Nkauj Lauj

Where love comes to finally die in my arms

[thebelovedcreatures]

Love letter

My dearest

These are my love letters to you. They’re not meant to always be sweet. They’re to remind me that at the end of the day, these are my left over feelings that I carry to sleep with me. How precious it is to be able to feel this deeply for someone. So, I share them with you, my love. That in the quiet hours of the night, I’m still holding you close to my heart. Even when you’re resting, you’re still loved.

If today gave me the gift of you, I would hold your hand longer. Even if they were sweaty, I would hold onto you with just my pinky. And if you start to complain, I’ll kiss away your words.

If today gave me you, I would turn off the sun. I would take away all of the world’s light just so I can spend the darkest hours with you.. in your arms.. whispering words and laughing with your voice. I would love you in the darkness a little longer.

If today gave you my touch… I would trace your face so I can love you in blindness. Learn how your lips move when you say “i love you” so I can always feel them.

For - you’re half a world away from me… and I’ve never felt this close to anyone before.

[thebelovedcreatures]

And I think about you, here, with me. In our space, together. Home can be in Montana. In Portland. In Frankfurt…

Home is your arms and your voice. Home smells like your neck and chest. And home feels like the quiet night when I can hear you slip into sleep as your breath deepens… and we are both warm under covers.

You’re my home

[thebelovedcreatures]

As the minutes turns to hours and turns into days… I still feel your presence through each seconds. I imagine, short breaks where your mind wanders off and think about me, that I’m already there, meeting you in that space, to think about you too.

Each night that I’m cooking dinner, eating a meal, showering and finally tucked into bed - is something little that I share with you while you’re in my head. Keeping me company and never letting me be alone. I feel you inside me… and I’ve welcomed your quiet company. Your gentle presence. Even while you’re sleeping. I know you’ll be with me soon. With your words. Your voice. Your everything.

I miss you

So, I’ll be in our space. And when you’re missing me too, think of me and meet me there.

[thebelovedcreatures]

Sitting in a car and it came back to me

The truth of a comment

Or the illusion of the feeling

“Broken” like the old sidewalk I used to run on

Hopping over the cracks and almost tripping over exposed tree roots

Pushing its way through paved paths

Like pain that creates their own root system within my core

Their sudden appearance always slow me down

Catching me by surprise

Knocking the breath

From deep within my chest

But I sat in the passenger seat

As the word echoes in my mind

“Broken” as shattered pieces

It’s the fine shards that I’m missing

Fine, like those small moments I keep thinking

Of laughing in a garage and maybe that’s when the gaps started closing

But it feels cracked

Waiting for time to create the path

Broken like his window

Accidentally, but he said it needed replacement

So we boarded it up

And I helped him

As he was helping me

Fixing all of the broken

[free-my-mindd]

- Chris Mc Geown

[thebelovedcreatures]

Our tomb

Burn… burn my soul

Burn the words and burn the love

Flames lit up the night sky

My love, only leave ashes

Destroy everything to embers

And fireworks celebrate

My pain against the stars

Of our deep love

Bleed. Bleed out the emotions

Bleed the memories and maybe I can survive

The ache and the dreams

I dreamed of a life with you

To be a nightmare of blood

Seeping from my wounds

And the crowd celebrate

My life against the bleak desolated landscape

Of a tomb

Where my love resides

Hope…. Hope he hurts too

Hurt as the canyons craved into my love

And the fear that seeped into my life

When he took his love

And made it a poison to my heart

I pray, that the ache

Mirrors mine a thousand times

So he can understand

The suffering within a minute

That Felt like a lifetime

[thebelovedcreatures]

In the quiet night, all it holds are my fears

Love that merged with stars and broken hearts

No matter the distance, it seems I’m destined

To never find peace for my heart

For I’m always alone and afraid

After the sun burns off the rainbow

My world becomes quiet again, where my fears rest

He once held my hands through the dark night

Only to haunt my hours during day light

Whisper don’t be afraid but he’s the holder of all my hurt

Always with me and by my side

Protecting me with truths or lies

[thebelovedcreatures]

