things have been changing, sometimes furiously, sometimes not so.
that's also a really idiotic thing to say. of course things change, that's not only Darwinian and logical, but also natural. the only thing that ever remains the same are these stupid ass cliches.
anyway, i just wanted to give you guys a little update as to what i've been upto, how many commas i can use in this sentence, and so on, and so forth,
i've learned, perhaps for the first time since i was done with college 4 years ago, that i have the capacity to continue to learn. at first, i confused this tendency with 'curiosity', but they're two different things. also one of them is a proper noun and has landed on Mars.
crucially, i learned a lot about my body. i learned how it works, why it works the way it works, and why it is important to establish a routine that physically, mentally, and spiritually makes me feel a lot more attuned with everything around me. so that was something important i learned.
another thing i learned was that i am not special. this was important. it was important to believe i was until a certain age, but when self-confidence becomes self-delusion, generally speaking, it's important to take a step back and ask yourself, "why am i such a dickwad?" i'm not, obviously, insinuating that i am a dickwad, but my capacity to understand that i could be a dickwad was an important lesson.
an important friend recently taught me another lesson. it's important to not ignore your past. it's important to respect who you are, and where you've come from. over the past few years on my journey forward, i had forgotten who i was. not literally, of course. i'm not a valley girl. in fact, i don't even know what that reference means, but apparently people in America will get a kick out of that reference, so there it is. what i mean by this paragraph is that i've relearned all the things that made me endearing as a younger human being, things that i have forgotten over the past few years, in my quest of infinite monetary gain.
here's something else i learned: you can't teach an old dog new tricks. my best friend's dog, named Shadow, is aged 14 years, and i don't think he knows how to shake hands.
but in all seriousness, the most important thing i learned this year was not to take myself seriously, not to take my job seriously, not to take people seriously. important. important. i've used more bold in this paragraph than [current topical reference].
haha, anyway, let's move on from [current topical reference]. i did really learn some stuff though. like, actual stuff, not tumblr stuff. i learned how to ride a bicycle for the first time in my life. i learned a new language, but i'm not going to tell anyone about it, because that was my goddamn personal achievement, i learned new systems and processes and methods and abilities that further enhanced my artistic understanding, both technical and theoretical.
the one thing i didn't learn this year, though, was how to not make the ending of my posts seem anticlimactic....or did i?
