that’s the reason why but when you’re on the other end of the breakup you start to question what you did wrong or how it went wrong when you’ve been committed to a person and not looking around for other men or women in the meantime. It is a painful experience that no one deserves. But it is a valid reason to say when you’re breaking up with someone. NOT “it’s not you, it’s me.”

It’s exhausting and I’m over it.

I had a friend told me who recently had a break up with her boyfriend that she would of rather had her ex tell her that he cheated on her instead of that complete “it’s not you, it’s me” bs.

And to be completely honest, I would of rather had that break up explanation too.

I get over someone and I don’t need anyone to be under me.

#personal #feelings #men #love

6/5/18 Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost

Dear Elle,

Welcome back. It has been 3 years since you used the good ol Tumblr. By looking at your reblogs and posts, I see that it is indeed depressing, materialistic and useless. In short: please ignore my reblogs and posts before this one.

So, I just want to say that I’m back to writing to myself for them to see.

I’ve met more people in my life than I actually intended to and maybe there’s a good reason why. I’ve dealt with losses I didn’t think that I would have to deal with at 22. I look back at the 3 years and see that a lot has changed. I feel like I’m lost but I’m not really lost when I have directions in my life. It’s like I’m wanting to be lost but I’m just wandering around.

I was at the gym yesterday and this woman was yelling inside the locker room. She was on the phone with Steve (I knew that because she called the man she was talking to Steve) and Steve wanted a break from their relationship. The woman said, “Okay, Steve. I understand. I know you want this break and I completely understand. You’ve wanted this for a while. I’m calm. I hope you have a nice life. Oh, and have fun with your new best friend!” The woman did not understand. Remember when I said that she was yelling at the beginning? And she hung up the phone and apologized out loud to everyone in the locker room. I don’t know why she apologized. She opened her makeup bag and started putting foundation on with her Mac brush. I walked towards her and told her, “Hey, I understand what you’re going through and whatever you’re going through, I know you’re able to make it through. Please stay strong.” And she had a half-smile. I felt the pain in her voice when she spoke to me. Her eyes were on the verge of tears. She said to me, “I just don’t understand. I don’t know why. But you actually made my day. Thank you for making my day.” It was 9:00pm.

So woman inside the locker room - I hope you’re okay and I know that you are going to be okay. Steve - you don’t want a break. You want a break from the woman because you still want to keep her captive while dating another woman aka the best friend you were probably flirting with for months while you were in a relationship and decided you want a break so you can have your best friend and the woman too.

I think the point of me writing this 5 minute moment in my life is that we should tell people how we feel. I told the woman the truth that whatever she is going through that she’ll be able to make it through.

And maybe when I feel like there is something amiss in my wandering days that I will be able to make it through the finish line as well. That I’m able to navigate through my life reading the directions clearly.

#personal #dear elle #fashion #lol #diary #okay #positive

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Art Work By Tetsuya Ishida

Ishida’s acrylic paintings are often of people turned into objects, such as packaging, conveyor belts, urinals, and even a hemorrhoid pillow. There are also superficially pleasant paintings, depicting people’s rooms merging with nature, as if the people in them are escaping their dreary surroundings through the use of imagination. (Source)

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I want to fall to sleep with you, and I could care less whether it is in layers upon layers of clothing or only our skin - all I really want is to wake up not knowing where I end and you begin.

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I confuse myself sometimes

I’m unpredictable. What do I really want? If there’s nothing - I’m nothing. When there’s something - I’m overwhelmed? Why is that?

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