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Dear Mr. Santin,

You’re cool. And possibly the nicest adult I have ever met. At first, I was very scared of you but now not so much. I am very thankful to be in your class for my last year of high school. You opened my eyes to see a new light on things around the world. I loved writers craft; being able to write about anything without being restricted was great. I was able to write different stories about experiences, things I wanted and knew about. This class was the best class I had throughout my high school years. It made me want to become an actually writer. I possibly would like to write a full story one day. Thanks for being an inspiration. English was something I enjoyed as well. It was not as creative as writer's craft but usually, I dreaded English. But you make it more fun. I like having the freedom you gave with essays and our work. I enjoyed how our reading related to us in some way and that they were everyday challenges. I enjoy the idea of choose out novel because you did not wanna force us to read something we hated. Thank you because if you did I probably would not have read it. Oops.

Thank you, sir, for all the types I was down and you were there to watch over me. It really means a lot. Although you have only met me this year, it was great to know you were there for me. You made my last year a little less shitty and a bit more great. My last year was a rough year but you made it great. It was great you tried to help me with all the problems I was going through and I can't thank you enough.

I hope we keep in touch.

Love,

Sofia

PROM 2K16

I did not have a huge prom hype when prom approached, probably because I was super busy with school. But when it was the actual day, I had the biggest hype ever.

When I woke up I went to the nail salon to get my nails done for the first time. My sister came along and it was very fun. At first, I was very nervous. I thought it would hurt because I have short nails. It took about an hour and a half to get my nails done, they made them oval shape and painted them a nude natural colour.

Around 2pm, I started to get ready for prom. I started with my hair. I did not really know what to do with my hair so I just curled it and pin my front piece back. I did my make in about 45 minutes. I did my foundation first. Then I moved onto my eyes and did a pearly pink smokey eye look, and then did my brows as usual. Then contoured and highlighted my face. To finish it off I used a coral pink lipstick.

Then I put on my dress and left to go to the guild to take photos. When we got there we took pictures with Trisha and Gabe at different parts of the park. Our friend Gio took our photos as a little gift towards Ryan and I and it was really nice.

When we got to prom, it was very awkward because everyone was greeting each other and I was sitting by myself. I wanted to go home right away because of the situation but I could not. So instead I stood in the washroom until I calm down. When we were eating dinner the food sucked. The chicken needed rice and it was so salty. The potatoes were very dry and the vegetables were liquidly. But I didn’t care for it that much because on the way to prom we stopped at McDonalds. Prom was lit with the dancing; I am not a really good dancer but I enjoy dancing. I wish they played more upbeat music rather than trap music but it is whatever now.

The chocolate fountain was great.

Overall, prom was not worth the money but I'm glad I didn’t spend too much, at most with everything 300, which I'm really happy about. There is too much hype over prom, it felt like semi all over again but with grade 12s.

My advice for prom is to not spend too much money, eat before you go, and get hyper off of soda and chocolate.

High School

High School is not like the movies. The t.v shows and movies based on high school life is complete the opposite. I remember when I was younger I would watch ‘Ned’s Declassified School Survival Guide’ and actually take physical notes about high school. I remember watching ‘High School’, and thinking that I would just focus on the fun extracurricular. I was mistaken. Do not trust those t.v shows, unless you want to suffer in high school. High School is probably the biggest transition, from school environments, food, freedom, workload, and friends.

Everyday Makeup Routine

Makeup is something I enjoy wearing. I got into makeup with I started in high school. The first makeup product I have first ever owed was mascara. It was from Maybelline, I really liked it but I don’t even use it anymore.

My makeup routine starts off with a toner that I got in the Philippines. It burns my face but I love it. I put a bit on a cotton round and wipe it gently around my face. After I use an eye cream, sunscreen and a moisturizer. The eye cream is from the body shop, sunscreen from clique and moisturizer from Aveeno.

