a heart, it trembles inside her chest, for the fury the other clearly expresses, not only through his words, but actions leaves her feeling unsafe. such a woman like hyeri had never experienced such unconstrained anger from a beloved one like haejin because, while he had pulled off multiple shitty acts of disappearance on the woman, he had never kept fragile and important information from her. in that sense, he had always been honest, but his honesty, it all stopped at that, for he never truly gave her more. he kept her at the sidelines in all ways possible, making the clear distance between the two become bigger and bigger with time, separating them to the point in which they were almost strangers, for they knew their past selves, but not the people who they saw now in front of them.
their relationship, it had ended up in shambles. hearts broken into million pieces, barely making it possible for them to reconstruct the organ with time. yet, hyeri had had it a bit easier, for she pushed through it all for the daughter that made her soul feel happiness again. she had been selfish, she knew that much, but she could not accept that. not yet, not when the man who was confronting her had buried thousands of knives on her heart over and over. he had lowered his walls for her once again, had shown her that his life had been anything but pink and roses these past years ever since their divorce deal was over with, but she ? she still had her walls up. she lied oh so bluntly to him about their daughter, and even if certain heartstrings were pained due to the lie that she kept constructing for him to not find out the truth, such guilt was not enough for her.
and all in all, it wasn’t that she wanted her ex husband to suffer by taking their daughter away from him, but mostly it was hyeri’s distrust towards him protecting the little princess who she had been blessed with. noeul, she came first over anything else, even haejin, and she would make that be known. she would put her cards on the table and let them be crystal clear, for the secret had been found out now and she had her daughter to protect. and for such reason, she keeps herself composed standing from her sitting position as she moves towards the door, locking it for the sake of the two of them, for no one needed to walk into such a discussion, and while it was late in the evening, hyeri knew that it was often that her coworkers at the law firm stayed late into the night.
when they’re as secluded as possible, she settles herself on top of her desk, letting herself look as relaxed as possible before the storm hits, but failing at such for her shoulders look tense. ❛ perhaps i’m to blame for taking such decision and depriving noeul from a father figure, but you were the one to give me all the right reasons to do so, haejin. ❜ she doesn’t sugarcoat her feelings nor her words, if he wants to hear the truth he will. perhaps his disgust towards her will increase for a few days, but she could just not bend her arm. she had been done with such actions by the time she asked for a divorce. it had been enough.
❛ but remember that one last night we had together ? i knew by then that i was pregnant and i was going to tell you ! i was going to call off the divorce and let us have a family together, even after all the suffering you put me through, because i love you, but then you left once again. you promised to change but you never went through with your words. all those lies, they made me trust you less and less, so why would i trust you with my daughter, huh ? ❜ her rant, it shows the pain she’s buried in her heart for long ; she had silenced herself for years and stayed by his side all because of love, yet such love had turned bitter towards the end and her decisions towards her daughter had been taken during a moment in which she was blinded by the pain, the anger. and while such pain and anger had slowly started to vanish, some of it still hung around, sticking to her heart like glue.
it isn’t until that he mentions she’s selfish, and calls her out for her sins that a worry settles inside her chest. eyes now wide open as her sight is settled on his face. ❛ wait a second, don’t tell me you’re going to take this to court ? is that what you want haejin ? you… you can’t ! you know they’ll sympathize with you, and you can’t take noeul away from me… ❜ silence surrounds them now, for she stops herself from speaking further, he heart feels extremely pained at the mere thought off such thing happening even if he’s yet to confirm it, for as much as she knew this would pain the man she wanted to believe he would never do such thing to them. in a sense, they were all still a family, and all of their mistakes and sins, they had to find a way around them. a way to forgive each other for all of it, especially with noeul in their lives.
even so, with such worry in her heart, she cannot help but be truthful to the man she’s loved for years, for lies have done them enough damage as it is. ❛ you can feel all of this anger towards me for doing such a thing, but i won’t say i regret it. not when i knew in my heart it was the best decision for the two of us, and noeul ? she’s happy. she’s barely even questioned about you because i fill both pants. she deserves the entire world, and you continuously showed me you weren’t willing to give that to anyone… especially not to me. ❜ she looks away from her ex husband, eyes slowly starting to fill up with tears for this is all draining. remembering the past and admitting that she could not trust him fully was anything but easy for a woman who had loved him so deeply.
❛ you can meet her, but we’ve got to work this out, just the two of us. no lawyers involved. my daughter… she needs me. ❜
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