what im doing:
today i decided to write about what’s been worrying me and causing me to overthink and stress out for the past few days. i was trying to avoid it because the cause of all this isn’t worth a moment of my time, but no matter how much i try to force myself to not care, it still consumes me. so instead of trying to shove all the things that have been bothering me to the back of my mind, i wrote about it. and i decided that in exactly two months im gonna turn back to this page and write my reflection on it, see where i was at before and where ill be at in that moment. knowing that my future self is gonna see what im going through right now and assure me that it’ll all be fine is comforting in a way. ofc, there’s still that lingering thought of what if things turn out terrible and i end up even worse than i am now. well, there are two ways i can deal with that: 1. i’m determined to believe in myself and i wouldn’t betray myself by making poor decisions. i’ll probably make mistakes that i’ll regret later, but im not going to let myself go down, im only going up. 2. things that’re out of my control are out of my control and there’s nothing i could possibly do to change that
highly recommend trying this out
