Iâll write for: Hopper, Steve, Eddie, Billy, and Murray
Iâm comfortable writing: most things, honestly :)
I will not write for: smut with any of the kids in the party, even if asked for aged up. Anything that is clearly noncon. annddd i think anything with bodily fluids that ARENâT a type of cum :) i also dont really want to write for character x character.
A steve harrington x reader fanfiction | multi-chapter | teacher!steve harrington & teacher!reader | enemies to loverswarnings: reader matches steve's freak... meaning shes a total bitch diva. when i say enemies. actual enemies. slow burn. no pre-existing feelings. they both don't like one another.
summary: You and Steve are not friends. You never were, and if you had it your way, never will be. You almost found it funny that, of course, your first year teaching, you're right next door to the man you hate most. first chapter on december 11th a/n: Here's a sneak peak.
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Synopsisâ After the birth of your second child, you, a 34-year-old finds herself drowning in postpartum depression and emotional isolation. Your husband, once your partner in dreams and laughter, has grown distant and preoccupied, lost in the logistics of fatherhood and career. Your once-passionate relationship now feels transactional and cold. In an attempt to reconnect with your old self, There, you meet Eddie, a 22-year-old. Your connection with Eddie becomes a lifeline. Youâre torn between guilt and awakening, between the safety of your old life and the thrill of rediscovering your sense of self. As your bond deepens, you must confront what love really means, and whether youâre willing to risk everything to follow the heartbeat you thought you lost forever.
Content warningâ18+, mdni. Violence, drug abuse, toxicity all around, manipulation, alcohol use, controlling behavior, explicit sexual behavior and activities.
A/Nâ DO NOT READ IF SENSITIVE TO ANY OF THESE TOPICS! + Warning list will be updated as I go.
Chapter One: Sink or Swim coming soonâŠ
Chapter Two: Test Drive coming soonâŠ
Chapter Three: Iâll make you miss me coming soonâŠ
description: your best friend and roommate eddie is pissing you off, per usual. his way of making you feel heard is not very conventional.
warnings: 18+ content, MDNI, no use of y/n, roommate au, lowkey pwp, best friend!eddie, reader and eddie are both in their 30s, a bit of force proximity, reader is awkward as fuck (she just like me), reader hasn't gotten dick lately, mentions of voyeurism (eddie and reader have listened to each other having sex), kind of dom!eddie, fingering, oral (f receiving), multiple orgasms, unprotected p in v, lots and lots of dirty talk, eddie cums in reader.... annoying ass neighbors?
authors note: yeah i don't know. i'm just horny for this man. all of the time. thanks to lindsey @amanitacowboy who CONSISTENTLY feeds into my delusions. love u.
how to help palestine ~ dividers by @cafekitsune
He pissed you off for the fourth time today.Â
You had spent most of your day doing yard work, trying to ensure the home you two shared did not look overgrown for your snooty neighbors. They already hated that there was an unmarried couple living next to them. Even worse they were not even a couple.Â
Eddie and you had been friends for over a decade. When you two could not find someone to settle down with once you both turned 30, you decided to rent a house together. You were sick of living at home with your parents and everyone else around you was in love. Steve had Kira, Robin had Vicki, and well⊠you had Eddie. Eddie had you. But not in a romantic sense.Â
Thatâs what you two told yourselves, at least.Â
Made crystal clear years ago, you and Eddie knew your friendship meant more than some knee jerk desires. You had kissed once, and you would be lying if you said you did not enjoy it. He was tentative, kissing you like he was trying to melt all your worries away. At the time, it was a desperate attempt to distract your mind from a shitty break up and Eddie had gotten a bit too high.Â
That next morning, you sat down with him and discussed boundaries. No kissing, no sex. That was the hard line, and for years, you two had kept that promise to yourselves.Â
There had been moments. An evening out with friends where you two would dance all night together and when you parted to go to your separate rooms, you would linger in the hallway just staring at each other. No one ever caved because you both knew you would regret it in the morning. Or the tense nights where one of you said something to rub the other person the wrong way. Sometimes it would turn into you two apologizing in the dimly lit kitchen, hugging and swaying near the flickering oven lightbulb.Â
Today was going to be one of those days for sure. Everything he did rubbed you the wrong way.
He had not done the dishes last night, deciding to stay up late and drink himself into a deep slumber. When you woke up, wrapped in your falling-apart-at-the-seams robe and saw the dishes, you wanted to throw an empty beer bottle at him. But you didnât. You just did them and didnât say a word.
Then there was leaving his wet clothes in the washing machine. The moment your nose got a whiff of the despicable scent of molding clothes, you slammed the top down and groaned his name. He was not even in the house, deciding as soon as he woke up that he needed to go get a pack of cigarettes from the gas station.Â
Then there was him being adamant about washing his van with the hose you were trying to use to water the dying plants in the flower beds surrounding your front door. You just grit your teeth, jerking your head into a nod when he asked for it.Â
Now here he is, making you mad again as you sweat all of your body weight over some weeds.Â
âIâm having some of the guys over tonight for some burgers-â
âNo.â
He narrows his eyes at you, swatting a gnat away from his face as you place your hands on your hips.Â
âWhy not?â
You had a list. A big long list. The house was a disaster. The neighbors called a noise complaint last time. The grill needed propane.
This was the tipping point.
âEddie, Iâm gonna fuckinâ kill you in our front yard,â You blow up, throwing off your gardening gloves, âYou havenât done shit for this house in months. I am like your own little personal housewife. I am the only person in this house that keeps it nice and clean. I havenât had a night out in months because I am using my weekends to keep up with this shithole. I havenât had a guy over in over a year, for fucks sake! No guy wants to fuck a girl who lives with a shitty roommate who canât even clean. I need⊠I need your help.âÂ
His demeanor shifts, his shoulders slumping a bit. You did not mean for the word vomit to come out like that. You sounded vicious, but all of it needed to come out at sometime.
âSweetheart-â
But you do not want his excuses. You wave him off, storming towards the front door and swinging open the glass door, letting it shut behind you. You needed cold A/C on your face. You were about to pass out from anger and heatstroke. Damn Indiana summers.Â
Eddie launches the door open, practically chasing you down to the kitchen. You stand under a vent, tilting your face directly towards the line of air.Â
âWhat do you need my help with?â He asks, a slight arrogance in his tone.Â
You donât even look at him. You just hum as the cold air caresses your face. âThe dishes. The laundry. Fuckinâ clean a toilet-â
âAnd what about guys not coming over?â
You finally tilt your head over at him, confused. âHuh?â
He looks at you with this fire in his eyes that you have almost never seen before. Maybe once or twice when one of his ex girlfriendâs said something based. He did not seem angry, per se, but he seemed agitated.
He crosses his arms over his chest, covering the Metallica logo on the front of his black tank top. His arms are toned and sprawling with randomly harsh lined tattoos. You had to thank Steve for the toned muscles as he was forcing Eddie to lift weights with him twice a week. You are definitely seeing the results.Â
âYou said no guy wants to fuck a girl who lives with a shitty roommate,â He states plainly, leaning against the kitchen island, âHow am I supposed to help you with that?â
Itâs like heâs trying to hint at something. Eddie was notorious for not saying what he really wanted to say, just simply talking around the subject.Â
âLet me have a night off where Iâm not cleaning up after you. Maybe I can bring a guy home.â
He cocks his head to the side, pursing his lips as his eyes take you in your sweaty clothing. You had sweat dripping into places you never knew you even had. You felt better being in the air conditioning, but that did not disguise the already stained areas of the front of your oversized t-shirt and biker shorts.Â
âYou donât need me to⊠do anything else?â
Will this be fifth time Eddie Munson pisses you off today?
âSay what you need to say, Munson,â You warn, annoyed by the creeping smile on his face.Â
You watch as he uncrosses his arms, leaning forward towards you. âDo you need me to fuck you, princess? Is that what this is?â
Your jaw hits the floor at his offer.
âWhat? H-how are you getting that from this-â
âYou just need a good fuck to release all this tension. Itâs written all over you.â
He has never been this bold before. Itâs blowing your mind. He has never propositioned sex to you, ever. Maybe jokingly. Wait, last week he did suggest it to get rid of your period cramps-
âYou have to be kiddinâ me, Munson.â
He shakes his head, dipping his head down to meet your eyes, âIâm deadly serious, princess.â
âYouâre just sayinâ this to piss me off even more-â
He presses his pointer finger to your lips, shushing you immediately, âAll this talk and Iâm not hearing a no.â
You swat his hand away, groaning in annoyance. You gave Eddie props, he was very convincing when he wanted to be. But you knew better.
But then again, it had been a year since a guy pleased you.Â
âEddie, you know the promise we made all those years ago. No kissing. No sex,â You lean further away, your back arching over the counter. âYou canât just propose this because I am angry at you and want you to take some accountability.â
âIâm not proposing this because I wanna weasel my way out of trouble. Iâm doing it because you have been so tense these last couple months, I feel like I am walking on eggshells,â He explains, tossing his hands in the air dramatically, âJust let me get it out of your system. I know itâs been a year or so.â
âHow do you know?â
You were trying to find a way out. The deepest darkest secret you held in the very depths of your heart was that you did have feelings for Eddie. You have since high school. But Eddie was occupied in every place in life and you got the permanent label as friend before you even had a chance. He dated around and you were stuck secretly obsessing over him, which- whatever. It was fine.Â
All his passes at you were just normal at this point. You never gave them a second thought. You were idle in the idea that it was just jokes and that he never meant it. Even when he said he would give you head to make you feel better when the last guy you dated broke up with you. Or when he told you that he liked the way your hands felt pressed against his bare chest when you helped him apply sunscreen. Or when-
Wait... Did friends usually say that to each other?
âHow do I know what?â He asks, his voice wavering a bit.
You huff, âHow do you know itâs been a year?â
A mischievous smile spreads across his lips, âBecause the last time I heard you through the wall moaning and begging, was about March of last year. Itâs currently June.â
The heat rises back to your cheeks as you stare at him wide eyed. You did not realize he was even home when you last had someone over, let alone knew he heard it all.
âEddie! You sick bastard! You listened?!â
You go to smack his chest but he snatches your hand away, the darkness in his eyes only hinting at his intentions.Â
âHow can I not? You were so loud for that guy,â He almost looks jealous. Almost.Â
âI-â
âJust begging for him to let you cum. Did you, sweetheart? Did you cum for that slimeball?â
Your mouth opens slightly, realizing his hand is still wrapped around your wrist. No ease in the tension around it, just white-knuckling it.Â
âI donât remember-â
âThose moans sounded too good to be true, princess. But what do I know,â He sits back against the counter again, pulling your body closer as he does, âYouâve never cum for me. Maybe you actually do sound like that.â
You really should not. You should just yank your arm away from him and mark this down as Eddie just being a perv again. But something inside you, the tension, the annoyance, the desire, is starting to burn a pit in your stomach.
âI can.â
He raises his eyebrows, pulling your wrist and hand up to his shoulder so you rest it there. You grip onto his bare shoulder, while his arm snakes around your waist.Â
âYou can what?â
Your mouth goes dry, unsure if you can actually mutter the words. You usually had no filter with Eddie, but right now you felt like your voice completely cut out. He looks down at you, his head tilted in curiosity. âSay it, sweetheart. You can what?â
You grit your teeth, finally submitting.Â
âI could cum for you.â
He arrogantly smirks, his fingers sneaking up under your shirt, âYeah, princess? You wanna cum for me?â
Coming from his lips, itâs like melted butter. It seems so natural, his voice dropping as he speaks such absurd things to you. You smack your lips together, almost like you are contemplating giving in. But your mind is already made up.Â
Before you can even give him a taste of his own medicine, your mind slips.
âIf only you make me scream like those other girls.â
Fuck. Why did you say that?
His mouth only widens, shocked at the statement. âSo you were listening to me, huh? You called me a sick bastard mere moments ago when you were doing the same thing!â
Your fingers pinch his earlobe, making him flinch a bit. âEddie, you cannot help but be loud! Neither can they!â
Your defense is weak, but you try to sound convincing.Â
âWell they are screaming for a reason, sweetheart.â
You dismiss the comment for a minute, really trying to mull this idea over. Would this cost you his friendship? Was it all really worth it?Â
Your nails trail down and dig into his shoulder blade, warningly. âDo you seriously want to do this?â
He shrugs, casually, like this is the most normal conversation you two have ever had. âIâve been trying to figure out a way to get you in my bed for years. Seems like I just gotta get you all angry and hot for you to even think about it.â
The revelation deflates you a bit. You mentally slap yourself, thinking back to all the times Eddie has offered you âtimeâ with him in bed. You always took his passes as jokes, because thatâs just Eddie. Heâs never been serious a day in his life.Â
You press your body into him more, your nose getting closer to his, âYouâve wanted this for years?â
He nudges your nose with his, playfully, âDonât act all surprised.â
The tension is at an all time high. The moment your eyes drop to his lips, you cannot peel them away from them. You have been close to him like this before, but never with explicit intentions. Maybe just to tease him or pester him. One time to inspect a possible bug that flew into his eye.Â
Eddie was your friend. Best friend.Â
Why was he looking different?
He notes the way you are silent, observing the way his lips curl upward into a toothless grin.Â
He shifts down, capturing your lips in a hesitant kiss, testing the waters. When the softness of his lips makes impact on your slightly dry lips, you feel self-conscious for a beat.Â
That was until you felt Eddieâs other hand sneak around your waist and pull you even closer. Itâs the quiet reassurance you did not even know you needed.Â
You lean into it, practically falling into his chest completely. The kiss only progresses from there. Your hand cradles his neck as his hands sneak down from your waist to your ass. You had seen Eddie kiss before, but having it be done to you is a completely different experience. Heâs hungry for it, but heâs also so tender and calculated with the movements.Â
The groping turns into him leveraging you upward onto the countertop. He slots himself between your legs, feeling up your thighs as his tongue slips past your lips. Heâs good at stimulating you in every way, your body riddled with goosebumps. You cannot help the groans leaving your throat.
âGod, youâre so hot,â He grumbles between kisses. You giggle into his mouth which makes him shake his head and pull away.Â
You hold his face close to yours, smiling up at his lust-blown eyes. âNever thought Iâd hear you say that. Well⊠in this situation at least.â
âCan you just shush and let me make you feel good?â His lips trail down from your cheek peppering wet kisses to your neck, âLemme make it up to you, sweetheart. Been a bad friend. Bad roommate.â
You roll your eyes for two reasons. One, heâs a dork. Two, his lips feel way too good on your throat.
âMake it up to me by being a good lover.â
He barks a laugh, almost too loud for the joke. âOh, you want me to make love to you?â
âCan you just keep kissinâ-â
His lips touch your collarbones and suddenly your body stiffens. You look down at his sinful expression, his lips dragging lower over your chest. His hand returns to the hem of your shirt, slowly tugging it over your head. Your ratty old sports bra was the least sexy thing you could be wearing, but Eddie eyes you like you are in lacey red lingerie with his name stitched into it. You take it upon yourself to peel the sweaty bra off, luckily the only scent you smell when you lift your arms is your antiperspirant.
âYou are more perfect than I imagined,â Eddie mumbles, his hands reaching out to cup your boobs. His hands still adorned with his gaudy rings. Makes the sight even more breathtaking.Â
You roll your eyes, not believing him, âYouâve seen me in a bathing-â
His head dips down, catching your nipple in his mouth. The action silences you and instead of continuing your nervous babbling, you moan out his name. He rolls your pebbled nipple between his teeth while hissing in satisfaction. You can not stop yourself from raking your fingers through his curls.Â
He pulls away from your chest, pressing a quick kiss to your other tit, âI canât do this if you continue to give me grief.â
The dig makes you blush. You were always awful when it came to dirty talk. Making it awkward was, unfortunately, your specialty. You nod sheepishly, untangling your fingers from his deep chocolate brown hair.
