open your mouth about miscarriage if you don’t know anything about it.
It is not “just like a period”.
It is not something that “you can just try again”.
It is physical AND emotional pain.
It is a fluctuation in hormones.
It is your body expelling something that should have a life and future.
It is possibly having to take medication to open your cervix so that your body will start the “natural process”.
It is seeing your future physically fall out of you, or a hospital room because your body couldn’t correctly do the job and now the doctor will do it for you.
It is bleeding for days/weeks on end.
It is worrying about infection.
It is waiting to be allowed to be intimate with your partner again.
It is never wanting to to be intimate again.
It is blood draws and HCG level testing.
It is a follow up gynecological appointment, and physical exam from a stranger when you don’t want anyone near that fragile part of your body.
It is possibly another ultrasound… of your now empty belly.
It is possibly the need for surgery.
It is crying on the bathroom floor feeling like your body failed you.
It is months of waiting for your cycle to regulate so you can “just try again”.
It is never forgetting the excitement, the waiting in the ultrasound room, the horrible news, the images, the pain, the due date, and the fact that you SHOULD be a mother to that child but you will never be.
And no other pregnancy, no other baby, will ever replace the one that should have been but is not.
It is never being able to truly feel excited when you become pregnant again. Because this never leaves you, and this could happen again.
It is NOT just like a period.
