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Wow I never thought I’d get to this point. But over the last 5 months I created a huge attachment to my mom. I actually really loved being at home. It gave me so much comfort and I could spend all day focusing on my own health and inner peace. I did yoga and journaled and ate healthy food and drank so much water and spent so much time in my backyard connecting with our plants and our trees. I explore intermittent fasting which I need to get back to! Like forreal forreal I need to get back on that.

Anyways, being back in california i really miss my mom and my home. I miss my room that is so perfectly decorated to my taste. For the first couple weeks of me being out here I felt like..... Wow maybe I should just go home. But i know that would be hella weak. The fires, smoke, and the fact that everything is closed is making it kinda hard. But what i realized is that home will always be there and now I appreciate it so much more. I can go back to that safe space any time I want. And I am so goddamn fucking thankful for that beautiful safe space. Because going out into the world and having to rent your own apartment and pay for all your groceries yourself and all your new furniture yourself while also maintaining a healthy life style and a social life can be really hard. like really hard and I don’t know how people do it. At home its just so easy. And I feel so perfectly content. Maybe it is my comfort zone and I needed to get out of my comfort zone to grow. Which is true. We all do. But what I’’m learning to realize is that instead of being sad that I’m not at home I can just be hella grateful for the fact that home is always there for me and it always will be.

I FEEL A LOT MORE CLEAR TODAY ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK I SHOULD BE DOING IN MY LIFE. NO MORE PUTTING MY ENERGY INTO A MILLION DIFFERENT PLACES TO SEE WHAT STICKS. I KNOW NOW WHAT I SHOULD DO AND I KNOW WHAT I CAN DO ! AND IT’S TIME TO DO THAT INSTEAD OF THROWING A BUNCH OF SHIT AT THE WALL AND WASTING MY MF TIME.

FEEL LIKE YOU'RE WASTING TIME??? OR BEHIND IN LIFE? HERE'S WHY YOU'RE NOT.

check out my video.

#time #waste #spirituality #abundance

Today I felt the power of “if you never ask, the answer will always be no”

Today I hired a professional videographer and we filmed me dancing the naach dance at a beautiful location in dallas. and when I saw the raw footage I was blown away. It honestly looked so good. And afterwards I was on a total high. I felt that feeling of I can truly manifest anything that I want. But if we never even try, if we never put ourselves out there then how is the universe even gonna be able to give you anything in return. I can’t expect to become a professional artist if I don’t share my art with the world. I can’t expect to become known for anything unless I put my art out there and see what it brings in. The point is that we are capable of SO much. We as humans have so much goddamn power. We just have to realize it. We have to come to the realization that anything is within our reach as long as we put attention and intention into and really see our seeds blossom. All you gotta to do is plant the seed, water it, and the universe will let it grow into the most unimaginable beautiful flower. I’m sure of it.

#lawofattraction #manifestation #affirmation #dreaming

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had a really good day overall

Had dance class with chetna, filmed my mere dholna dance with nikita, watched a beautiful beautiful sunset, and spent some quality FaceTime with Will. it was one of those days that just feels full. like i don't have to try to fill it, it just naturally becomes something. which i also realize was my own doing. i made all those things happen today that happened. Which i realized that i should do more consistently. It’s not that i have to put active effort into making something happen everyday. but you know how sometimes there’s something you have to do, or want to do, or should do but you’re like ehhh i don’t need to do it today i can do it on Thursday. well i’ve realized we should just do it as soon as possible. like do it today if you can. because then that way, each day is full. like today part of me knew it would take a lot of effort to film and get dressed and do the video today and part of me wanted to postpone but what’s the point of that? it’s not like i would have any less of those problems any other day. if i wanna get it done, I gotta commit to doing it today. It’s good cause once you plan with someone a time and place to meet, it’s set, you can’t really back out. and then like an hour before i was really pumped and really glad i was finally taking these steps towards manifesting the things i wanna manifest. so my point is if there’s something you wanna do. just do it today. or have a set time to do it tomorrow. like i don't need to wait 3 or four more days to get it done. like literally just do it as soon as you can and then all the things you want to manifest will happen. if not now, when? and i know that’s cliche but its true. like sometimes we don’t feel like doing something-- thats me like most of the time actually. but when i start doing it then i’m happy i did it. you just gotta like get up and go. thats the hardest part. i’m trying to more of a manifester rather than just having ideas in my head. and it’s happening slowly slowly slowly :) keep pushing tanvi. you’re doing great.