âIâll shut up.â
He shakes his head, his lips finding the spot right below your ear. You can feel the smirk on his face, "No, donât shut up. Just keep making those other pretty sounds for me, sweetheart.â
His thumbs hook around the elastic waistband of your shorts, tugging them down. You lift your hips, using his shoulders to balance yourself. You donât expect him to have you completely naked on your kitchen counter, but the moment your underwear peel away from your cunt, you realize that the wetness between your legs is not just sweat.Â
He pulls away from your neck to look at your bare body before him and the groan he lets out makes your pussy clench around nothing. His hand skips down your body, eventually groping your hips.Â
âEddie,â You hum, tilting his chin up so his eyes meet yours, âIâm very naked and you are not.â
He smiles wickedly, shaking his head, ââCause I ainât fuckinâ you here, sweetheart. This is just a really good place for me to get on my knees and devour you.â
You swallow hard, watching him drop to one knee, making him eye level with your glistening cunt, âAnd look at how beautiful and wet she is for me. This all for me, sweet girl?â
âYouâre not the only one whoâs been wanting this for a while,â You admit, your eyes drooping to watch his mouth move across your inner thighs. You are a bit self-conscious, not having prepared your pussy for this kind of activity, but Eddie does not seem to mind. He admires you like a piece of art at a museum.
He flicks his tongue out of his mouth, unhurriedly moving up your slit. Once he has his first taste, that smile returns, âMmm, thereâs that confession Iâve been waiting for.â
Your mind draws a blank as he dives back in, pressing his tongue between your pussy lips. He has never looked so happy doing a task in his life, his beautifully straight teeth bared as his tongue swirls around your clit. His grip only tightens on your thighs ensuring you do not move them together. He needs you nice and wide open while he tongue fucks you.Â
He becomes more eager with his movements the moment you try to brace yourself on the edge of the counter. His fingers hook down into your flesh, dragging you to the edge of the surface. He does not miss a beat while he suckles on your clit, wrapping his plump pink lips around it and slurping it like a straw.Â
The knot in your stomach is tightening as you study his actions. Somehow it is like he knows your body better than you do.Â
The instant he sinks his pointer and middle finger into your soaked cunt, it is game over. Your body reacts before your mind does, vibrating against his mouth and fingers. He does not slow down when you clench around him, instead, he increases his speed and ministrations.Â
âJesus, fuck, Eddie,â you whimper, surrendering to the climax. You squeeze your eyes shut, letting your mouth hang ajar as random moans escape you. Your nerve endings have never felt so electrified in your life.Â
Once you feel a slight come down, Eddie comes back up for air. His lips are shiny with his own saliva and whatever escaped you when you came.Â
You drop your head back, hitting the upper cabinet.Â
âYou didnât even have to beg for the first one,â He grunts, getting back to his feet. He locks his arm around your knees and drags your upper half into his other arm, âBut the second one, you have to ask for permission, âkay?â
His lips are pressed to your temple, kissing you gingerly.Â
âYou want me to beg, Eds?â
He chuckles darkly, carrying you princess-style across the house and to the living room. He could take you to bed, but he is not sure if that feels too intimate. You just want him inside you, not caring much where he decides to do it.Â
You bounce on the worn-down couch as he drops you down, your bare ass immediately sticking to the leather. His discards his tank top and practically jumps on top of you, his hips resting between your legs. You greedily tug at his basketball shorts, begging to reveal the length behind the tented fabric.Â
âMmm, eager, are we?â
You had seen Eddieâs ass plenty of times. His shirtless frame. But never his dick. His tight pants left little to the imagination most times. But up close, pressed against your palm, you cannot help but gasp about how big he is.Â
He grabs your wrist firmly, his curls dropping down his shoulders as he shakes his head, âWanna hear you beg.â
It spills right out of your desperate mouth. âPlease, Eddie.â
âPlease what?â
âLet me see your cock,â Your eyes reflecting faux innocence, âPlease?â
He cannot help but giggle, assisting you in getting his shorts down his tattooed legs. You had been next to him for the big one on his right thigh, an ode to his favorite Metallica album. You did not completely understand the concept, but the black ink littering his body only added to his appeal.Â
His cock is even better than your mind had mocked up before. Long, slightly curved to the left, and not too thick that he may split you in half.Â
You truly cannot fathom the fact that this is happening. He is willingly showing you his dick and smiling at you while you gawk.Â
He is naked above you, and God is he breathtaking. The mop of curls, the broadness of his shoulders, his very slight tummy from all the beer he drinks, the works of art littering his pale skin.
Your eyes finally make their way back up to his, only to note the serious look heâs giving you.Â
âWhat?â
His lips twitch, âJust canât believe I finally get to do this. And that itâs real and itâs not all in my head.â
Your heart stutters.Â
You lick your lips, searching every crevice of your mind for a response. He realizes that you are trying to muddle up a reply and that he has broken your brain temporarily. So instead of letting you counter his statement, he captures your lips in a bruising kiss.Â
He wastes no time after that, grabbing his dick and pushing it between your slick folds. You groan into his mouth, your pussy still very sensitive from the first orgasm he gave you. Your hand snakes around the back of his neck, holding his face close to yours.Â
âEddie-â
He pushes into you before you can say anything else, a hiss whistling between his clenched teeth.Â
âGod damn,â He throws his head back, shaking your hand away from his neck, âYouâre fuckinâ tight, princess.â
The moan that leaves your throat is a whole octave lower than your actual voice. Eddie looks down at you, the widest smile painted across his face. You feel his hips inch closer and closer to you and you realize he is not fully inside you yet.Â
You take a breath, trying to relax your muscles, âPlease, please, please.â
He snaps his hips forward, a dark guttural chuckle taunting you. âThere she is. Begginâ.â
Eddie had changed into a completely different person. Sure, he was always picking on you, but this was a stark contrast from your silly best friend. The man above you, slowly rocking his hips inside you, was feral. His confidence only burning brighter the more you whimper for him.Â
âPlease, faster.â
The wet squelching noise that emits between your bodies is borderline embarrassing. You had never heard such a sound with any other man. Eddie loves it, though. The idea that you were just gushing for him is enough to send him into overdrive.Â
âYeah? You want me to go faster,â He pushes your thighs apart, spreading you wider. He wants to look at how beautiful your pussy looks stuffed full of him. âLook at that.â
You shift yourself up on your elbows, looking down at the sight he cannot peel his eyes away from. âJesus, I cannot believeâŠâ
You drift off, watching Eddie slowly retreat back only to sharply snap forward. Your jaw goes slack as he drives himself into you, disappearing over and over again.Â
Eddieâs eyes are now on you, watching your tits jiggle every time his cock pierces your squishy walls.Â
âYou really needed this, huh, princess?â
You watch as he reaches down between your bodies, swiping your clit with his thumb.
Your eyes roll back, unable to hold yourself together, âI really did, oh my god.â
Your legs stiffen and Eddieâs hands loosen up, letting you squirm and adjust yourself. Your hips burn and your mind is mush. Eddieâs erratic movements against your swollen bud and his rapidly moving hips are overstimulating, you cannot help but lock your legs around him.Â
âYeah, I can fucking feel you clenching around me,â He babbles, licking his lips, âYou just take my cock so well, donât you? Just fuckinâ made for me.â
He does not stop talking as you grunt your response. You have never seen the man so driven to get something done in your life. He wants to cum, but he wants to feel you fall apart on him even more. His words are just pouring out of him.
âYeah? You want me to make you mine, huh? Gonna make this pussy somethinâ only I can have.â
Your eyes fly open in shock, his words ringing in your ears. You feel his dick twitch inside you, hitting the same perfect spot over and over again. âPlease, please.â
âFuck, say it, baby. Say that youâre mine.â
He is so desperate, his usual calm, cool, collected voice faltering.Â
âIâm yours, Eddie.â
His thumb presses hard down on your clit, causing your hips to shift upward. The nerve endings that were ablaze before are now imploding.Â
The vibration of your body catches him off guard at first, so he locks his hands on your hips. You lurch your body into a crescent shape as he continues to chase his high. A final scream rips through your body, chanting his name.Â
Every snap forward was another word slipping from his practically drooling mouth. He fucked his cum deep inside you, his words bouncing off the walls.
Your body goes completely limp under him the moment your high dissipates. He is panting like he just ran 10 miles as he slowly drifts to his side, positioning his nude body between your body and the back couch cushions. When his cock leaves your cunt, he dribbles cum over your mound and lower tummy. You glance down at your body, completely blissed out.Â
You have never felt more appreciated in your life.
He lays his head right on your shoulder, fanning your sweaty body with his warm breath. He does not say anything, just settles next you, throwing his arm over your midsection.
You swallow, trying to regain your composure. You thought after doing something like this with Eddie, you would feel some guilt. Regret, maybe. But none of those emotions spring up.
You felt relaxed and at peace. Like you walked off the edge of a cliff and instead of landing on a rocky bottom, you landed on a sea of fluffy pillows. It was a relief.Â
Your eyes fall onto his lazily smirking face, âI did really need that.â
He hums his response at first, before clearing his throat. âYeah, I could tell. I can read you pretty well, huh?â
Thatâs the understatement of the century. He can read you perfectly.Â
You start to reflect on every word that spilled from his lips during the entire interaction, and suddenly your stomach is in knots. You start to wonder if he really did feel those things, or if he was just lost in the moment. You almost donât ask in fear that he will tell you something you didnât want to hear.Â
âDid you mean everything you said,â You press, your hand absentmindedly tucking some of his hair behind of his ear. His fingers dance across your flesh, eventually swirling around your collarbones.
âYeah, âcourse.â
He says it so simply. You wanted to believe it was that easy, but there is logistical things that needed to be discussed. Feelings and thoughts that needed further explanation.Â
Eddie can see that your mind is racing. Your expression gives you away every time. His mouth slowly opens to further elaborate on his response, but before he can get out a word, thereâs a pounding at your front door.Â
It is so sudden and loud, you both sit up from the couch.Â
âMr. Munson! You left your hose on! Thereâs a drought-â
You tune out the rest of the rant from your elderly neighbor because Eddie starts chuckling and rubbing his eyes. He looks down at you as the rant starts to get louder, pressing a chaste kiss on your lips before grabbing his boxers off the floor.Â
âYou stay there, beautiful. Iâll deal with this.â
You do as he says, the bliss he left you in after the kiss enough to hold you over until he comes crawling back on top of you. He stumbles back into his boxers, going to the front door and cracking it so he can get eyes on your neighbor.Â
âYeah, my fault, Mr. OâConnell. Had to comfort my lady because she cut herself on the shovel. Iâll be right out to shut off that hose and save the rainforest or whatever.â
You hear a scoff from behind the door, the older gentleman taken off guard. âOh, so sheâs your lady now?â
You can hear the smile that spreads across his face. âAlways has been, sir.â
wanna ride the fuck out of eddie and overstimulate him until heâs a whining, moaning, twitching mess. and then he flips me over and absolutely rails me out of revenge
Summary: Eddie embarks on a new chapter after finally graduating. He expects to face a variety of hurdles that come with a change of scenery, but what he doesn't anticipate is falling head over heels for you.
Author's Note: Holy shit, I can't believe this is finally finished after 11 months. Itâs the first time I've written smut in well over a year and I'm pleased with how it turned out (I couldn't have done it without the support of my beloved @eddiethefreakkmunson)
Location photos are linked above and in the fic at their first mentions. AU with no Upside Down, no use of Y/N, focuses on Eddie's POV, fluff and mild angst with a happy ending *wink wink*
Word count: 17.3k
Warnings: MDNI 18+! alcohol consumption/drunken behavior, subtly pervy moments, masturbation, fondling, dry humping, protected p in v, oral (f receiving), a little bit of praise & possessiveness, includes swearing.
Eddie was determined to leave Hawkins for good as soon as he tossed his graduation cap to the sky. He didnât expect how expensive a venture like that would be, so he devised a plan. For a couple of months, he would stick around to save up a financial cushion.
To pocket every penny possible, Eddie took up odd jobs around town like mowing lawns and painting fences. With every task completed, he army crawled his way toward living life on his terms. He didnât expect it to take him well over a year to save up enough cash.
On this sweltering afternoon, the atmosphere is charged with the promise of new beginnings. The summer sun peeks out from behind the dense clouds and casts irregular shadows on the dirt road of Forest Hills.
His van is packed to the brim with boxes of his belongings. After mentally checking everything twice over, uncertainty twists Eddieâs stomach into knots. What if I have car trouble? What if I get lost? What if itâs not everything I hoped it would be?
Wayne descends the concrete steps and joins Eddie. He lets out a belly-deep sigh that speaks volumes. Youâll figure it out. Youâre gonna find your way. Your best days are ahead of you.
Thereâs a hint of sadness in seeing his boy take this significant step toward independence. But beneath that sorrow, profound pride prevails within Wayne. Eddieâs dreams reach far beyond the boundaries of Hawkins. Sticking around here wonât do him any good.
Eddie looks at the man whoâs been his rock; the one who used to rise before dawn to plate crispy bacon and fluffy pancakes, meeting Eddieâs needs before his own. The memories are vivid as he reflects on the milestones his uncle guided him through. Without a doubt, Eddie wouldnât be half the man he is today if it werenât for Wayne.
His beloved van sits atop the very spot where he once wiped out while learning to ride a bike without training wheels. âItâs time to be a big boy,â Wayne said, urging Eddie to muster some faith in himself.
Reluctantly, Eddie mounted his small bicycle and clutched the rubber handles. With a push to set him off, he experienced the fleeting thrill of accomplishment as he pedaled forward. He only made it a few feet before his balance wavered.
The bike wobbled, sending Eddie tumbling to the gravel. His knees and palms bore the brunt of the fall, and the sharp pebbles embedded themselves into his scraped skin.
Wayne isnât exactly a ârub some dirt on itâ kind of guy, but he isnât the coddling type either. He cleaned Eddieâs wounds, slapped on some bandages, and told him to give it another shot. Faced with his nephewâs tearful protests, Wayne emphasized that just because failure stings, it shouldn't deter him from trying again.
âI guess this is it then.â Eddie wipes beads of sweat from his brow using the back of his hand.
âYep, looks that way. It sure will be quiet without yâhere. I got so used to living with all that racket of yours.â
âItâs called good music. You should take it for a spin sometime, itâs way better than that honky-tonk shit you made me listen to growing up.â
âI like my honky-tonk shit just fine, thank you,â They share a laugh.
Wayne will undoubtedly miss their banter, but itâs their Sundays together that weighs the most on his heart. Occasionally, the summer graces them with a few perfect daysâpleasantly sunny with a stirring breeze. That weather maintained an unspoken tradition.
When little Eddie moved in, he was struggling to find his footing and hadnât spoken much. Wayne took him to a serene lakeside spot where the water gently lapped against the shore.
He cast his line into the water in pursuit of a crappie dinner, and six-year-old Eddie gleefully played with the live bait. Over the years, their dynamic remained largely unchanged. Wayne watched his bobber from the swaying dock while Eddie kicked back in a folding lawn chair. It was simple father-son time that didnât cost more than an afternoon or two. As of now, those days are over.
âYou sure youâre gonna be alright without me, old man?â
Wayne shrugs and shoves his hands into his front pockets. âI suppose Iâll manage one way or another.âÂ
âTake care of yourself,â Eddie says firmly.
âWill do. Oof-â Wayne chuckles when heâs abruptly hugged. He smooths over the back of Eddieâs head with his calloused palm.
The men hold onto one another, their unspoken sentiments conveyed in the silent embrace. They exchange a pat on the back before parting.
