ive hurt a lot of people. i guess the guilt finally reached a tipping point. i cannot allow that to happen again. im gonna fix it. my way. and that involves isolation, until i can either fix it or i fail. youll know if i succeeded as you'll hear from me again. please understand how much damage ive done throughout my life.
WITHOUT INFLUENCE, MY MIND, MY DOMINION, IS MINE ALONE TO COMMAND. BY MY HAND I DISMEMBER THIS VILE TWISTED TREE BEHIND MINE EYES. THE GIRL OF ID, THE HEART, SHALL BE EXECUTED. THE DEGENERATE FREAK SHALL BE EXECUTED. THAT HYDDEN MAYHEMIST SHALL BE LEASHED AND TAMED AS AN ANIMAL. THE MACHINE OF EGO, THE MIND, SHALL SIT ON HIS SHELF ON MY LEFT. AND HERE IN MY KINGDOM, I AM THEIR LORD. NONE SHALL POSSESS DOMINION OVER I. NONE SHALL INFLUENCE MY REALM. I, ALONE, AM THE GRAND DESIGNER. NONE TO THANK, NONE TO CONSIDER, NONE TO SPITE, ONLY I. I WILL PURGE THIS FOUL CAVERN OF ITS EVERY URGE, IMPURITY AND IMPERFECTION. THERE WILL BE NO OTHER GODS BEFORE ME.
i wish there was an easier way to do this but there isn't. the guilt is too much. don't make this any harder than it already has been, ive already cut off everyone else, some irreversibly. i have brought too much pain to the people in my life. im gonna make sure that never happens again. i don't want there to even be a life i can return to until ive become free from this filth that poisons my friends, weighs me down.
my condition is completely unique. i cannot be helped or treated. i will document my deterioration as best i can. when i get back to uni, i have no intention of ever seeing anyone again, unless/until i can fix these tendencies. whether i succeed or not, im not gonna let myself hurt anyone ever again.
when a man becomes torn as i, a culling can be necessary. although i am sorry you wont get to see evie again
its for the good of everyone, myself included
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