好聚好散

Your presence chase me throughout my day

Like the sunlight that keeps gracing my face

In my heart… your voice continues to echo

Touching every piece of my soul

Sparking sensations to come to life

I held my voice.. scared to seek your love

Alone in my company

I feel the pain of isolation

I feel the life without your presence

If we were to only meet in dreams

I’ll paint my words across every inch of your heart

Just so you can feel

A drop of my misery

[thebelovedcreatures]

A love series 4

Him

Never leaving, just looking from afar,

I'm knocking at the door of your heart.

The love is still there, shining like stars,

I only wish you could fully understand.

Time flies, years change,

Love is still in my heart and has not changed.

I silently accept your decision,

Looking forward to the day when you look back.

I'm here, waiting for your return,

No regrets, just waiting for love.

The wind in the distance brings your news,

Never left, just waiting.

Her

I straddle the post to leave and he looks from afar

The reverberation of his presence continues to pound against my heart

Indecisiveness weighs heavily in my heart, I keep looking back

Searching for his love

Passage of time continues on

And deep affections lingers in hearts

Acceptance is a nightmare that continues to haunt us

Hopeful that the wind of change will lean in our favor

He stands.. like a lover waiting for relief

A Virgil throughout the night

As the wind blows my pain

He stay and waits… and pray

[thebelovedcreatures]

A love series 3

Him

Always remember it deeply in my heart,

The journey of love is like a dream.

As time goes by, love remains,

Cherish it forever.

Once we meet and our hearts connected,

Sweet moments will never be forgotten.

Love is as deep as spring water,

Emotions last forever with the sun and the moon.

As time goes by, love remains the same,

Love never wears off in my heart.

No matter how far or near the distance is,

Cherish our love forever.

Her

I recall it deeply in my soul

The path which holds our footprints

As Father Time push us along

Residue of love remain

Leaving evidence of our hearts

The dream of meeting and brushing against your heart

Sweet pain beyond mortal wounds

Bleeds freely as spring rivers

My love keeps on holding on, as tightly as the moon looking for her sun

As time passes, it keeps holding on

Growing deeper instead of withering away

No matter how far I run

It feels like you’ve never left me

[thebelovedcreatures]

A love series 2

Him

Waiting for you to look back and stay together for a lifetime,

The love in my heart will never fade.

The wind blows, the leaves fall,

The years are quiet and we stay together.

Under the starlight, vows are intertwined,

Hand in hand, we will go forward together.

Regardless of wind and rain, regardless of hardship,

As long as you are here, I will be by your side.

Waiting for you to look back and never leave,

Guard the deepest dreams in your heart.

Stay with each other for the rest of our lives,

Waiting for you to turn back and never sail far.

Her

He waits as she dreams, in a deep sleep

Wanting to keep their love alive for an eternity

His love feels endless and vast

As my doubts continues to plague me

Years may pass… and I’ll keep searching

Just for a moment to be held in his arms

Under the moonlight… promises feels light as feather

He holds me tightly

So I won’t float away, hand in hand

He keeps us together

Regardless of the doubts that rains down on me

As long as he is here… he anchors my heart to his heartbeats

But he’s always behind me, keeping me still

When I want to see him in my future

Guarding our love

Carrying our dreams

He promised it’ll never be too heavy

As long as it’s with me

[thebelovedcreatures]

A love series 1

Him

I feel deep regret after losing my dear,

Where can I find the grace I once cherished?

Time passes, sadness hurts,

I shed tears thinking about the past.

The warm wind that once caressed me,

Now leave in emptiness.

The past is like smoke and hard to keep,

Only memories remain in my mind.

Only after losing it do you know how valuable it is.

Cherish your time to be worthy of it.

Regret and regret are beyond reach,

I only hope that my cherished love will never be lost again.