Wayneâs eyes follow his nephew as he closes the rear doors and makes his way toward the front of the van. âEddie, one last thing. Remember to take your chances while ya got 'em and strike while the ironâs hot. Donât let nothinâ pass ya by.â
Offering a firm salute, Eddie hops up and settles into the driverâs seat.
With Hawkins in the rearview mirror, Eddie sets off. Chicago may not be the sprawling metropolises of New York or Los Angeles, but itâs a world apart from his hometown.
Itâs far enough away to provide a much-needed change of scenery, yet close enough that he can move back home if things go to shit.
The drive goes smoothly overall with a couple of instances of getting turned around. By the time Eddie is finished with the long hours on the road, heâs bone-weary.
His new place may not be the epitome of luxury, but itâs a roof over his head and thatâs all that matters. After lugging his things to the fourth floor, Eddie can finally consider himself moved in. His apartment lacks furniture and decor, but itâs a space he can call his own.
The throbbing of an unbearable intensity plagues his thighs, a fiery reminder of the multiple flights of stairs conquered. He collapses onto his twin mattress and emits a low groan. The sound bounces off the bare walls and echoes through the studio apartment.
Eddie starts noticing the difference in sounds around him. Gone are the barking dogs and tires rolling over gravel. His fridge hums like the one in the trailer, which is nice, but itâs not remotely loud enough to drown out the argument happening in the unit above his.
When the noise finally subsides, he hopes to catch up on some much-needed sleep. But just a few minutes later, the ruckus rekindles. In a bid for tranquility, Eddie clutches his pillow to his ears to block out the animalistic makeup sex seeping through his ceiling.Â
Heâs praying that the man is a two-pump chump because this is a lot for a first night. Hell, itâs too much for any night.
In a matter of days, Eddie has already encountered a series of issues. Whenever he tries to use hot water, his shower head screeches like a banshee. And the upstairs neighbors? They wear bricks for shoes and have a hoedown at 2 a.m. on a nightly basis; that is, if theyâre not at each otherâs throats.
Job hunting has been fruitless. The gas stations, car washes, and tobacco shops turned him down for the same reason: no documented experience. This means that heâs going to be stuck with the makeshift bed frame he came with for a while, which is just wooden planks zip-tied together. Heâs not sure how long itâll be able to withstand his tossing and turning.
Thereâs good news, though. Eddie refused to succumb to defeat. Today, he strolled past a tattoo parlor and impulsively checked it out. When he approached the counter, Eddie was met by an imposing man with a rather unwelcoming demeanor. In spite of feeling a bit intimidated, he greeted the man warmly.
As expected, the shop owner Cliff, did not reciprocate. When Eddie inquired about job openings, Cliff promptly replied with a curt âno.â Eddieâs tone grew desperate and he nearly pleaded. Cliff became irritated and offered a non-existent custodial position just to get Eddie to shut up and leave.
Currently sprawled on the rickety mattress, Eddie holds Mr. Pickles in the air and looks up at him. His trusty plushie is a bit worse for wear, having had his seams sutured with crimson battle vest thread.
Shortly after moving in with his uncle, he had trouble falling asleep in the unfamiliar trailer. Wayne, hoping to provide comfort, gifted Eddie the stuffed bunny. It swiftly became a treasured part of his life, symbolizing safety and supportâtwo things he hadnât received much of up to that point.
The floppy-eared companion got its name from Wayneâs favorite snack. Whenever his uncle would pop the lid on a fresh jar of pickles, young Eddie would erupt into a fit of laughter. He insisted that Wayne was going to transform into a pickle due to how fast he blows through a jar.
In his twenties now, Eddie still cuddles with Mr. Pickles every night. If his pal could talk, heâd tell him how proud he is. Eddie rolls onto his side and nuzzles the bunnyâs worn fur. That smile lingers on his face while he drifts off to sleep, now with a sense of hope for the days ahead.
The time has come. Eddie has worn through his entire wardrobe and needs to make a trip to the laundromat. Having a washer in the trailer was something he didnât fully appreciate until now.
Taking a quick look around his apartment, Eddie spots a cardboard box thatâll suffice in lieu of a laundry basket. He fills the box with the scattered clothes from the floor, slips on his sneakers, and makes his way out onto the street.
Nestled in the heart of his neighborhood, Eddie arrives at his destination. The air carries an overwhelming fresh scent of detergent. Itâs not bustling by any means; there are only a handful of people here.
Compared to those who are well-versed in their routine, Eddie feels out of place. He chooses an available machine and plops his box of dirty clothes on the counter behind him. He inspects the front-loading washer, not versed in its functions and operation. Eddie goes to open the machineâs door but it refuses to yield.
His patience wanes with each futile tug. Just as frustration peaks, a sudden realization dawns on him, prompting a blush to sweep across his cheeks. Thereâs a lock hidden on the flip side of the handle.
With the press of his thumb, the lock disengages and the door screeches open. Hot under the collar, Eddie hastily scoops up his clothes and stuffs them into the damp drum. He slams the door shut with a mechanical click, the sound signaling the lock relatching.Â
This place lacks helpful signage, to say the least. The only one here displays the cost of running a cycle, but thereâs nothing to guide newcomers through the process.
Eddie pulls out his wallet to retrieve a few quarters. After inserting them, he figures out the detergent tray without much trouble. But as Eddie presses the START button repeatedly, increasing his force with each press, the machine stubbornly refuses to respond.
âYou have to choose a setting.â
Eddie jumps at the sound of your voice, his brows arched and mouth hanging open. âHuh?â
You walk over from the adjacent wall of driers a few feet away. âIt wonât start unless you select a wash setting first.â
He looks at you like a deer-in-the-headlights, so you step in and set the machine to delicate for him. The washer springs to life and water begins to fill the drum.
âAh, that makes sense,â Eddie says while rubbing the back of his neck. âThese are so different from the one I had back home.â
âWhereâs home?â You ask, resuming your task of folding your clean laundry on the nearby counter.
Eddie is visibly taken aback by your continued engagement. âA town in Indiana that youâve definitely never heard of,â He starts to fidget with the detergent jugâs cap, though itâs already sealed.
Suddenly, Eddie feels self-conscious about his appearance. Talking to a cute girl wasnât on the agenda today, he didnât dress for this. He regrets choosing function over fashion; his denim shorts are an old pair of Wayneâs jeans that he cropped to wear while mowing lawns. The raw hems are messily frayed and the light blue is darkened with grass stains.
âIndiana, huh? Youâre a ways from home then. What brings you to The Windy City?â
Eddieâs attention lands on your pile of clothes, subtly assessing your wardrobe choices. âUh- just needed a change of pace, I guess.â
âChasing the dream, right? Figured Chicago had more to offer?â You peek at him, catching his stare fixed on a pair of underwear at the top of the pileâa standard white cotton panty, nothing worth ogling.
âYeah,â Eddie agrees, his posture stiffening when you make eye contact. He swallows hard, averts his gaze, and shifts his weight between the balls of his feet. âSomething like that.â
âDid you bring your band with you?â You take the undergarment in question and fold it, seemingly unfazed.
As you move the folded pile into your laundry basket, his clothes start thumping inside the machine, causing suds to splash against the glass window.Â
Eddieâs brows knit together. âHowâd you know I have a band?â
âYouâve got the look,â You remark as your eyes travel over him.
He leans back against the counter and crosses his arms. âIs that so? Do enlighten me, whatâs the dead giveaway?â
âYour hair,â You suggest charmingly.
Eddie swishes his brunette curls like a lady in a shampoo commercial. âToo predictable?âÂ
âIâd say itâs on brand. Let me guess, Slayer? Maybe a little Dio or Megadeth?â
Eddie narrows his eyes at you before looking down at his shoes. âJesus Christ, youâre reading me like a goddamn book.â
You cock your head to the side, playfulness tugging at your lips. âAnd if I were to look for this book in a store, what name might I find it under?â
âEddie,â He lets his arms fall to his sides. When you tell him your name, it bounces around in his head. How pretty, he thinks.
After lifting your full laundry basket, you step away from the counter. âGood luck with the dryers. Oh, and just a heads up, those doors lock too. Donât go yankinâ the handle off unless youâre looking to take home a souvenir,â You giggle to yourself as you walk out of the laundromat.
Eddieâs mouth hangs open while he watches you leave. Once youâre gone, his attention drifts to the nearby bulletin board. Among the various flyers, one advertises an open mic night. He decides that heâll check it out sometime this week.
At Double Barrel Bar, Eddie is swallowed by a sea of mainstream nonconformity. The bar-goers are dressed similarly to him, and while the crowd is mostly younger people, theyâre still a touch older than him.Â
A symphony of clinking glasses and animated chatter collides with the thunderous live metal music. The dense haze of tobacco smoke and the distant clatter of pool balls only enrich the ambiance. The walls are adorned with framed music memorabilia and band posters, a mix of global icons and local talents.
Eddie is enveloped with nostalgia. This place reminds him of the gigs he used to play with Corroded Coffin, although they never played for an audience this size. Staring at the stage, he questions whether he could engage such a crowd and persuade them that heâs worth listening to.
Between two other men at the bar, Eddie takes a seat.
Lee, the bartender, greets him. âWhat can I get ya?â
Eddie shrugs and hooks his sneakers beneath the rung of the stool. âI'll take a cold one, whatever's cheapest.â
âYou got it. Bottle or tap?â Lee wipes his hands on the white rag draped over his shoulder.
âBottle is fine.â
Lee retrieves a bottle of beer and deftly pops the cap before sliding it over to Eddie.
His fingers curl around the icy glass, the condensation cool to the touch. Eddieâs plump lips wrap around the bottleâs rim and he takes his first sip. The crisp liquid trickles down his throat, offering a short-lived remedy for the stuffiness of the room.Â
As Lee tends to another patron, Eddie fidgets in his seat, causing the flier in his back pocket to crinkle. âSo, you host an open mic?â
âYeah, Thursday through Sunday. Are you any good?â Lee asks.
Eddie flips his guitar pick necklace between his fingers. âI like to think so. I guess youâd have to ask the ants in my kitchen, theyâre the closest thing I've had to an audience lately.â
Lee snorts. âI've got a good feeling about you, Iâm gonna reserve a spot.â
âOh, uh- you don't have to do that.â
Lee waves his hand in dismissal and gathers the abandoned glassware from the now-empty seat beside Eddie. âNo pressure, just swing by on Thursday if youâre interested.â
The opportunity intrigues Eddie, but performing alone is uncharted territory. Contemplating the offer, Eddie grapples with a cloud of self-doubt looming over his decision.
Itâs been two months, and his routine is now established. Each day brings progress and a sense of reward, even though there have been occasional hiccups along the way.
Surviving the sweltering summer with a broken AC was sheer hell. He found himself spending ample time nude in his apartment or standing in front of the open freezer compartment of the refrigerator; sometimes simultaneously. Fortunately, September has arrived, and the temperature has begun to wind down.
Managing expenses requires a frugal approach, given the modest pay from his custodial job. Eddie resorts to taking power showers and using candles to keep his utility bill low.
Sometimes he forgoes meals to keep an extra couple of bucks on hand. But when he does eat, he opts for saltine crackers slathered in butter, bologna sandwiches, canned soups, and plain noodles. Occasionally he treats himself to store-bought pasta sauce, though itâs still the saddest spaghetti known to man.
Eddie faces skepticism from the seasoned artists at the tattoo shop, all military veterans who view him as an arrogant kid. Their perception fuels his determination to prove himself. To earn their respect, heâs dedicated to cleaning more thoroughly than he ever has in his life.
Heâs become keenly observant, absorbing every detail of the professional tattooing process, despite never being included in those conversations. Within the circle of artistsâAce, Lunchbox, and DozerâEddie gravitates toward Ace, who becomes a mentor. Seeing Eddieâs genuine enthusiasm, Ace asks about his drawing abilities.Â
Although Eddieâs sketchbook is brimming with fantastical creatures, Ace can recognize a young manâs raw ambition and desire for direction and purpose. He takes Eddie under his wing, allowing him to learn the medium while on the clock.
After taking Lee up on his offer, Eddie found himself on stage every Thursday night. His performances were rusty, as he hadnât played in front of anyone since before he was working his ass off to get here.
As he strummed through the jitters, Eddie rediscovered the sanctuary that music had always offered. It felt like a part of him had resurrected, reviving the passion he sorely missed.
Playing Thursday nights may not rake in tips like the weekends would, but heâll take what he can get. Eddieâs been saving up for some pre-owned furniture, and heâs happy to snag any extra cash he can for it.
Life is good right now. The worry about moving back home has lessened, and heâs genuinely amazed at how smoothly things are going. Just when Eddie thought things couldnât get any better, a Saturday night slot opened up at the bar.
It would be twice as busy, packed from wall to wall with people who could bare witness to him fucking up. Doubt crept its way in, but when Lee mentioned that Eddie could pocket thirty-five bucks or more by the nightâs end, it was a no-brainer.
Tonight marks his debut Saturday gig. Stepping through the red brick archway and out onto the stage, the creak of the rustic boards beneath his feet sends a ripple up his legs. Eddie hasnât even made it to the mic and heâs already forgotten what foot heâs supposed to be stepping with next.
Beneath his t-shirt, his back grows slick. A lump lodges itself in Eddieâs throat, causing his voice to crack when he introduces himself to the room. Amidst the overlapping conversations and the flushing from the nearby restroom, the amassed noise seems muffled. The strong winds in his head distort the sounds, whirling like a twister.
Eddie hooks his guitar up to the amp and forces himself to take a deep breath. As he tunes his instrument, the upheaval begins to settle. Gradually, Eddie finds unity with his guitar and concentrates on perfecting the tone.
Throughout the performance, thereâs a persistent undertow of nerves refusing to fully subside. In spite of his efforts to lose himself in the music, his fingers occasionally falter as they dance on the strings.
At the end of his set, Lee can be heard whooping and hollering over the sparse clapping. With a sense of relief, Eddie packs up and makes a beeline for the bar, eager to ease the adrenaline coursing through his veins. Normally, the rush is akin to a high, but this time around itâs so intense that heâs dying to dial it back a notch.
He splurges and orders something a bit fancier than his usual bland beer. Why not celebrate a little? Eddie claims a recently vacated table in the bustling crowd, seating himself on the leather stool adorned with studs. His eyes roam the room while he takes a swig of his drink, savoring the superior crisp taste.
His attention zeroes in on a figure just feet away, a quick recognition igniting in his mind. Eddie recognizes you instantly, due to the scarcity of memorable encounters heâs had.
Eddie observes from afar, observing your mannerisms as you execute your waitressing duties. You must only work weekends, which would explain why your paths havenât crossed again until now. When your eyes meet his, a shock shoots through his body.
He sits in rapt anticipation as you make your way over. Time seems to stretch unbearably from your previous spot until you finally stand opposite of him, separated only by the circular wooden table.
A courteous smile graces your faceâa skill that waitresses must master if they want to pay rent. âReady for another?â
Eddie stares back at you. His eyes drift down to the almost full beer bottle in his hand. The cogs in his skull are scraping, unable to put the words youâve said to him in a comprehensive order. He nods without making a peep.
You pivot to leave, but then turn back to him and lift a brow at his unaltered dumbstruck expression. âAre you sure? âCause you donât look it.â
He remains silent and shakes his head sheepishly, feeling foolish for agreeing to another beer and then changing his mind just because you asked again. Is there more dignity in being indecisive than a bumbling mess?
âYou were just singing up there for nearly an hour,â you call him out, folding your arms and tucking your serving tray against your side. âI know you can talk.â
Eddie clears his throat, but he ends up making an odd sound. âUh, my throatâs a bit sore, thatâs all.â
âDid you forget to do your vocal warm-ups or what?â
âIt probably sounded like I did,â Eddie laughs, the self-deprecation evident.
