「Dead END」

s e b a s t i a n s m y t h e "Death is not kind. It's dark, black as far as you can see, and you're all alone." +

[keepingbecausefeels]

It’s because you aren’t with me. 

[that-smythe]

I knew something was wrong, I can see why my life is so shit, man I've missed you so much.

[that-smythe]

Christmas is like not that far away joy, this time last year I was drunk and now? I'm just doing nothing wow what when wrong with my life?

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

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[that-smythe]

And I love you too, Sea.

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

I noticed that, yeah, but you don’t tend to really notice it first.

[that-smythe]

I only let the people I'm in love with see that side of me.

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…Who’d have thought you’d be so cheesy, love? I’ve missed you too.

[that-smythe]

I've always been cheesy if you must know.

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F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

You haven’t missed much, to be fair… I like that you know the way to a bloke’s heart’s through the stars. I’ll cook you food and we can do the star thing.

[that-smythe]

I think I've missed a lot, I mean I've missed you being cute, I've missed being able to look into them eyes everyday so yup a lot of things I need to do. Oh and well I know you Sea oh and I can't wait, I'm sure it will be a perfect date.

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F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

I’ll cook you dinner, then. And…I suppose we could watch a flick or…stay in the garden or…I don’t know, what would you like to do?

[that-smythe]

We could stay in the garden and watch the stars, I would like to stay with you and make up for everything I've missed.

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F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

Class! So uh…staying in or going out?

[that-smythe]

Well I'd say out but everyone knows I'm a demon and I don't think anyone would let me in so...I think staying in would be the best idea.

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…Is….that a yes?

[that-smythe]

Yeah it is.

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F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…Yeah. Well. Not like a date…as a date…do you want to come round for dinner one night and I’ll cook you dinner? Or we could go out?

[that-smythe]

I want to go on a date with you Seamus.

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

Well, yeah, I mean…for food.

[that-smythe]

Like a date?

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

Fancy coming round some point?

[that-smythe]

Aren't I around right now?

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

What, that you’re a dork or that I love you?

[that-smythe]

Maybe a bit of both.

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F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…You’re a fucking dork, you know that, right?

…I love you too, by the way.

[that-smythe]

I am not a dork how many times do I need to say that?

.....I miss you saying that.

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F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…I thought I had, though. Dad, you— but…I did lose you for a while and—you really reckon fecking ~relationship status~ changed how fucked up that was? Look, it’s whatever, it was what, half a year ago? Point is, I hope you realise just how hard I tried not to think about you, and how fecking difficult it was not to think about you and…we’ve been fucked for ages, haven’t we? Fucking hurricanes. I don’t know. Ignore me.

[that-smythe]

I love you...

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…How is it every time I think I’m over you you somehow manage to say something or other that makes me realise I’m very much not?

[that-smythe]

Seeing as I wasn't ever over you? And it took me until now to really see that. Seeing as being away from you hurt so much more than being away from Blaine does. I broke up with you when I was going to die seeing as I didn't want you to lose another person you loved. I didn't want you to be the boy who lost his dad and boyfriend. 

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

F2F; SeaBass

[andjustalittlebitfoxy-blog]

…You’re not a monkey.

[that-smythe]

I said I miss us Sea.