May 28, 2020: My realization about comfort zones

BRO. have u seen/ heard of the youtube channel called BetterIdeas? He’s amazing. he basically shares his thoughts on how to be a more productive and overall better version of YOURSELF. i just watched his video on “How the comfort zone is ruining your life.” i think about the comfort zone a lot. it has been a vital point in a lot of the decisions i’ve made in my life. When i decided to quit my job at Tata with no plan in mind I was leaving my comfort zone. when I decided to move back to California and go to raft guide school that summer without any housing plans i was leaving my comfort zone. when I decided to travel to Thailand by myself even though my parents fought me with every fiber of their being i was leaving my comfort zone. even little things like jumping off a tree into a lagoon while in thailand was leaving my comfort zone. And none of these decisions were easy. I spent a lot of nights fighting the pros and cons in my head. I knew in my heart that these were the things I wanted but I knew that they were just gonna be hard and a lot of external forces were fighting me. Now the key is here that I knew these were the things I wanted to do. I’m bringing this up because rafting season has started again and everyone is going back to Coloma to pick up the season. And i’ve been thinking to myself whether I want to go back. And to be honest I don’t. Raft guiding scares me, I don’t think it’s for me, and I don’t love the vibe of the company. But part of me was thinking, am I just not doing it because I’m scared? “But I gotta get out of my comfort zone,” I thought to myself. “I can’t just not do it because it’s hard, that would be chickening out.” But the key here is that it’s not something that I crave or even want. It’s not something that I see myself doing or something that I truly truly truly desire. I love rivers. Without a doubt. But guiding is definitely not my thing. And I know that now. Especially after how last season turned out. It’s not something that really makes me that happy. I feel nervous as hell about it. Which is a good thing. But it’s not something that I truly want to be in life. So anyways thats what BetterIdeas touched on. Because, just bc something is OUT of your comfort zone, doesn’t mean it’s good for you. You have to analyze what you want and imagine the person you want to be and then take the actions that allow you to get there-- even if they are out of your comfort zone. His video helped me solve this rafting dilemma that’s been in my head the past couple months.

So I saw this Instagram post the other day. It’s a fitness page mostly and he was talking about doing stuff you don’t want to do. His “thing that he doesn’t wanna do” is taking plunges into cold water because it’s really really good for you. And he said you should do one thing every day that you don’t want to do. But then I thought to myself, but why? To what extent should we do things that we don’t WANT to do. What’s the point of that? People always say to do something that scares you.. and I kept trying to figure out what the limit to that is. Like I don’t want to jump off a 30 story building.... but that doesn’t mean I should do it either...? BetterIdeas’s youtube video helped me understand what the limit is. We should do things that we’re scared of, or that we don’t want to do, or that are outside of our comfort zone if those things are in alignment with the kind of person we want to be. None of us want to jump off a 30 story building and we shouldn’t either. Because that isn’t in alignment with who we want to become. But things like applying for jobs in a new state, or starting a conversation with a stranger that we think seems interesting, or taking a dance class that is WAY out of our league, or going on a 3 day backpacking trip in the mountains, or joining an improv team, or jumping off a rock that looks way too high into a deep pool of water. Those things are out of our comfort zone but in alignment with the kind of PERSON THAT I WANT TO BECOME. and that is the important differentiation here. this was an important realization for me. I hope it helps you in some way. What are some things outside your comfort zone that you wanna do? Here’s the video that made me come to this awesome realization: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0h-IAlNjd4Q

May 27, 2020

I realized I haven’t blogged about Thailand at all. Except one night in koh tao I made a short drunk post. Ugh! I must share my experience in Laos. It’s one of those things you can’t describe in words. I accidentally deleted like half of my videos from that trip. But it was honestly one of those experiences that fill your soul so much from the inside that you take it with you wherever you go. There’s three different experiences that stand out and make me feel like i’m never ever really alone. You know those times when you feel so whole and so complete that you wonder how you could have ever felt alone before? And then in those moments I have to remind myself how lucky I am and even though I might not always feel THIS good. I can always just think back to this moment and bring back those feelings.