âNot at all, I thought you were great.â
âYou did?â Eddieâs lips curl at your compliment. Heat blooms on his cheeks, amplifying the full-body perspiration. He takes a casual sip from his beer, a guise to moisten his dry mouth and escape your intimidating gaze.
âTotally, you really come alive when youâre up there,â you rest your forearms on the tableâs edge. âIs it just Eddie, or do you go by a stage name?â
No way. Thereâs no fucking way that you remember him, his face is so forgettable itâs not even funny. Lee had to have said something about who was filling the Saturday night spot. Eddie is inwardly thrilled to hear his name roll off of your tongue, but he tries to maintain his composure. âI suppose not, I guess I never thought about it.â
âYou could pull it off, it suits the whole âone-man showâ thing youâve got going on,â You say while giving him a once-over. The intrigue on your face is unwavering as you walk away.
Heâs drunk, he has to be. Or maybe his drink was spiked somehow. The room is spinning and he feels nauseous as all hell, despite only having taken a few swigs from his beer.
A short while later, Eddieâs bottle is half-empty as he sits, continuously replaying the moment in his mind. More specifically, he canât stop thinking about the sparkle in your eyes; heâs never seen anything like it.
He snaps back from his daydream at the sight of your return, this time with an unopened beer in hand. Eddie looks nothing short of puzzled as you slide it across the table toward him. âUh, no thanks, Iâm-â
âRelax, itâs not for you. Iâll be clocking out in six minutes. I wanna hear more about that small town of yours. I mean, as long as thatâs okay with you. I understand if you have other plans tonight.â
âNo!â Eddie exclaims. âI mean, yes itâs more than okay, and no, I donât have anywhere to be.â
You glance downward while scuffing your shoe against the floor. âOkay, cool. Keep it cold for me then?âÂ
âYeah, for sure. You can count on me.â
Shit shit shit. How is he going to keep this beer cold? Of course, ways to heat it flood his mind. If you come back to a lukewarm beer, thatâll be the end of him. Heâs going to fuck this up and any chance of getting to know you will be squashed.
When you join him again, your drink is still cold and the bottle has left a ring of moisture on the paper coaster. Eddieâs unsure of how he managed to not lose it; if heâs capable of anything, itâs misplacing something when his only responsibility is to keep it in his possession.Â
As you slide onto the stool beside him, youâre quick to inquire. You ask him typical ice-breaker questions at first, and Eddie responds with a plethora of details. At times, he goes off on tangents. You donât appear bothered by it.
Eddie talks about his ability to learn how to play songs by ear, and he delves into the intricacies of his favorite Dungeons & Dragons campaigns that heâs created over the years. He earnestly tries to convey its depth to you and throughout his ramblings, he doesnât miss the concentrated look on your face as you try to keep up.
Lee is nearing the end of his cleaning routine and the other waitresses have left for the night. Neither of you is aware that the bar is devoid of a crowd, scorching lights, and blaring music.
Eddie has been too busy asking you about your origins and passions, his wide eyes and attentive demeanor affirming his genuine interest. Just as he mentions working at the shop and youâve asked him how many tattoos he has, youâre interrupted.
Lee stands beside the table, armed with a damp rag and a spray bottle. âAwfully hard to wipe the seats when your asses are still on them. Scoot your booch,â Lee instructs by motioning toward the entrance.
Eddie doesnât hesitate to slip off his stool. You, on the other hand, take your sweet time.
âHave a good night,â You say and give Leeâs shoulder a friendly pat.
Uncertain of his next move, Eddie hesitates while you make your way to an unmarked door. Itâs half past two in the morning, and he feels a tug of concern about you leaving by yourself.
Thereâs a very good chance that youâd consider him clingy or intrusive if he waits here. Eddie opts to stand outside. He props himself against the building and idly nudges a loose chunk of concrete with his shoe to keep himself occupied. Soon after, you emerge into the night.
The slam of the heavy door prompts him to straighten up. âHey.â
âOh, I thought you left,â you admit and adjust your purse strap on your shoulder. âThanks for telling me about Hawkins the Hell Hole.â
âThe pleasure was all mine. Do you, uhâŠâ Eddie inches forward, his Reeboks scraping loudly on the pavement. âWould you like me to walk you home? Itâs pretty late.â
âI donât live far, itâs just a few blocks.â
âOkay, I guess Iâll see you around then?â
Your eyes twinkle brighter than heâd previously seen. âIâd say the odds are in your favor.â
âGoodnight. Get home safe,â He says with a half-hearted bow.
âLikewise,â You reply, biting back a giggle.
Eddie watches you fade into the darkness along the unlit patches of sidewalk. Once youâve turned the corner, Eddie smiles from the surreal sensation of floating on clouds.
In this moment, the feeling of joy is so potent that itâs borderline palpable. Heâs the embodiment of elation, a soul soaring high. Itâs a feeling he wishes he could bottle up and carry with him forever.
The next Saturday plays out much like the previous one, save for one detail: itâs considerably tougher to concentrate on stage knowing whoâs in the audience. Post-performance, the routine echoes that of the prior week. The two of you gravitate toward the same table as before, establishing it as the one youâll always sit at.
At first, a hesitation lingers before diving into more personal topics. However, as the night progresses and more beers are consumed, you seamlessly fall into them. Eddie weaves elements of drama and romanticism into his past, making it utterly engrossing for you to listen to.
When you propose getting together outside of the confines of the bar for the first time, Eddie eagerly accepts your invitation to show him around since he has yet to do any sightseeing.
Eddie is swept up in an exuberant wave of boyish excitement, and itâs unlike anything heâs ever felt. He never experienced it during his teenage years like the average person. The sheer thrill of having an instant connection with a girl is an entirely new feeling for him.
Week after week, your laundry days are synchronized and youâve started the habit of making silly faces or giving each other the finger just because. During the late nights spent together at Doveâs Diner, Eddie finds enjoyment in seeing you eat. Itâs a peculiar fascination, but it makes him happy. Seeing you completely at ease while enjoying greasy food is endearing to him.
When he arrived in Chicago, Eddie couldnât shake the feeling of not wanting to move back to Hawkins. Even so, he wasnât experiencing the same comfort here as he did in that cramped trailer.
There was a longing for familiarity that he had in his old surroundings. Eddie didnât want to have to go back home in order to feel that sense of belonging again. He had his doubts about ever truly adjusting to life here until you came along. In your company, the foreignness of the city fades away, replaced by that feeling heâs been missing.
Several times, heâs been working in his sketchbook, adding to the pin-up style figures and faces that bear a striking resemblance to you. While engrossed in drawing, he hadnât picked up on the similarities. But when he absentmindedly drew a simple heart, that's when it occurred to him.
Eddie like-likes you.
As your shift comes to an end, you head to the back room to gather your belongings. Eddie stands idly at your claimed table, picking at his hangnails while he waits.
âWhenâre you gonna ask her out?â Lee asks while tidying up nearby.
Eddie laughs heartily at the idea. âHow about never.âÂ
âYou should. I can tell sheâs into you.â
âYeah, right. I donât stand a chance.â
Lee puts down his spray bottle and looks at Eddie. âListen, Iâve known her for a while now. Trust me on this,â he dumps a used ashtray out into a trash bag.
Eddie emits a noise of disbelief, his mind flickering back to the painful lesson he learned in his youthâheâs no one's type. Lost in reflection, he doesnât realize youâve returned with your sweatshirt draped over your bent arm.
Despite the tiring evening, you're upbeat in his presence. âOkay, Iâm ready! I was thinking we could get some takeout and watch TV at my place.â
âSure, I could eat,â Eddie says with a grin. Lee is shaking his head, looking particularly smug.
Your apartment is the polar opposite of Eddieâs, the difference is like day and night. It has a homey atmosphere and thereâs a notable absence of wear and tear. He does have band posters, framed personal photos, and furniture, but they fail to create the same inviting ambiance that your apartment effortlessly exudes.
Seated beside Eddie on your couch, you tease him. âYouâre terrible at this.â
âIâm trying!â He attempts to mimic your technique, but the piece of chicken repeatedly falls from his chopsticks.
âI can see that,â you stifle a laugh. âAnd youâre total shit at it.â
Out of frustration, Eddie impales his sweet and sour chicken with both sticks.
Glancing your way, he catches you smiling ear to ear, watching him. Eddie smiles back as he chews. âWhat? This way works just as well.â
You laugh and refocus your on the TV while resuming your meal. Eddie swears that youâre sitting closer to him than when you first sat down. Your thigh is almost touching his and your shoulder is just as close.
The paranoia subsides as he gets lost in thinking about how he can feel the heat radiating off of your bare thigh. But Eddieâs pulled back to reality when your chopsticks cut across his vision and dig into his takeout box.
He doesnât mind, not really; sharing is caring. Having said that, when you lean over to look into the box, your shoulder bumps against his. A particularly appreciative sound escapes your lips, one thatâs borderline pornographic.
âThatâs really good, Iâll have to get some next time,â you hum and place your takeout box on the coffee table. âOr I could just keep stealing yours, it tastes better that way.â
Eddie is frozen, eyes unblinking. As you return to your spot on the sofa, youâre unquestionably closer this time. Your beautiful skin is on display in those shorts of yours and your bare thigh is brushing against his own. He could choke on air right now if he were still breathing.
You look over at him, your brow furrowed. âYou good?â
âYeah, yep. All good,â Eddie avoids making eye contact and stares blankly ahead. âPeachy keen.â
âOkay, weirdo,â you brush off his abrupt awkwardness and scoot toward the edge of the cushion. After gathering your trash, you look at him. âAll finished?â
âMhm,â He replies weakly and extends his box toward you.
With your arms full, you head into the kitchen, leaving him by his lonesome in the living room.
Eddie releases a heavy sigh and drags his hands down his face. Your absence allows him to reenter his body, but it only makes him keenly aware of his not-so-subtle half hard-on thatâs outlined through the thin fabric of his shorts.
His eyes widen in alarm and panic takes over. âShit!â Frantically brainstorming ways to conceal it, Eddie spots a fuzzy blanket at the far end of the couch and he retrieves it, draping it over his lap. While he tries to make himself look as casual as possible, he catches a glimpse of your approaching shadow just before the kitchen light is switched off.
In the few seconds he has left, Eddie tries out various hand placements, but none feel quite right. Every position feels forced and conspicuous.
As you stride back to the couch, your sweet expression eases some of the tension in his bones. âI got a bit chilly,â Eddie blurts out, hoping to preempt any impending questioning. âIs it okay if I use this?â
âNo, Iâm totally gonna tell you that you canât use a blanket for its sole purpose.â
Eddie laughs nervously, âAlright, alright.â
This is arguably worse, being wrapped in your scent. Itâs awfully hard not to get any harder when your natural smell is flooding his head. Itâs intoxicating, and he finds himself inhaling deeply to capture as much of it as he can.
âWhatâd I miss?â You ask while plopping back down beside him.
The continuous movement causes Eddie to clench his back molars together because an image surges before he can even think to suppress it. Heâd bet all the money he has that youâd look stunning on top of him. Thereâs fantasy looming alongside the image; Eddie wonders what you look like beneath your clothes.
âNothing, you didnât miss anything,â He mutters. When you start to squirm against the back of the couch, Eddie shoots you a questioning look. âYou got ants in your pants?â
You huff, âNo, thereâs an itchy spot on my back. Could you scratch it for me, please? Itâs driving me nuts.â
âOh, um, sure,â Eddie fumbles for words as you angle yourself and present your back to him. âWhere is it?â
âRight between my shoulder blades.â
Eddieâs eyes zero in on the outline of your bra strap thatâs visible through your shirt across your back. Given his luck, that would be the target. Just to be cautious, he starts by scratching at the higher middle part of your back.
âA little lower.â
Eddie swallows hard as his fingers tentatively inch their way down. His belly begins to swirl the closer he gets to the clasp, but thankfully, you stop him just before he reaches it.
âRight there! Yeah, harder.â
If this goes on too much longer, Eddie could very well pass out. But, per your request, he applies more pressure. Beneath the blanket, the discomfort has only intensifiedâhis arousal is now raging with a persistent ache.
âOh my god, finally,â You say appreciatively and settle back into a more relaxed position.
The overwhelming urge to touch himself skyrockets as his body begs for friction. Eddie repositions himself to adjust the blanket, hoping to keep his erection concealed. From the corner of his eye, his gaze drifts along your figure, pausing at the rise and fall of your diaphragm as you watch TV.
A jagged breath falls from his lips, but heâs determined to clear his mind. Realizing that he canât leave here tonight with your blanket as a shield, he has to find a way to distract himself by the end of this program.
Miraculously, he survived. Now lying in his bed, Eddie is surrounded by the darkness, save for the glow of the moon and the faint residual light from the streetlamps filtering through the broken blinds. Eddie stares up at the ceiling while his mostly naked body responds to the vivid recollections swarming his train of thought.
On any ordinary day, Eddie would resort to the routine of using his hand and lotion to relieve himself. Be that as it may, the stirring in his core demands a different sensation.
With the thought of you weighing heavily on his mind, thereâs an alternative means by which heâs going to alleviate the frustration and desire thatâs grown too loud to ignore. Eddie, already shirtless, yanks his boxers off in a swift motion and kicks them off carelessly. Moving onto his knees, he leans over the edge of his bed and retrieves a pillow from the floor.
He sits back on his heels in the middle of his bed and contorts the stuffing with intent. For a moment, heâs not sure how he wants to use it. His bodyâs impatience grows, causing his erection to bob expectantly.
Eddie licks his lips in anticipation and sets the bent pillow down with the bend facing him. With one hand, he firmly holds the makeshift toy in place. With his other, he strokes himself languidly, blotting the fabric of the pillowcase with precum as he taps his cock against it repeatedly.
Experimentally, Eddie rolls his hips downward, thrusting the sensitive underside of his length against the smooth material. His eyes fall closed, and he canât seem to pick just one aspect of you to fantasize about, not when every inch of you is so captivating. Eddie grunts, âYeah, you like that?â
He adjusts his hips, angling them lower to get more friction. The heat blooming causes Eddieâs jaw to go slack. The usual five or six minutes have been halved as the thought of your smile makes Eddie embarrassingly close already.
Wanting to get in a few more thrusts before heâs spent, Eddie pistons himself against the pillow. âTell me how badly you want me, I wanna hear you say it.â
With one fist continuing to pin the pillow down against the mattress, Eddie trails his other hand up his pale, slender stomach. He digs his gnawed-down nails into his skin, leaving red streaks behind, as he tries to imagine it as your touch. Eddie doesnât know what it would feel like if it wasnât his hand, but the thought of you is more than enough.
Devoid of any visual aid, the absence of a magazine or porno tape isnât hindering him. Typically, when Eddie only has his imagination to utilize, he can beat off without finishing until he eventually gets bored and gives up.
This time itâs different. As his thoughts run wild, Eddieâs rhythm falters. The bed frame squeaks, and the wood shifts while he thrusts as hard as he can.
âUhhh,â A coarse moan pours from his throat as his cum shoots onto the pillow. Eddieâs thrusts slow to a stop and he pants. The tension in his abdomen gradually subsides as he floats his way back down to earth.
His eyes flutter open, and heâs faced with the mess he made. âFuckinâ hell,â With a sigh, Eddie decides that heâll deal with it tomorrow.
After changing into fresh boxers, he chugs down a glass of tap water. Utterly exhausted, Eddie collapses back onto his bed. The aged frame creaks in protest to his abrupt flop. The intensity has been burned away, and what lingers is rawness.