Her

I feel deep sadness after losing my love

Where can I find the strength to once again be cherished

Time pauses, sadness wallows

I shed my pain across my past

The cold nigh that once cooled my skin

Now leaves shivers of unattended desires

The future like a blank canvas with no outline

Only an imprint of what could have been

Only to reminisce what I held valuable

Seeking that love which gave me life

Regret and regret keeps eluding my grasp

I only hope that my cherished love… will remember me

[thebelovedcreatures]

Care Instructions

Let me teach you

How to care for me

I might not come with directions

Typed in fine print

On a tag sewn to my body so it’s visible

Wash me gently in affections

Mix me with colors of rainbows

In cold water to keep me from shrinking

Back into a scared little girl who didn’t know what love

Looks like in daylight

Let me air dry

On a sunny day outside

Cool breeze summertime

And if you forget

Always dry me on high heat

Allow me to dance

Upside down and all around

Never forget

Don’t allow me to be winkled

Sitting on the bottom of so many others

Take me out fresh and hot

Shake the sleeves and fold me in your arms when I’m crisp

Let stains remain

Wear me on a cold night when you need comfort

Let me be the memories of all the best times

When you look at me and you have stories

Of that time when you heard the best music

Had the best night

Stayed out too late

Staring at another pair of eyes

Let me be

The one to rest against you

When you’re feeling your worst and your best

This is how to love

A woman like me who sees you in all your shades and blending

Of destructions and forgiving

[thebelovedcreatures]

I fell in love with black letters

An artist with beautiful paint strokes

A musician with elegant hands

I fell into a burning pit

Of passion and dreams

A life built in my head

Where he stands beside me

In a home I’ve made cozy

Sharing a meal as the children sleeps

I fell into such an image

Of his face in which I can almost feel the texture

Of his beard rubbing against my face

And the roughness of his finger tips

or how soft to kiss his lips

I fell just to shatter every single piece of my heart

Every word ever said

Every doubt I crossed out

Breaking and tearing me apart

Just for us to land here, my love

Where love comes to finally die in my arms

[thebelovedcreatures]

My jailer

In this love

In which I cannot breathe and yet felt the most alive

It’s a love built on pain; settling down deep inside

Where it takes very piece of my soul

Consuming and whole

I shy away

In flight

To cower out of your sight

In this love

Basking in pain

It’s a joy that stings

A longing which ghost over all my wounds

Grasping for you, a constant shadow in my mind

And you lead with unwavering hope

As I wait for you

In this love

We have no equals

Where love feels as sharp as knives

Rebirth feels like death

While I surrender my last breath

For I’m a prisoner

In this love

[thebelovedcreatures]

When I struggle to express my feelings, he writes me love letters

In the lonely night, my heart is worried,

Chasing the darkness, my thoughts are as chaotic as clouds.

Worry follows you everywhere, the night is dark,

For a long time, there was no peace.

Worry is an invisible clue;

Lead the soul and explore the unknown fog.

Worry is a real emotion;

Nourishing love and responsibility, firm and deep.

Worry is an expression of love and a caring gaze,

It is the care for each other and the drive of missing each other.

Worry makes us appreciate the present moment more,

Support each other to move forward through the ups and downs.

However, let worry become strength,

Let love and hope light the way forward.

Because of worry, we are stronger,

Because of love, we overcome the haze of darkness together

[thebelovedcreatures]

I fell in love with a poet and he speaks the language of my heart just so I can understand his love

In my dreams I miss you,

Endless tenderness surges in my heart.

Every night is your presence,

Like the gentle light shed by the bright moon.

I miss your smile and eyes,

As bright as the morning sun.

Every moment, every second, every breath,

They are all immersed in their attachment to you.

When the wind blows through the treetops, I think of your voice,

Like beautiful music reverberating in my heart.

Every dream is the moment when we meet,

Every time I wake up I miss you deeply.

Although time flies and the distance is far,

But the love in my heart will never diminish.

Thoughts are like a trickle,

Traveling through time and space, across thousands of mountains and rivers,

Just to meet you and be with you forever.