Psycotic Tendencies

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[poems-and-word]

[poems-and-word]

[thebadthewickedthedead]

nov. 2017

“We burned like a wildfire, fast and chaotic. You’ve left me looking insane, like I was psychotic.

I am sexy, and incredibly smart, but no matter what, you can’t extinguish my wild-heart.

Now that you’ve left, you think you’re above me. Honey... without you, I’m still me.

I’m everything I was, because before you came. I was a whole field, one that puts your tiny garden to shame.”

- wild like the flowers that grow // R.M

[anqelsheart]

[bxrntobesomebody]

“I fucked up. You fucked up. But don’t ever say I didn’t love you. That’s all I ever did.”

— And you’re the one who left (via intoxicaatedby-you)

[thebadthewickedthedead]

I talked to you for the first time after the break up.

I thought it would be better.

I thought it’d make me feel better.

I thought I would want nothing to do with you, especially after everything you did.

But it didn’t,

I thought wrong.

I wanted you to stop pretending like everything you did was okay.

Yes,

You apologised.

But,

It was a shit apology.

Do you realise how much pain and heartache I went through?

Do you realise that someone’s feelings and emotions aren’t a toy that you can just play with?

Do you realise I can’t look at myself or other people anymore because I feel inadequate?

You have no right to come back into my life.

You had no right to give me a halfassed apology, I don’t need it.

You have no right to want to be my friend.

But,

Thank you.

I contemplated for a while,

What’d it’d be like to have you in my life again.

For months.

And now that you started talking to me,

I see how selfish and insensitive you are.

I am doing fine without you.

Yes, I captured your best friend’s eyes for a while.

But,

Nothing came out of it.

I have respect for myself over betraying the trust you have towards them.

I hope you don’t take someone’s kindness as a form of weakness babe.

Trust me, fuck me over once more and karma won’t be the only one you’ll have to answer to.

[deadrosefromsupermarket]

“Stop apologizing. You don’t have to say sorry for how you laugh, how you dress, how you make your hair, how you speak. You don’t have to be sorry for being yourself. Do it fearlessly. It’s time to accept this is you, and you gotta spend the rest of your life with you. So start loving your sarcasm, your awkwardness, your weirdness, your unique sense of humor, your everything. It will make your life so much easier to simply be yourself.”

— (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[purplebuddhaproject]

[thebadthewickedthedead]

The hardest part of moving on after heartbreak is learning everything all over again.

I’ve tried for the past months. I’ve tried real hard to try to make new habits and try to erase old ones.

Truth has it I have no clue what I’m doing.

I can’t manage to make sense of my life.

I’m a creature of habit and you leaving messed with my head and life.

I lost my lover and my best friend. Now I’m void of anything.

I feel as if my friends hate me constantly.

Thing is they’ve got their own lives and I’m utterly alone.

When all I want is someone to hold me.

Spend time with me,

Tell me I’m okay and that it’s perfectly normal to not know what I need in life.

They’re too busy with their own partners and lives.

I made shitty decisions.

I continue to blame myself solely for the way I feel.

It’s not right.

I’m strong enough to own my demons.

I’m alone.

I’m evidently aware.

I’m so alone in this world that I created for myself.

You came in and made me believe I was in constant presence but evidently I’m just as alone as I was before.

Why can’t people love me and care about me?

Why can’t I find someone who will love me for who I am no matter how chaotic it may seem?

No matter how hard I try I’m constantly fucked over.

I’m the one crying at the end of the day and I am getting tired and weak.

I want to die.

There’s no secret in that but I want to hold onto hope that someone will find me attractive, smart and sexy the way I am.

[thebadthewickedthedead]

I wish you could hold me one more time, while I’m crying and tell me that everything is going to be alright. You’re gone and it doesn’t feel right. The only time I’ll see you is in my dreams tonight.

Death is inevitable but I would’ve died for you. You’ve left me alone, and I haven’t got a clue. On what I’m supposed to do.

I thought I had my life planned out. Being without you just makes me want to shout.

It’s a good thing you’re gone, I’m left to grow as a person. I’m left to be myself, to be a better version.

Its a shame I couldn’t be myself with you. Oh but what’s a girl going to do.

[aseaofquotes]

[thebadthewickedthedead]

I couldn’t see the difference then. You’ve opened up my eyes.

[autumniskind]

[thebadthewickedthedead]

I didn’t see it happening. But when I did it was too late.

[lockzinhas]

[iglovequotes]

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[thebadthewickedthedead]

“I would take the risk again, just for you. Would you do the same for me?”

- Why did you have to give up?// R.M

[poems-of-madness]

Every time we kissed, I felt God ending the world and giving birth to it, all over again.

The Short Poems Series by Royla Asghar (via poems-of-madness)

[dailyinspirationquotes]