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aaaaAAAAAAAAA A A H

[teflonfryingpan]

I dont think im going to finish the fic.

Im down to fuck all money, jobless, holding out on someones flimsy good graces to keep a roof over my head.

I can't make myself write when I feel like this, theres so much weight i can hardly keep myself swimming anymore. Ill post the wip thats left of my fic and then.. idunno. I wont orphan but im going to leave it unfinished.

[teflonfryingpan]

Hahaha holy shit i am deeply fucking depressed

[revolution-cheri]

*grabs u tightly by the shoulders* pleathe tell me h ow benzo smells im dyign

Silco grabs your shoulders back, stabilizing you.

Oh, you're plastered. But I suppose if you won't remember in the morning...

She leans in to your ear, a cheeky little smirk on their lips.

He smells like his shop, like books and linens and machines and degreaser. And he smells like his soap, salty and fresh and citrusy. But you didn't hear that from me, understood?

[teflonfryingpan]

I wanna shive my fuckign face into him and HUFFFF

[teflonfryingpan]

Anyway back on my dumb shit Im gonna huff Benzos fat ballsack like its shimmer

[teflonfryingpan]

Hey so quick question how is Vander working with Grayson any different to Silco working with Marcus?

Both formed a strategic alliance with an enforcer and controlled enforcer presence in zaun for personal gain and their own idea of "the greater good of the undercity"

[yrrtyrrtwhenihrrthrrt]

I think the biggest difference was power.

Silco had the power in his dynamic with Marcus, or at least made sure to give the impression he did. He made it very clear he'd kill Marcus's daughter if he ever stepped out of line, in addition to cutting his payroll. Marcus worked for Silco, Silco didn't work "with" Marcus.

Meanwhile with Vander and Grayson, it was the opposite. On paper they were working together, with Grayson keeping enforcers out of the Lanes and Vander keeping Lane residents from committing criminal activity in Piltover. But, the thing is, even before the kids rob Jayce's apartment, we see enforcers in the Lanes, like in the Enemy mv. Grayson is not upholding her end of the deal and there's nothing Vander can or will do about it, but the second he falls short of his end, a reign of terror is brought down upon his business and community. He, in absolutely no way, had any control over the enforcer presence in the Lanes, let alone all of Zaun.

There's also the added element that the Lanes were just one district of Zaun. Vander wasn't even attempting to act "for the greater good of Zaun," he threw the entire rest of his city under the bus in order to keep his own community safe. He didn't care if Silco terrorized all of Zaun with drugs, "Just spare the Lanes." He didn't care if enforcers violently oppressed everyone else in Zaun, as long as his deal caused them to (kinda) leave the Lanes alone (as long as they don't step one foot out of line).

Now, let me be clear, I like Vander, and I don't think he's a villain for this. He was a traumatized man who was terrified of losing anyone else he loved and did whatever he felt he could to prevent more loss. Silco's approach to independence and leadership is also obviously extremely flawed, this isn't to put one down or uplift the other, more to point out that their situations vis a vis working with enforcers were completely different.

[teflonfryingpan]

Thank you for this explanation!

[teflonfryingpan]

The difference is that while the enforcers were working WITH Vander, enforcers were working FOR Silco. There was a clear diference in power dynamics.

Vander was licking the sheriffs boots, getting less than he is giving really with that deal. Silco is blackmailing the sheriff, controlling him in favor of zaun (in his head at least)

Ok but we dont actually know that. Its just assumed by a portion of the fandom that vander is "licking the enforcers boot" by the perspective of our current social climate that dictates compliance with police = licking the boot.

We dont know definitely what vander ever did with enforcers other than that he had some kind of amicable deal between him and grayson.

Like yeah duh the "difference" is the dynamic of control (assertive vs passive) but at the end of the day the two are still doing some kinda deal with the/an enforcer(s).

[teflonfryingpan]

Hey so quick question how is Vander working with Grayson any different to Silco working with Marcus?

Both formed a strategic alliance with an enforcer and controlled enforcer presence in zaun for personal gain and their own idea of "the greater good of the undercity"

[teflonfryingpan]

The good news is Im back on my laptop, the bad news is I have the flu and am too delirious to get my shit together to write yet hhhhh

[teflonfryingpan]

My writing laptop is on the goddam fritz dawg please i need this i gotta writeee

Theres horny demons in my blood n balls CMON

[teflonfryingpan]

IM FUCKIN BACK BABEYYYY

[temxy3]

I am ACTIVELY CHOOSING to IGNORE THE POST that says Silco threw that Molotov to save Benzo, and Benzo turned into a hater. THEY ARE FRIENDS. BENZO IS EQUALLY A FRIEND TO SILCO AS HE IS TO VANDER IN MY MIND OKAY THEY NEED TO ALL BE HAPPY

[teflonfryingpan]

I return home from my holiday tonight!

Ill finally finish and post the next benzo/reader/vander chapter when i get back! ♡

[teflonfryingpan]

I think the reason why Vander is beardless when he tries to drown silco is because hes a millenial at heart and when he has a life crisis he has to do something extreme with his appearance

[teflonfryingpan]

There needs to be a dedicated Benzo thirst group

[letmebegaytodd]

tragedy enjoyers when even good intentions lead to ruin

[teflonfryingpan]

You can ignore this small vander rant lol but...

Everyones "vander is evil and irredeemable" take comes from a very black and white, amerikana, idealist perspective, and I hate it.

Working with the enforcers is the worst thing he's done? Making deals to keep enforcers out of zaun and keeping zaunites away from the land swarmed with enforcers was terrible? Really? He should just keep fighting against piltover and taking lives for his peoples sake? Senseless terror attacks? ? (Since when have those solved class disparity?)

I think people need to ask themselves, if not his solution, then what?

Seriously. What else could a man, tired of seeing death, tired of killing, small and powerless against a whole city, what the fuck else was he supposed to do to keep people safe when enforcers encroaching on Zaun was inevitable?

The events of the end of S1 where the council gives Zaun independence was due to a stack of consequential actions. There was no Jayce Talis for Vander to commune with for favor in the council. There was no Viktor to give perspective when the bridge burned.

Idk im not the best at cohesive thought and im drunk in fukn Osaka but like cmon yall. Youre willing to stand by Silco taking advantage of all of Zaun through human and drug trafficking, his manipulation and abuse of others, but vander is the absolute worst for taking a passive role?

Should vander have been skinnier? Put him in a 3 piece suit? A tophat maybe? Idk...

[wishfulsketching]

A valentines day gift art to @kanskje-kaffe, requested by @withercrown (which I made as a Friends Day gift to Withy himself)

Yes, I will make Silco arch his back whenever I can

[thats1llyfairy]

CRACKSHIPS ARE SO GREAT OH MY GOD

Silco and his bears bro 🥀