secret hpd/npd/bpd sideblog

24yo / autistic / multiple / nonbinary / bi

[thebestoftheworst]

How does a fictive/fictional introject get over someone from their source material that they love but don’t have around in this life?

[midnightagency]

With Difficulty

.. Okay but seriously, the same way anybody gets over a loved one tbh. We actually find sometimes that looking up resources on bereavement can be helpful, since the experience (to us) is more akin to that loved one having passed away suddenly than a break up.

[thebestoftheworst]

Thanks for answering. I will look into the resources. I think if the person was actually dead it would be somewhat easier for him, at least if Reaps would've been the one to do it... It's a messy relationship. At this rate we'll probably just end up developing more alters from the source to keep functioning.

[thebestoftheworst]

How does a fictive/fictional introject get over someone from their source material that they love but don't have around in this life?

[thebestoftheworst]

That hpd feel when you know a friend (and your sibling's wife) is going to die from a terminal illness really soon and all you can think about is what to wear to the funeral...

[thebestoftheworst]

When your sibling who is also your fp and the only person you trusted practically abandons you and stops asking about you even if you mention being suicidal or whatever but still vents to you 👌👌👌 while ignoring it if you mention not being ok yourself

[undiagnosedautismfeels]

tfw exIsting near certaIn person costs soooo many spoons bc they are just so loud even when they thInk theyre beIng sIlent and you just ( ≧Д≦) ( ≧Д≦) ( ≧Д≦)

[thebestoftheworst]

So this will be my new blog to vent about shit since apparently even the people I thought understand don't want me to be honest when something's bothering me. Lying has never been comfortable for me, probably an autism thing, but it's something I will have to learn now. Just don't bring it up if something hurt you Just lie and say it's nothing Just don't bring it up, don't attempt to figure that shit out, don't attempt to explain how or why you feel what you feel It always makes it worse. Always. Every goddamn time. Should have learned that when we were still a kid. I'm tired of being told I'm irrational and that my experience is wrong I'm tired of people getting mad at me for having a shutdown. Like I can control that shit.

[quack-likeaduck]

you’re yelling? at ME? the one person who has never done anything wrong ever?????

[thebestoftheworst]

me: I'm going to talk about a thing that's been bothering me!

me, immediately after talking about the thing: this was a Mistake