numb.
Im okay, its okay, im fine.
2 words, each pairing of words, so many different meanings.
Mostly, (leave me the fuck alone) and mean it.
Most common (I'm okay) I'm not talking About it but don't leave me
It's fine, that's different, because it is fine, im fine enough not to process, it's fine enough for me to not care enough, it's fine, because if it's not I will emplode.
I honestly can not breathe most of the time, my lungs hurt from forcing myself to breathe. My legs hurt from forcing myself to move. My heart, my heart hurts because I care so much but won't care enough about myself.
I'm numb, but not numb enough to not feel pain, but numb enough to not feel emotions.
I'm exhausted I'm tired. But I dont think people understand.
#numb #bpd #imokay