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kwon jiyong (gd): former leader of BIG BANG and ex-soloist. shocked the entertainment world December 13th, 2016 when he announced his retirement from the stage. when asked why, he only looked up and said two words: "I'm tired."

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+ ooc

Hey all. I’m sure you’re wondering where I’ve been. At least I assume since you’re still following. Truth is, I got a really nasty message a while back. I expected some people to sideeye the concept of this account but didn’t expect anything that bad. Like seriously. It’s roleplay, people. But anyway, it really threw me off and it kind of kills your motivation when you get something like that. I’m not going into details but that’s the summary. Not sure what to do not tbh?? Like anon is off but it’s hella unnerving knowing that people who throw anon anon are constantly checking back to the profile they’re writing that too. It feels fucking weird. And I hate it. I’ll figure out what I’m doing by the end of the week. Thanks for being patient.

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❝ quick, you need to hide before they see you! ❞

A MEME FROM @MIYOGURT​:    ⇾ FOUND HERE. ACCEPTING.

Jiyong’s blood ran cold, and then immediately after felt his heart race in panic. He couldn’t deal with this, not now, not today of all days when his mood was a little lower than normal. All he wanted to do was ask for directions; he was stubbornly refusing to let his chauffeur drive him today, and that was probably an impulsive decision on his part. He wasn’t familiar with this part of Seoul since he was always either in a car with a pre-programmed GPS or someone else was with him telling him where to go. He had only stopped for a minute to ask the woman where a certain gallery was, and now he’d probably have to bolt. There wasn’t any security with him ( he really had to stop making stupid decisions when he was emotional ) so it wasn’t as if he could rely on them.

“ Where? ” It felt like he couldn’t go anywhere, but there were also too many choices for him to decide in a split second what to do. “ Where are they? ” Jiyong would just go the opposite way. It was a good place to start before finding an actual hiding place.

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hvrlowe:

it felt as if she’s been repeating herself over and over– a few minutes spent strumming away mindlessly at her guitar, writing down a few notes, humming along lyrics to it, only to scrap the entire idea and start over playing a new melody. hyesoo was starting to lose her patience, and the only thing keeping her from letting out her frustration through whining and quick outbursts was the fact that she wasn’t alone for once.  “i can’t tell which sounds more appealing– throwing in the towel, quitting and running off to join the circus, or getting really, really drunk and praying that some level of inspiration finally hits me.” she sighed loudly after her statement, shoulders heaving to truly show her frustration as she slid her writing notebook away from her line of vision. she wanted to get finished with the song by the end of the day, but if she didn’t take a break at some point, she’d only shoot herself in the foot. “i don’t know how you’ve done it. i can handle maybe two tracks on an album, but nothing more than that… but i’ll never get better if i don’t tough it through this.”

Jiyong knew he was supposed to be helpful right now,  but that didn’t mean he coudn’t joke around first. The male brought the notebook closer to himself and turned it so that it wasn’t slanted to the point of being unreadable. “ Every composer has been drunk off their ass at point one or another, and had a great song come out of it. ” There was a purposeful pause that followed, indicating that he used to be included in that group. But even though he himself needed a break, the male was here giving his advice to someone else. He couldn’t stay completely away from music even if he wanted to ( which, he didn’t 100% ). “ In all seriousness though, you should take a break. Don’t force it. ” His voice went from playful to more serious, but also a little distracted since he was thinking about Hyesoo’s current problem and how they could work on it. “ What’s helped me is trying to work but in a relaxing way... Play around with it. Make up something stupid or funny that’s low pressure and that doesn’t have to be perfect. Maybe even purposely bad. Eventually you’ll get into a rhythm and you can channel that creative energy back towards your serious project. ”

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CONTINUING FOR @MINNIHEE: ■

“of course, i know that,” minni admitted with a sigh, a small crease forming in the space between her eyebrows.  he did have a point.  even if she wanted to live her life as though she would never be punished for any wrong choices, she knew well enough that it was not the case.  “but at the same time, you can’t just live your life worrying about the consequences of your actions.  sometimes, it can even be worth the repercussions.  i mean, you should know that from personal experience, right?  the decisions you made regarding your career definitely had backlash, but you still made them because it was for the best.”  her thoughts were swimming with the heaviness of the topic, and she felt the need to lighten the conversation.  that was what she was best at, wasn’t it?  a tiny grin appeared on her lips, turning up just enough to show a flash of teeth, “so what i’m trying to say is that i’m going to eat a second piece of cake, and there are no consequences in the world that will make me change my mind.”

