this year has been rough for all of us. weâre all hurting in one way or another and my personal experience is no exception. this year i wanted to allow myself to become more vulnerable. i decided to go after the things i wanted and/or wanted more of in my life and open myself up to possibilities as well as rejection. unfortunately so much of what/who iâve opened up myself to have led to some very painful rejection. i donât know if i want to continue being as vulnerable as i have been. iâm beginning to lose hope that being the way that i am will help me find the happiness that i want in my life. right now all i wanna do is just crawl into my shell and lick my wounds and then come back out and just focus on me for a while. maybe permanently. thatâs probably not true because thereâs really no such thing as permanence but getting hurt is so painful and it stays around so long. emotional pain never truly goes away. itâs like a scar. it just stays there and no matter how long itâs been, some days iâm reminded of how much it hurt the very moment it happened.Â