While visiting one of the most popular waterfalls near Luang Prapang, Kuang Si Waterfall, Me and Ruben discovered the most glorious amazing natural swimming hole. There’s no way to describe it other than it felt like an absolute paradise. There was a rope swing and a bamboo bridge. There were butterflies everywhere and the most beautiful clear water..... we ordered food, and jumped in water, we met Adam and Mike who ended up convincing us to come back there and camp. And we did... we came back the next day with our belongings we made a fire that night and Vang (the owner of the restaurant) cooked us fish, we became part of his family, we laughed and joked with his wife, the next day we hiked to the Mung village- a group of refugees who came from China. I could go on and on, but long story short we got a taste of paradise.

In Vang Vieng met the two kindest souls that I have ever met in my entire life. Sasha and Victor. It was difficult to communicate with them as their English was really poor and they mostly spoke Russian. But we still had an amazing time together. We decided to go camping and take shrooms in the jungle and bro I can’t even describe this story it would jus take too long. But it was honestly just an amazing amazing experience.

After that I met Mark, Palmer, Ben, and Nick at the same hostel.... the funniest, kindest, most hilarious British mother fuckers who made me genuinely happy from the inside. The first day we met we ended up doing shrooms at the local pizza bar and we laughed the whole entire day, I’m not really sure for what reasons. For many days after that we laughed, got fucked up, and just enjoyed each others company. They’re all really good people and they just made me happy.

These memories and many others don’t need to be written down. They play like a clear movie in my head. I felt so wholly alive then. Like everything that I had been so confused about before finally made sense. Like all the things that I was searching for, was right here in front of me. I didn’t know what “finding what I was looking for” was gonna look like, but I found some version of it. And when I came back from Laos I didn’t feel like I was searching anymore. I didn’t feel lost as FUCK which is how i felt for a long long longggg time. I feel at peace now, I feel content, I don’t feel like I’m searching. I used to think that at some point in my life the right person or the right group of people would come along in my life and save me. Give me what I was searching for. Give me that contentment that I felt like I needed. But when I was on shrooms in the jungle that night at Lagoon 5 I had a realization. It wasn’t a person that was gonna save me. I was saved. I saved myself. It was a collection of people and places and experiences that made me feel whole. And ever since that moment of realizing I wasn’t lost anymore..... I have not felt empty a single day since. So much gratitude for this journey.

May 27, 2020

Today was one of those days when you have a feeling inside but you just don’t know what to call it. You don’t even know if it’s a sad or happy feeling. Which is really confusing. Because you know how to feel when you’re happy. And when you’re sad... you’re sad. And you feel it out. But now I’m feeling this weird of feeling of.... I want to feel something but I don’t really know what to feel. And I don’t have anything specific to feel either. But I feel something. I just don’t know what it is.

It’s funny because before I went to Thailand I had some of the worst fights of my entire life with my parents and now that I’m back I feel like we are having the best relationship we’ve ever had. I don’t know why, but for some reason we have been getting along super well. We hardly ever fight (I sometimes get mad at my dad for being ridiculously unaware of his surroundings). I cook and I clean and I help around the house. But part of me doesn’t feel like I really changed that much. Part of me just feels like my parents were so triggered before I left to go to a solo trip to Thailand that they felt like they had to fight me on it. But now that I’m at home and have no definite plans for the future, they have nothing to fight me on. And I wonder if this good relationship is gonna last. Like are we gonna immediately start to fight again as soon as I make a life decision they don’t agree with? I’m not sure, but the winds have definitely changed for the better. And it feels like it has a lasting effect.