Jiyong exhaled sharply when his own decision was brought up so casually, but he managed to keep most of the sound under his breath. The rest of what was said was nearly drowned out by the rush of emotion, but he managed to catch it ( even though it might’ve been better that he didn’t, because the comparison didn’t help any ). This time around he took his time breathing in deeply to calm himself before speaking. “ I don’t think you can compare that to a piece of cake. ” The last word was said with audible curtness, as intended. His lips pursed as he looked at the other and then set his fork down to nudge the plate away. “ It won’t bother me if you take another piece. I’m not your manager. ” Jiyong tried to dial back the tone and was only moderately successful. His body language gave away that he was irritated: suddenly he was looking elsewhere in the room and consistently tapping his fingertips against the table. “ But I’m done. You can have the rest. ”

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❝ I am no longer a child! ❞

A MEME FROM @PDXKAY​:    ⇾ FOUND HERE. ACCEPTING.

Surely, she wasn’t talking to him like that, or anyone else that should’ve been given utmost respect at the event ( it was such an upscale venue that he was surprised there was anyone talking that loudly in general ). Jiyong bristled a little at the voice before looking over his shoulder to see where it came from. The person wasn’t hard to pinpoint: the blazing red hair actually stood out more than his own bright green, or at least he thought so since hers was darker. His first thought was to scold, but it didn’t take very long after that for him to realize that he had no idea what went on. For all he knew, there was a very good reason for what was said, and he shouldn’t assume. The male thought it over for a little bit as he sipped his champagne and made his way over.

“ Is everything alright? ” Jiyong didn’t know every face surrounding him, but he suddenly recognized the one in front of him; it was definitely a good thing he didn’t tell her to calm down like he initially was. She wasn’t a person to be talked to like that, at least not here in this crowd of people who were exactly like her ( status & money wise ). Knowing that, he gave a smile and a polite bow afterwards so he wouldn’t be rude.

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86linejin:

[ SMS  → 지용 선배 ☮ ] Yah! what? am i supposed to sit around missing you every time i leave? [ SMS  → 지용 선배 ☮ ] I think you’re just jealous should i bring you with me from now on? imagine the dispatch titles, jiyong follows girl’s day sojin around airport -insert photograph-  ㅋㅋㅋㅋ [ SMS  → 지용 선배 ☮ ] Jiyongie, i’m happy you ate lunch today but please remember to also have dinner, and maybe even desert and don’t forget to sleep properly….aigoo you make me worry… [ SMS  → 지용 선배 ☮ ] When I get back we’ll do something, okay? don’t be sad! Ne? 

[ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ] ..... Yes? : ) [ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ]  Ahaha you make me sound like a lost puppy.  They’d have a field day. I’d say undercover but it never works. Hul. [ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ]  & of course noona. I’ll see what I can do. [ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ] Don’t forget you said that! We need to do something winter-y for the holidays. I’ll be too busy to do anything when it’s Christmas

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actualarchive:

a hundred random starters 

below are starters based on/inspired by various sources. change the genders as you see fit ;)

❝ why do you keep lying to me? ❞

❝ have you ever considered the idea that maybe, this world doesn’t revolve around you & your problems? ❞

❝ love is love is love is love. ❞

❝ marriage is an absurd arrangement. one is sold as a fifteen-year-old child and makes a vow one does not understand and then regrets for thirty years or more, and which one can never undo again. ❞

❝ why are you crying this time? ❞

❝ you will never escape. ❞

❝ this isn’t what I wanted! ❞

❝ everything has its consequences. ❞

❝ this face bears the mission of heaven. ❞

❝ no, you shall dismantle the house of lies, but build the temple of the divine. ❞

