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he’s moving even before all of the words had finished, settling himself down beside charles. closeness had never been an issue between them, even whenever they were at odds. those times, though more enemies than not, things were far more complicated than what it appeared on the outside. the two of them had numerous ups and downs throughout the years. despite it all, that history between the two of them could never be erased. “it’s not quite that.” erik is fully aware of how they’ve been dancing around all of this for far too long now. they’re both at fault for it in the end. “i just – these matters are… difficult for me,” he admits softly, gaze flickering away from charles. “we know how things have ended in the past. but i’m willing to have this conversation.”
charles nods along to erik’s explanation. all totally understandable. there have been times when the distance that grew between them seemed impossible to overcome. whatever they had before had seemed impossible, a fantasy at most. but now that things are going well, it’s a genuine possibility. and that, somehow, makes it feel that much more terrifying. there is something to mess up again. it’s been a long time since there was anything left between the two of them to get wrong. if everything’s wrong, what more is there to lose ?? there is so much to lose now.
charles watches the side of erik’s face intently when he mentions the difficulty of these matters. and it reminds him so much of the erik he first met, a shining star threatening to collapse in on itself. these matters have always been difficult for erik, and there was a time that charles knew how to push through that, how to offer erik adoration without scruples. “ erik, ” charles begins, gentle and strong all at once, “ we intend to offer everyone a chance to leave the past behind here. we’re offering forgiveness to even the worst among us. can we not -- can’t we offer that to each other, too ?? ” charles takes one of erik’s hands in both of his and fixes his gaze on the couple of scars erik wears on his knuckles. “ forget the past. what do you see in the future ?? ”