Once I am done prepping my skin; I go in with my Anastasia dip brow pomade in the shade dark brown and fill in my brows. This part usually takes the longest because I have uneven brows, one brow has more hair then the other and one brow doesn’t usually pick up as much product I would like it to. Which is very frustrating. Once I finish drawing my eyebrows I set them with a brow gel so the product doesn’t rub on people’s shirt when I hug them. LOL

I go to my eyes after and put concealer under my eyes from Rimmel London in the shade medium. I don’t have a specific method to it but I either dot it on put a small triangle underneath. Then blend it with a brush or with a sponge. It depends my mood. After I set it with a translucent powder and a big bush under my eyes and all other my face. To finish with my eyes I use my favourite mascara called “Lash Sensational”. It is my favourite because I never have to curl my eyelashes because it does it for me. That’s how lazy I am.

To finish everything off I contour my face and highlight. I use a foundation powder that was too dark for my skin so I use it to contour my cheek bones, temples, and jawline with an angled brush. What I use to highlight is the Sephora highlighter. I don’t really like it but I’m too cheap to buy a new one.

That is how I do my makeup every day. It takes me about 10-20 minutes; it all depends on how long my brows will take, to be honest. I enjoy wearing makeup to be honest. It gives me this sense of confidence; I don’t feel like I need to cover up that isn’t my intentions but I enjoy having a new look once and a while and playing with it. I consider it to be art.

How to blend in Pope

1. Buy the school uniform. The uniform can be bought at McCarthy. If you are a girl get the kilt and roll it up so high, you can almost see your underwear and cut the shorts out. Do not wear knee-high socks, wear stocking instead because you are considered cool. If you are a boy it does not matter what you wear just have nice shoes even if there is a shoe policy; just wear your nice shoes.

2. Learn the slang. I still struggle with this but it is important to learn the slang. Do not talk formal people will look at you weird. I get weird looks.

3. Listen to trap music and learn the lyrics. This is something I’m bad at because I hate trap music but just learn it people will like you more and bring you to their groups.

4. Listen with speakers do not use headphone and make sure you are playing trap music.

5. When school ends hangout at the front, just talk to someone.

6. Do not buy the café food, it terrible and buy outside of school. Popeyes, Pam Ams and Regios.

Perspective of my parents

MOM

“Oh my god. You’re stubborn, malkuit. Like a child sometimes. But very loving. Hardworking. And I'm very proud to be her mom. Regarding in school she works hard, about job same thing. At home always lazy and mess in the room. And look like not a girl. When I open her closet it looks like a storm, ruin everything. When she was a child, she was sweet, nice, good girl, friendly. Every time she saw a baby she really likes to take care of it. That’s it.”

DAD

“It’s the same thing. Lazy, disrespectful. What else? Don’t know how to wash dishes. Don’t know how to wash laundry. Don’t know how to wash panties. All she does is boyfriend. And she don’t know how to follow instruction. When I say go to back she go front. When I say front she goes back. And the best thing she’s buy me junior chicken sandwich. And always she has to poo poo first.”

Summer Plans

1. Work – if I can find a job soon because I’m slacking very badly

2. Sports – I would like to play rugby possibly this summer I played two summers ago with Tirf and it was an experience that I would like to do again.

3. Food Trips – I would like to try new restaurants and try new food. Everyone I know are picky eaters so I can never go but I want to change it this summer. I want to find new Mexican places, Greek food, Indian food and more.

4. Beach – I want to go to the beach as much as I can, last summer I went only two times but i want to change that this year by going every week.

5. Catch up with old friends – I been very focused on school and I never have time for my old friends. Some of friends do not go to my school so I would like to see them, like my friend Kerry. We go out to Nandos every time and just talk it is always so much fun.

6. Relax – I had a stressful school year and I just want to have fun

Trudeau

I do not really have an opinion on Justin Trudeau. The only thing I really know about Justin Trudeau is that he is really handsome and he is making a lot of changes for Canada.

