The Ego Eris

[houndmother]

many of you just. genuinely don’t believe that people can grow and change.

[houndmother]

this is about the death penalty and its also about call out posts about people who have already apologized for things they did a long time ago and it’s also about using ‘toxic’ or ‘abuser’ as if its an immutable class of person, and its also about any other circumstance with permanent consequences or wherein you assume someone is still the same person they were.

[zombeh]

These are years old but I cannot draw new arts for now a few days so happy 12th birthday freddy

[the-ego-eris]

[the-ego-eris]

SHADOW OF REFLECTION OF HOLLOW DISTRACTION FROM A CLONE OF A TRACING OF AN EFFIGY OR COPY OF A MAN WHO SPEAKS IN &S &/ORS, THERE IS A MAN WHO DOES NOT MATTER, THERE IS A MAN IN THE MIRROR, THERE IS A MAN BEHIND THE LAUGHTER WHICH ECHOES AND RESTARTS

WELL??

IS THERE A MAN HERE???

[the-ego-eris]

if i ever tell you EVERYTHING its because im about to beat you to death

[kyoukorpse]

my fuckin goat 🔥🔥🔥

[the-ego-eris]

> W D G

[swagvo1d]

dead end

[the-ego-eris]

<YOU CAN RUN> from that Demon until [You are exhausted.]

one day {you will have to stop and find out} what it wanted

..keep on running from that Demon til you are exhausted..

[the-ego-eris]

there aren't lots of them for me, just the one. and its hardly even a cat. its somewhere between a jaguar and a bear, only bigger than both. its tail isn't just circles, its like a thick chain. and its pupils are huge

[the-ego-eris]

im sorry for making myself disappear

people aren't treating me the same now

i did what i do best and fucked it all up again

im sorry

im so sorry

i want to go back in time

i want to go so far back in time

im sorry

[the-ego-eris]

bloody footprints and breathing glue

im gonna take my time with you

[ciderjacks]

Hungry

[idkwhatsw]

yummy protein

[the-ego-eris]

[the-ego-eris]

ive hurt a lot of people. i guess the guilt finally reached a tipping point. i cannot allow that to happen again. im gonna fix it. my way. and that involves isolation, until i can either fix it or i fail. youll know if i succeeded as you'll hear from me again. please understand how much damage ive done throughout my life.

WITHOUT INFLUENCE, MY MIND, MY DOMINION, IS MINE ALONE TO COMMAND. BY MY HAND I DISMEMBER THIS VILE TWISTED TREE BEHIND MINE EYES. THE GIRL OF ID, THE HEART, SHALL BE EXECUTED. THE DEGENERATE FREAK SHALL BE EXECUTED. THAT HYDDEN MAYHEMIST SHALL BE LEASHED AND TAMED AS AN ANIMAL. THE MACHINE OF EGO, THE MIND, SHALL SIT ON HIS SHELF ON MY LEFT. AND HERE IN MY KINGDOM, I AM THEIR LORD. NONE SHALL POSSESS DOMINION OVER I. NONE SHALL INFLUENCE MY REALM. I, ALONE, AM THE GRAND DESIGNER. NONE TO THANK, NONE TO CONSIDER, NONE TO SPITE, ONLY I. I WILL PURGE THIS FOUL CAVERN OF ITS EVERY URGE, IMPURITY AND IMPERFECTION. THERE WILL BE NO OTHER GODS BEFORE ME.

i wish there was an easier way to do this but there isn't. the guilt is too much. don't make this any harder than it already has been, ive already cut off everyone else, some irreversibly. i have brought too much pain to the people in my life. im gonna make sure that never happens again. i don't want there to even be a life i can return to until ive become free from this filth that poisons my friends, weighs me down.

my condition is completely unique. i cannot be helped or treated. i will document my deterioration as best i can. when i get back to uni, i have no intention of ever seeing anyone again, unless/until i can fix these tendencies. whether i succeed or not, im not gonna let myself hurt anyone ever again.

when a man becomes torn as i, a culling can be necessary. although i am sorry you wont get to see evie again

its for the good of everyone, myself included

[hardyscal]