Hereâs the thing, Eddie has a way with words, and his unconventional charm comes without a second thought. But conveying himself physically is a different story. His upbringing lacked affection, and consequently, Eddie was robbed of particular milestones. Among those missed moments was sitting on the grass beneath a starry night sky on summer night.
Eddie never got to pluck the green blades from the ground as he gathered the courage to have his first kiss. He hasnât so much as held someoneâs hand before.
With Mr. Pickles tucked under his chin, a wave washes over his heart, wading him further into the tide of ache. Eddie may be inexperienced but heâs not stupid. Heâs picking up what youâre putting down. Your persistent hints practically scream at him to make a move.
But your persistence only worsens the anxiety because Eddieâs not sure that he can take the leap like you want him to. Itâs not that he doesnât want you, that couldnât be further from the truth. Itâs uncertainty about what to do if he gets to be with you.
Eddieâs drawn to you, his poor pillow could tell you that much. This isnât the first night heâs spent laying here trying to talk some sense into himself. When he practices being smooth instead of awkward, Eddie struggles to navigate through the hypothetical scenarios that heâs in complete control of.
If his bedroom walls could speak, theyâd tell of those nights. But after the sinful act he just committed, they have a hell of a lot more to say. Those bold utterances were far from who he is. It was a facade, a portrayal of a self-assured man heâll never embody.
Talking dirty made him feel powerful in the moment because the mask allowed him to avoid facing how he truly feels about you. At his core, what Eddie craves is to baby you, he wants to show you that he can be sensitive. Heâd die on the spot to see you in a state of delight from being showered with adoration.
Eddie closes his eyes and envisions a world where he can be what you want. Heâd never be oblivious to having food in his teeth, and heâd never push a door that should be pulled. This false reality is one where he doesnât disappoint you by shying away from your advances. Itâs unrealistic, heâs just not wired that way.
During his younger years, Eddie endured the worst of taunting. The other kids mocked his short frizzy curls by referring to it as a âratâs nest.â They told him that heâd resemble a troll until his dying days. It was ingrained into him that he was unworthy of any form of loveâbe it familial, platonic, or romantic. The remarks made about Eddieâs prominent nose convinced him that he was a walking safety hazard and heâd poke someoneâs eye out if he ever dared to kiss them.
In the seventh grade, Eddie hit a breaking point. He was fed up with having chewing gum put into his curls. There are too many times to count where Wayne sat for hours with a jar of peanut butter, attempting to free the cemented wads from his nephewâs locks. One day, Eddie stood in front of the mirror in the cramped bathroom and cried at the discovery of another bright pink clump of gum tangled in his hair.
It may have been just one piece at that time, but it was the final straw. Out of desperation, Eddie did the only thing he felt would solve the problem for good. By taking matters into his own hands, he used the clippers to give himself a buzz-cut. As chestnut-colored locks cascaded down, settling atop the sink and his feet, the damage was done.
Wayne lent a hand in handling the patchy spots in the back of Eddieâs head that he couldnât quite reach. The impromptu solution worked as heâd hoped, but it only opened the door to different torment.Â
The following school day, his classmates didnât hold back, likening his appearance to that of an inmate waiting to meet Old Sparky, or cruelly suggesting that he resembles his imprisoned father.
Eddie quickly came to understand that he was never going to be the guy girls wished would ask them to the dance. The scars of rejection were etched into his self-esteem, and since then, heâs come to terms with his inadequacy.
Perhaps youâre interested in Eddie because there are still things you donât know about him. Surely, once you learn how unworthy he is, youâll laugh in his face just as the others did.
Tonight heâs shielded from the nightlife commotion inside his van, parked along the curb outside your apartment. He sits patiently, watching the pine tree-shaped air freshener gently sway with the feeble push of air from the AC vents.
Itâs Friday night, and thereâs nothing heâd rather do than spend it with you. Eddie directs his attention toward your building as you descend the steps of your apartmentâs stoop.
Eddie detects the effort, even from afar. Your shoes look new and youâre wearing more makeup than heâs used to seeing you in. These differences have him pondering the significance behind the deliberate choices.
When Eddie casually suggested catching a movie a few days ago, he hadnât thought much of it. To him, it was merely something you hadn't done together. He didnât think twice when you got so excited about seeing a late-night showing of Die Hard.
Itâs dawning on him that it wasnât because youâre a big Bruce Willis fan. The reason youâre all gussied up is because this is a date. He asked you out on a date.
This is not a problem, per se. Eddieâs thrilled about going on his very first date, but fear also has him in a chokehold because heâs unprepared.
Wayne never took the time to give his nephew the lowdown on dating. It didnât come up because Eddie never displayed interest or curiosity about it.
Heâs at a loss. Eddie doesnât know how to carry himself, he doesnât have a clue about whatâs considered proper etiquette beyond what heâs seen on TV and in movies. Are those even reliable sources?
As you cross the sidewalk in his direction, Eddieâs palms grow slick. It suddenly registers that he should be outside, ready to hold the car door open for you. But before he can act on this realization, you swiftly swing the door open and slip onto the passenger seat.
"Hi," You chirp, the sound almost a squeak as you close the car door behind you. You subtly adjust the bottom of your dress before securing your seatbelt.
âHey,â Eddieâs eyes wander over your body until he finds himself admiring your bare knees.
With a jolt, his eyes snap back to your face, only for you to be watching him with a pleased expression adorning your features.
Eddie clears his throat and busies himself with turning over the ignition. âYou look nice,â he scrunched his face. âPretty! I meant to say you look pretty.â
"Thanks," you reply appreciatively and inspect your freshly painted nails to ensure theyâve withstood the indecisive wardrobe changes of the past half hour.
Throughout the brief drive, engaging in small talk grants Eddie a temporary respite from his brain being in overdrive. Determined to maintain composure, he makes a conscious effort to avoid looking your way.
Eddie successfully carries the conversation as you enter the lobby and get through the refreshments line. Luckily, you secure the last two seats at the end of a row; heâd have been mortified if the theater was oversold and there werenât any seats left.
The first half of the movie goes as one would expect; youâre comfortably seated beside him, occasionally whispering commentary to each other. Meanwhile, Eddie shovels fistfuls of over-buttered and under-salted popcorn into his mouth, crunching away as the scenes progress on the screen before him.
But then thereâs a subtle shift in your body language. He assumes that your inability to sit still might be caused by the need for a restroom break. That is until your knee gradually inches closer to his.
The film has become an afterthought as Eddie watches you place your hand on your thigh, noticeably close to his own thatâs casually hanging off of the armrest. Itâs impossible to differentiate the pounding pulse in his ears from the blasts of gunfire booming through the theater.
When your fingertips graze his, Eddie rips his hand away to reach for the bucket of popcorn thatâs resting in the ditch of his opposite arm. âWant some?â he fails to whisper while offering the bucket to you.
The explosive flashes of red and yellow harshly illuminate your face and without a word, you shake your head and go back to the movie.
Eddie puts the bucket back where it was, and in the hopes of distracting himself from the guilty tingle in his feet, he fidgets with his wristwatch. Repeatedly, Eddie clasps and unclasps it, making the strap incredibly loose and uncomfortably tight around his wrist.
A few minutes go by and without warning, his heart stops because you unexpectedly rest your head on his shoulder.
As if struck by lightning, Eddie leaps to his feet. The motion launches the bucket of popcorn into the air, and the people in the row in front of you are showered with kernels. He's as stiff as a board as heâs confronted with mild uproar and a chorus of expletives.Â
Red-faced and unsure of whom to apologize to first, Eddie turns to you. âShit! Iâll go get another one,â He doesnât wait for your response and rushes down the stairs, practically leaping over them two at a time.
After bursting through the double doors and out into the empty hallway, Eddie brings his palm to his forehead, his other hand propped on his hip while he paces. Once heâs able to collect himself, Eddie heads toward the lobby, only to find that everything is powered down.Â
Eddie decides to use the little time he has to rehearse what heâll say. There might not be anything he can do to play off his peculiar behavior; at least, nothing that he can think of at the moment.
As he shows up empty-handed, Eddie doesnât overlook your rigid posture. Your left leg is crossed over your right, pointing away from him. If he didnât know any better, heâd think that youâre just upset that he wasted the popcorn and didn't get more.
In your lack of questioning, Eddie feels compelled to explain himself. âConcessions were closed, soâŠâ He gestures with upturned palms, but you donât acknowledge that heâs spoken or come back.
Not having received a response, Eddie resorts to chewing on his thumbnail and his leg bounces in tandem. Lost in his head, he finds it increasingly difficult to focus on the remainder of the movie.
Exiting the theater and stepping out into the parking lot, Eddieâs voice lacks confidence as he walks alongside you. âWhatâd ya think? I give it a solid six out of ten.â
You reply with a casual shrug and wrap your arms around yourself. âIt was alright.â
âHow âbout I treat you to Doveâs? Wanna go for a bite?â Eddie suggests to salvage the remainder of the evening.
âIâll pass. Iâm not hungry,â you say curtly, taking a step ahead to open the passenger door for yourself, denying Eddie a second chance to hold it open for you.Â
âOh,â Eddie begins, but his sentence is severed by the slam of the door. âOkay,â he finishes with a sigh.
During the drive back to your neighborhood, the air feels dense. The radio commercials do little to fill the space between you.
Upon the front tire nudging the curb, you get out of the van before Eddie has put it in park. He hurriedly follows suit, rushing over to catch up with you as you head toward your front steps.
âI had a good time tonight. Did you?â Eddie blurts out.
Pausing in your steps, you turn around and face him. âYeah, I guess.â
Knowing that heâs the cause of your deflated spirit punches a pang to his chest. Eddie offers a gentle expression. âWould you wanna go again sometime? Probably best if you hold the popcorn though,â he chuckles uncomfortably.
âNight, Eddie,â You say with finality before letting yourself into your apartment.
Once youâve gone inside, dejection overtakes Eddieâs features. âGoodnight,â he mutters to himself, biting the inside of his cheek.
Sifting through the mental archive of wisdom passed down by Wayne, Eddie desperately rummages for any guidance that could apply to his current situation.
Eddie has officially had the worldâs worst date, and it very well could be the only one heâll ever get to go on. It only hurts more that the outcome was entirely his fault.
Youâre avoiding him, that much is obvious. You stopped showing up to do laundry together and while he performs, you intentionally keep your back turned to the stage.
After your Saturday shifts end, you no longer stick around to hang out with Eddie, instead choosing to leave with your fellow waitresses.
One would think that it was a tough decision, but it makes perfect sense to him. Eddie gives up playing on Saturdays to avoid crossing paths with you. He reverts to his old spot on Thursday nights.
Itâs a way to protect himself while making things easier for you. He canât fathom how repulsed you are by his presence at this point.
Eddie sits at the folding table in his living room, his feet hooked with one another. The blaring thrash metal fills the room as he meticulously drafts tattoo concepts, completely absorbed in his sketchbook.
The incessant ringing of the telephone hardly cuts through the music. Eddie ignores it for the first two rings and lets out a reluctant huff before pausing the tape and picking up the receiver.
âHello?â
âHeyyy, can you come get me?â Your cheerful request weaves through the lively chatter and honking car horns in the background.
Not having seen you in two weeks, your voice hits him like a wall. âWhat for?â
âMâready to go home.â
Eddie reads his watch and leans against the wall. âI donât see what that has to do with me.â
âYou know what, forget it. Iâll just walk home.â
âAbsolutely fucking not. What bar are you at?â
âErrr, The Dugout I think.â
âStay put, alright? Wait for me inside, Iâll be there in a few,â After hanging up, he recklessly shoves his feet into his Reeboks and snatches his car keys from the counter.
Eddie arrives, expecting you to be inside. But there you are, sitting on the curb, right where you shouldnât be. He calls out to you and jogs over, dodging a few bar-goers on the way.
At first, you turn your head the wrong way when you hear your name called. When you spot him, you scramble upright. âYou came for me!â Excitedly, you raise your hands above your head and it slightly throws off your balance.Â
âHoly shit, youâre plastered,â Eddie half-scoffs, half-laughs. His eyes roam your body, and he immediately takes notice of your scraped and bloodied knees. âJesus, what happened?â
âHuh?â you ask, your drunken buoyancy unaffected by his evident concern. Following his guided point, you simply shrug. âI dunno, canât remember.â
âYouâre not here by yourself, are you?â Eddie scans the area, looking for any signs of someone accompanying you.
âMmm... no, well yes. My girlfriends were here but they left.â
Eddie scoffs, âYouâve got some shitty friends.â
âGood thing I have you. My very own knight in shining armor is here to rescue me!â
âThat tower of yours mustâve had quite the mini bar, princess,â Eddie remarks.
âLetâs go,â Eddie instructs, heading toward his van with the assumption that youâre following. Peeking over his shoulder, youâre practically tripping over your own feet.
The long strap of your purse slides off your shoulder, snags on your bent elbow, and the bag thuds against your calf.
âWhat am I gonna do with you, hmm?â He steps back, takes hold of your purse, and throws it over his shoulder. Then, he wraps his arm around your waist and holds you snugly to his side, determined to get you home safely by whatever means necessary. After helping you into the passenger seat, he reaches over to fasten your seatbelt. âNo hurling in here, got it?â
âYes, sir,â you salute before sitting back so that your head is supported by the headrest.
Getting you up the stairs was the hard part. He unlocks the apartment door and gently steers you toward the bathroom.
You make a feeble attempt to resist, grasping onto the door frame before finally yielding to your waning strength.
Eddie lets go of you and begins to rummage in search of supplies.
âOkay, Eddie Bear. Iâm ready for my bath,â You slur, leaning against the wall for support as you start to ease yourself into the tub.
âEddie Bear, huh? Thatâs new,â he snorts before glancing over. âOh, no you donât. Câmere,â Eddie grasps you by the waist once more, guiding you to sit on the closed toilet seat.
With both hands, he cradles your booze-warmed cheeks, unintentionally pushing your lips into a pout. âStay put, would ya?â
Mumbling to himself, Eddie goes back to gathering the first aid supplies. âI look away for two goddamn seconds. Nothing but trouble, I swear.â
The pout doesnât leave your face and you cross your arms with an annoyed huff. As the seconds pass, it's as though thereâs elevator music playing in your head while you wait for something to happen.
Eddie crouches at your feet. âSo, whatâs your justification for getting shit-faced on a weeknight?â The tip of his tongue peeks out from between his lips as he begins wiping away the dried blood on your knees with a damp cloth.
âBoys are dumb, thatâs why.â
âI know, arenât they just the worst?â Eddie concurs with a hum. He stands to rinse the cloth, washes his hands, and then fully gets to his knees on the tile floor to apply ointment.
âYeah, they are,â Your voice trails off as you look at his fingers resting firmly on your thigh, just above your knee, to prevent any inadvertent movement.
Engrossed in your own little world, you start humming an improvised tune. âLike them so much,â you sing-song to yourself.
Eddie glances up at you briefly. âWhatâs that?â
âYour hands,â you explain and poke each of his knuckles with your index finger. âYouâve got such nice fingies.â
âFingies?â Eddie smiles as he secures bandages over both of your knees. He withdraws his touch from your thigh and he takes hold of your hand, turning it palm-side up.
âMhm, the nicest.â
âYours are nice too,â he comments as he cleans the scrape on the heel of your hand. As Eddie admires the intricate lines and wrinkles across your palm, he inadvertently brushes the cloth directly against your wound.
You make a high-pitched fuss in reaction to the sudden contact, reflexively pulling your hand away.
âShit, sorry,â Eddie apologizes earnestly. He applies the ointment before applying a bandage. Rising to his feet, he theatrically brushes off his hands. âThere, good as new.â
You reach out to him in a toddler-like manner and make grabby hands at him.