Justin Trudeau is obviously the most handsome prime minister we have ever had. His family is pretty hot too if you seen his wife. I really like Trudeau’s hair. That is some nice hair. It probably flows nicely in the wind. His smile is beautiful too. I bet his won because of that smile. I’m kidding but nice smile Trudeau.

Trudeau has done a lot of things already to change Canada. He changed the cabinet by have 12 men and 12 women with difference race, ethnicity and it was amazing to change Canada. And that’s all I really know. Right now there are allegations that he manhandled a NDP woman at the house of Commons. But when I watched the video it didn’t look like it was on purpose. He was trying to get the other dude through the group of people. But honestly, he instead of just walked at the other side where it was empty.

Trudeau is a good person. I like him as if right. I need to pay attention to stuff he does or even just watch the news because I do not do that much. Trudeau seems cool, someday I would like to meet him or his wife. His wife is really pretty, I have only seen one photo of her but that was when it was Halloween. When she was out with the kids trick or treating; she seems cool. I bet she styles Trudeau’s hair.

I don’t have much of an opinion about him but other than his hair is cool and his family is cool.

“Because it's Canada” -Trudeau.

Vicdizzle

One of my close friend that does not go to my school is Victoria Lopez. She and I went to the same elementary school. We were a pretty close in elementary but I guess when you go to different high schools you value friendships more.

In elementary we hung out from here and there. In kindergarten we were pretty close, we spent a lot of time together and she was one of my close friends when I got to Canada. She helped me understand English and translated words that I did not know in English from Tagalog. In grade 3 one distinct memory of her and I was when I went to her house after school for the first time. It was a Friday afternoon and her mother drove us to her house. We sat in her kitchen eating food and watching tv. She wanted me to show her a tv show I was watching but then I remembered that it did not show on Friday afternoons but from Mondays to Thursdays. I do not remember what else we did that day.

Between grade 4-8, we did not talk much. Just here and there, we weren’t that close but we hanged out a few times. But when we went to different schools, we valued our friendship differently. It is so funny now because we are closer than ever. We text each other almost every day. I guess not seeing each other on a daily basis; made us talk to each other. We ended up having a lot in common after. We ended up liking the same musicians and bands. We actually gone to a few concerts together and planning to go to more. I basically tell her everything, I telling her how was my day and things I have done.

We talk to each other like we are in a long distance relationship. Every day we ask how are we and what we do. When we are about to sleep we give each other nicknames. My nicknames vary but usually I call her my chicken nugget or wing. Depends on my mood. I usually buy her all the band merchandise. For her birthday, I made a Calum Hood phone case, which she ended up crying about. On my birthday, she bought me a huge painting of One Direction that is now in my bedroom. I get to wake up with One direction every day by my side.

I tell her everything, I can always count on her to cheer me up. I wish I could see her on a daily basis but texting her is good enough for me. She’s pretty cool. I love her lots and I am glad we talk to each other often.

Philippines

Canada is a place I been living since I was 5

But I rather go home

Go home to my family in the Philippines

Where there is nothing to worry but your loves ones

Rather than worrying about the people who do not care for me in Canada

Go home where I know there is nothing but happiness

I rather go home

Where I am happy and my life is filled with joy

Rather being here

In Canada where my life is just too

Stressful.

HGTV

HGTV is my favourite channel. I do not know what HGTV stands for but the channel consist home good tv shows. Maybe that is what is called. My favourite channel on HGTV is Fixer Upper. It is about a couple who renovates run down homes and makes them into the customer’s dream homes.

I think what interests me about these kinds of tv shows is that I really like designing. Whether it is clothes or rooms. I like to play sims a lot but I am only interested in designing homes and rooms but rather than playing a virtual life. I can spend days designing homes and play the household family for five minutes. When I was younger I wanted to become a fashion designer but then I realized I do not take a lot of risk with clothes. I rather keep it safe and simple.

I also wanted to apply for interior designing at Ryerson but I didn’t have the prerequisite to apply, so that was out of the question. But I can’t wait to have my own house because I want to design it my own way. I find it very relaxing. But I think that’s why I enjoy watching HGTV.

