that one Remus girl

✨26•INFP•she/her✨ ✨wolfstar•starchaser•rosekiller✨ chronicly listening to music

[thatoneremusgirl]

Sometimes I forget how pathetic I can get. My brain can sometimes come with paragraphs of things I could write, I can be inspired by anything really, but then I'm sitting in front of an empty page and literally am suffocating unable to see anything through the tears in my eyes. And the page is staring back at me, laughing at my incapability to actually write anything. And so I further spiral into my despair

[thatoneremusgirl]

I'm reading one of those long drarry fics with a lot of political subplot or maybe I'm reading a political fic with a bit of drarry as a subplot... Nevermind, that's not important. What's crucial here is the fact that I've around 150k words to end it, so of course I've got distracted by other fics cause this one is entirely too angst-less and I'm actually put off by that.

[thatoneremusgirl]

Strange fact about me.

Give me fanfiction below 100k words I'll read in a day, give me one between 200k-400k words and I'll be committed while reading, give me a fanfiction over 500k words and I'll be sitting on the edge of my seat, swallowing every word like it's water and I haven't drank in days.

But for some stupid reason the fanfics that have between 100-200k words and those between 400-500k are almost impossible for me to read, it's like I'm lacking the attention span for them.

[thatoneremusgirl]

Once again I outdone myself. I was putting off the summer themed fanfiction because well mostly they're too sunny, and I really wanted to feel the vibe right. You know, the whole sitting outside,reading under the sun, sipping ice coffee.

And you know what? Summer almost slipped by me, I totally forgot what season we have right now and it hit me like a train that I could read "You Signed Up For This" or "A star for a summer's day" or "In summer's mellow midnight" or many, many more Starchaser and Wolfstar fics I have saved just for the occasion.

[thatoneremusgirl]

One thing wrong about me is that I will add that WIP fanfiction on my Subscription list and I'll have dopamine rush every time the author posts the next chapter but I won't read it until it's marked as finished. Sorry not sorry.

[thatoneremusgirl]

I think I've found my favourite rare pairing and I'm going to cry a lot because they're always side pairs and often also not tagged, so yeah... George Weasley and Cassius Warrington will have my heart forever.

[thatoneremusgirl]

I want to bang my head on the wall... I have over half a thousand fanfiction saved on my ereader and I literally don't like anything at all at the moment. So please recommend me a fic, so I could read something 🥺🥺

[thatoneremusgirl]

Saturday by far: wake up far too early for this shit, eat breakfast alone, cry at the kitchen table, drink the amount of coffee that someone could drown in, panic, take a shower, read fanfiction, sing some Noah Kahan's songs, panic some more, dry your hair, panic, sing a song, sit in anticipation... And it's not even 9 am yet

[thatoneremusgirl]

Everyday I wake up kind of happy and optimistic, and

then at a random point of the day I remember wolfstar.

starchaser and rosekiller are not canon and then I'm

pretty miserable 🥺

[thatoneremusgirl]

There isn't a day when I don't grieve the fact that Harry

never called Remus: uncle or moony or uncle moony.

NOT EVEN ONCE.

[thatoneremusgirl]

I have a PhD at crying over Remus Lupin, Regulus

Black and Theodore Nott.

I also have a masters diploma at crying over Slytherin

Skittles and other Marauders, as well as golden trio

and Slytherin seven.

[thatoneremusgirl]

I came to a sudden realisation that my type of man is both dead and fictional.

Yes I'm talking about Remus, Regulus or James.

I think I understand why I do not have a boyfriend like ever.

[thatoneremusgirl]

Every year on my birthday I hope for wishes from my closest friends and without a miss I'm always disappointed.

I guess I should've just got used to it, but damn it still hurts. Like I'm not even worth remembering.

So I guess happy birthday to me...

[thatoneremusgirl]

You know what's the worst thing ever? Choosing a book or even books for a trip, especially when you're a fast reader and moody.

How lucky I have constant access to AO3 and my downloaded fics.

[thatoneremusgirl]

I adore the rush of adrenaline that comes with finding new fanfiction. My brain is always screaming at me at those times "read it. read it now".

And I usually do, screw the fact that I have at least a million others saved by.

[thatoneremusgirl]

I'm so sick of meet cute in fanfics and literature. Give me meet ugly.

Give me a character drinking themselves to death with liquor and then almost walking under a love interest' car.

Give me a character breaking down in a public space, tears and snot running down their face.

Give me meet ugly. Give me every horrible thing about them and show me they can still love themselves.

[thatoneremusgirl]

Well there's certainly a pattern in which I chose what to listen to. I'm just trying to guess is it the color theme or just the sad vibes those albums give.

What's important is that it fits with marauders fics.