The Apple of My Unsure Eye

Laura -27- Equestrian, Mother, Girlfriend Scarlett Grace - 20/10/16 Parent of a child with Cystic Fibrosis

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Tumblr - my baby turned into a toddler and I forgot to tell you...

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So we’re in, as we thought. She’s coping surprisingly better than I thought she would, especially with the amount of people constantly around her. She hates the IVs themselves, they really make her panic to the point that she can’t catch her breath. I guess she gets a strange sensation in her arm when they’re going in and she can’t understand what is going on. We try to soothe her as much as we can, or distract her with toys, but it doesn’t really work. She was a diamond with the cannula, I’m so proud of her. They put plenty of numbing cream on which seemed to do the trick as she didn’t flinch once. It’s weird. It’s not easy, but it isn’t as heart wrenching as I thought it would be. I was so panicked and so upset before we went in but now not so much. I guess when we were told she was being admitted it just made everything so very, very real. I know we treat her CF daily, and we do what we can do keep her safe from germs, but honestly, until now I never really thought about the truly bad stuff... and this is just the beginning. I am so proud at how brave and resilient my Tiny Dot is.

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Scarlett is being admitted to hospital tomorrow for IVs. I’m struggling with this ☹️

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Scarlett has had a cough/cold for such a long time it’s ridiculous. Because of her CF she’s been on 4 different antibiotic treatments so far and is just progressing on to her 5th. If she’s no better in a week she’s going to have to go in for IV antibiotics and it makes me so sad. We narrowly avoided IVs a week ago as she stopped coughing for all of 1 day but understandably, it’s not enough. I really hope she’s better next week. I really, really don’t want someone shoving a needle into her tiny little hand.

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That face, though 😍

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(Not so) Tiny Dot spam.

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I’d 100% rather be “stingy” on presents than raise spoiled kids, especially when they’re too young to even remember! 🤷🏻‍♀️ lol

I’d be inclined to agree. And also I don’t ever want that level of gifting to be expected from her either in the sense of having to beat it the next year and the next. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think in all cases the children turn out spoilt and ungrateful. Some are certainly luckier than others in that their parents are able to get more for their children. I just hope Scarlett is always grateful for what she is given, whether that be a whole hoard of gifts or a pair of socks.

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So I’m on a Facebook group called The Bump and Baby Bunch which I mostly just lurk on. I’ve noticed a lot of people posting either lists or photos of what they are buying their children for Christmas and the amount is just ridiculous! So, so much stuff for 1/2 year olds. I don’t get it. They’re all asking if what they bought is enough too and I can’t work out if they’re genuinely unsure or if they are really just showing off how much they’ve got. I dunno. Maybe it’s because Scarlett has not long had her birthday but she really doesn’t need all that much. Maybe I’m being the stingy one. 🤷🏼‍♀️

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Dying.

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Dr Doyle 👩🏼‍⚕️ I think this is possibly one of the first toy sets she has actively taken an invested interested in and taken the time to learn what to do with each piece. Normally we have to keep going back to something to help her understand what she’s supposed to do with it. Or perhaps she’ll just play with it for a couple of minutes and that’s it however this doctors set she seems to really love. I’m pretty proud of her ❤️

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I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it. I want it.

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You guyyyyys!!!!!! After only learning to stand up without holding on to anything two days ago, look what my clever clogs did today!!!!!!

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I went to Your Horse Live this weekend for my birthday treat from my bestie. It was incredible. So much shopping and then an insane evening of workshops by Carl Hester and a little treat performance by none other than Valegro and Charlotte Dujardin!!!! (If you’re a pony person and enjoy Dressage you’d be totally fan girling like I was...) Anyway. I bought Scarlett a new coat from Joules as she needs one however it would seem I bought it in a size sliiiiiightly too big. I’ll put that away until next year then shall I. 🤦🏼‍♀️

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Genuinely the only hat she would keep on her head.

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Work have agreed for me to work part time 🎉🎉🎉 I am so excited and so relieved - I feel like such a weight has been lifted finally and I cannot wait for it to start. I did have a little wobble and wonder if this really was the right thing for her but I absolutely think it is. She’s starting to enjoy nursery and will continue to stay there for 2 days a week but I know she loves to spend time with me and our baby friends. I always make sure we do stuff too so there will still be targeted learning sessions and adventures that we will go on. I’m so Happy I could cry.

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Clever Girl! 😍 . . . #baby #instababy #babiesofinstagram #toddler #clevergirl

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These two love each other so much and I just can’t quite handle the cute! All night they spent their time trying to kiss and cuddle and stay as close together as they could. Best friends for life.