[lunamonchtuna]

to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.

[terrorraina]

That awkward moment when you are in the worst chronic pain flair up you ever had and it just doesn't get better. So you mentally prepare yourself to be bed-bound for the rest of your life.

And then you decide to try different pain medication, and for the first time in 2 months you feel like a normal human again.

[terrorraina]

New Mortal Shell game is so unserious I fucking love it.

Dark fantasy is one of my favorite genres in media. The darker, the better - drench me in blood and gore head to toe, let me look deep into the abyss, i made my home there.

But sometimes it becomes too easy to drown in a dark sludge, so you bring humor, and you bring light into the darkness. That's when it starts to shine.

[terrorraina]

I saw a discussion about the worst movie you ever saw, and generally, nothing rattles me much.

But friend tried to show me their favorite movie once and it was fucking Tenet. I was bored to tears and nauseousness but too polite to plead for mercy.

Me - a person who started reading hard sci-fi for fun as a child.

[terrorraina]

Stellar Blade confuses me.

You play as a sex doll-like main character, but you need booth hands to engage in combat. Is the real challenge of this game to battle your inner horny demons?

[terrorraina]

A Dark Pictures game without the Curators' aura walk and ominous intermissions? Feels wrong.

He was the best character in this goofy series.

[hard--byte]

the hottest thing a guy can be is barely conscious on the floor while someone lifts his head up by the hair so that you can see his glazed out eyes and the blood running down his face

[church-of-lilith]

the gays were immortal and they STILL managed to bury them???

[stuckinapril]

what they didn’t tell you as a child is that you will spend your whole life trying to replicate the same unconditional happiness you so effortlessly experienced back then and that it will never quite feel the same no matter how hard you try

[weltenwellen]

Ilya Kaminsky, from "While the Child Sleeps, Sonya Undresses", Deaf Republic

[primulaceas]

Maggie Nelson, Bluets

[terrorraina]

I'm so glad to see MOPA still making soul shattering visceral music.

[terrorraina]

Wankers at the emercom send air raid alarm messages to the whole city today. Good news - supposedly it was an error, bad news - fuck my stupid baka life.

[terrorraina]

My long-time goal?

To feel at peace at least one more time in my life.

[midnightinshadow]

[terrorraina]

Recently, I had an urge to re-watch Elfen Lied for the first time since 2007(/08?). So I did.

Wow, what a blast from the past that anime was. I totally forgot it is basically eroguro.

Funny how it is better and worse at the same time, compared to what I remembered. It is bloody, violent, heavy, naive, messy and abrupt. It feels more like a vignette to the manga than a distinct series. Which is fair, considering it was airing before manga was finished. I should read it someday.

But at that time it felt akin to a revelation.

[terrorraina]

A long time ago, I had a dream in which I was wandering through the fog for so long that my whole existence was erased from the world.

Since then, when it's foggy outside, I always open windows in my room as wide as possible.

Maybe it'll finally work today.