arriving somewhere but not here @th3fragile - Tumblr Blog

Oh, to be a tiny mermaid to escape the heat

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

I'm just a heartbreak after the other. Nothing more. I am not a person but I've always known this. Now i am 30 n still my worst enemy and the world is not making me any younger. I am not tired i am just sure the only way for me is out of here.

#personal shit #turns out not planning on becoming anything or anyone does not pay off #nor dors revolving your whole life around anyone but yourself #now i am just older just as much lost and without any idea on how to start becoming an actual person #or stop performing being one entirely which has always sounded better to me #i am scared my story has only one end

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obsessed with the concept of being haunted by yourself

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maybe you were someone you hate now, and that person remains a cold hand on your shoulder that says you do not deserve this. perhaps you had to destroy yourself and become someone else to escape something worse - but now they hang over you like a shroud. you abandoned me. everyone did, but you - you were all i had. and you left me to rot. maybe the life you could have had was taken from you - and isn't that a death of sorts? - and now it shadows your every step. you keep moving further away, but it follows. there's a ghost after you, and it wears a frighteningly familiar face.