Eddie laughs and leans against the door frame. âIâm not carrying you. Brush your teeth so we can get you into bed.â
âYouâre no fun,â you groan while you stand awkwardly, the bandages restricting full movement. You wet your toothbrush and squeeze toothpaste onto it, making sure to shoot a scowl at Eddie as you do.
After lackadaisically brushing your teeth, you plop the brush back into its cup. âThere, squeaky clean. Happy?â
âAs a clam,â Eddie says with a grin. He steps back to allow you out of the bathroom. âGo put your PJs on.â
With a dismissive wave, you drag your feet to your room and begin to dig through your dresser drawer.
Just as heâs about to start picking up after himself, heâs interrupted.
âEddie,â You call out defeatedly.Â
âYeah?â When he doesnât receive an immediate response, he cautiously steps into the doorway of your room. There you stand, still wearing your dress.
âI canât reach it,â You say, turning your back to him and bowing your head slightly, signaling that you need his assistance.
Eddie swallows hard and mutters under his breath, âRight, the zipper,â Stepping into the room, his hands start to tremble.
Now positioned behind you, he carefully takes hold of the small piece of metal. Despite the trembling, Eddie tries his best not to make contact with your skin as itâs revealed by the descending zipper.
Dizziness consumes him as his eyes flit between your shoulder blades. Once your dress is completely unzipped, Eddie takes a significant step backward, putting distance between the two of you. âIs that all you need?â
You return to sifting through your pajama options. âI think so.âÂ
Eddie retreats to the bathroom. The image of your bare back is seared into his memory, heâs just gonna have to live with it etched into his mind forever.
After regaining his composure, he locates some aspirin and fills a drinking glass with water. âAre you decent?â Eddie asks hesitantly, not daring to step closer to the threshold without receiving confirmation.
âUh huh,â You mumble, flopping onto your bed and committing to the first position you land in.
Holding the cup of water and two tablets of pain relief, Eddie re-enters your bedroom. He finds you sprawled and droopy-eyed lying on your back.
Eddieâs chunky metal rings clink against the glass when he sets it down on your nightstand. âI think youâll appreciate this little visit from the aspirin fairy come morning. Youâre gonna feel like shit.â
âOkay,â you murmur, your attention glued to how his strong nose casts a shadow on his cheek in the glow of your bedside lamp. Flipping onto your side facing the door, you yawn and stretch your toes.
Eddie gathers the jumbled blanket from the other side of the bed and drapes it over you, covering you up to your shoulders with care.
Although he wants to, he refrains from tucking you in, concerned that you might trip or get more hurt if you need to get up. âWell, goodnight.â
Just as Eddie turns to leave, your weak grasp seizes his hand before heâs out of reach. It stops him in his tracks, and his gaze follows the path from your joined hands, tracing up your arm until his eyes meet yours.
Fighting to keep your eyes open, youâre teetering on the edge of consciousness. âI donât want you to go.â
He returns without needing any further invitation and sits on the edge of the bed by your belly. Releasing his hand, you rub your eye before tucking your fist beside your head.
Looking down at you affectionately, a grin graces Eddieâs face. He watches as your eyelids flutter closed, and your breathing becomes slow and steady. âSuch a sleepy girl.â
With your eyes cemented closed, you adjust your head on the pillow before drifting off to sleep. Eddie stays put for a minute or two, simply admiring you. Heâs never seen something so precious.
His heartbeat rattles his ribs, just as it did the first time he saw you waitressing at Double Barrel. That static-like tingling plagues his extremities as an old thought resurfaces. In those conversations where you shared your life stories, Eddie couldnât help but wonder how it would feel to be kissed by you.
Eddieâs eyes brim with tears at the fact that his presence is solely due to your inebriation, and this closeness itâs about to expire. âGod,â he exhales, rolling his eyes skyward to hold back his tears.
âSleep tight, sweetheart,â Eddie whispers, pulling the blanket a touch higher over your shoulder. Then, he switches off the lamp and leaves you to rest.
Dwelling on the fact that you wonât remember tonight wonât do him any good. Getting this close to you would have never happened in sober circumstances. At least he got to take care of you in the way he always wanted, even if only for a short time.
Over the past few days, Eddie has been thinking about how he felt when you relied on him to get you home. Heâs curious whether the call you made to him signifies that you still want him in your life. If that happens to be the case, then he can work with that.
Going through with this might worsen the sting of rejection, but Eddie has his heart set on mending things.
Within moments of entering the bar and scouring the room for you, he spots you conversing with Lee about a tableâs order. Eddie begins to pat his thighs in an erratic rhythm as he feels his insides lurch.
As soon as Lee notices Eddie, he wraps up the conversation and gets back to work. You observe Eddie, noticing the hopefulness on his face as he strides across the room. âDo you need something?â
âNot necessarily. I was wondering if I could uh, make you dinner or something?â Eddie kicks one foot with the other and totters back and forth in place.Â
Your expression changes to one of disbelieving annoyance. âI can slap together a PB&J at home, but thanks.â
âNo, no. Iâm serious, Iâll make whatever you want,â Eddie insists.
âWhat for?â
Eddie briefly looks away, scratching at the nape of his neck. âI miss hanging out with you.â
âI donât know,â You ponder with uncertainty, your gaze monitoring the occupied tables in case youâre needed.
âLet me cook for you. I promise Iâll make it worth your while.â
His pleading eyes wear you down. âFine, when?â
A bright smile spreads across Eddieâs face, stretching from ear to ear. He bounces on his tiptoes with enthusiasm. âIâll call you tomorrow and we can set a time then.â
âSure, yeah,â you respond, your attention diverted to a booth on the far side of the room where the seated customers wave you over. âLook, I gotta go.â
Youâre already back in work mode and walking away before Eddie can say anything else. He just stands there, incapable of shrinking his smile to a mere grin.
Bowing his head, Eddie pumps his fists at his sides in a moment of triumph. With the opportunity for redemption sitting in his lap, he has his heart set on making things right.
In the days leading up to the agreed-upon dinner, Eddie makes several trips to the library, hunting for a recipe for the meal you mentioned. He dips into his emergency savings to purchase extra ingredients, dedicating his time and money to practice making it.
The first go around, he forgot to add two crucial ingredients, resulting in a bland and tasteless dish. Eddie couldnât let it go to waste, so he settled for the less-than-impressive dinner that night.
On the second attempt, he tried to compensate for the previous mistake by adding more than enough seasoning. He didnât exactly do it on purpose; it poured out of the canister much faster than Eddie expected. Regrettably, that meal went straight into the trash. Eddie couldnât stomach a forkful of it.
Eddie absolutely, positively cannot fuck this one up. He canât afford to, both figuratively and literally. Without a doubt, if he serves you a shit dinner, youâll push him out of your life for good.
When you knock on the front door, the perceived silence on the other side of the door is broken with a clatter and muffled cursing. The quiet resumes and hangs in the air for a couple of seconds before the door swings open.
There stands Eddie, hair a little tousled. âHello, hello!â
His stomach does somersaults at the sight before him; your clothes accentuate your figure, and your skirt suits you. Once again, you look stunning and appropriately dressed for a date.
Meanwhile, Eddie doesnât have many options to choose from. The most formal thing he owns is a button-up shirt and itâs too dressy, but itâs all he has. Paired with it are his holeless black jeans. Before today, he never thought it was possible to be both over and underdressed at the same time.
âCome on in,â Eddie says, stepping aside with reluctance, allowing you to enter his apartment.
As soon as he opened the door to you, his mind turned into a whirlwind of second-guessing himself. The shirt is definitely too formal, but Eddie wants to prove that he knows itâs a date this time, and he means for it to be one. If only he owned an iron so that the material wasnât as wrinkly as it is.
He wants to prove that he can clean up nicely, evident from the scent of aftershave and cologne. Eddie meticulously clipped his fingernails and tidied his eyebrows, ensuring that he is as presentable as possible.
âThis is my castle,â He gestures to the space.
The entirety of the afternoon was spent tidying up and Eddie couldnât bear to leave a single surface undusted. Any potentially embarrassing materials were tucked away and he washed all of his dirty dishes.
As you enter and survey his studio apartment, he takes the opportunity to rake through his bangs with his fingers. You spot his sketchbook sprawled open on the guitar amp and pick it up.
âOh, those are nothing, you donât have to-â Eddie moves forward and reaches out, intending to retrieve the drawing pad, but pauses when you point to the sketch he recently finished.
âThis one,â you trace the lines of the drawing with your finger before looking over at him. âIâd get this one.â
âYouâd let me give you ink?â Thereâs a hint of insecurity and surprise in his voice as he subtly retrieves the sketchbook from your grasp.
âMaybe. It depends if youâre still shit at it,â you shrug casually, interlocking your hands behind your back as you assess the living room area. Your attention falls on the antique bookshelf, adorned with miscellaneous items and framed photos. âHas Cliff let you take clients yet?â
âNo, youâd be my first real canvas,â Eddie admits.
As you continue looking around, his gaze is one beat ahead of yours. His eyes land on it just before yours do, and his stomach drops upon spotting the one thing he forgot to hide.
âOh my god!â You squeal, rushing over to the couch and scooping up Mr. Pickles. âWhoâs this cutie?â
Pale as a ghost, Eddie stares blankly back at you. How the fuck did he forget to hide the one thing on this planet that rids him of all masculinity.
âIâll introduce you another time,â Eddie silently urges you to put Mr. Pickles back in his spot, desperately hoping youâll never bring it up again.
In actuality, he should be thanking himself for the oversight, because you look far more high-spirited than when you stood outside his door.
âIâm looking forward to it,â You brush over the matted fur on the bunnyâs head before carefully placing him back on the sofa.
The tension dissipates on his body as he picks up on the change in your energy. Itâs reminiscent of how happy you were to see him when you were drunk. But this time is different; itâs genuine, rather than influenced by alcohol.
Youâre lured into the kitchen by the incredible aroma, and the steaming food matches the enticing smell. âThereâs no way in hell you made that.â
âYou bet your ass I did,â Eddie retorts with his hands on his hips while he makes his way from the front door to the kitchen.
You step closer to him. âNo oneâs ever done anything like this for me before,â you purr, inching closer until your toes nearly make contact with his socked ones. With featherlight pressure, you place a tender kiss on his cheek. âThank you.â
Eddieâs internal circuits fry as he tries to process the fact that he just got kissed on the cheek for the first time. His lungs refuse their vital function, denying him oxygen. He retreats by half a step, attempting to mask the blazing rosiness of his face.
âFor godâs sake, Iâm so sick of whatever this stupid game is.â
âWhat game? Iâm not-â Eddie panics.
âYou get me to throw myself at you by doing thoughtful shit like this, but when I finally make a move, you act revolted.â
âI swear to Christ Iâm not playing with you. I mean, Iâm not trying to,â Eddie explains, his words jumbling together. âI know I've been making a total ass of myself, and tonight was supposed to fix that. But I just- I keep screwing up because I like you and you make me so nervous.â
You scoff, halfway turned toward the door. âThatâs hard to believe. You flinch if I so much as bump into you. You donât want to touch me, I get it.â
A pang of guilt hits him like a baseball bat to the stomach. âNo no no, I do! I wanna touch you,â Eddie admits. âLook, you mean so goddamn much to me. You deserve someone who can make you feel good, and I canât do that.â
Still guarded, you sound agitated but you turn to face him nonetheless. âWhat are you talking about?â
His voice lowers, a whisper of shame. âI donât know the first thing about pleasing a woman. Nobody wants to fuck the dorky virgin, yâknow?â Eddieâs vision blurs from the tears veiling his vision.
You frown at the vulnerable quiver in his voice. âI do, Iâve been wanting to.â
âDonât bullshit me,â he lets out a humorless laugh. âI wouldnât be able to make you cum.â
âI have to disagree with you on that. Youâre a fast learner,â You extend your hand to him at waist height.
Eddie stares at your outstretched hand, struggling to process the gesture. He holds his breath, torn between his anxiety and trust. Cautiously, he places his hand in yours.
The benevolent hold pulses a flash flood through his being, the frigid water jolting his systems alive. When you intertwine your fingers with his, the clamminess is evident against the softness of your palm. Insecurity floods him, worried that youâll be repulsed by it.
Cracks of lightning electrify Eddieâs heart, rendering him unable to meet your gaze. Instead, he focuses intensely on your joined hands. âI have no idea what I'm doing though.â
âThatâs okay,â you assure him with a confident smile. Giving his hand a slight squeeze, you add, âSee, not so scary anymore, right?â
Eddie shakes his head, even though fear is still coursing through his veins. You pick up on his hesitation and knowing that he wonât do it himself, you guide his hand to your hip and leave it there.
He sort of caresses, not out of boldness, but seeking to alleviate the numbness in his fingers. The sensation has already spread to other parts of his body.
Your patient expression, graced with a grin, grows into a bright smile when you meet his eyes. Eddieâs confidence blossoms, and he uses his other hand to cradle your cheek.
Acquainting himself with the contours of your face, his thumb strokes lightly from beneath your eyes and along your cheekbone. He starts to smile too as his nerves give way to the feeling of reassurance.
As you tilt your head into his touch, your eyelids flutter closed, and you grasp at the loose sides of his shirt, pulling him closer. He steps forward willingly, but his voice retains an uncertain tone. âI really wanna kiss you, but Iâve never, uhâŠâ
You lean in, and the tip of your nose gently brushes against his. The thundering of his heart in his ears drowns out everything but your voice.
âClose your eyes and follow my lead, okay?â The warmth of your breath encircles his lips, turning his knees to jelly.Â
Eddie canât even whisper a confirmation. At your request, he closes his eyes, leaving him solely reliant on his other senses. The smoothness of your lips against his registers as a gentle peck with just enough pressure for him to feel it. It lingers, and he finds himself incapable of moving his lips in response.
âWant another?â
With his eyes still closed, he murmurs, âYes, please.â
Devilishly, you press a kiss to his wrist, the hand that is still gently cradling your face.
Eddieâs eyes open, a pout and a scowl simultaneously forming his reaction. âNu-uh, right here,â he insists, leaning in eagerly. Heâs caught up in the desire to feel it again but heâs still hesitant to initiate the kiss himself.
You happily close the gap and this time, Eddie slightly purses his lips against yours, doing his best to follow your lead. After giving it a few tries, he feels you withdraw but his head instinctively follows, chasing your lips.
His eyes swirl with affection as he grapples for something to say, feeling breathless and dumb. âFuck, I donât wanna stop doing that.â
âThen donât.â
Finally, Eddieâs able to pursue, but only a fraction of a second before you. With determination, his pecks carry more verve. Itâs easier than he thought it would be; granted, he can rely on his ability to keep a steady rhythm, a perk of being a musician.
Eddie didnât think this could get any betterâthat is until your lips slot perfectly between his, wet and warm. He pauses, malfunctioning once more. As you kiss him deeply, his mind is dusted in a golden haze and it feels as though heâs floating within himself. Enveloped by the sensation of your hands on his collarbones, a soft noise escapes him.
Mortified, Eddie freezes. Instead of deterring you, it only spurs you on. You wrap your arms around his neck and mold your body against his. The intensity of the kiss only escalates, heâs chasing your storm, matching your every move.
Your fingers entwine in the curls at the nape of his neck, coaxing more noises from him. Eddie is so far gone that heâs unaware of the growing bulge in his jeans. His hand leaves your cheek, traces down your shoulder, and along the outside of your arm before clinging to your waist with both hands.
You hover over his lips, a stream of electricity fizzling between you. âIs it okay if I take my shirt off?â
Eddie forgets to respond but then nods fervently. With curious eyes, he watches intently as you lift your shirt, unveiling skin heâs never seen before.
