Active Oct. 2021

basically a high speed roller coaster of anxiety, depression, and ed

[ayes-7]

it hurts, but i know how to hide it

[thatbitchyouknow]

i hate that one thing pisses me off and idk how to not be mad anymore until i forget ab it

[socialanxietyisabitch]

[mental-breakdown-oclock]

accurate depiction of me consuming media that will later fuel my intrusive thoughts

[thatbitchyouknow]

i literally hate myself so much and keep finding my way back here

[kingkyliezzzle]

[teddy-stonehill]

This month I’ve decided to participate in an event called “October,” where for every day in October I’m going to experience a day in October.

Here’s the prompt list I’m using in case anyone wants to join me in this challenge:

Next month I’m thinking of trying out the “No November November” challenge, where I’ll refrain from experiencing November for the whole month of November.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

BPD be like “my worth is dependent based on how people react and treat me:)”

[softhe4rted]

it’s rot girl autumn! we're decaying alongside the trees!

[jerrylandis]

Oh god I love songs so much. thank fuck we get to have songs

[fast-for-fun]

[missingvibrance]

something about being traumatized and mentally ill for years on end without any help is that it alters your brain and messes with how it processes memories and data. this becomes really inconvenient especially during fights or stressful events because your brain will be aware that something happened but it won't be able to pinpoint what exactly happened down to specific details or what was exactly said. this sucks because it makes you more vulnerable to manipulation and being gaslit. you're easily convinced that you're in the wrong and that you're a bad person simply because of the unreliability your memories provide. i want you to know that you aren't a bad person and i'm so sorry there are people out there who have taken advantage of your incapability to have a reliable memory.

[loveliesttime]

hate that i can't hang out in silence w online friends. sometimes when i'm not replying it's not in a "this conversation is over" way or in a "i'm too busy to reply" way. but in a "on all levels except physical my head is on your lap while we both silently scroll on our phones" way

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[thatbitchyouknow]

this isn’t a cry for attention i’m literally just venting but every time i feel like i’m an attention seeking bitch who needs help but not the way i think i do

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary... (Trigger warning)

I think it's not a matter of whether I will or not.

It's a matter of when...

I know I will break down one day and try it again...

I'm constantly thinking about it.

I'm just a ticking time bomb waiting to explode...

[thatbitchyouknow]

i’ve been feeling more and more suicidal these days✌🏼

[crystalwaifu-deactivated2022122]

Biggest D you've ever had ?

Depression

[sadartistboy]

Dysphoria

[elli0t-b0nes-deactivated2024092]

disordered eating

[greenteaisnotacceptable]

Dysmorphia

[thatbitchyouknow]

Depersonalization