My Blue Orchids

boop

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Garden tour!

[jacquelinesfernandez-deactivate]

[dopeybeauty]

the disney movie nobody asked for

[ilastaroth]

but wE ALL NEED HOLY HELL

[thebackwardshatwhale]

I haven't posted on here in a while. Just never really had time or really bothered. Now I'm sitting in my room. It's almost two am and my Xbox won't connect to the internet so I can watch my show. I stare at the ceiling, longing for the time when I could watch YouTube and be happy. Alas, this is no longer the case. I have been patient with my Xbox, and I do love the thing, but this one-sided relationship is starting to wear on my ability to function. I don't want a new Xbox, don't get me wrong, I would just like to have my old, working, Xbox that I know mine can be. Oh wait it's working again nvm peace ✌

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Going through my old Tumblr and remember how miserable I was two years ago. It's amazing how my life has changed. I'm the happiest I've ever been, I'm going to school, I have the best girlfriend in the world, and I'm doing my best to give back to my community. So fuck you I knew I could do it!

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Friend: so there's this guy I like (:

Me: I hate men but go on

[thebackwardshatwhale]

*reads straight romance*

Me: Ugh, gay

[thebackwardshatwhale]

I want to be free but to be a stray sheep is lonelier than being around all those believing that I am not me. Trying to be honest has honestly gotten my anxiety up like my senses are rotting. No I’m not smoking but I’d like to. Its sad knowing that your chains and your glue are the only things holding me away from the line you avoid but I’ll walk sometime soon. I don’t think I’m a monster, unlike you, but I know how I look from your side of the room. For now, I’ll ignore the dreams and keep reliving the trauma from when you hated my leaving. I’ll tell myself you’re right, who knows, I’m still got time to grow and a long way to go. 

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Person: So uh you a boob girl or an ass girl huh? ;)

Me: I'm a personality girl.

Person: -user has disconnected-

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Person: So, describe your family to me.

Me: Well my aunt keeps bird seed in the trunk so she can feed the pigeons outside of grocery stores.

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Whale, AZ, lesbian Message me for friendships

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Looking for more friends in this crazy world. I'm just a college kid who goes on adventures and complains about society. I love intellectual conversations so hit me up if you wanna wonder with me.

[thebackwardshatwhale]

Help me T.T

[thebackwardshatwhale]

You have the life I want so bad. Can i have it? Or will I never be so free

[shesmokesjoints]

Song: Blackbird song - Lee DeWyze

[digimoo]

[thebackwardshatwhale]

So… I’m not sure if I’m happy. I’m not sure if I could be happier. I’m not even sure if it’s her fault. I need to grow though. I have so much to learn. I need someone who can teach me and I can teach them.