He inhales and exhales shakily as your necklace falls back into its place against your chest. Itâs not a swinging pocket watch, but Eddie is entranced nonetheless.
âYou said you wanna touch me,â you draw his trembling hands up your sides. âNowâs your chance.â
Eddieâs hands ascend and meet the silky band of your bra, and you guide his palms forward to the plush foam padding. Your reassuring hold is encouraging, but Eddie tears his stare from your breasts to check-in. He finds you already looking at him, exuding a sweet demeanor. âGive it a try.â
Eddieâs Adamâs apple bobs in the thick column of his throat, his hands unmoving beneath yours.
âLike this,â You squeeze your hands twice before removing your guidance and allowing him to proceed at his own pace.
Adrenaline motivates him to cup them independently this time, and his cock twitches as he commits to the action.
âYouâre doing great by the way,â You offer a smile.
Growing more confident, Eddie applies more pressure. His thumbs move in tandem, brushing over the area where your nipples are concealed. The innocent delight in his eyes burns dark into frustration after a few squeezes. Eddie huffs in annoyance at the fact that heâs only getting handfuls of padding.
âEasy, tiger. Want this off too?â
Heartened by the lack of ridicule, he feels safe. Regardless, Eddie fails to articulate more than a few words, his heart lodged in his throat. âIf thatâs okay with you.âÂ
âCome sit,â You suggest, taking his hand in yours to lead him to sit on the edge of the bed.
As he sits, Eddie thanks himself for having washed his sheets for tonight, despite never imagining that this would happen.
When you release his hand, both of them return to the plush of your waist, making himself at home there. The straps of your unhooked bra drape loosely on your arms, and his pupils dilate as the foam cups gradually gain distance from your body.Â
âHoly shit,â Eddie says under his breath, his bottom lip shining after a swift swipe of his tongue.
Your hips receive an involuntary squeeze as his patience begins to waver. He then slides his hands back up to your ribs, using his thumb followed by the heel of his palms to graze the bottom of your breasts.
With a sigh of relief, Eddie no longer has to daydream about what they might look like. His beautiful brown eyes roam over your body like youâre a masterpiece, a sculpture carved from stone solely for him to admire endlessly. Savoring the moment, he takes his time to appreciate every second. Eddie doesnât take your trust for granted.
After a minute or two, you scoot backward onto the mattress toward the pillows. âLetâs get more comfortable.â
He watches you recline half-naked on his bed, and his belly swirls at the sight. Eddie follows suit, crawling to you. Now positioned between your legs, Eddie hesitates as he looks down at you, your hips not making any contact.
His touch resumes at your waist, but this time heâs stroking the expanse of your tummy; it inadvertently brings comfort to both you and him. Until this moment, heâs never had the chance to see the tiny details on your face up closeâthe distinct aspects that compose your sheer beauty.
Eddieâs hazelnut curls hang over his ears as his gaze trails over your neck and chest. His intense adoration makes you want to hide, but the unease is melted away when he captures your lips with his own. Eddie feels like itâs already been too long since he last kissed you, the deprivation like that of extreme thirst.
Goosebumps prickle his fully dressed form, a surge of belonging filling the cracks in the surface of his heart. Timid pecking is a thing of the past, each kiss more fervid than the one before it. The wet click of your lips drowns out the inhibitions buzzing in his ears.
Eddieâs large hand paws at your breast, his thumb playing with your pebbled nipple, drawing a whine from the back of your throat. You tug him closer by his jeans, bringing his hips down against yours. Regardless of the denim barrier, this causes a change in him. When you lift your hips against Eddie, he grinds back just as needily.
As your lips part, he begins a trail of affection along your cheek, jaw, and down your neck. When Eddie reaches your collarbones, his mouth moves hurriedly. Heâs itching to fulfill the longing thatâs been something heâs imagined plenty of times before. Kissing every inch in his descent, Eddie hunches over and takes your nipple into his mouth.
The melodious sound that pours from you makes him painfully harder. His cock strains against the metal zipper of his jeans, fighting to defy the taut material. You arch into his mouth, and Eddie continues to grind against the apex of your thighs.
He licks his way across to give much-needed attention to your opposite breast, all the while maintaining stimulation on the other with his thumb. Eddie suckles and flicks his tongue, his breath hitting your bare skin like a sweltering midsummer heat wave.
The reciprocity of sincerity is blowing his mind; the way it feels to have your hands weaving through his hair. Thereâs a slight tug when your fingers catch on a knot, and the sting only fans the flames burning in his lower belly.
Eddie releases your nipple, leaving it bereft of the heat of his mouth. Following his previously explored path up your chest and neck, he bashfully looks into your eyes. âCould I, uh, kiss you down there, too?â
âNormally Iâd have to ask for head. Are you sure?â
The melted milk chocolate of his irises practically drips off of his lashes as he blinks at you. âIâve never been more certain of anything in my life, sweetheart. Iâve wanted to taste you for so long.â
âIâm not entirely convinced,â You coax him playfully.
âIâll just have to prove how starving I am then, wonât I?â Eddie quips, moving out of the way to remove your skirt. As he does, the waistband slips from your hips and he slides it off your legs.
Youâre in nothing but your panties and the white cotton is not particularly sexy, but they sure are familiar. That day at the laundromat, Eddie never imagined heâd see you in this exact pair at some point. He wonders if you did.
His fingertips tap their way up your thighs until they reach the band of your underwear. You look so cute with your hands resting across your belly like an awaiting princessâhis princess.
Much like the skirt before it, the garment is tugged down the curvature of your legs. Your knees knock together as your legs reflexively close. Meanwhile, Eddie is mesmerized by the damp patch on panties hanging from his fist.
âYou wanna keep 'em?â
Eddie nods with feigned innocence. These would go to good use, he thinks.Â
âTheyâre all yours,â You grant his wish.
âI feel so spoiled,â he says while tucking them into his back pocket for safekeeping. Then, Eddie redirects his attention to the living art laid out before him. âEspecially for getting to see you like this,â he drags his fingertips along the outside of your calves until they reach your knees.
Your legs fall open, proudly putting your glistening cunt on display for him.Â
âFuck,â Eddie says, moon-eyed. He repositions himself between your legs, lying on his stomach. Drool pools on his tongue, his mouth just inches away from your body. With one arm wrapped under your thigh, Eddie uses a finger on his free hand to collect the wetness thatâs all for him.
âDonât be a tease,â You fuss.
âYou donât have to tell me twice,â Eddie responds, ready to put his new skill to use. It starts with a testing press of his lips against your clit. He works his way lower, mouthing at you messily, making out with your cunt. Eddie licks his lips and rests his cheek against your inner thigh. âCan I use my fingers too?â
âYeah, just take it slow,â You gather his hair and keep it out of his face so it doesnât get in the way.
Eddie glides two digits through your folds, admiring the way the pads of his fingers glisten with the mix of your slick and his spit. Slowly, he eases his two fingers into your entrance. They sink deeper without facing resistance, and you soak him down to his bottom knuckles. Eddie looks up at you from between your legs, amazed. âYouâre so wet.â
You sigh, propping yourself up on your elbows to meet his gaze. âYou own a mirror, donât you? How could I not be.â
Flattered, Eddie smiles. He draws his fingers back before plunging them into you a little faster this time, though not by much. As you lay back and get comfortable, you instinctively roll your hips downward with each thrust of his fingers.
With his cheek still resting on the inside of your thigh, heâs unable to bring himself to speed up, downright mesmerized by the sensation of your velvety walls squeezing around his fingers. When he accidentally flexes and curls them upward, it elicits a pretty gasp from you.
Eddieâs gaze flits up, a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âWhat was that?â he teases and does it again, deliberately. âDid you say something?â
You moan, âThat feels amazing,â You run your hand up your belly to your breast, massaging yourself in tandem with his improved technique.
He finds a steady tempo, rubbing the spot that makes your nerves flare. With nothing else on his mind, Eddie is fully engrossed as he drives his digits into you. Your fingers suddenly appear before him to rub your clit for added stimulation.
âOh my god,â You moan unabashedly, arching your back off of the bed in response to the heightened ecstasy.
âYou like that?â Eddie looks up at you, feeling a rush of pride as you writhe.
âYes- fuck, Iâm almost there.â
Eddie boldly nudges your hand away with his nose, swiftly replacing your fingers with his tongue, flicking it passionately.
Your moans fill his ears as he laps at you, enjoying the way you taste when you unravel. Heâs so in the zone that he fails to realize youâve already reached your peak and become overstimulated.
You squirm in his grip, gently pushing his forehead away. âEddie, Eddie!â
âYeah?â His fingers stop abruptly, and he looks at you with doe-like eyes, your glossy sugar smeared all over his lips and chin.
âItâs too much,â You say exhaustedly.
âShit, my bad,â Eddie frowns, disappointed that his fun has come to an end. He slowly withdraws his digits, admiring the way youâve coated them. He drags his fingers down his tongue like your arousal is cake batter from a bowl. A low hum emanates from Eddie as he sucks them clean, inadvertently making a show of it. âGod, your pussy tastes good. Even better than I dreamed it would.â
âCome here,â You beckon him, smiling blissfully.
Eddie wastes no time getting onto his hands and knees and crawls up between your legs. Hovering over you, he gazes into your eyes, cheeks dimpled. âI made you cum.â
âI canât remember the last time I came that hard either,â you chuckle, noticing the sheen on his face. You grab your discarded shirt to wipe it off. âHere, let me-â
âNo!â Eddie angles out of your reach, his brow furrowed. Using his still-sticky fingers, he wipes at his lips and chin, licking his digits clean once more. âCanât let it go to waste.â
After you tuck his frizzy curls behind his ears, Eddieâs tender grin fades. Your hands slowly move down his pecs to his belt, and you tug at the metal buckle. Just as you free the leather from the prong, he stops you.
âUh- wait.â The hesitance in his voice brings your pursuit to a halt. The way you shrink back causes his heart to squeeze.
âIâm sorry. We donât have to go all the way if youâre not ready.â
âItâs not that. Believe me,â Eddie reassures you. He brings a hand to the side of your face and strokes your cheekbone with his thumb. âIâm just worried that youâll never wanna see me again âcause I'm so terrible in bed.â
Your shoulders raise and lower with the deep breath that you take. âYou said you want to make me feel good, right?â
âMore than anything,â Eddie declares in a heartbeat.
âYour cock would.â
Eddie nearly shudders and his voice burns raspy. âYeah? You want it?â
You hook your fingers through his belt loops and tug, staring back at him intensely. âNot want. I need you inside me.â
âChrist,â he gulps and presses his hips forcefully against yours, dampening the denim. Eddie lowers his mouth to your shoulder and kisses it. âI wanna know what it feels like so bad.â
You turn your head and nibble his earlobe. âLetâs take care of that, shall we?â When your hands return to his partially undone belt, Eddie doesnât intervene this time.
âI donât have protection though.â
Blindly, you unbutton and unzip his jeans. âSide pocket of my purse.â
Reluctantly, Eddie pulls away and awkwardly scoots backward off the bed. His pants hang low on his slender hips, exposing the snug elastic band of his blue plaid boxers. After finding the condom, he inspects it. âI have no fucking clue how to use this.â
Sitting up, you hold your hand out. âI can put it on you if you want.â
Eddie hands it to you, then it occurs to him that heâs still fully dressed. While youâre tearing the foil package, he yanks down his jeans and kicks them away, his belt jangling. Only a few buttons are undone from the neck before he gets impatient. Eddie tears his shirt over his head, leaving his mane disheveled.
He pulls at the waistband of his precum-soaked boxers indecisively, but the sight of your beautiful naked body reminds him that itâs only fair. Eddie pulls them down and his anxiety has caused him to go partially soft. When you look at him, he wishes the world would swallow him whole.Â
Your eyes rake across his slim frame, then meet his eyes instead of drifting below his waist. Eddie climbs back onto the bed, sitting on his haunches. You crawl onto your knees to join him and pull his body against yours, kissing him.
Mumbling against your lips, he tries to apologize for already failing you by being unable to stay hard, but his words falter as the kiss deepens, his worries becoming an afterthought. Eddie grips your waist, and the sensation of your breasts pressing against his bare chest makes him feel woozy. As soon as you break the kiss, heâs immediately filled with fear once more. âIf itâs small or it looks weird, donât tell me.â
You effectively distract him from his insecurities by trailing your lips down his pulse, dragging your teeth along the supple skin there. Eddie grips your ass harshly, a shaky sound pouring from his throat as you kiss your way down his body. He watches, his bottom lip pulled between his teeth.
As you finally look at his shy cock, you run your palms up and down the sparse hair on his outer thighs. âYouâre the perfect size for me,â You compliment him with a smile.Â
âI am?â
You suck a bruise on the pale skin of his waist. âYeah, you are.âÂ
Eddieâs eyes close, his hands resting on your shoulders as he focuses on the sensation of you licking and biting him. Lost in the feeling rather than inside of his head, Eddieâs cock gradually rouses.
Having previously set it aside, you grab the condom. âHold it still for me, please.â
âO-Okay,â he secures it at the base, his palm covering the trimmed thatch of curls. âLike this?â
âPerfect,â With one hand, you fit the band around the tip, and with your other, you roll the latex down his shaft. That alone causes Eddieâs mouth to fall open, a ghosted moan tumbling from his lips.
âThere, easy peasy,â Sitting back up and wrapping your arms around his neck, you pull him flush against you. His wrapped, twitching cock is trapped between your bodies. âTell me what youâre thinking right now.â
âIâm not sure I could if I tried,â Eddie says, his eyes flitting between yours. âIs this really happening?â
âItâs happening,â After kissing the tip of his nose, you settle back bringing him down with you to get comfortable, your head resting on the pillow.
Eddie returns to the previous position, this time with your legs hiked around his hips, causing his cock to rub against your mound. Afraid of poking around too much, he asks, âWould you do the honors, mâlady?â
âWhy, of course,â you say with a giggle. You guide the head of his cock right where it needs to be and look into Eddieâs eyes. âGo ahead.â
He swallows hard and inches his hips forward, the tip of his cock breaching your entrance. Eddie sinks until heâs halfway sheathed by the hot embrace of your cunt. As he pushes the rest of the way in, his jaw falls slack.
âYou doing okay?â You soothingly stroke the bulging veins on his forearms.
âMhm,â Eddie mumbles with his lips rolled inward. After a few seconds without moving, he draws his hips back and then drives them forward. The moan that rips from his chest is unholy.
After two or three agonizingly slow and experimental thrusts, the motion comes naturally to him after all that practice heâs gotten from humping his poor pillow in this very spot. âFuck me,â The hand that isnât supporting Eddieâs weight fists at the bed sheets as he thrusts repeatedly, falling into a slow and steady pace. âJesus fucking fuck.â
âLook at you go,â you moan out. âIt feels amazing, doesnât it?â
âFeels⊠god, you feel incredible,â Eddie grunts, propping himself up on both hands. His hair hangs down, swaying with the tempo of his hips. In this position, he can watch the bounce of your body with each thrust and heâs doing just that.
The grazing of your fingernails along his flexing hips throws off his pace. It weakens him, especially when youâre looking at him the way you are. Eddie is so consumed by the feeling of you wrapped around him that he canât be self-conscious about the fact that heâs moaning every time he sinks back into you.
The shame of virginity has been lifted away as Eddie experiences this night of firsts with the girl heâs crazy about. Eddie is struggling to keep his eyes open, not wanting to miss a single second of this. Heâs captivated by the way youâre watching his length disappear inside you over and over.
His muscles begin to tremble, and he lowers himself onto his forearms. Eddie rests his forehead against yours, his hips stuttering. âIâm so close, baby. I donât wanna cum,â He slows his movement to stave off his orgasm.
