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What’s society without life

What’s life life without society

So a thought I just had basically had relates to what I’ve been thinking about for my whole grown or almost grown life.

Society is based on a idea of people who’ve come before us and who’ve written what they think life and society is and how we should live and function within it. But now my problem is. If as a soul, I’m born into this here earth and society. Who’s to say actually that I should live and base my life on what’s going on here? What if I came with a whole different mindset of what this place is and should be...? But now because of so called history and how society has been functioning I should somehow corolate my life and life doing with it so to not disturb or go against the whole of humanity and society.

Who’s to say you were born to be a writer or singer when all those things are man made and founded. Why are all things man popular now, where my destiny and life should lead to?

So basically what I’m trying to say is why don’t we have the liberty to be whatever the fuck we want to be outside of society...? How has society become so strong of a opinion of human behavior and destiny that I have to become whatever already exist within society. Especially popular opinion and pop culture.

There is actually nothing wrong with being a bum if you exclude what society thinks of what a bum is. As long as the bum can actually survive. But now what has happened is, everybody should be something that actually contributes to what society is and has become.

What if what society is and is becoming actually what goes against what I believe in and what I think...? Surely that should drive my kind of individuality crazy, living within a society where a people that don’t have the same beliefs or preferences that I have in this world or relm. What then do I do or become if I believe or choose to become what is outside of what society and other humans beliefs are.

I feel like nowadays we’re into believing and having the same mentality as the rest of what our people and society has become. But that goes against what individuality is and should be. I should be born into a family, world and reality where I can believe in whatever I want to believe in and do whatever I want cause that’s where I’d feel I belong...

Nobody is born into this world knowing what they believe in or what they will be. Everybody is is born with individuality and should be able to choose what my believe in and who their God is.

My mothers god can’t be my god cause how my mother relates to her god is not how I would relate to mine.

In closing. We are all free within the bounds of society if really being free is if we don’t go against what society already has put in place. We all are individuals and are Gods in our own right and individuality so no one can dictate who, how or what we believe to be true.

Live and let individuality live. No one knows the absolute truth till we

presumably dead. Which I think we never die really.

My words are nobbody else’s.

With love and my god and truth. Tebello 🤟🏾

#life #spirituality #meaning #fate #deatiny #real #remember me #tello

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My first post in 2012

It’s funny how, my first post made in 2012, is something i realized back in high school and it became somewhat my motto back then. And its stuck with me ever since. Of-course in high i didn’t really realize what it really meant and how big of a statement it was, for obvious reasons. But as I’ve grown mentally, spiritually and of-course physically, more and more everyday I’ve come to realize how big the responsibility is and the challenges that come with that. Little did i know!!!

To whom much is given, much is tested, and that’s been the realest experience ever, relating to this. As soon as your mind adapts to a certain way of thinking and behavior, the universe automatically adjusts to it and all hell breaks loose if you are not ready! AND I WAS NEVER READY! But how could I have been! All we’re ever exposed to (distractions) as kids is everything besides how life really works. So for me the best part about life that I’ve realized is learning about life and enrolling myself in the school of life.

Learning everyday is a big challenge especially with how advanced technology has become, being distracted has become SO MUCH EASIER, that one tends to lose focus on what one should learn, but we rather start being conditioned by what is and who is around us. And if its all the wrong people and environment, you lose all complete focus on your OWN journey and start wandering about and getting lost in all the noise and chaos of this world. That then leads to mental and spiritual weakness.

This happened to me for a while during and after high-school. I started feeling like i was lost, i think that’s the best way i can explain it. I started feeling out of place. Thinking i was doing things i love, which i was, BUT, because of the wrong reasons caused by all the chaos around me, the gratification wouldn’t last very long, it would actually last as long as the attention other people gave it. So i fealt driven to do more not for the sake of self, but outside gratification. I used to think its cause i hadn’t done enough or that i could have done better, but I’ve come to realize, intent is EVERYTHING.

The journey to finding myself amidst all this chaos has been a long and confusing one. But i am finally getting the hang of silencing the storm and just hearing the Higher/Inner self, and i think in any humans life, that is one of the hardest things to do. I didn’t understand this at first because listening to the Higher me, most of the time, meant going against allot of what the chaos and worldly noise and distractions were telling me to do and like and feel.

Having realized just this alone has freed me from so much inner pain and misery. Sometimes the feeling of wanting to share what I’ve come to realize is so strong it almost drives me crazy, Lol. The Higher me is also still a beast that needs to be tamed, but each and everyday is a chance to do so, and in doing so, connecting with God and people in ways you can’t imagine has become possible!

The mind is very powerful and it being confused, miserable and stressed, means your whole universe reacts the same to it. And the only way to live a, not “all happy” but relieved life is first finding self, recognizing self, and then bonding and listening to self. The eyes are truly the window to the soul because in a world full of so much that we both understand and don’t, the way you see things, is the way you shape your life and world. Your mind is your WORLD. Learn to ease and control your mind and you control the world around you.

