January, they say, is the longest month of the year. Once again, people i know have said the same thing. I think not. It came and go briefly, but definitely lovely.
To be honest, I wanted to summarize the memories i experienced, the feelings i felt, the places i went, the people who made me special. I cannot rely on my mind anymore, im 26 and i think my brain is starting to lose or to remember the important things.
New Years was fantastic. We were complete, we took videos and photos, and the food was just as good and plenty. For the first time, i gave my parents pocket money with the salary i earned. My siblings are growing too fast, especially kyle. Ludwig, of course, had a lot of fun and didn't wanna go back to manila.
Oh i have a new job! Its still in TUV but i transferred to A.01 (with Ms. Lev). I am learning a lot this past month. I hope i will grow with the team and build my knowledge product. I hope i will genuinely care about this job and this industry.
And came my birthday. I had dinner with cm & jarell (ofc with ludwig). We ate Texas Roadhouse, i love meat. It does feel like im 26 now, the peak of my 20s. I could feel the maturity, the way how my mind reacts to circumstances, how instead of trying to control i accept and let go, how i wanna nourish and take good care of my relationships now, of how i think of myself. I think the biggest changes is looking forward to the future and to the goals that i can achieve, to the people i will spend the rest of my life with. I really am an adult now. Thats how it feels and it doesnt feel as taunting as it used to.
I am currently in a situation with a guy at work, his name is Adj. He doesnt tick all my boxes but i figured i will give it a chance for now. I like getting to know him and he expresses his adoration for me (this feels new compared to my past dating experience). I like he pays attention to me (sometimes a little too much), I like his face, I like how goofy he is, again I like how he pays attention, he's a sweet guy but he's corny. He does have insecurities, which is kind of a turnoff. He's younger than me and hasn't achieve far yet, he gives unsolicited advice and we dont match intellectually. I'm gonna wait for the three-month rule and see things from there.
This month is all about nurturing my relationships, so I spent a lot of time with my friends and trying to reconnect with the old ones.
Next month i wanna focus on my ability to take pleasure on the moment and accept it when things doesnt go as planned. I wanna rely on God more.