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hello

@ika-sampu for stuff not personal or personally created.

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I've been subscribed to this channel for a while and her aesthetic always distracts me from the philosophy.

Anyway, key takeaway: meaning or purpose does not need to be grand or volumetric. It can be a small step forward that can be chained together into a meaningful journey while being self-aware of and embracing our own insignificance.

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I am really enjoying Rooster.

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orange is an aesthetic

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Can't believe Jamie Tartt is a professor now.

S01E01 Rooster

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I hate the feeling of overstimulation. My shoulders tense up and my thought processes goes haywire; nothing stays too long to be intelligible later. I look at media, reels, posts, whatever, they’re just a blur of images. It registers but it doesn’t trigger a response; happiness, sadness, contentment, whatever.

It feels like the purgatory of human senses. It’s like you’re becoming a bland biscuit about to go bad in few days (which you’re not supposed to do, you’re a biscuit damn it!). It’s the paralysis demon of senses. I don’t know how to describe it further.

I don’t have a particular coping mechanism whenever this happens. I just lay down and look at the ceiling or plug some music on to distract my senses, or to release it for something else. I think this is why I have sour gummy worms and a couple bottles of lemon juice concentrate on the fridge. The hard texture and the sour taste deliberately distracts my body and forces it to a “reset”.

Ah damn it. I dunno. How are you? I got gummy worms.

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Don't feel pressured to engage with a process that doesn't feel right to you.

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Uncle Peckerhead, 2020

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Time: 08:00 Accounts: Hi tenth, good morning! Me: Hello, good morning. I'll get back to you on this in a bit. My IQ is currently at room temperature.

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I don’t know, I just work here, I suppose I don’t care You can burn it down as far as I’m concerned

-- The general vibe of life recently.

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Doing laundry at night is peak adulthood.

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Visualization? are you fucking kidding me. Are you prep school children? Do you want me to hold your phone while you watch Ms. Rachel?

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angry internal monologues

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I tried Victory Liner's sleeper bus recently and it's kinda underwhelming but definitely good for kids who are a little (maybe more) introverted. The heuristics also works but space is a bit lacking. I'd say about 6/10 because of the price (but I think it's worth it for longer haul trips; 8+ hours).

Working away from the city in the meantime. I hope you have great plans for these next few weeks. Enjoy!

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my current edition of doom scrolling

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glass-eyed on grey skies sojourns into loneliness a dark city looms

-- away from home

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Accounts: Shares briefing schedule Schedule: 2 hours Me: "that's not a briefing, that's prolonged agony" The team: "..."

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being bought and sold heavy shoulders, empty soul burned out of control

-- life lately