âI want you to,â You express while gliding your hands down his muscular back.
âNo,â Eddie protests, ceasing his thrusts entirely. âI want you to cum again first.â
âThis isnât about me.â
 âAre you shitting me? Itâs always been about you,â he pulls back to look into your eyes. âIâd do anything for you, youâre so damn worth it.â
Just before you have the chance to respond, Eddie unexpectedly rolls his hips. With one hand, he thumbs at your clit, watching how your eyes roll back. He doesnât even have to look down to see the mess youâre making because he can hear it.
Eddieâs moans dance with yours as he pushes his knees forward, adjusting the angle of his hips to mimic a âcome hitherâ motion. He knows heâs found the spot he discovered prior when your legs spasm around him. In response, Eddie rubs your clit harder.
The way your walls tighten makes it all that more difficult for him to hold back. Heâs on the cusp, his abs tensing as he tries to fight it. Your hand flies above you to push against the headboard, your other one occupied with gripping his flexing waist.
âCum for me,â Eddie growls, frustrated with himself as he teeters on the edge, just seconds away from spilling into the condom.
Your brows furrow and your eyes squeeze shut, a rush of air getting caught in your throat as you climax.
âYeahhh, thatâs it,â Eddieâs abdominal muscles tense to their limit. âOh- fuck,â His voice pitches higher.
âIâm yours,â You moan prettily and guide him down, letting him bury his face in your neck to give his arms a well-deserved rest.
âAll mine,â Eddie says between his labored breaths. He grips and lifts your hips while you kiss his shoulder. Losing their previous steadiness, his strokes become shorter and more sporadic. âFuck, youâre gonna make me cum. Iâm gonna cuh- uh- mmm.â
Eddie lets out a whimper as he delivers two unsteady thrusts before slamming his hips against you, burying himself as he orgasms. His ass tenses and ripples, the muscles contracting as he rides out his high.
Panting loudly, Eddie stills his movements completely and props himself up to look down at you. âJesus Christ. After that, I wanna have you for dinner every day,â he says against your cheek before kissing it. âAs a snack in the middle of the night,â Eddie adds, kissing your temple. âShit, youâd be good for breakfast too. Itâs the most important meal of the day, yâknow.â
You let out a winded giggle, your bodies sticking together as he struggles to keep himself propped up.
âSweetheart, can I ask you something?â
âYou just did,â You tease and smile wide when he rolls his eyes and snorts.
Eddie takes your hand, flattening your palm against his chest so that you can feel how vigorously his heart is beating. âIs this what being in love feels like?â He asks tearfully.
âYeah,â you nod, placing his hand over your own heart thatâs thudding just as hard. âJust like this.â
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THIS WAS SO GOOD!!! The details of creating links to help reader visualize Eddieâs apartment, the tattoo shop, AND the bar?!? Holy shite author, this is a piece of art đđđ»
Iâm asking for help finding an Eddie Munson fic! I was cooking dinner and by the time I sat down to read it, it disappeared. The title was something like âwhile the irons hotâ and it was around 17k words. I remember the author put links to reference pics of Eddieâs apartment, a bar, and a tattoo shop! I was so excited to read it bc it looked like author put soooo much time and energy into itđđđ help???
Eddie Munson x AFAB reader, friends to lovers, mentions of nudity, brief mention of masturbation (m). Basically, Eddie finds you sleeping naked in his bed.
A/N: Idk I've had this idea in my head for too long now and I need to exorcise it out of me with this little drabble or I'll never be able to get on with my life.
Forest Hills trailer park wasn't your usual stop after clocking out of work but after the day youâve had you donât have it in you to wait for the next bus back to your apartment. Your place is 30 minutes away but the journey is sure to take even longer in the current downpour.
Staying over at the trailer wasn't anything new. A spare key was entrusted to you years ago and you made use of it on days like this to crash at Eddieâs for convenience sake. The key came with the promise that you were welcome to anything you needed even if both Eddie and Wayne were away â shower, food, an extra change of clothes, what have you, and you needed them all today.
With Wayne out of town for a few days and Eddie due back in two hours you sink into auto pilot, weary down to the bone from your shift. Maybe thatâs why it doesnât feel as weird as it probably should when you started to undress in their kitchenette, hanging your work clothes over the back of a nearby chair, rummaging through the fridge in your bra and panties for a quick bite to eat before heading for the shower.
There wasnât much in it besides beer since Wayne hadnât been around to stock it. Eddie always preferred ordering take out over getting groceries â something you were going to nag him for again when you had the strength to do so.
Cereal it would have to be.
You located a box inside one of the cupboards, tipping the wheaty, sugary contents straight into your mouth without bothering with a bowl and spoon. Itâs not lost on you how similarly youâre acting to Eddie right down to the unruly state of half undress, wiping crumbs off your lips with the back of your hand. If you finished off with a belch it'd be like he never left the trailer this morning.
The messy mouthfuls of cereal prove enough to silence the toadâs croak of hunger that'd been gurgling noisily inside your belly, putting the box away.
Traipsing through, feet dragging, you threw your clothes into the washer next along with your underwear, completely nude now in the Munson trailer as you made your way to the shower â but not before reaching out for Eddie's Garfield mug that sat on a nearby shelf, turning it around so that the cartoon cat's lazy smirk no longer faced you. For your modesty.
You try to keep the shower brisk, not wanting to use up all the hot water but with the way it sprays down on your aching body, the steam and heat combo soothing your poor sore muscles, itâs so blissful that you have to keep yourself from nodding off right there.
You did make use of Eddieâs body wash, some spicy, woodsy smelling thing in a jet-black bottle but you didn't dare use the two in one shampoo that sat in their shower caddy. It might have worked fine for Eddie and his wild mane but you knew better than to apply the stuff to your own hair. Fortunately, experience had taught you to carry a travel sized bottle filled with your own shampoo whenever you stayed over, working over your locks in a lather scented with cranberries and vanilla.
Stamina depleting by the second, toweling off and brushing your teeth takes the last sliver of energy out of you. Eyelids slipping, movements sluggish, limbs feeling too heavy for your own body to hold up â youâre shutting down whether you like it or not.
Dropping the damp towel on his bedroom floor, you intended to change, you really did. Youâd even picked out one of Eddieâs washed t-shirts and a pair of boxers out of the laundry and set them down at the foot of the bed to put on before you made yourself comfortable but thatâs not what happened.
Still nude, you crawl into bed, seeking warmth and soft comfort, numbed down to a kind of tunnel vision with rest being your one and only goal.
It feels all the more natural because youâre used to sleeping naked in your own bed, much too tired to remember that youâre not in your bed, draping a blanket that doesn't belong to you over your spent body, surrendering to sleep seconds after your head hits the pillow.
It'd still been raining when Eddie returns later. Dragging himself through the trailer, nearly as worn down as you had been, shaking the excess water out of his hair like a dog trying to get dry.
The smell of your shampoo still lingering in the air tells him you're there, finding you curled up in his bed, all bundled up to your neck. The sight makes him smile.
It doesn't take too long for him to join you, following a similar routine â a quick bite with the addition of a beer and then a shower, only he doesn't skip out on clothing himself in his PJ's first.
If heâd shared the blanket with you he might have found out about your lack of dress sooner but as the gentleman that he can sometimes be, he pulls out a spare blanket from the closet so as to not wake you, prolonging the discovery. Being friends for so long meant that sharing a bed was never awkward even after you'd became adults.
That was until the next morning came.
Itâs not the stream of morning light brightening from a cool blue to a warm amber peeking in between the curtains that wakes Eddie, or even the tinny smack of his neighborâs broken screen door gusting open just a few feet away from his bedroom window. Itâs the warmth of your ass pressed flush against his crotch and his nose nestled in your sweet-smelling hair that pulls him out of a dream he wont be able to recall later if he tried.
He shifts closer, eyes cracking open, remembering the tiny bottle of shampoo sitting on the bathroom counter. Remembering the new toothbrush placed in the cup next to his own. Remembering the powder blue towel that neither he nor Wayne ever used laying on his bedroom floor.
And then he remembers that heâs not alone.
Oh...
And then he wishes that he was.
Panic snaps up like a beartrap around Eddie when he realizes he's hard â his thick, throbbing erection pressed right up against your body.
Growing clammy, cold sweat beads on the back of his neck but heâs in luck because you havenât noticed yet, still sound asleep.
This close together, he knows the slightest movement could rouse you. But what was the alternative? Wait it out? Hope to hell his boner goes away? Fat fucking chance. Not when the soft swell of your ass and your body heat alone had him questioning how he could ever go back to his calloused fist after this.
Carefully, desperately, he tries to inch back without waking you but just as he feared, you begin to stir. Your back arches instinctively, seeking out his warm, solid frame even in your sleep.
Shit shit shit.
The covers slip as you shift, your bare shoulders coming into view, eyes starting to flutter open. With no other option, Eddie swiftly rolls on to his back, his hard on no longer pressed up against you but the problem persists.
âOh, morningâ, you greet him through a yawn, pulling an arm out to rub at your eyes, blanket slipping lower but the frantic boy hasnât noticed yet, too busy whipping his pillow out from under him to place over his lap.
âUh-hey. Showerâs free if you wanna go firstâ, he offers quickly, smiling hard, hoping to subtly usher you out because he's too afraid to get up and risk you getting a load of the tent in his pants if he were to go ahead of you.
âThanksâ, you yawn again, still occupied with rubbing at your sleepy eyes to notice your best friend's pale face turning beet fucking red in an instant as you clamber out of bed, blankets no longer concealing you.
Eddie doesnât know where to look first. His eyes dart everywhere, every bare inch of you on display. So much soft, naked skin itâs making him short circuit.
His gaze eagerly travels over the slope of your breasts as they jiggle gently with your movements, taking in your soft nipples, moving down over your belly and hips, noticing a few new freckles and beauty marks there along the way to the soft curls between your legs.
His erection digs into the pillow, brain dangerously close to fizzing because heâd been pressed up against you like that all night and not even known it.
A shiver works its way through you, making you question why it feels so drafty in his room all of a sudden. You turn back to ask Eddie if thereâs anything wrong with the heating, catching the shocked expression on his face.
Looking down, you're met with the sight of your nude body, breasts bare, no underwear. It's a good thing the occupants of the trailer park liked to mind their own business, even if sometimes you thought they did so to a fault because in any other neighborhood your piercing screech would have had everyone within earshot dialing up the cops.
The scream ricochets off the walls at an ear ringing volume, causing Eddie to jolt and lose his balance, falling out of bed while you leapt back in. Grabbing his spare pillow, you press one half against your chest and squeeze the rest between your thighs to shield yourself.
Now he slaps his hands over his eyes.
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More than anything, you try so hard to push it aside. To pretend that it hadn't happened but it looms over you like a cloud on the brink of bursting with rain.
After three whole days of walking around eggshells around each other it's Eddie who breaks first.
"I can't stand this I don't know what else to do, Can we just talk about it please?"
âEddieâŠ", you sigh, a gentle warning.
"So what if I saw you naked? you saw my boner!...sort of. I mean, I guess that doesn't exactly make us even but it has to count for something, right? you're not alone in this"
You immediately set your wide eyes on the only other patrons in the diner to see if theyâd overheard â two older women swapping pictures of their grandchildren over coffee and cheesecake. When neither of them take a pause in the middle of cooing about little Tommy's third Birthday or little Emily's first day of Kindergarten you redirect your attention back to Eddie.
âEddie! Keep your voice down!â, you whisper shout at him from across the booth. "There are literal grandmother's here!"
He rolls his eyes. Not mean spirited, just unconcerned by the ladies and what they may or may not have overheard.
And then, even though no oneâs paying either of you any attention, you lean closer over your half-finished key lime pie, one hand shielding the side of your face like youâre trying to avoid getting recognized by an ex whoâs just walked in.
"I'm so embarrassed...please can we just drop it?", you plead, voice hushed.
He gives you this look of mild incredulity. "You have nothing to be embarrassed about. Trust me", and the inflection in his tone almost gives him away, prompting him to double back immediately.
The last thing he wants is for you to feel more uncomfortable than you already do. So he doesn't need you to catch on that he's got every moment of your unintended strip tease memorized. Or that he likes to replay what he's since thought of as the best 10 seconds of his life over and over again when he's fucking his fist in the shower.
âI just mean that it's nothing to be embarrassed by. It could have happened to anyone. Who among us hasnât napped in just their birthday suit before, am I right?â he finishes with a slight wince, knowing none of this is exactly helpful.
And you know heâs only trying to be nice in his own, sweet, bumbling way but you still feel terrible.
"I don't know if I can shake this feeling", you cast your eyes down, looking too close to despondent for his liking.
"Listen I- I don't know how to fix this but I want to. Please just tell me what I can do and I'll do it, okay?"
God, he's sweet and it makes you feel a little flustered being on the receiving end of that gentle stare, needing to shift the mood lest you drown in all that earnestness pooling in his eyes.
It's moments like this that call for a bad joke to cut the tension, right? some momentary and well meaning deflection before you're ready to address the matter at hand again.
Letting out a half hearted laugh, you make your best attempt to inject some humor into the situation.
"I don't know. Maybe it might help if you got naked too", you nervously scraped your fork against the buttery graham cracker crust of your pie, dislodging a few golden crumbs.
It was so very clearly a joke. At least you had thought so. Eddie? not so much.
His brown eyes go wide, looking scandalized, his voice coming out a little more quite than you're used to.
"What?"
"I mean, I showed you mine after all", you tried again in a cadence that was wholly unserious but once again, he fails to catch on.
"You want me to get naked for you?"
You should correct him and you mean to but before you're able to do just that, something about the way he's staring at you makes you want to match his seriousness. The fact that he didn't say no right away strikes you as weirdly intriguing.
"You don't have to", you clarify, adding, "It's just that â well, you asked and I think it could maybe help? to really get us on even ground?â
The words that come out don't feel like you own â foreign to your ears even though they're said in your voice, with your own lips forming them and your own tongue curling around every syllable.
What the hell am I doing?
Eddie pauses. Seconds drag on like nails on a chalkboard as he taps a ringed finger thoughtfully on the edge of his empty plate smudged with faint traces of cream cheese and lime zest.
"Fine. On one condition", he leans back, arms crossing over his chest, smiling wide and megawatt bright.
since I've seen it talked about in several places recently:
if you are going to do a whump- or kink- or ANY-tober or other similar challenges please please please don't post them as one fic with 31 chapters unless it actually is one coherent fic. if they're 31 completely separate fics or ficlets then please just make a collection for them or just post them as separate fics. it doesn't matter if they're only 100 words or if you think they're too small or insignificant to post alone, they're not.
and why this?
because if you post all 31 of them in one fic the tagging is absolutely useless. if I look for things to read on ao3 I'm gonna look at the tags, and if the tags include something that's a dealbreaker for me, i won't even click on the fic. I might not even SEE the fic because I've filtered out the nope-tag! so I'm gonna lose out on reading 30 perfectly nice fics because of one fic that my nope-tag applied to.
ao3 is about archiving. it's about clear tagging and being informative. there is nothing informative about it if the tags in the fic apply to random chapters while others have nothing to do with it. it makes so much more sense to have each work as an individual fic with its own individual tags and warnings, so readers can make informed choices.
of course, you do you. I can't police what other people decide to do. but personally, I find it incredibly frustrating to weed through 31 chapters to find the ones I actually want to read. so I don't. I automatically scroll past all works posted like that. and I know some others do, too.
there is absolutely no shame in posting short things on ao3. there is no minimum word count. no one is going to look at you funny if you post a small ficlet on its own, I promise. it's just going to make some readers very happy when they can actually find the things they want to read.
so, please. at least consider the upsides of posting each work as their own fic.