hello, this is an important announcement of sorts. i've decided that at the current moment, i don't really feel comfortable or happy on any of my blogs. my follower count is high once again, and i just can't focus on anything.
mentally, being here has made me stressed and i can no longer take that. this is a hobby and as many times as i've said it, i haven't been practicing what i preach. instead i've found it to be like highschool, extremely dramatic and not fun at all. or like a job, exactly the same except even more of a hassle.
this website has been nonstop drama and annoyance for a while now since everything went to shit, and it's just not the kind of environment i want to be in right now.
my creativity has diminished and no matter how much i love my muses, i can't seem to do anything because i'd rather be offline than on.
i know it's disappointing and bullshit of me to want to leave when i have so much to do but i really just don't feel like doing it and that's that. i'm very tired of stressing over this as if it actually impacts my life, i'm tired of seeing other people stress about it and see how negatively it affects others.
i've seen anons bully people off of the website, make them delete all because of accusations of elitism or just overall hating on them for things that aren't actually harmful to anyone, seemingly filled with jealousy or petty rage for no reason.
this is not fun, and it hasn't been fun for a while.
i started my time on tumblr at 17, still a kid but knowing at least that things like this weren't alright. i remember being fearful of anons, i still am.
people don't understand the impact they hold when they're hidden behind a screen, especially on those who are already not mentally or emotionally doing okay.
i've gotten few anons in my 3 years of tumblr, but that doesn't stop the fact that every time i see my inbox light up and i haven't reblogged anything, my stomach drops and i feel sick until i realize it's okay and it's nothing harmful.
i FEAR for myself every time i get a notification unprompted. that shouldn't be a response to something that's supposed to be fun. but it is, and that's horrible.
overall, this platform has taken away whatever joy i felt from rping and turned it into a chore. i don't feel motivated and i'm lying to myself if i say that i like being on here because i don't.
i hope that you all understand that i need time away from this hellscape for ME, no one else but me, and that my mental health comes first and foremost.
if and when i come back i hope that i can pick off where i left everything and if not, tbh, whatever. i'll start from scratch. but please understand i need this time away.
thank you, and goodbye.
if you'd like to keep contact and you don't have my discord, it is currently: y/n l/n#0901