❝ one copper coin for a bowl of noodles! ❞

❝ that one has the heart of a lion. ❞

❝ I needed to be summoned. ❞

❝ there’s no reason for this hostility! I come in peace. ❞

❝ they died screaming. ❞

❝ why fight anymore? what’s the point of fighting against destiny? ❞

❝ how long have you known? ❞

❝ I can only speak for myself. ❞

❝ the law can be changed. ❞

❝ are you sure you’re not pregnant? ❞

❝ your child is adorable! ❞

❝ you gave him a riddle for his birthday? ❞

❝ you have no fucking right to treat me this way. ❞

❝ your ambition blinds you. ❞

❝ he adores you. ❞

❝ I feel like I should be shocked that you two had sex there, but I’m not anymore. ❞

❝ she’s going to kill you. ❞

❝ have you ever tried the cakes? they’re actually quite delicious. ❞

❝ you’ll need to be punished. ❞

❝ you should learn to lie better. ❞

❝ sometimes I wonder if you’re real. ❞

❝ I will take back what is mine & kill anyone who stands in my way. ❞

❝ then kill me. ❞

❝ there’s no such thing as love. there is only lust. ❞

❝ you’re selfish. you never think about anyone but yourself. ❞

❝ i’m sorry, but they’re gone. ❞

❝ death is just another adventure. ❞

❝ stop! ❞

❝ let them watch. ❞

❝ you have no shame, do you? ❞

❝ I can’t believe we’re talking about this right now. ❞

❝ I need advice. sex advice. ❞

❝ alright, tell me the truth, is he good in bed? ❞

❝ she is the best thing in my life. ❞

❝ you love him? ❞

❝ do you love me at all? ❞

❝ do you believe in soul mates? ❞

❝ please, you have to believe me. I didn’t kill anyone! ❞

❝ history is written by the victorious. ❞

❝ at least she has a heart! you have none. ❞

❝ isn’t it more important that they told you? ❞

❝ the king is displeased. ❞

❝ long live your majesty! ❞

❝ can you stop talking for just one moment & listen to me? ❞

❝ no matter how hard I try, they just won’t stay dead. ❞

❝ he’s a gold digger. he’ll screw anyone & marry them as long as they have money. ❞

❝ o! how sweet love must be! ❞

❝ do you really think that? ❞

❝ quick, you need to hide before they see you! ❞

❝ you taught me to never trust anyone. ❞

❝ this is extreme, even for you. ❞

❝ you guys were pretty loud last night. I guess it was good? ❞

❝ that wasn’t an apology & you know it. ❞

❝ are you a virgin? ❞

❝ I’m married. ❞

❝ best thing I ever did was marrying you. ❞

❝ red roses won’t erase the fact that you broke my heart. ❞

❝ stop taking all the ice cream! ❞

❝ has anyone told you that you’re sort of a little bitch? ❞

❝ it’s deep dish pizza. ❞

❝ do you want to fight for your land back or not? ❞

❝ I never realized how much of a coward you are. ❞

❝ there’s nothing worse than someone who isn’t willing to try new things. ❞

❝ haven’t you ever wanted to escape? to leave this place & explore the world? ❞

❝ i think you’ve had enough to drink. ❞

❝ your ancestors would be ashamed if they saw you. ❞

❝ one of the dolls is missing! ❞

❝ are we going to die here? ❞

❝ well looks like we’ve found ourselves in a bit of a dilemma. ❞

❝ I am no longer a child! ❞

❝ the baby won’t stop crying! i don’t know what to do anymore! ❞

❝ what if something happens to them? ❞

❝ once upon a time, I gave a damn about what people thought about me. ❞

❝ if he can get away with this, then so can i! ❞

❝ the dark shall come & take everything you love from you. ❞

❝ it’s the same story over & over again. you’d think people would know better by now. ❞

❝ there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. ❞

❝ you are what is wrong with this world. ❞

❝ shattered dreams can drive anyone mad. ❞

❝ I am a phoenix. burn me & I shall return, rising from the ashes. ❞

❝ this is my home. ❞

❝ home is where the heart is, where you feel safe & warm & loved. ❞

❝ running away has never solved a damn thing! ❞

❝ fuck me. ❞

❝ oh the things I’d do to you if we were alone. ❞

❝ stop, he’s not here, remember? he’s gone & he can’t hurt you anymore. ❞

❝ your husband/wife – is he/she good to you? ❞

❝ stop & think a moment, you have to stay & rest. there’s a child who needs you now, you can’t just run & be a fucking idiot. ❞

