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✦ Lv30 Trans Femme. keyword soup in progress! think "magical girl meets eldritch lesbian in heat" ✦ Warning: prone to oversharing, expect NSFW tangents, sapphic yearning, and dangerously specific yet delightfully random ramblings. ✦ Gender? Think of it like a vending machine stuck in debug mode... ✦ Transbian with a PHD in making girls blush and a major in terrible puns & heartfelt moments. ✦ Socially awkward gremlin, with a heart full of yearning and a brain full of sapphic daydreams. ✦ Definitely not a furry... probably... ✦ Aspiring Trans writer and music maker, one typo at a time.

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🌸 About Me:

Hey there, welcome to my little corner of the internet. I’m Terra, a 29-year-old trans femme who's somewhere between a magical girl and an eldritch lesbian in heat. Think glitter, chaos, and a touch of spooky energy. 💖✨ Gender-wise, I’m a vending machine stuck in debug mode, constantly shifting, evolving, and honestly, figuring it all out while living my best life as a transbian. I'm passionate about exploring my identity, embracing my desires, and loving myself—especially through all my nerdy passions.

🌸 Approachability:

I’m socially awkward, a bit of a gremlin, but if you're looking for a cozy chat full of sapphic yearning, deep thoughts, and maybe some blushing moments, you’re in the right place. Send me a DM anytime if you want to talk, ask questions, or just share random thoughts. If we vibe, I'll share my Discord—though no promises, because I do tend to be picky with my circle. But hey, if you’re sweet, I’m always down to chat. 💕

🌸 My Interests:

I'm all about the balance between the magical and the real—whether that’s playing games like Second Life, Warframe, Monster Hunter World, and World of Warcraft, or my offline obsession with Magic: The Gathering. I mean, yes, I’m a big nerd. But there’s a charm to it, don’t you think? Besides, it gives me an excuse to flirt with cute girls, so... no complaints here. 😘💕

🌸 My Hobbies:

In my free time, I’m a messy mix of aspiring writer, music maker, and (most recently) trans girl in the midst of figuring out her vibe. I write a lot of sapphic-focused, trans-centric stories—those quiet, tender moments that hit just right. My music? It’s a bit rough around the edges but full of heart. People say it’s good, but I guess you’ll have to decide for yourself. If you’re into seeing some behind-the-scenes chaos and occasional rambling, you’re in the right place. 🎶✍️

🌸 "Other" Stuff:

So, fair warning—I'm not just here to talk about feelings and art. There's a playful, slightly wicked side to me, too. Expect some NSFW tangents, discussions on sapphic desires, and a deep dive into the kinkier side of my brain when the mood strikes. You’ll hear me ramble about my inner gremlin who gets weak in the knees for pretty girls and big fantasies. Size comparisons, teasing, flirty energy? Yeah, I’ll go there—only if you’re into it though. 😉💕

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So proud of them!!!

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Your all good girls in my eyes.

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Well, it finally happened.

I’d been feeling pretty dysphoric lately after seeing a photo a coworker took of me while I was working at a miniature convention. You know how sometimes pictures taken by other people just look... wrong? Like somehow they capture a completely different version of you. I didn’t feel feminine in it at all. It just didn’t look like me, the me I see in the mirror, the me I’ve been growing into.

So this morning I was doing my usual routine before work: grabbing breakfast at a local restaurant. I headed to the bathroom. Even now, as a trans woman, I still get nervous about using the women’s restroom because there’s always that little voice in the back of my head telling me I don’t pass well enough yet.

I ended up using the men’s room and was walking out when a woman stopped me.

She looked genuinely concerned and said, "Ma’am, you’re in the wrong bathroom. That’s the men’s bathroom."

Then she pointed toward the women’s restroom.

When I just stood there for a second, completely caught off guard, she pointed at the sign again and said, "They should really make that thing more visible."

And honestly? As a gay trans girl who'd spent the last few days spiraling over a photo and picking apart every masculine feature I thought everyone else must be seeing, that was probably the most unexpected bit of validation I could have gotten.

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The best thing about transitioning has been the relief of no longer having to perform masculinity.

Lately, I've been reflecting on why I feel so much better. I'm just over a year and a half into my transition now. Even though I'm still pretty androgynous and spend a lot of time boymoding, I'm not really treated as a man anymore in any of my social circles. And when I do dress super femme (or atleast try too), I just feel like me. I've never felt more certain of who I am.

Now that I've allowed this feminine side of myself to exist openly, I realize it was always there. I just didn't have the words for it. It felt vague, distant, and difficult to grasp. It was buried so deeply beneath years of suppression that I couldn't see it clearly.

What I didn't realize was how much I hated performing masculinity.

Not just the expectations placed on men, but the role itself.

It felt like I'd been put into a box that never quite fit. A box everyone else seemed perfectly comfortable with. A box so normal that nobody questioned it. Everyone silently agreed that this was just how things were supposed to be, and if someone didn't fit inside it properly, people reacted with confusion, discomfort, or outright hostility.

For years I thought the problem was me.

Then one day I tripped, fell, and knocked the box over.

And suddenly—

Wait. There's more outside of this?

There's a whole world out here.

And honestly?

I'd rather stay here.

Because it turns out I wasn't comfortable in that box at all. I was suffocating in it. I just didn't realize it because I'd spent so long convincing myself that struggling to breathe was normal.

The freedom that came with stepping outside of it is difficult to describe.

Even when I encounter transphobia, I still feel lighter. The way I carry myself now is unmistakably queer. Most people read it as gay or feminine, or at the very least not traditionally masculine. And that alone brings me relief, because no matter how someone perceives me, I'm no longer being seen as a cis straight man.

And that's important because those were never things I was meant to be.

I spent so much of my life trying to force myself into an identity that wasn't mine, believing that if I just tried harder I'd eventually become comfortable with it.

I never did.

What I discovered instead is that living inauthentically drains you in ways you don't even notice. It becomes background noise. A constant exhaustion that you mistake for normal life because you've never known anything else.

Then one day it stops.

And you realize how heavy it all was.

I feel so free now.

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Today I was informed by a very attractive woman at the gym that I have "very kissable lips." Unfortunately, this information was devastating to my ability to function normally for the remainder of the workout.

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Hung out with a lesbian couple yesterday while I was working at a miniature convention, and at one point one of them excitedly pointed at a random pink scarf while we were browsing the stalls.

"Oh my God, lesbian flag!" she exclaimed.

I looked at the scarf, then back at her in confusion and said, "That's not quite the right colours. It needs more orange and a few different shades."

Without missing a beat, her partner held up her wrist and pointed at the actual lesbian flag bracelet she was wearing, using it as a direct comparison to demonstrate the very obvious colour difference.

There was a brief pause as the evidence was presented.

Then, completely undeterred, she looked at both of us and declared, "Hey, any colour can be gay if you try hard enough. So, gay flag!"

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Gosh i love my Temu adverts.

[pierppasolini]

The Simpsons - 16.20 - Home Away from Homer

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Smoking absolutely destroys your estrogen.

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Character development.

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lookin hot as always <3

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Girl is cute, gets a reblog!

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I hate it when you message that one friend and then have to wait 2–3 business days for a response like I’ve submitted a support ticket instead of trying to have a conversation.

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I like minecraft, tehehe.

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I've forgotten so many times to use it since starting... 🙃

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Who else loves Gay Bacon?