So kid/s. To follow your heart, means to first silence the noise and to listen to it.

More soon. - Peace

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TALENT BY GOD OR US?

So today i wanted to touch on talent… What is talent really? Gods gift to us? How does it work and is talent really what people make it out to be.

So i started thinking about talent and how people go on so much about it and how its God given or sent. But what is talent and how do you know if you are really talented?

So my break down of talent is as followsȘ

God made us and all there is. Us humans have been around for a while and through evolution and adaptation, certain people have become better at certain things because of how they grew up and their genetic history. Remember, you are the product of your environment, so where and how you grow up eventually makes and shapes your views and life… So now heres where it gets interesting. We are all the result of genetic design. And through reproduction, a mix of two LIVES (each growing up in different environment and having different genetic history) come toghether in a cocktail, and as nature has it, the strongest survive. So in the cocktail of genetics, with so much history and new code of adaptations, the strongest genes are more evident, not to say the rest fall away, but the dominent genes get to decide alot of the new childs ways, views, aspirations and so forth.

Now, linking talent with genetic natural selection and history.

What really defines talent? And how many talents can one really have? And are they really talents or the natural result of genetic natural-selection. For me, based on what i know, people usually have one talent, two at most, three rarely. But how talents are discovered is not really a scientific process. You grow up being good at something, and BOOM, thatțs your talent from God. BUT, the thing is, one only gets good at things based onș 1. how much time they spend doing (practicing) that talent, 2. loving something naturally that then leads to you doing and understanding better than most people. So now taking both 1. and 2. into consideration. Can one then give himself a talent?

Say i grew up an athlete and all through highschool and primary i was into athletics and participated every year. How good i was all depends on how hard i practiced, BUT, most importantly, also on how strong the naturally selected genes were that make an athletic baby. I hope i havent lost you. So now, say after High School, i go study film. And through film i get exposed to so many other elements and spaces that require their own way of thinking in order to figure things out and understand them. Say i really dedicate myself and now i become so good at film, did i then make my own talen or unearth the one that was? If i did indeed unearth, that would mean human being really have unlimited talent/s, and the limit is really only decided by how much a person is willing to apply themselves.

have to go now… will continue this later…

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I’ll Pray For You

You’re slowly finding a way to move the biz and clientele forward. So things’ll change. Just nawe you mustn’t rely on them changing by themselves. Enforce that change.

Find that thing that makes you get exited to make music and use that to channel the energy into growing in other avenues. Rent a proppa place where the stu can function as an office. Level up ma nigga. Its hard at the same time its not. We need to stop acting like we don’t know what to do in order to get where we going.

Work HARD my nigga. By that I don’t mean make more beats or record more people. I mean REALLY invest in growing and nurturing your business. Treat it like your baby, like your life! Allow it to exist in spaces and places where it’ll grow strong. Now more than ever my nigga, we need to go INNN and we need to support each other.

Time is vaiying. Its not even about time but things are changing quick. We need to be very much a part of that change. And to get there means really disciplining ourselves with habits and our time and energy. Ill pray for you ma nigga. Realize how great you are. That’s different from knowing just it

Let’s grow together brody.

Peace

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Dreams... WTF

So i finally decided to blog again… I think i’ve had enough time to really think about a lot of things and gather thoughts on what to put up.

DREAMS…

What the fuck are you and what do you mean????????????

I’ve been having the weirdest dreams lately, and i must confess, i haven’t smoked any weed in a while so i dream A LOT more when i’m clean. I believe so much in emotions so when i’m dreaming and the emotions are so intense, i always manage to lighten the depth of my sleep and light sleep while i dream so i can think and dream at the same time. I don’t really know how the fuck i do that but every night before i go to bed i think about myself dreaming and sort of remind myself or make myself aware that i’m going to dream that night, and then when i do dream, i’m able to consciously navigate in the dream.

It’s not every night tho that this happens. I sleep late on most nights so i usually pass out before i even have the time to really think about anything.

But anyway, back to my fucken point. What are dreams really? I personally hate not knowing what something is or how it works, so when i dream, and wake up and not know what the fuck the dream meant. I get pissed off. BUT, i do enjoy the strong emotions i get from my dreams. I feel more when i’m asleep than when I’m awake. Which pisses me off even more. LOL. Where do i go when I dream? Why do i go there? And why can i 9 times out of 10 not revisit the same place/dream…?

Who’s got the damn answers???? Arrrg. I swear being human and not enlightened enough is sooooo frustrating. I just want to know. Who’s got the answers? Why cant i know? When can i know? Will i know when i die or are dreams just reserved for this realm? If so, that is soooo unfair.

Anyway… I can go on forever on this.

PS i’m at such a positive and more peaceful place in my life right now. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Its still very dark where i am, but seeing that glow from afar feels good, eases my mind a little bit. Took me a while to actually get here. And i know i still have quite the distance to go. Do we actually ever make it into the light? sigh…

More on this thought some other time. For now. More Life.

More soon. Peace.