A face overstudied will not withstand judgement

Bs from my notes app 

[tempest3000]

To speak with you, my love, is to put into words a fraction of what I mean, how I feel, what I want. I am burning with the words we leave unsaid

It’s keeping me warm

I kid myself, thinking that we don’t have to say everything, that we’re so in tune that we can read each other and know the words we leave unsaid,

It almost feels good

But it hurts, my darling, wondering, lying awake, seeking, almost relaxed with you and then I’m analysing, agonising over the words we leave unsaid, 

Sometimes, I torture myself and think you may not have any words you’ve left unsaid, sometimes, 

I’m sure it’s the truth

[lindagoesmushrooming]

[gulistan-blog]

㋡🥀

Hallstatt Austria, in Winter..

[coolfamousquotescom]

A child educated only at school is an uneducated child.

[carpethedamndiem]

Banksy, Love in the Time of Coronavirus

[septemberkisses]

— José Olivarez, from "Getting Ready to Say I Love You to My Dad, It Rains," Citizen Illegal

[megleepoetry]

[gulistan-blog]

㋡🥀

[tempest3000]

I sit next to you as you drive,

Pain tearing through my chest, 

I’m screaming at you, can’t you hear me?

I try to take your hand,

It is ignored.

I know in my mind that you prefer to have your hand free when you drive,

I know it’s nothing personal my thoughts say.

But my heart cries, yesterday

Yesterday you took my hand, held it, 

Ran your thumb over my knuckles ,

Kissed it,

Yesterday, she weeps, gave me hope

Of course,

Yesterday you watched me paint bruises across my face.

I’m still hurting,

I want to yell

Why can’t you understand,

I want to scream it in your face,

I need you right now

But yesterday, you held me as I cried,

Pinned my wrists so I wouldn’t hurt myself,

Convinced me to stay when it was over,

Just so you could make sure I was safe.

And now, you are tired, 

You have given me so much,

And even in the most selfish and darkest part of my heart, I cannot bring myself to ask you for more.

You pull over, turn towards me,

We hug

I miss your heartbeat,

But I kiss your cheek and say,

“See you later”

[reverseteehee]

HEY

Alex Peter – Medium

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[viperstripes]

I have been told that I say “I love you” too easily,

but what I really mean is,

“I have seen you truly live

and I would very much like to see you do it again.”

[88m33]

I get genuinely concerned

That I missed my one chance at love.

Love was a peach;

A peach after I told you I only had nectarines.

And while that’s exactly what happened,

I feel like it’s pretty symbolic as well

Because you gave me your heart

And I didn’t have one to give back to you

And yet you still wish me happy birthday

After two years of silence.

And while I still don’t reciprocate,

I have never felt anything like that;

No subtle compliment

Or lingering touches

Will compete with that goddamn peach.

Now I’m left afraid

I’ve taken that peach for granted

And traded it for more nectarines.

[weltenwellen]

Louise Glück, Averno

[brightlightsloudnoises]

proof

there is orange sunlight and there are shadows cast by heavy, wet ferns coarse and cheap like calico your gingham skirt straddling me on lovers lane sweet and incisive the polished white against the polished blue headlights flash and then roll on and on and we do not need drugs pharmaceutical, recreational, or otherwise even if you belong to someone else I am convinced and time and the mind are fleeting I am convinced

[snehadarkacademia]

[metamorphesque]

Small Wire, Anne Sexton

[tempest3000]

I’m always so worried about what I have to give to the world. What impact I can have, what good I can do, that sometimes I oscillate to a burning sense of resentment. I am fueled to contradict, and I immerse myself in the fantasy of giving nothing, taking everything with no guilt. The feel of the freedom from the chains of obligation, the possibility of it all.

And yet,

I remain bound

Bound to care

Bound to give more than I could ever take