I got promposed the day I was leaving for the Philippines by Ryan. Which was funny because I almost ruined my own promposal. On March 31st, I only came to school for my band audition for Talent Night. I ended up going to school a bit early so I wanted to go to the chapel to practice. But I ended up getting kicked out of school. So I had to wait at the stairwell; Ryan ended up finding me there and I told him that I wanted to go to the chapel to practice.

So we headed up there and the door to the chapel was closed so I said that I would go through the chapel office. But when I went to open the door Ryan grabbed me and pushed me against a locker. I was so confused and he was like “oh my god, hey how are you?” “What’s up?” But at this point, I was annoyed because I got pushed into a locker. So I moved aside and went inside and asked him why he was acting weird. But he didn’t respond, at the end of the day we went to the music room for my audition.

When it was finished people told me I had to leave first; so I did. And I saw Ryan standing in front of me with a rose and a shirt with my name in a huge red heart and my first reaction was “I don’t like you”. I was caught off guard. I looked like complete trash I was in sweats with any makeup and I was carrying my guitar and amp on my back. I wish I took it off. The whole time I was shocked and felt awkward because everyone was there which was scary. I first said no then yes. But yeah.

Coral Reef

During my time in the Philippines, I went to the beaches there. When we went to the beaches. The beach is so salty and when I mean salty whenever I dipped my head into the water it hurt my eyes. We got onto a boat and went to the middle of the ocean. I was so in love with the boat ride. We saw the mountains and watched the water turned into different hues of blues. The water was so warm as well. When we went to the middle of the ocean it started off as a light green and blue but then as we progressed the water was black or a dark blue. But we ended up in the middle of a coral reef. The water was light blue and you could see all the fishes and the coral without even being in the water.

Later they gave us goggles and told us to jump into the water. So my four cousins and I jumped into the water. My parents were given a piece of bread to throw into the water. And hundreds of fishes came up to eat the bread. When I dipped my head for the first time in the water I screamed because I was so amazed at what I saw. You could see all these fishes that were featured on “Finding Nemo”. At one point I tried to grab a coral but the fishes started to bite my feet which got scary. So I left it in the ocean. I saw a mother and baby fish. The fish was a rainbow fish; it was featured on a tv show but I cannot remember which show But it was on TVO kids. I wanted to touch it but it was so deep. It didn’t look deep but it was. After spending an hour looking the fishes we went back to the shore. I wish I had pictures of the fishes but I don’t. Which sucks but this was one of my favourite event I have every done.

TWENTY-ONE PILOTS

The best concert I have ever gone to was last year. I went to a number of concerts actually last year but my favourite had to be twenty-one pilots. They played an amazing show near the lake. The show was something I never expected. I consider their music to be alternative and one of my favourite bands. The band is composed of two guys named Josh and Tyler. Tyler is the main singer and Josh is the drummer.

Before the show started it was pouring rain. My friend and I went there and waited outside the venue for about 4 hours in the rain. We ended up eating sushi in the rain (how romantic) and talked to people in the lines. When we got there they had two opening acts which I can’t remember the names of because to be honest they were pretty trash. But one of the performers of one of the bands were pretty hot.

When twenty-one pilots came, there had a lot of light productions and they were running up and down the stage it was pretty cool. They played all my favourite songs. But I think my all-time favourite song I saw them play was Ride. The song is pretty upbeat and the crowd was just dancing the whole way through and singing. During the song, Josh had a bunch of fans in the pit carry his drum kit. He then proceeds to drum the rest of the song. Which was so cool. The whole time I could not stop smiling I made a bunch of cool friends there and honestly was the best thing ever.

The ending was the best thing I ever since. Usually at the end of songs the bands I usually see just end it with light productions and strumming with a guitar solo somewhere but the way they did their ending was amazing. Tyler went to the back of the venue and climbed this pole and sang from there. He then went to the front of the stage with josh and did an epic drum duet together. I think the whole time my mouth was open. Then confetti came out of the something and it was raining white and red confetti with tyler and josh dollar signs. I grabbed some and cried. At the end of the concert I lost my favourite sweater and then I cried.