❝ once, I drank a whole bottle by myself. ❞

❝ what do I want? I want to kiss you a thousand times before undressing you & kissing every bit of your flesh a thousand more times. ❞

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NOW CONTACTING @86LINEJIN​​:

[ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ] I just had lunch and thought I’d check up on you [ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ]  Are you back yet? Your trip is only 1 day right? ~ [ SMS → soji noona 🍜 ]  You look like you’re having too much fun without me ㅠㅠ

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"Does this mean I can have your wardrobe?"

REQUESTED ONE-LINER FROM @STCGNANT​​:

“ Very funny. ” Jiyong shot the other a venomous look. As if. He would rather die or willingly donate his designer clothes before giving them away willy-nilly. “ Don’t make me regret letting you in. There’s still a door to push ya out of. ” He held the other’s gaze for a few seconds longer before he cracked a slight grin. Oh, he was serious, but there was still a playfulness there since he knew Geng was only messing around for a reaction. “ Now are you helping or not? Remember, be careful. ”

Jiyong had known Geng for a couple of years after meeting him through work; the other had trained some of YG’s backup dancers and they clicked instantly over their love of fashion when Ji spotted him wearing a jacket that hung in his own closet.

“ I’ll bring in another clothes rack from the hallway. Don’t steal anything. ”

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"Whatever you wanna do on your own time, I'm not gonna judge." // Welcome to SC

A GREETING FROM @HANHWAYO​:

The comment bothered him and he had no idea why. He barely contained a scoff, but that was because he knew he was probably overreacting. There wasn’t much he should’ve reacted to honestly when it should’ve been taken as a harmless compliment- support, even. Maybe Jiyong was just having an off day but it translated into condescending for some reason. He was more alert at the offense and his previously mellow expression had hardened. “ You’re right. ” Despite everything going around him, there would always be a flicker of fight and a dormant temper. Maybe it didn’t come out at the most appropriate times ( like now…? ) but it was there. “ And I’m gonna make use of it. I’m not wasting time. ”

The other man hadn’t even hinted that he’d be bumming around. It wasn’t personal. All it was, was Jiyong being defensive because of his own fear: that his decision was the wrong one and that his free time would be him being a waste of space and bothering others. He hadn’t found his new place in the world yet and it was terrifying.

There were more words ready to be delivered in the same stern tone, but he held back. He couldn’t stop himself the first time, but now Jiyong reigned it all in and internalized his feelings. Instead he gave a muttered, “ Like right now, I’m not wasting time. Tch… ”

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"Woah!!! It's really you...! I've watched so many concerts of BIGBANG in Japan. I see you go there a lot, do you enjoy?" / Welcome to Seoul Combined! I hope we can plot and grow friends ^^

A GREETING FROM @KAIKARIE​:

Jiyong opened his mouth before promptly closing it. So much for that: the one day he was less vigilant, he was spotted, but at least there weren’t many others around. He just stood there looking a little startled for a minute before slowly relaxing his shoulders and sighing out softly. “ Of course. I love Japan. ” He smiled and then lowered himself into a polite bow. Caught off guard or not, he wasn’t going to shoo away someone ( he assumed ) was a fan. Jiyong was secretly elated the woman was acting positively towards him too; the realization caused his smile to turn into a pleased grin once he straightened up to look at her.

“ Did you have a favorite performance from then? ” Past tense. Everything was paste tense now but he kept the conversation light and avoided the elephant in the room. At least it was there to him, forever seated in the back of his mind and even sometimes settled in the pit of his chest. The stranger’s enthusiasm now made him wonder how much she kept up. But again, he wouldn’t be the one to bring it up.

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SEMI-AU: literate, 110% open to plotting, OC / multi friendly, semi selective. → ooc.

Speculations for G-Dragon’s decision are circulating and range from irreconcilable issues between members, his impending military service, making time for a bigger project, burn out, severe illness / injury not wanting to be made public, a career shift to America like fellow label mate CL, bankruptcy, to a huge opportunity in the fashion world, and many more. None bear any evidence yet.