truth

poems, quotes, and pictures

[terriblyhappy]

sometimes when I look away from the story

and detach from the only narrative i’ve known

i think about my ancestors

and the way they suffered so much

the weight of their sacrifice

all for me, so that i can have a simple joy

so i can dream in ways they would have never dared

and so my heart could soar

chain-less and unbridled

an ember carried for half a millennium

cultivated through blood and tears

through love and fears

their spark in me roaring

into flames of aspiration

[terriblyhappy]

you know you hate me right?

what! don’t look so surprised

it’s in your eyes

i’m more of a problem than a person to you

an obstacle to your visual aesthetic

seriously? you still don’t see it

the struggle that you endured

that hardened you

a journey that you should have cherished

your exasperation with every reflection of my being

you’ll tell me you love me most

but your body sings a different song

a rhapsody of frustration and discomfort

drums of expulsive megalomania pounding on

drowning out your sanctimonious affections

until it’s as clear as ever

you’ll be happier without me

[photographss-world]

[mardatann]

[terriblyhappy]

during my darkest days

there was no savior

no knight in shining armor

just seconds, minutes, hours

and echoes of its shade

still reverberating through my core

rippling everlasting

[terriblyhappy]

so it was all a mistake huh

spilling the drink over and over

the same “accident” week after week

13 years of the same slip up

but i guess we were both little then right

and the harm is done now, just get over it

you know how sorry i am

do you want me to suffer too

some how it still revolves around you

and the burden remains mine to bear

alone

[terriblyhappy]

i am angry

angry that i must coexist

i’m raging for true solitude

a desolate fury that begs for isolation

waves of fire liquifying all that approaches

a molten reprieve from this curse

this curse of shared existence

[rienafoutre]

[malaesthetics]

[terriblyhappy]

tears like ashes

they spill as the fire roars

ever-burning yet i’ve always held them close

a pooling ocean of pain

and these crashing waves of clarity

rising with the tide

i emerge from the darkest place

ready to navigate the inferno

[terriblyhappy]

blinding and searing

like a white hot iron

yet it’s heat remains unfading

it’s right where i left it

at the tip of my tongue

stoking under the surface

waiting to incinerate all

[terriblyhappy]

promises of a wondrous flight

wings spread bold and wide

a cooling breeze setting me adrift

the taste of fresh air on my tongue

a bright world spanning out before me

shouldn’t i be soaring

instead i’m choking on these winds of change

plummeting down

until i’m nothing

[terriblyhappy]

keep the ball rolling

so they see you’re doing just as well

keep moving

even when you’re not sure of the destination

keep pushing

through the highs and lows

keep on… cause it doesn’t get easier

and no one will save you

the responsibility is yours alone

keep it close to the chest

cause most are scared of the dark

keep going

that’s the game we play after all

[terriblyhappy]

like a violent cinder set ablaze

ignited by the hells of childhood

and my desperation to smother it

to watch that corrupt ember fizzle away

and i’m not the only one

we’re all burning

yet it seems only I’ve noticed

they’ve seen so much fire

breathing only smoke and ash

unknowingly shaped by the inferno

the smell of their burning innocence

something i can only watch in horror

unable to save their charred remains

[morphic-abyss]

[rosieandthemoon]

[terriblyhappy]

its such a weird thing

finally finding good

after going through so much bad

it’s hard to embrace at times

kind soft sweet loving

and yet a sinking feeling follows

a fear of perceived consequence

that good things never last

that my scars make me undeserving

that i’ll spill my black ink all over the page

forever ruining the good i found

when do i move past that