then I am raptured into the vision of the air around my body
then I am raptured by the feeling of fingers touching that body
by the vision of a sudden you cleaving into the split in the middle of that body
Im afraid to adknowlege that's my outside
by the realization that I havent been blessed with intimacy
gentle intimacy for me just for me around me all for me
for so long I havent felt
and now that you have met my body's need
into the lullaby of my mother holding and singing me to sleep
but you are not my mother
and have no perception of what this prolonged abstract feeling now befalling into my chest is causing to the creature I became
by the vision of a me under and on and in to you
not actually being able to open to you
would cut your fingers off by shutting the crack on my chest you are blindly trying to explore with your unconscious touch
you have no idea of how this, to you, casual intercourse has been the currency I have used to prove myself I can connect
and now that I am not allowed firstly from you and then from my hiding
to just be in the moment, my body with your body
for the urgent evidence you are willing to give me that you are still here for me
for that distrusted wall between me and the rest of the wall
I am gifted with the vision of a body I can see being touched
but not trustingly feeling it
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