April 12, 2020

I just watched the documentary called One Child Nation and I want to get my thoughts down before I forget them. Wow-- so this film is basically about China’s one child policy and how STRICTLY they enforced that people are not allowed to have more than one child. Family’s had to abandon their kids in markets and leave them to die. Mothers were FORCED-- literally forced-- to become sterilized or have abortions. They had to be drug, tied up, and brought into hospitals. Some of these aborted fetuses were 8 to 9 months developed. I honestly don’t know how you would abort a baby that developed. Could you imagine? Could you imagine carrying a baby in your body for 9 months giving birth and then being forced to put that baby in the trash? There was a man who said that when he was 18 years old he would drive around his town and see about four or five abandoned babies a day. I can’t even wrap my mind around that. Millions and millions of babies were being killed. Around 30 million I think were either aborted or left to die in garbage dumps while this law was in place. This aforementioned man started collecting these babies with his family and selling them to orphanages where they were later given for international adoption. They are heroes. They are angels. Literally saving the lives of more than 10,000 children. They were labelled as human traffickers by the Chinese government and given 10 years in jail. Their lives were ruined. I cannot imagine the kind of human suffering people went through. The Chinese government forcibly removed and kidnapped children from families. Some had twins. But their kid was kidnapped and taken away, never to be seen again. This makes my heart stir. It makes me remember my humanness. It makes my stupid problems feel small. It makes me realize how privileged i am. How LUCKY i am. I am an indian baby born in America given the absolutely best life possible. I am lucky. I am one in a million lucky for even being BORN. and then I am again one in a million lucky for having a comfortable easy life and sleeping with a full happy tummy every night. It wasn’t just this one child policy that struck me. It was the very difficult lives that many of these village people had. Going hungry. Barely surviving. Being poor. These struggles of other people-- it hurts me to see. Living shouldn’t be so difficult but for so many people in this world, simply surviving is a struggle. It’s these movies that make me want to give back. To recognize my privilege and to ultimately connect with other humans around the world. Asian people--they live a simple life but their hearts are huge. I love the people there. I want to go back. I want to connect again with these people.

In the back of my mind while this move was playing I was thinking how this is contrast to the American law where we are forced not to have adoptions. But the narrator said something very important. Even though these policies opposite externally, they are essentially the same thing-- which is that the women do not have a CHOICE as to what happens to that baby inside their beautiful life giving body.

#abortion #onechildnation #humankindness #developingworld #china

I’m thankful for my safety

I have nothing else to say besides holy shit I am so thankful for this life. I am completely undeserving. And have nothing but love and gratitude for it all.

Me and Olga chilled on sairee beach today in koh tao and hung out with her friend scot from Scotland and we had an awesome time. It’s one of those nights where you come home and just feel so completely whole.

I’m in Thailand now and I’ve realized that the problems you had back home don’t Change just because you’re in another country. The psychological issues we face like overthinking and not really living in the present are just as prevalent. Probably even more so. I’m working on these things even in Thailand. But again above all I’m mother fucking thankful because this existence is so goddamn fucking beautiful and above all love is everything

its been a hard couple of days since i got back to california. i wanna write about it more but i got bit by a dog on my right hand so i can only type with one hand. point is sometime shit sucks and i feel lonelier than ever and then sometimes everything is perfect and lovely in all the right ways

welcome 2020. I'm blessed and I'm unbelievably grateful for these moments of fullness.

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The Scorpio’s persistence to charter new depths and explore new dimensions of consciousness leads the way for others to heal, and restore the soul of humanity too. Beneath the crease of her mermaid tail she covers scars so deep they tattooed the soul. Though you wouldn’t, or shouldn’t ever be revealed this. And she stares them down with pride, knowing the creatures she has faced alone and conquered. Born of mortal tragedy, reborn into immortal victory.

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Left to itself, it’s possible that your particular horoscope would say: “Yes, your chart reveals that you will endlessly repeat these non degenerative emotional habit patterns. Your relationships are doomed from the start. It would be far better for you to enter a monastery or a convent and become a monk or a nun” But there is another solution. One that is at the core of soul-centred astrology You can change what is written in your horoscope. By acting at your lowest good, you can turn an otherwise very good horoscope into a very challenging life. But by acting by your highest good you can definitely transform an astrological lemon of a chart into terrestrial lemonade. The sugar is consciousness

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Dec 21, 2019

Today I watched a movie called Stronger, it’s a true story about a guy who was bombed during the Boston Marathon. He lost both of his legs. There’s something about watching a movie where a person loses their legs to make you appreciate the hell out of your ability to walk. How incredible it is that we have all these abilities. We have legs and hands and arms and thumbs and a head and we can walk run stretch and do crazy amazing wonderful things with our bodies. I cannot imagine at all what the hell it would feel like to not have legs. I cannot even fathom. And I cannot even fully fathom how amazing and miraculous it is to have these abilities. I am so grateful for health. When we are in pain, all we can think is “if this pain goes away I would be the happiest person in the world.” yet here we are, perfectly healthy people still complaining about everything under the sun, worrying only about ourselves and our selfish desires. American society has become so greedy and individualistic that all we chase is the dollar sign. When do even think about how miraculous it is to be alive to walk outside everyday beneath the sun and the stars. its a goddamn miracle and it’s a miracle that we get to share it with others. I don’t know I’m just tired of only worrying about myself. I want my life to be focused on community and serving those around me.

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