AND I BLAME THEM @Tylerrjoseph @Joshdunn (when I meet you I'm blaming you for my lost nice ass sweater)

Being fearful.

We all have the tendency to fear something or somewhat. People could be scared of spiders, snakes, heights and more. Most fears are caused by experiences that have traumatized us or other people’s influence on us has created a greater effect. A conservational fear that people have are about terrorism. Being afraid of something that involves with violence towards political is something most people have in common.

I think being afraid of terrorism is rational. I believe it is rational because it someone involves us although it is not necessary directed towards us. Although it aims directly towards politics we need to be aware we all are involved with politics. If our government does not do something that is agreed upon we also have to face with their idea. We are all influenced by the government.

Being afraid is perfectly normal but after we also need to take into consideration that with terrorism attacks we cannot assume that it is one certain group or a religion. Sometimes our fear terrorism is also because we are angry. People are angrier when it comes to terrorist attacks because we cannot understand the main concept of why it happens. We have the tendency to direct the blame a religion or group.

For example, when the attack happened on 9/11 people blamed the Muslims and discriminated them. People discriminated them because of the group of men who decided to attack. We discriminate them because of fear and angry towards them. Although we blame a certain group or religion because of the incident we also have to see the difference between both bad and good of the religion.

Every religion has both bad and good, we need to be able to distinguish both because we cannot blame everyone in the religion. Every religion is different and we cannot fault one for the other. If we fault the whole group or religion, then we are causing more of a negative effect towards the world. We need to create peace after an attack rather cause more suffering or pain. When a tragic event happens it is better we find a way to find harmony and peace rather than taking on revenge.

If people took revenge, then it causes awful events and we cannot continue to live like that. Our fear of terrorism can also grow if we do continue to live that lifestyle. Sooner or later people will become more terrified. We need to develop a better concept of fixing awful situations rather than cause more negative aspects to our world.

Saddest Day of My Life

The saddest day of my life was last year march 25th. I considered it to be the saddest day of my life because my favourite band, One Direction was losing a member which was Zayn Malik and also it was the day Dr. Clovis cut the girl’s rugby team. It was actually the most painful day because everything was so unexpected. I was not prepared for either of these events to occur. March 25th is soon approaching so I will be mourning because it will hurt.

It started off with Zayn leaving the band. My friends and I were heading to our usual lunch spot; located outside of Mr. Santin’s room. We all were there chatting about school while I was on my phone. I was reading on twitter until I saw something about Zayn leaving. At first, I did not believe it because there is always rumours about One Direction so I brushed it off. Until My friend showed me on her fan account is was true, I could not believe it. I did not want to believe it, my heart was beating so fast and I remember repeating myself “no it’s not true”, to my friends. But later into the lunch, it was confirmed by the News, and that’s when I started to cry. I remember crying through the whole lunch. Trisha recorded my reaction. I was crying so much everyone in the came and watched me. Which is pretty embarrassing but oh well. When the bell rang I went to my fourth period and started to cry even more. I did not even pay attention to what was happening in class but all I knew I had to do was pray to the Gods to bring him back.

When the day finished, I went to one of the science classrooms because there was a rugby meeting. At this point, I was very vulnerable. I remember sitting in the classroom ignoring everyone’s’ laughs, and conversations. Dr. Clovis came in shortly and he was talking about the meetings they had. He was talking about numbers and how there are only other two rugby teams. But then he jumped about the boys and discussed about their games. He gave them their schedule for the season and they left. But soon after Dr. Clovis told us he was cutting the girls team because he saw no point. The girls were not trained well, and he knew the big risk factor of us getting hurt. I was so sad because I knew this was our last season until he retired. So I was very disappointed.

Overall March 25 is the worst day of my life. And I will hate it until something actually good happens.

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